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25224 No. 25224 hide watch expand quickreply [Reply] [Edit]
What are your most painful experiences with illness and general bad health? I'll get this started with some of mine. They're not too interesting.

I had a terrible fever once on top of a sore throat and very strained eyes, the kind of thing where moving them even slightly causes pain so you have to turn your head all the time. My forehead was hot, but the rest of my body felt freezing. When I stripped down to my underwear to sleep at night, I felt like I would die from the cold.

At one point I had something wrong with my stomach. I don't know what it was, but it was excruciating. Eating most types of food was out of the question and I lost some weight because of it. I was thin to begin with. At night I couldn't sleep. For eight hours straight one night I just tossed and turned in pain. I was a sharp sensation, coming and going at different spots. I used a soap suppository on myself and eventually it went away.

One year, right before a hurricane, I had a head splitting headache for hours. I almost never get them, but this one was intolerable. I had to take pain killers.

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>> No. 25270 [Edit]
I don't think that would block anything? The case I'm using has a solid metal front panel and no vents on the sides. It's one of those quiet models from corsair. Also ethernet wired so there's no wifi going to it which can also make me deathly ill rather quickly. I actually thought of making my own entirely metal box around it save for opening in the back to prevent overheating which I'm not worried about anyways since I don't stress it much and really the only games I want to play are old now. Plus I would obviously get questioned by my parent if I did and she already thinks it's not real thinking I'm nuts after I had the router moved from my room to the other room for my own safety. I really just want to a game console to play on occasionally but I can't even handle that especially not with HDMI hooked up to the screen, I need to use VGA because I don't handle it too well.
>> No. 25484 [Edit]
I was a shut-in outside of school from the age of 11 onwards. I was depressed, then extreme eye pain at the age of 16 kinda killed my emotions for a few years, I think I had erectile dysfunction by 16 too.

Fitness and goals helped a lot, but age 21 I got damaged knees, 22 a hiatal hernia and gastritis. So when I do fitness it's really just treating my injuries rather than progressing, it's very demotivating.

I'm now convinced my life will be an endless spiral of self-treatment till I die and I'll never achieve a comfortable physical body, as if I treat one I have 5 more to irritate me.
>> No. 25485 [Edit]
Acute cholecystitis back when I was a teenager. For months, there would be times where I had really strong pain in my abdomen that would last about an hour. Then one weekend I woke up with the pain and didn't go away. Couldn't keep anything apart from water down without throwing up for days. Despite that, my mom didn't think it was serious enough to warrant a doctor visit. Then I eventually started going into shock and finally got taken to the hospital, where after eight hours of tests and waiting they figured out what was going on. They kept me overnight and the next morning they operated on me to remove my gall bladder. My appendix was also removed, since that had absorbed so much of the bile that was leaking into my gut it would eventually lead to appendicitis. Spent another week in the hospital after surgery, and then a few months home from school.
>One year, right before a hurricane, I had a head splitting headache for hours. I almost never get them, but this one was intolerable. I had to take pain killers.
I have this happen to me every time a storm moves into my area. Something to do with changes in barometric pressure or other environmental conditions. I hate that shit.
>> No. 26745 [Edit]
Saw this post while looking at old threads. How are you doing right now anon? I tried getting fit some months ago only to realize my body may be a bit defective, tried hiking and intensive calisthenics, eventually got a dull but lasting ache on most of my joints. It got specially bad on one knee, it lasted almost 2 months of acute pain. It appears this condition is called tendonosis and is chronic for the most part. Which means I'll spend a good deal of time trying to get past this, just recovering into my baseline level. Very demotivating indeed. I'm uninsured to make it worse.

I have scoliosis as well, diagnosed since childhood. Waiting for the unbearable pain to kick in.

