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22216 No. 22216 hide watch expand quickreply [Reply] [Edit]
How have you changed in the last three years?

I've grown less bitter and angry. Those feelings have been swallowed up by a kind of resignation where I find it too difficult to feel passionately about anything. I'm also just a bit more self aware than I was then.
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>> No. 22754 [Edit]
i've grown complacent and fat. there's no hope for me
>> No. 22758 [Edit]
more education, more skills, more life experiences

generally better all around but not without some heartbreak and struggling
>> No. 22761 [Edit]
>>22758
aren't your parents wealthy or something?
>> No. 22776 [Edit]
hope is a normal meme there's nothing better than hiki life on planet earth, out there is full of evil FULL OF IT

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20868 No. 20868 hide watch quickreply [Reply] [Edit] [First 100 posts] [Last 50 posts]
Post cute anime girls in this thread every time you think about killing yourself
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>> No. 22767 [Edit]
>>22763
cute pic
you can tell she is uncomfortable being photographed, it is very moe
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really feeling it strongly now, if it wasn't because I fail at everything I try I would put a plan I wrote down time ago today I want to die not become a vegetable

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22436 No. 22436 hide watch expand quickreply [Reply] [Edit]
What do you do for escapism? I'll start, I binge read BL, and I don't know why.
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>> No. 22555 [Edit]
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Useless code and math. Technically, it's a grave violation of my NEET privilege to do something traditionally purported as productive, so I have to be extra careful and craft it meticulously so it serves no purpose at all.
>> No. 22594 [Edit]
Huh. What does that program do?
>> No. 22595 [Edit]
video games and clenching my teeth
>> No. 22774 [Edit]
OP if you're still here can you give some BL recomendations?

anyway i daydream

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22766 No. 22766 hide watch quickreply [Reply] [Edit]
Do you feel empty? Not really happy, not really sad, but alien and different from your surroundings. Only spiced up by the occasional shame brought about by base desire like lust and hunger. Like there's just nothing there at all within you.
>> No. 22769 [Edit]
I often feel like shit and feel that my life is not heading anyplace good but I never really feel empty.
I mean no offense but these things are 1st world problems. Like we surf the net with full stomachs while there are people who it bugs and their own shit.
>> No. 22770 [Edit]
>>22766
I only feel like this when I have to work too much or I haven't gotten laid for a while. Honestly I do yearn for the good NEET life, but then it would be extremely difficult to satiate that lust you talked about, and I really don't think the government in my country is going to cut me a break.
>> No. 22773 [Edit]
>>22769
Oh I'm fully aware it could be worse. I prefer this over my depressive spells any day. But saying it's first world problems doesn't really help since then you're always better off than someone. It doesn't mean anything; it's just a deflection tactic. And that's part of the emptiness to me. Anymore it feels like words almost don't have meanings. Like they're just ways for humans to bark primitive signals at eachother.

Everyone else seems to have some sort of identity. But I don't, I'm just there. And I find it all so ridiculous. Reminds me of a part in No Longer Human, where the main character joins up with a group of communists. He doesn't even agree with them but it makes him feel alive, makes him feel like he has purpose. All of society is like this. Music is the most obvious example. People listen to stuff that makes them feel like they're something, like they're a warrior. Like they've accomplished something. And the reality is they'd be better if they did nothing at all. Because then they'd be forced to look at how silly they are. How silly everything is.

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19645 No. 19645 hide watch expand quickreply [Reply] [Edit] [Last 50 posts]
Why are you unhappy, /tc/?
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>> No. 22293 [Edit]
I'm more angry than sad.
Every day I care less about being worthless, malicious, destructive and evil. So what? Long before I was actually bad it felt like the whole reality never wasted an opportunity to remind me how everything is my fault and responsibility. For a long time it succeeded, now I rarely give a shit. Hate normal people, hate happy people, hate all that zen gibberish about acceptance, harmony and enlightenment.
Fuck, I've been wronged so many times by people who consider themselves (and are considered by others) good and proper human beings but I'm the fucked up fiend who needs to get over everything, move on yadda yadda and and act like people didn't make me what I am now? No, fuck that, it makes me dangerously angry and I refuse any responsibility.
I even find it hard to talk to other losers now, most seems to be above me, sometimes in strange ways but still.
Wish I could take everything from everyone and watch the world wither, it doesn't deserve anything else. Shame I'm so powerless.
>> No. 22294 [Edit]
>>22293
1. Acquire power.
2. Start eugenics programs.
3. Modify social structure.
4. Swear allegiance to the Covenant's Crown.
>> No. 22299 [Edit]
Because I still haven't found that youtube video with keine and mokou running on a treadmill again
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>>22299

