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23806 No. 23806 hide watch expand quickreply [Reply] [Edit]
How often do you cry? Do you think it's good to let your emotions out, or should you try to maintain your composure?

I have heard some people say you shouldn't bottle up your emotions, so it's good to let emotions out. But I've heard other people say that the more often you express your extreme emotions, such as anger (yelling) or sadness (crying), the worse it gets. And that refraining from letting these outbursts happen actually helps with your emotional well-being.

What do you think?
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23953
I cry in my sleep now only, I also cry when watching anime. I don’t have strong emotions for real life anymore. But the way anime displays friendships, love, life it gets to me. It strange people like to live in misery and distrust, even with he closest relatives. I don’t understand
>> No. 24028 [Edit]
Very rarely these days. I used to cry a lot but it feels like I can't anymore, and I hate it.
I wish I could go back to when there was still a little hope. When I could feel sad and cry quietly but still believe I had a chance.
I hate that I'm getting used to suffering.
It's not right, nothing is right and I don't want to be OK with any of it.
This disgusting fucking world is winning, like it always does, and I can't do anything to change it.

>>23953
Last year I cried while sleeping for the first time. I was shocked, woke up with wet face and swollen eyes, and that bitter sensation in my chest that I haven't felt in years. I didn't even know it was possible.
Fictional depictions of the things you mentioned also get to me very hard. For this reason I avoided anime and stuff for years now.

I also had a long period of voluntary isolation from imageboards, until now at least a year of complete withdrawal.
I feel horrible and I can't do it anymore. I don't know if I can, or should end this seclusion.
I feel like writing walls and walls of text, to try to put into words all the thoughts and feelings that are just swarming inside of my skull... but I remember I once promised someone here that I'd go away and never pollute the place with my shit again. I'm sorry.

I don't even know where I'm going with this. I came back because I lost to a desperate desire to fish for sympathy and attention. I also realize that what I'm doing is cancerous.
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>> No. 24029 [Edit]
>>24028
> I remember I once promised someone here that I'd go away and never pollute the place with my shit again
What prompted this? The beauty of imageboards is that you can consider everyone an acquaintance but there is no obligation or burden your part. It is like that Japanese saying "ichigo ichie," the interactions are momentary and fleeting but that is what makes it cherished.

>For this reason I avoided anime and stuff for years now.
Slice of Life in particular is touching in the way it can evoke and materialize those suppressed emotions. To me at least it's some sort of cathartic relief. Is the reason you avoid the medium to attempt to avoid bringing up those feelings, and if so to what end? The feelings evoked do end up tinging subsequent days with a painful sort of emptiness, but the memory left is also sort of bittersweet.
>> No. 24030 [Edit]
>>24029
>What prompted this?
A combination of things. At that point I was already going through periods of inactivity before quitting completely.
Mostly because of anxiety and sadness caused by feeling like I don't belong anywhere, being unable to relate to anything and anyone... and maybe most importantly being unable to communicate, to clearly express my thoughts and feelings, and through this to try to find some sense of connection and understanding.
I thought I too often gave in to this temptation of writing convoluted personal blog shit (like I'm doing right now, god damn it) knowing that many would find it annoying.
That guilt is bad enough on its own but I also stress out for hours while struggling with English and trying to compose something comprehensible, often to delete all of it before posting anyway.

So, then there was a conversation about what kinds of posts and posters are harmful to the site, and while reading it I concluded that I probably was one of the bad users.
Of course my influence was practically insignificant, but I thought it was still detrimental no matter how small.
I figured the single best thing I could do for the communities I valued so much would be to just go away.
I hoped this decision would be a right thing to do, that it was for the good of the endangered world of small imageboards not dominated by normals, and that because of this I'd get some solace and a little strength to help me endure my seclusion.
So I said my goodbyes and left.

In the end I swapped one pain for another, it really feels like I excised a chunk of myself and found nothing that could take its place.