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24553 No. 24553 hide watch expand quickreply [Reply] [Edit]
Hello. I am 15 years old, and I saw no specific rules about not being able to post if you are under 18?
Hopefully I am allowed to post.
Now saying that I may frustate some of you (and for good reason), however I will say that I will not post anything outside of this thread, and I will try to be respectful, and here are some things about myself.
-I don't have any friends, in real life or online.
-Almost all of my time outside of school, and not sleeping I have been on this world wide web, (since I was 3, my mom put me on a preschool website and just let me wander)
-Anime wise, I don't actually have that many under my belt, because i'm scared of watching a bad one, but I very much love anime and Japanese content. Some animes that I have liked are, A Place Farther than the Universe, Welcome to the NHK, Non Non Biyori, and The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya
-I'm unable to speak to anyone besides my family in real life because of how shy I am
-I'm autistic
-I don't have any dreams for the future, or willpower to be able to do anything.
-I don't have/use any social media, or a phone
-I am very much interested in the old internet, being of my age I have only experienced a little of only well, 2007ish internet, and I can not remember much of my experiences around that time besides a handful. I browse archives of old websites, and look at old dead forums a lot, encyclopedia dramatica articles about internet events that have long been forgotten and I very much like these small website communities, where if you don't know where to look you will never find them. I don't very much like most of this 2019 internet, as I feel a lot of it's fun and soul have been taken away.
I like the people on here, and I would like to learn about things from you. I know generally older people are smarter than younger people. I personally would love to tell my 8 year old self a lot of things. If anyone can tell me about there experiences, or just general knowledge, about otaku culture, the old internet, or anything really I will be very grateful.
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>> No. 26726 [Edit]
It's a shinkai work, so make of that what you will, and if you squint his works sort of all have a similar theme.
>> No. 26727 [Edit]
I mean, you're not wrong. We are human, though, so something in it appeals to us.
>> No. 26734 [Edit]
i'm 26 really only remember up too 2005 but i know i was online before that just not as much. unreal 2004 and quake 3 and counter strike 1.6; games that died but really didn't, windows xp had a gui compatible software and anime was still locked by vhs and dvds. i like to think that net neutrality died when social media had a monopoly. you had forums and irc chats now it's all just 4 websites. i'd love to show you some of my favorite videos but they're ether deleted or lost out there. most websites won't even archive images right, which makes it all the more curious to the youth.
you remind me of me when i was younger, obsessed with late 90s computer culture that my dad always told me about, watching documentaries and movies about it all. back then you really had control over you computer and had to know what it did and how to work it. now windows and mac are so hostel it's hard to do anything to them anymore.
but still i don't think it's all bad, linux has alot more compatibility then it use to, now and days there's alot of good anime and games that are easier then ever to get your hands on, piracy has gotten more restrictive but vpns are pretty cheap. i'm glad that more young people are into the past and there's probably some stories we can all tell but looks like you found them all. alot of those websites have all you can find you. you can also try old 4chan archives or macrochan.
but also
>Anime wise, I don't actually have that many under my belt, because i'm scared of watching a bad one
that's bullshit you should watch all the anime you can, good or bad, it will be an experience ether way. try with an adblocker or lurk more on how to torrent. watch all that you can, there's going to be a time when you can't.
but here are some videos that keep me by
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>> No. 26744 [Edit]
>the thread is two years old

OP, what is up?

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25919 No. 25919 hide watch expand quickreply [Reply] [Edit]
Is there any comforting fantasies or thoughts you have or entertain regularly? I'm sure a life with your waifu is one of them but what about others?
I like to think about being a cute loli and having a cute and caring older sister to grow up and fall in love with. We would climb trees, shoot water guns at each other, play in a pool, read stories before bed, make desserts, cuddle at night and spend practically all of our time together. It helps me fall asleep and makes me feel better when I'm sad.
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>> No. 26709 [Edit]
I feel like I've already exhausted all possibilities in my native country. Everything bores me. Never liked anyone or anything in school, it's to much of a hassle to get a job (the whole process is just so normalfaggish it makes me sick), I tried higher education several times and even went to church for a while thinking that a more spiritually aligned culture would be more interesting than the vacuousness of mainstream society, but of course the people there were molded by that very same society so I found no relief there. All I do now is sit around at home watching/reading japanese 2d media and reading philosophy. But I want something more. It's not satisfying to be dependent on my family because they are normalfags too and I don't want to be surrounded by normalfags my whole life. I keep getting the feeling that if I exist then there must be others like me.