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22587 No. 22587 hide watch expand quickreply [Reply] [Edit]
What was the happiest moment of your life, TC?
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>> No. 22593 [Edit]
I don't really have a happiest moment, but the thing that I did that made me the happiest would have been drinking coffee before sunrise while watching the ocean on the beaches of Whidbey Island. I also really liked walking around and driving on the northern end of the island (almost never went to the southern portion). I haven't been there for almost nine years and I've yet to find a more beautiful place.
>> No. 22597 [Edit]
Maybe the second half of 2011. Played a handful of great video games, my first real experience playing together from my friends from school as well. We made stupid lewd jokes at school and in-game too and trying to do that now just isn't as fun. At that point I still enjoyed anime more even though I didn't watch that many good shows. You could say I was just into enough escapism to dull the boring reality of existence. 2012 was tougher but I still had that one damn game, it was powercreeped and imbalanced to become unplayable the next couple of years though. The game was a derpy fighter and there's no real substitute for it unlike MOBAs and generic MMOs, and most of my friends since then have left me too.

Of course I guess if there's really something like VR or AI anytime soon that would be an improvement, I dunno.
>> No. 22619 [Edit]
I don't think I've had a "happy" moment in my life. I don't really feel excitement or joy beyond "wow okay, cool" and then forgetting about it a few days later.
>> No. 22753 [Edit]
Taking a polaroid with my oshi during my one trip to Japan. Having fans of the group help me through registration even though we had numerous communication problems. Making a friend or two in that group. I have a treasure now and I cherish it and look at it whenever I feel sad.

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22622 No. 22622 hide watch expand quickreply [Reply] [Edit]
What keeps you from committing suicide?
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>> No. 22646 [Edit]
My sister shot herself a couple years ago, and it would destroy my mom if I went that way too.
>> No. 22652 [Edit]
If I die today, I'll never know about all the anime, manga, and other 2D media that I might have enjoyed had I lived. What if I kill myself the day before an anime that turns out to be my favorite is announced?
>> No. 22748 [Edit]
Food. I love cooking and eating. Can't eat if I'm dead. Also it would prove them right, everyone who mocked me and tormented me. So I'll stay alive, I won't give them that final pleasure.

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>> No. 22749 [Edit]
It's too hard, I'll do it tomorrow.

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22734 No. 22734 hide watch quickreply [Reply] [Edit]
I'm just worried how I'm going to survive the next few years. It's become obvious there is no way I can live a normal lifestyle working a 9-5, even if I wanted to I just don't have the skill. But I'm not charismatic enough to talk to a counselor and convince them to recommend me for NEETbucks. I can only hope for my parents to not mind me staying here, but their relationship is in a constant state of deterioration and it simply won't be possible at some point. So, either I become homeless, or I die. I guess I'm still scared of suicide, as appealing as it sounds to me. I'd like to be able to finish my backlog before I die, you know?
>> No. 22735 [Edit]
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>>22734
>I'm just worried how I'm going to survive the next few years. It's become obvious there is no way I can live a normal lifestyle working a 9-5, even if I wanted to I just don't have the skill.

Those type of positions only require patience and perseverance. There's no skill involved. White collar 9-5's are hard as hell to find though, especially for the younger generation.
I'd recommend looking for a warehouse job, moving crap from one place to another and loading/unloading cargo from trucks. Alternatively, if you have a lot of patience (and an i-pod with 10+ gigs of music on it), try being a trucker. The main job requirement is sitting 10-12 hours a day, and driving the speed limit. They will sponsor getting you the commercial driving licence, it won't take more than a couple of weeks to get used to driving a big rig.

>But I'm not charismatic enough to talk to a counselor and convince them to recommend me for NEETbucks.

That doesn't take charisma, it takes courage.

If you're too prideful to take a handout, you're already a better person than 85% of the people on wellfare.
The people behind the counter won't mind, they are used to ungrateful fucks who ask for money, and then turn around and ask for more as if they are entitled to it. There are also other social programs that can be helpful, such as resume/interviewing classes, or certain trades (generally state gov. partners with a local community college and taxes cover everything).

>I can only hope for my parents to not mind me staying here, but their relationship is in a constant state of deterioration and it simply won't be possible at some point.

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>> No. 22739 [Edit]
>>22735
>Spend an hour a day being a live-in-maid
Do this OP. It helps a lot. I was about to snap over the winter but spring/summer has made things far better.

It may not sound appealing at the start but coming home and doing yard work helped my sanity a ton. And if your parents are lazy they won't bother you. Because that requires getting off the couch.

Do be weary of doing too much or it becomes expected.