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22527 No. 22527 hide watch expand quickreply [Reply] [Edit]
Do you think you might be cursed in some form or another? If so, in what way?
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>> No. 23589 [Edit]
>>23580
i also deal with self sabotage like that. it's never intentional, it's almost as if it's willed by some subconscious desire to punish myself
>> No. 24014 [Edit]
Yep. Grew up with parents arguing and pretty sure that's what led to my depression and social anxiety (and ensuing neetdom).

Age 16 my eyesight declined so I can't immerse in escapism. I get so stressed and try to improve my fitness, age 21 I get a double knee injury which still hurts when it bends today (cartilage issues, I'm 23 now). Age 22 I get a hernia also from lifting too heavy (and genetics).

I'm 23 and started University late, but now I have bad social skills, knees, eyes, hernia... it honestly feels god has cursed me entirely. The isolation is still the worst of all.
>> No. 24015 [Edit]
>>24014
>I can't immerse in escapism.
What about audiobooks or audio drama? Just curious.
>> No. 24016 [Edit]
I think last year I got a lot of joy in some things to be honest, not major joy like adolesence but since I had a path I was following (pre-University) and completely succeeding I was kept in a bubble where I felt I had something to strive towards.

Coming to University reminded me how far behind I was socially, life-skills wise and academically (it feels like this bc by attention is dire, my University is full of straight A students fresh from school).

I think at the moment I don't allow myself to relax because I'm so desperate and see my University as a final chance at a happy life. I'd gladly accept death if I failed to achieve such ambitions. I guess it's kinda bad to say but I just hate being so lonely irl. I did actually have people to speak to for the first time in years though which was nice but I also felt like I'll be abandoned like I normally am.

But anyway to the point, audiobooks and drama I can't really enjoy since I have such dire attention spans. I do listen to music which gives me some joy but I'm feeling a real physical depression now too. I've grew so tired of life being merely coping and the knowledge it gets worse automatically by age (even if you situation is the same) that I'm genuinely thinking about suicide.

I want to find something that makes life worth living, rather than just coping. I genuinely believe if I felt stable in my life/future my joy could come back to me, which seems so unlikely it makes me want to kms but I suppose it's an actual survival instinct for once? I wasn't full blown hikki for 4 years but I haven't had any genuine social experiences for maybe 7 years?

Between 16-19 I was full on despair apathy, 20-23 I have brief moments of joy but it was all preparation for reintegrating into society, which so far is extremely hard as I realise how retarded I am

I guess my point is I'm so worried and stressed about life that I can't really relax alone. I don't know if the constant shame beats desperate apathy trying to find escapist joy though.

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24011 No. 24011 hide watch quickreply [Reply] [Edit]
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeew

Post edited on 10th Jan 2019, 5:15pm

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22193 No. 22193 hide watch expand quickreply [Reply] [Edit]
what is your disability?
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>> No. 23980 [Edit]
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>>22193
Never been formally diagnosed but probably some combination of high functioning autism and some sort of speech/language disorder.
>> No. 23982 [Edit]
>>23976
They are called a counselor. You will find them at drug clinics that specialize in both mental health and drug addiction. They usually have a number of mentors and then psychiatrists as their staff. the psychiatrists there usually deal with just drug addicts that need to be ween off drugs, but they also tackle drug addicts with mental illness. The mentors are not like a therapist and actually discuss their real lives. Mine talked about how she met her husband online and talked about her kid and stuff.
>> No. 23989 [Edit]
Sleep apnea.