I lived 6 years in the UK and the rest in Australia. So I get the feeling that maybe the problem is that Anglo culture just doesn't agree with me. The only prospect I have left that remotely interests me is becoming a drifter. Maybe then I'll finally find what I'm looking for.

The application for citizenship is in French so there's no point applying until I can understand it. I'm kind of skeptical that it's harder than Hindi, seeing as it has an almost identical script as English and many shared words. It's definitely far easier than trying to comprehend the japanese moon squiggles.
>> No. 26710 [Edit]
Do you have any good reason what so ever to think you'll like France more?
>> No. 26711 [Edit]
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Did you forget anon? This is the comforting fantasy thread.
>> No. 26743 [Edit]
>I feel like I've already exhausted all possibilities in my native country. Everything bores me. Never liked anyone or anything in school, it's to much of a hassle to get a job
>I tried higher education several times
>But I want something more. It's not satisfying to be dependent on my family because they are normalfags too and I don't want to be surrounded by normalfags my whole life. I keep getting the feeling that if I exist then there must be others like me.
>The only prospect I have left that remotely interests me is becoming a drifter. Maybe then I'll finally find what I'm looking for.

I relate to this so much.
I'm in a similar situation, except my fantasies involve(or used to involve) Italy instead of France. Not too long ago, I learned of jus sanguinis and how people of Italian ancestry are considered citizens of Italy, even if born in another continent. I was born in South America, and likewise have the most absolute contempt for the local "culture". Everything here is so ugly, noisy and deprived of any redeeming quality, and I can't relate to people around me at all.
Other people also treat me like a stranger, I've heard the "Where do you come from?" many times, and I've been here for well over 2 decades already. I've been told I "look Italian" by others, but I wouldn't put too much faith in these peoples assessments.
I would fantasize about living in Northeastern(Veneto or Friuli) Italy, and making some friends, and maybe feeling some sense of belonging to the world around me. Climbing the Alps, visiting nearby cities with rich history. But I'm also afraid that this is all just a gigantic cope, that what I see as the South American way-of-life is in fact just normalfaggotry, and it will be present in equal measures anywhere I go. I could arrive at Italy and be t
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26736 No. 26736 hide watch quickreply [Reply] [Edit]
I am very depressed today. As is common for me, I started to think how my whole life has been a joke from the very start and how there's no possible way that I, would have ended up okay by society's standards and live a normal or even a "happy" life considering the environment I was born in, the people that brought me into this miserable and frankly sad excuse of an existance and other very traumatizing, horrible events that happened throughout my life while listening to sad L'arc~en~ciel songs on loop over and over again and crying as I do every single day. Then, I started playing Sell My Soul (my favourite song) by L'arc on Audiosurf when a thought popped up in my head. What if... the devil was real and I could just summon him and sell him my soul or make a pact to fix my life instantly or to be another person entirely? what if I could just stop wishing I was dead every single day by selling my soul and live a good life? To me it doesn't really matter if I go to hell, after a couple hundred thousand years you would be able to handle the pain pretty well, you probably wouldn't even feel it at that point, and nobody goes to heaven anyways... heck, i could even meet some cool people and historical figures while i burn in hell for eternity, i suppose it wouldn't really be that different from the hell that i'm in already. I would kill any ammount of people if it's 100% guaranteed that i would be happy after the deed is done. I could even settle for one of those MMO addicted asians who are practically permanent residents at cheap internet caf├ęs, i could even become friends with the staff and the other guys at the computers, form a team with them and practice everyday to get good at an esport and possibly even win a tournament...
What do you think? would you sell your soul to Satan for a chance at a better life? (if all that religious bullshit was real, of course) Sorry if this makes you sad, i just wanted to get these thoughts out of my head, i hope that at least someone can relate to this. I've been lurking for years now and today i've felt good (and bad) enough to post for real on here, hope this thread isn't too shitty, sorry if it is.
>> No. 26737 [Edit]
If that stuff is real, I'm already going to hell, so why not? I'd be losing literally nothing.