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22673 No. 22673 hide watch expand quickreply [Reply] [Edit]
Have you ever experienced a kind of wave of negative emotions where you realize that you are eternally, utterly alone in the universe and that nothing will ever change that?
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>> No. 22678 [Edit]
Of course. I just try to reassure myself that I can somehow deal with it and try my hardest to hold onto that feeling, otherwise I end up breaking down and crying those feelings away.
>> No. 22679 [Edit]
It doesn't bother me as much as the fact that I'm surrounded by a world full of humans, supposedly like me but I can feel no connection to whatsoever. It questions the very essence of your existence.
>> No. 22680 [Edit]
It's strange, infinity and eternity bothered me when I was a child, I would cry myself to sleep at night thinking about how neither ending my existence nor living forever appealed to me. But right now, the idea of infinity just feels like endless opportunity to me, and I don't really mind either living forever or dying tomorrow. I have my waifu, so I do not feel alone. And besides, I've been talking to myself in my head since I was a kid, I'm very much adjusted to myself being my only company. It's a funny realization to make, but if you talk to yourself, you'll never feel lonely. Maybe I'm insane, but I'm too far gone to realize it or care if I am.
>> No. 22681 [Edit]
>>22680
I don't yearn for company and I've always talked to myself a lot too, I think it helps.

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22659 No. 22659 hide watch expand quickreply [Reply] [Edit]
Has anyone else here done absolutely nothing with their life and regret it?
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>> No. 22668 [Edit]
>>22667
I know exactly what you mean. When I look at the world, I don't see anything within reach that could make me enjoy it or like it. It's just dull, empty, and restrictive.

I've managed to fool myself into thinking that if I were to get strong, I might be able to do something. I'm not sure if it's right of me to even humor the idea, but it's the only thing that I can do. I'm trying to get strong not only physically, but in every way possible to somehow change something in myself if not the world around me.

I know that it's delusional, stupid, and outright foolish to entertain such an idea, but it's all I've got left in this world.
>> No. 22669 [Edit]
>>22668
It's kind of the same way for me. And I've been aware since I was about 10 years old that the only things I actually liked or cared about were fictional. I always knew I didn't want to work the boring lives other people did, but I guess until I about 18 I somehow thought something would happen to make the world as interesting as stories. Even now it's a hard delusion to break, but I know that escapism is the only life for me.
>> No. 22671 [Edit]
>>22659
>>Has anyone else here done absolutely nothing with their life and regret it?
Why live a life constantly pursued by the expectations of others? If you find something you want to do, you should do it. Chances are, if you're thinking of things like a wasted life, I'd say you're probably internalizing what others believe makes a life "worth living". That's just my experience though. Once I started being concerned with what I want to do, rather than feeling bad because I'm not in a relationship/making a lot of money/being in a position of high status as the world pushes me into wanting, I felt a lot better. Those are mostly all illusions anyway.Simply be kind to others, and behave ethically and you're already a finer human being than most.
>> No. 22672 [Edit]
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I went to college, was a NEET for a year, did a certification as a pharmacy technician for a year, went to Tennessee to get a Master's degree for two years, came back when I was 26 after obtaining it to be with my sick mother (who died two years later), and it was all for nothing outside of becoming intellectually mature.

Do I regret it? Yes and no. I do regret it because now I'm on SSI and have only worked two jobs, both of them vastly under my skill level (although only one was shitty). I've been stuck here since 2010 and while I might move, sooner or later, I have no idea where to go. No place for me. No one to be with, or connect to. All I do is play computer games and occasionally write interesting things. I barely have done anything worthwhile since 2014 outside of no longer having roommates. I don't see it changing anytime soon, although I'm not very mad about anything anymore. At least I stopped drinking alcohol five months ago.

I do have regret, because it was all for nothing. I should have chosen a different path. But at least I tried, you know? And my life is technically better than it was since I came back home, and I'm not doing stupid stuff like going to bars alone, getting drunk every night off a six-pack of cheap beer (or more) and getting high on dumb legal highs (outside of DXM; I like that one too much).

It might get better. My health isn't quite as good as it once was (I just recently obtained a slipped disc in my back), but at least I'm no longer degenerate and it seems to be on the road to recovery. I just need to actually do something, but I have the odd feeling that 2017 would be a bad year to do that. I need to wait until next year, because everyone is so pissed off. I can't go to a certain place anymore because I made a dumb joke that was taken out of context (and was ratted on by a person who knew me for over six years and I thought that she was solid).

I just have to be more careful. I can't trust anyone anymore. Once your mother dies, no one else is there for you. Learn from me, kids.

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22653 No. 22653 hide watch quickreply [Reply] [Edit]
Are anime people really as happy as they look?
>> No. 22657 [Edit]
Anime characters are as happy as they're made to be. I'd like to pretend everything we see is a glimpse into another world, another reality, or universe... but I'm not that crazy. Characters from the more happy types of SoL anime typically don't have the sort of depth in emotions to warrant these questions. They tend to have very flat personalities and what you see is what you get. If they look happy they are happy.
>> No. 22719 [Edit]
thanks for posting such a wonderful image, really fantastic. thanks

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