I have several mental illnesses, but I believe I would have developed the ability to cope with them had I not been hit by sleep apnea.
>> No. 23992 [Edit]
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23992
impulsive, low iq, weak,

i am not sure how it became like that. but that's how it is. pic related sums up my life

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23927 No. 23927 hide watch expand quickreply [Reply] [Edit]
Enough pessimism! Share some stuff you're happy or thankful for in your life! Or just talk about something good that happened recently!
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>> No. 23973 [Edit]
I rewatched Haruhi again. 8 times total in 10 years. I suppose since I was always an awkward kid, I'm glad the series was there during my early teens to help me get through depression.
>> No. 23975 [Edit]
>>23973
an anon solved a combinatorics problem because of haruhi
https://www.theverge.com/2018/10/24/18019464/4chan-anon-anime-haruhi-math-mystery
>> No. 23990 [Edit]
Today my mum told me and my sister that she did not mind that we are unemployed, she would rather that we were unemployed and enjoying ourselves than having to work in a job we hate. I thought that was nice anyway.
>> No. 23991 [Edit]
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23991
I'm thankful for anime! I just finished Comic Girls and Kaos is a cute!

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23512 No. 23512 hide watch expand quickreply [Reply] [Edit]
You know what sucks about being a loner? Not having people to go to restaurants with. There is so much good food I would eat if only I had people to eat with. Going to a restaurant alone is weird. I could never do that.

I mean, every now and then I get food with people. But not anywhere near as much as I’d like.

Can you think of anything else you need a group for?
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>> No. 23983 [Edit]
There are a lot of people that go to restaurants alone. Also many people go to the movies alone. You just believe it's a social activity because of popular culture and what normalfags think about those activities.
>> No. 23984 [Edit]
>>23983
no, some restaurants actually refuse to serve singles because they have limited seating and one person by themselves would still take up a booth, meaning fewer customers
>> No. 23986 [Edit]
>>23984
That's fairly rare though, since many places have a bar they can sit single or excess customers at.
>> No. 23987 [Edit]
>>23986
yeah I've never come across that myself. It makes sense on paper, but I can't picture a business doing well if they're turning away paying customers. That sort of treatment is going to alienate and piss off customers who might not want to return.

Not only do they have bars, but if the place is really crowded they might just have single people share. This was my experience when I went to have breakfast at a -packed- Denny's in LA. They put me on the waiting list and when my name came up they asked me if I was okay with sharing a table. Had I said no 'maybe' they would have turned me away, but if that were to happen it would have been on me.

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23967 No. 23967 Locked hide watch quickreply [Reply] [Edit]
I have a lack of a social life in general, so I'm going to do my best to make my friends even if the process of it will be slow. Can you guys post your social media like Skype, discord, etc? I just want people to talk to and to get used to talking to others
>> No. 23968 [Edit]
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23968
Try joining our IRC. It seems kindof normal to ask for skype or discord...

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23787 No. 23787 hide watch expand quickreply [Reply] [Edit]
I told my therapist about my life situation and then he started to cry. I remained calm, but it was really awkward and embarrassing. Like, even someone who deals with people who have problems for a living was shocked at how shitty my life is.

I wonder if it was genuine or if he faked it because therapists think crying shows empathy and an emotional connection with their patient. I think it's just that he is inexperienced or something. But it's weird and I wish he didn't do it.
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>> No. 23791 [Edit]
>>23790
I think professionalism is a farce. Most people are just winging it.
>> No. 23792 [Edit]
>>23791
not only are they winging it, but if you point out that they don't know what they're doing they will become outraged and indignant.
if someone who is legitimately trained and competent starts working near them the faker will sabotage the skilled person because they don't want to be compared unfavorably.
and don't forget that people who are living a lie successfully are demonstrably good at deviousness, they will outwit you most of the time because they're practiced and you won't see the lie.
next time you get on an airplane think about how the captain got his job because daddy worked for the airline rather than by demonstrated ability to handle an aircraft safely.
>> No. 23821 [Edit]
>>23792
I mean, at least that would be a quick and fairly painless death.
Also,
>winging it
lol
>> No. 23924 [Edit]
>>23787
The pro wrestler Ric Flair tells the story that he started seeing a therapist at the height I'd his popularity over confidence issues, and the therapist ebsed up crying. Maybe after hearing about his alcohol addiction.

Ric Flair was famous for his matches against the Von Erich family.