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>> No. 26738 [Edit]
You silly, we're in hell already.
>> No. 26739 [Edit]
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Heh... well, there's still the possibility of hell existing in some capacity. At least in this hell that we live in there's anime and music to distract ourselves from the pain, even if for a little while.

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26312 No. 26312 hide watch expand quickreply [Reply] [Edit] [First 100 posts] [Last 50 posts]
Last one (>>23024) hit the bump limit.
It was nice having a thread to casually express those somber thoughts.
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I had to do something today that required me recalling and recording my past.
It's so frustrating I can't do anything about it, it's easier to do something to myself than others.
Hope everyone else whos posted ITT has a decent time today.
>> No. 26728 [Edit]
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About a year since I think I last felt joy. I don't know if things are getting better, but I guess they aren't getting worse. I haven't been able to bring myself to watch anime in that time either, since I doubt I'd enjoy it in my state and I don't want to ruin the only good memories I have.
>> No. 26729 [Edit]
In my experience, narrative-focused anime suck you in and makes you feel good regardless of your prior mood.

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>> No. 26735 [Edit]
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It's the kinda tired sleep won't fix.

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26730 No. 26730 hide watch quickreply [Reply] [Edit]
So I've been thinking a lot about the problem with suicide.
The biggest issue with doing it is the actual act of doing it of course, pulling the trigger, popping that pill, ect. Humans like most animals have this deep seeded instinct for survival. We'll try to keep on living no matter how horrible and pointless it might be to do so. On top of that, it's not like we can just get someone else to do it for us right?
I believe this is why so many people talk about doing it endlessly and never commit, or maybe even attempt it in half hearted ways that they know won't actually work. They might really want to do it but just can't make themselves.
So what if you could do it passively? What if you didn't know if/when it was going to come? What if your actions only indirectly lead to suicide?

I had the idea for this after thinking a lot the other night about shooting myself with two guns at the same time from opposite sides, and what it might be like if the two bullets collided inside my brain. I got to thinking that the timing and aiming would need to be very precise. Naturally for this the guns would need to be mounted on racks of some sort. bore sights would make it pretty easy to align the gun's trajectory. One could also attach bicycle cable to the triggers and with a pully system be combined to one. you could even go one step further and attach them to an actuator, which only needs a power source and a simple switch to open/close the circuit and activate it. This all comes with the problem of flipping the actual switch of course. So I thought about it.

So my idea is a pressure sensitive switch built into the seat of a chair. Once you sit down, you'd have ten minutes before a randomizer starts. That's more than enough time to think things over and get out if you change your mind. Once the ten minutes pass, you have anywhere from one minute to nighty minutes before the system goes off. Plenty of time to take your mind off things and watch a movie or something. Of course, if at any time you change your mind, even after those ten minutes, you can still cancel the process, which would start over from 0 the next time around. I think this would help give the device an air of safety and better assist in tricking one's brain into allowing you to do it. The guns me
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Living is already too much effort. I think I'd need to find a purpose in my life before I could scrounge up the energy to build a death chair.
>> No. 26732 [Edit]
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Some similar things have been done but with the purpose of absolute effectivity, see pic related. To me it seems like you are agonizing over the idea of suicide but can't really decide so you have this weird overcomplicated thoughts. Of course there's ways of suicide by others, in the US, suicide by cop.
You also make me remember this (3D):

I understand the psychology beyond it. I'm somehow there too, in my case I don't like the idea of dying before my mother, also I spend my time thinking about how to leave things in order, the inheritance, the funeral, the contracts and shit I'll leave unattended. At least the method seems relatively clear to me, I don't tend to fantasize about complicated ways to go, just get your inert gas of choice and a proper place. Overall, tricks of the mind and it sucks, it's like a long slow disease that doesn't even bother to kill you properly.
>> No. 26733 [Edit]
This seems overcomplicated, and the more parts you have the more likely something will break or go wrong.

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23463 No. 23463 hide watch expand quickreply [Reply] [Edit] [First 100 posts] [Last 50 posts]
Is this the only anime/weeb community left that hasn't been over run by children?
Every time I find a new one to join it's the same thing, retarded teenagers who wont shut up about school or spoiled rich kids and their college crap. It's all "dur hur I'm gonna be a doctor I'm gonna be a laywer" fuck you. I feel so fucking old lately and this shit doesn't help one bit. It's just so ackward being in these servers/channels with kids that are half my age. Not that it's uncommon here either. Where the fuck are all the 30+ weebs? Do they just kill themselves when they hit 30 or do they turn into normal fags and quit the internet? What the fuck man.
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>> No. 26552 [Edit]
>Romance and Ecchi lose to hentai
Absolutely not. These are all 3 completely different forms of appeal, and most hentai anime is fucking terrible.
>Moe Anime is declining as V-tubers rise because it's cheaper to produce and more profitable
These are completely unrelated things, and as someone who seeks out moe/iyashikei series every season I can usually find one or two that fit that bill, for instance Super Cub this season.
You realize they rejected instrumentality in the end right?
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I'm surprised by how late so many people get into anime.
I was born in '97. By age 3 I had already become 'obsessed' with Dragonball Z, Pokemon, Astro Boy, Sailor Moon. When Yugioh, One Piece and Naruto came out I got into them as well. By age 10 I was rent an entire set of anime series from the video store every week. It's been part of my life for as long as I can remember. Around 12 I got into Deathnote, Fullmetal Alchemist, Clannad, et al.

I stopped watching anime almost entirely from ages 18-22 but have gotten back into it recently, only to watch things that actually look interesting. I've been using image boards since 2010 just as another reference for anyone who cares enough to read.
>> No. 26697 [Edit]
>Anyone 30+ still lurking around? Or is the meme true and we're all supposed to be extinct by now on these boards? Seems like every year there's fewer of us.
I don't see myself stopping from using these websites any time soon, so in four years the counter will tick up by one before resuming its decline.
>> No. 26718 [Edit]
I've started to get into anime when I was almost 20 years old.

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26514 No. 26514 hide watch expand quickreply [Reply] [Edit]
Anybody ever read nay philosophy?
Just so you know, Plato is the truth
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>> No. 26701 [Edit]
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>Kant-Sama broke this deadlock by proving it is impossible to acquire any objective knowledge using pure reason but we can have knowledge of things as they appear to us.
Kant has the world's stupidest opinion. What is there to gain by prefacing all your beliefs with "oh, but that's not true really"?
"Truth is relative" inherently becomes untrue whenever I choose not to believe it.
>> No. 26702 [Edit]
>prefacing all your beliefs with "oh, but that's not true really"
There is no really, you still don't get it. The preface is "according to observation". If you disagree with something, you need to back it up.

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>> No. 26703 [Edit]
>There is no really, you still don't get it.
The statement "There is no truth" cannot be true, because if it was true there would be truth.
I'm sorry.
>> No. 26708 [Edit]
He's not saying that there is no truth but that what is true has to be filtered through our consciousness and thus any expression of truth that we make is subjective. Of course, this perspective does have some traction with the vulgar relativists who believe that there is no truth but I don't think philosophical ideas should be degraded merely because the ignorant make a mockery of them.

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22766 No. 22766 hide watch expand quickreply [Reply] [Edit]
Do you feel empty? Not really happy, not really sad, but alien and different from your surroundings. Only spiced up by the occasional shame brought about by base desire like lust and hunger. Like there's just nothing there at all within you.
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>> No. 26630 [Edit]
As I see it, friendship like in SOL shows is mostly a thing for children and teens, adults don't have friends that way.
>> No. 26635 [Edit]
It's true. I had wonderful friends whom I loved a lot when I was a kid and teen, but that all faded into a generalized feeling of just being with people because you got used to each other. No emotion or value is present. And it's not like I had many friends, just a few in fact. I no longer keep contact with them. To make matters interesting, I not only lost contact with them during the fake pandemic but I now see them as wholly worthless and unimportant to my life. I don't even feel lonely. I realized that they added absolutely nothing of value to my life.