The Von Erich family is a professional wrestling family. Its actual surname is "Adkisson", but every member who has been in the wrestling business has used the ring name "Von Erich", after the family patriarch, Jack (Fritz Von Erich) Adkisson.

When Fritz died of cancer in his Denton County home at 68, five of his six sons had preceded him. His firstborn, Jack Jr., was shocked and drowned in a puddle at the age of six in 1959, outside his Niagara Falls home. In 1984, David Von Erich died in a Tokyo hotel from enteritis. Mike, Chris, and Kerry died of suicide; Mike took an overdose of Placidyl near Lewisville Lake in 1987, Chris shot himself in the head with a 9mm handgun in 1991 and Kerry shot himself in the chest in the family yard in 1993. Kevin Von Erich is the last surviving son.

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20141 No. 20141 hide watch expand quickreply [Reply] [Edit]
Do you guys get angry or depressed when thinking about sex? I normally do, especially when continuously exposed to pornographic material of any sort or sometimes when going out. The inexistent propects of sexual life for my are quite saddening. Does anyone else feel the same?
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>> No. 23873 [Edit]
>>20141
I don't find it upsetting at all, I just find sex very strange to think about. Like I'm just not capable of comprehending that sex is a real thing that real people do with each other.
Something I've done occasionally ever since I learned what sex was is try to imagine people whom I know are married or in a relationship sleeping with their partner, and it makes no sense at all to me. I can't picture it or believe that it actually happens in real life. It's even more confusing trying to fantasize and insert myself into one of the roles.
>> No. 23877 [Edit]
Only recently, probably due to my new antidepressant combined with age

I used to love lewd pictures, now they're a mild annoyance like everything else in my life
>> No. 23878 [Edit]
I won't lie I do, I try to stay away from porn for the same reason. I just want the experience casually, no desire for relationships.
>> No. 23880 [Edit]
>>23877
That's actually good. You should feel good about it.

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23678 No. 23678 hide watch expand quickreply [Reply] [Edit]
which goat are you?
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>> No. 23720 [Edit]
>>23716
Which ones are bullshit?
>> No. 23721 [Edit]
It's funny that one of the red goats "Focuses on differences" when that is exactly what the image is highlighting.
>> No. 23822 [Edit]
>>23678
None of those seems to be labeled "hates everyone but his cat and doesn't know why everyone doesn't just blow their brains out."
>> No. 23876 [Edit]
the one who jumped off the cliff

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23605 No. 23605 hide watch expand quickreply [Reply] [Edit]
I think there was a thread for this way back when, but whatever. Quotes that you like or keep you going in life.

“Only optimists commit suicide, optimists who no longer succeed at being optimists. The others, having no reason to live, why would they have any to die?”
-Emil Cioran
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>> No. 23798 [Edit]
MAN'S CURSE

I curse everything that you have given. I curse the day on which I was born. I curse the day on which I shall die. I curse the whole of my life, its joys and its sorrows. I curse myself. I curse my eyes, my ears, my tongue. I curse my heart and my head, and I fling everything back at your cruel face, a senseless Fate! Be accursed, be forever accursed! With my curses I conquer you. What else can you do to me? Hurl me to the ground, I will laugh and shout in your face: “Be accursed!” Seal my mouth with the clamps of death, with my last thought I will shout into your stupid ears: “Be accursed, be accursed!” Take my body, tear at it like a dog, drag it into the darkness I am not in it. I have disappeared, but disappearing I shall repeat: “Be accursed, be accursed!” [...] I convey to you the curses of Man!

- Leonid Andreyev, The Life of Man
>> No. 23805 [Edit]
"Humanity would sink into eternal darkness, it would fall into a dull and primitive state, were the Jews to win this war." A prophetic quote from the great Dr. Goebbels. Indeed, everywhere you look, there are Jews behind it...
>> No. 23809 [Edit]
Work smarter, not harder
-Allan H. Mogensen
>> No. 24022 [Edit]
Solitude, the true love that never let men down.

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