Friendship really is something that belongs in childhood.
>> No. 26680 [Edit]
Yeah I'm feeling it and it really hits me hard. The only thing that really keeps me together is giving my time and energy to my family and what remaining friends I have. Thats when I feel like there's some fulfillment. There are days where I feel like everyone is just living their life without me. I feel like being an empty witness to it. Like being a ghost or a spectator at a game. You don't feel like a player or protagonist at all. But just someone who watches. I don't feel happy or sad. But a void in my mind and body keeps me doubting myself. "Why do I do this?", "Why do I continue?". It feels very shallow and unfulfilled when I have these thoughts on repeat. Man its so hard to get rid of it.
>> No. 26692 [Edit]
Yes kind of but i don't have the choice. It gets worse when i let myself go and keep wasting my life and reminiscing about it, or thinking about what could have been, which is so damn stupid. Lately it was triggered by a specific music which made it much worse, i've been melancholic for 2 days now. Deep down i always found life beautiful (well at least in a developed society and all that, i know it's not a default state of things) but it was just not for me. The only thing i feel like i can do as i'm getting closer to my thirties is to just push through and fight the hardest i can so i don't get stuck in that emotional slump.

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24601 No. 24601 hide watch expand quickreply [Reply] [Edit] [First 100 posts] [Last 50 posts]
What happened to all the people who used to inhabit imageboards ~10 years ago? Given how poor the quality of most are now, I find it hard to believe that they are still active in those same places. Did they simply accept the inevitability of change and abandon imageboards for good? (While I find it hard to believe that they'd switch to something like Facebook, it's not unprobable that many just joined discord groups, also simultaneously resulting in the gradual decline of irc). Are they still there in small numbers but just drowned out by the influx of newcomers and low-quality posts? Did they escape to some uber-secret sanctuary?

The recent 8ch exodus led me to browse some of their various spinoff boards; I thought that at least one might recapture the same spirit of old but unfortunately none really come close. Tohno-chan is still perhaps the only place I've found where where post quality remains relatively high and discussion is thoughtful.
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>> No. 26682 [Edit]
but it was horrible
>> No. 26683 [Edit]
>I feel like there's no one from 10 years ago, because people get old and they turn normal.
That's what happened to my older brother and his friends.
>> No. 26684 [Edit]
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I feel like I've been devoured by normalcy too.
Not in the way of becoming normal, but reading what I posted two years ago makes me think of a time when I could worry about things like imageboards while now my mind is 100% occupied with the disgusting miseries of real life. I guess that's what adulthood means, and it sucks.
>> No. 26690 [Edit]

I have been on the internet for all those years. I remember everything. Wizardchan, the solourful designs of the software, the hyp for some games. None of those things matter now, sadly.

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How do you deal with anxiety when its related symptoms can exacerbate anxiety in a vicious cycle? I'm rather weary about my health, so I tend to focus on minor details to the point of inducing panic.

Recently I've been feeling a little light-headed from time to time (probably because of allergies), and because I'm asthmatic I keep a pulse oximeter (small device that attaches to your finger that measure pulse rate and blood oxygen level) with me to make sure I'm alright. As I sit waiting, I unintentionally start worrying so my heart rate goes up and I start breathing faster, and my palms get clammy. When it finally picks up on my vitals, I'll usually have a heart rate in excess of 120 bpm and SpO2 of 96% (good, and normal blood oxygen level). Regardless, I'll keep focusing on it, and start unconsciously hyperventilating causing my blood oxygen level to start dropping and my heart rate to eventually rise to 150 bpm or higher. And upon seeing my falling blood oxygen level, I'll really start panicking and hyperventilating in earnest (monkey brain says breathe more even though hyperventilation depresses nervous activity and causes a rapid decrease in blood CO2, leading to further decreased blood oxygen level, potentially leading to fainting if a normal breathing pattern cannot be resumed). Another source of panic is the accuracy of the pulse oximeter. With cold hands, or sweaty palms, the accuracy of the pulse oximeter drastically falls; when in actuality the person may have a SpO2 of 96 or greater, the reading on the pulse oximeter may read 85% and below, which indicates a dramatically low blood oxygen level, possibly imminently close to fainting. What is especially distressing about hyperventilation are the effects of as one reaches closer to fainting: from your hands and feet, a creeping tingling numbness rises through your limbs, your vision tunnels and dims, your limbs become useless as you lose coordination, your speech slurs, and intense fear grips you. Meanwhile, though your senses dull, your mind remains racing and conscious as it nears closer towards fainting.

That's not even mentioning that my anxiety is so severe that I experience random rapid muscle twitches. They're more annoying than anything, but still. Another more impactful source of anxiety is that I regularly feel some degr
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>> No. 26666 [Edit]
By observe I mean just let the thoughts be. If a thought pops into your head it's not a signal that you need to engage in thinking about that stuff. You can if you want to.

>shift my attention back to consciously breathing, is that the correct thing to do?

yo. but I would say try to relax your body. When the tension from the body goes away the breathing will become less tense and compulsory thinking slows down. Keep experimenting. I used to find most tension in my jaw, face muscles, neck, arms, shoulders, chest.

>Can also be caused by vitamin deficiencies. Vitamin D is the easiest to fix (go out in the sun) and also probably one that most imageboard-dwellers are deficient in, followed by things like magnesium (can also cause insomnia) or b12 (if you eat meat rarely).

Magnesium by all means. Stress eats it up. Vitamin D deficiency seems to cause lethargy and generally feeling like crap. I dont know about B12 specifically but I've read that taking B-complex reduces stress.
>> No. 26685 [Edit]
do you think your health anxiety is just something you have, or that it has an underlying cause? what factors in your life could be stressing you out, and making that stress manifest itself as fear that you're going to die? are you a neet, or do you have a job that puts you under strain in some way? btw ur cute and I wanna hug you
>> No. 26686 [Edit]
>I wanna hug you
Don't. They'll think you're trying to suffocate them.
>> No. 26687 [Edit]
Sorry in advance for the long post.

>do you think your health anxiety is just something you have, or that it has an underlying cause?
Perhaps part of it is a result of my childhood. I was never weary of my health, but I did get sick somewhat often and I was really bad about being able to take medicine. I regularly would "take medicine" and hide it in pillows, or underneath the seats of our couch, or do the trick of hiding medicine beneath my tongue or hold liquid medicine in my mouth only to spit it out in the bathroom. At the same time, my father was very strict about taking medicine; I can understand his frustration now, but as a child, it only made me more fearful of taking medicine, which likely made him all the more angry at my not taking medicine. But, again, that was only fear and apprehension of taking medicine, not worrying of being sick.

Regardless, I've always been a rather timid person. A memory that will always stick with me is of a time when I was still in elementary school. I can't remember what grade, maybe 1st or maybe even kindergarten. I was sitting behind the playground crying to myself, alone. I was scared and upset because I thought my parents had left me there, and wouldn't pick me back up. Fortunately, a nice person came up to me and asked me why I was crying, as did a few other people, and they consoled me that it would be alright. A happy ending, maybe, but I think it gives some insight into my formative years. Another memory of mine had to do with playing games online. Having grown up with computers and the internet, I was accustomed to playing games, but multiplayer interaction was way too much for me. I remember playing some game, and being politely told "Sorry, we're trying to do something here, could you leave?" and becoming so flustered that I had to turn the game off out of embarrassment and fear of interacting with people.

A bad influence for sure, but I only gained the courage to really talk to people online thanks to Anonymous imageboards online.

So, I think I've always been anxious to some extent or another, and perhaps developing h
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