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20868 No. 20868 hide watch quickreply [Reply] [Edit] [First 100 posts] [Last 50 posts]
Post cute anime girls in this thread every time you think about killing yourself
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>> No. 22720 [Edit]
Tell me what it is you want then, tell me the kind of life, body, and people you wish for. What is your desire?

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>> No. 22721 [Edit]
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22216 No. 22216 hide watch expand quickreply [Reply] [Edit]
How have you changed in the last three years?

I've grown less bitter and angry. Those feelings have been swallowed up by a kind of resignation where I find it too difficult to feel passionately about anything. I'm also just a bit more self aware than I was then.
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>> No. 22651 [Edit]
I tend to associate normies with knee-jerk rightwing opinions, but maybe it's just where I live.

I can't speak for that guy, but when I'm feeling particularly bitter, "I wish everyone would leave me alone" becomes "I wish everyone would die." Then I realize I'd die pretty fast without any support because I'm a worthless hikki without any survival skills and I feel even worse.
>> No. 22666 [Edit]
>said man who knows nothing about me other than four sentences.
I'm sorry, I didn't mean to be presumptuous or anything.

>you should see these guy's reaction to political discussion. i figured they'd be like, innately liberal or something and i'd get some angry rebuttal over anything mildly right wing i said, but i didn't. normies don't have liberal sensibilities. they don't have any sensibilities. they're empty, and not willing to let anyone fill in the canvas. they'd just stare at the floor like a dumb dumb till i was finished talking and then they'd act like i had said nothing, like the last two minutes i was yapping didn't happen.

Have you tried talking one-on-one to them? People generally don't want to say anything subversive while in a group, especially if they're uncertain of what the group expects of them. Other times they've not really given it that much thought because a) it doesn't affect them in their immediate circumstances or b) they know how bitter and resentful one can get when delving into things like politics and they don't want the negativity in their lives. Maybe they've got more than enough shit to deal with.

There's also a third option. Maybe they simply don't agree with you but don't really want to press the issue because, like most people, they're conflict-avoidant and want to get along with you. Ever think of that?

The reason I disagree with your assessment is because I know that most people, especially the low-IQ ones, are highly opinionated, even concerning things they know very little about.

I believe you were presenting the information too quickly and without giving them enough time, or reason, to open up to your ideas. Maybe they did agree with you about certain things, maybe they didn't. If you were to relax a little and be less intimidating and more genuine about who you really are as a person, maybe they'd be willing to share their opinions with you and be willing to consider yours.

I'm not tellin
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>> No. 22670 [Edit]
i'm not socially awkward like most people here believe it or not. i did everything right and got nothing from them. i did always talk to them one on one.
don't try to give me advice, it's too late anyway.

also i'm sure we both realize normies are regional. the normies in my town are very very different from the normies in a town just 20 miles away near the college, and even more different than the normies only 12 miles away that live in poorer housing.
maybe your normies are opinionated but mine are what i'd describe as animal people who live on instinct without thought.
>> No. 22718 [Edit]
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Cleaning up this thread. If you want to discuss how you've changed in the last three years continue to do so. If you want to discuss other crap or call eachother stupid then go do it somewhere else.

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22673 No. 22673 hide watch expand quickreply [Reply] [Edit]
Have you ever experienced a kind of wave of negative emotions where you realize that you are eternally, utterly alone in the universe and that nothing will ever change that?
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>> No. 22678 [Edit]
Of course. I just try to reassure myself that I can somehow deal with it and try my hardest to hold onto that feeling, otherwise I end up breaking down and crying those feelings away.
>> No. 22679 [Edit]
It doesn't bother me as much as the fact that I'm surrounded by a world full of humans, supposedly like me but I can feel no connection to whatsoever. It questions the very essence of your existence.
>> No. 22680 [Edit]
It's strange, infinity and eternity bothered me when I was a child, I would cry myself to sleep at night thinking about how neither ending my existence nor living forever appealed to me. But right now, the idea of infinity just feels like endless opportunity to me, and I don't really mind either living forever or dying tomorrow. I have my waifu, so I do not feel alone. And besides, I've been talking to myself in my head since I was a kid, I'm very much adjusted to myself being my only company. It's a funny realization to make, but if you talk to yourself, you'll never feel lonely. Maybe I'm insane, but I'm too far gone to realize it or care if I am.
>> No. 22681 [Edit]
I don't yearn for company and I've always talked to myself a lot too, I think it helps.

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22659 No. 22659 hide watch expand quickreply [Reply] [Edit]
Has anyone else here done absolutely nothing with their life and regret it?
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>> No. 22668 [Edit]
I know exactly what you mean. When I look at the world, I don't see anything within reach that could make me enjoy it or like it. It's just dull, empty, and restrictive.

I've managed to fool myself into thinking that if I were to get strong, I might be able to do something. I'm not sure if it's right of me to even humor the idea, but it's the only thing that I can do. I'm trying to get strong not only physically, but in every way possible to somehow change something in myself if not the world around me.

I know that it's delusional, stupid, and outright foolish to entertain such an idea, but it's all I've got left in this world.
>> No. 22669 [Edit]
It's kind of the same way for me. And I've been aware since I was about 10 years old that the only things I actually liked or cared about were fictional. I always knew I didn't want to work the boring lives other people did, but I guess until I about 18 I somehow thought something would happen to make the world as interesting as stories. Even now it's a hard delusion to break, but I know that escapism is the only life for me.
>> No. 22671 [Edit]
>>Has anyone else here done absolutely nothing with their life and regret it?
Why live a life constantly pursued by the expectations of others? If you find something you want to do, you should do it. Chances are, if you're thinking of things like a wasted life, I'd say you're probably internalizing what others believe makes a life "worth living". That's just my experience though. Once I started being concerned with what I want to do, rather than feeling bad because I'm not in a relationship/making a lot of money/being in a position of high status as the world pushes me into wanting, I felt a lot better. Those are mostly all illusions anyway.Simply be kind to others, and behave ethically and you're already a finer human being than most.
>> No. 22672 [Edit]
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I went to college, was a NEET for a year, did a certification as a pharmacy technician for a year, went to Tennessee to get a Master's degree for two years, came back when I was 26 after obtaining it to be with my sick mother (who died two years later), and it was all for nothing outside of becoming intellectually mature.

Do I regret it? Yes and no. I do regret it because now I'm on SSI and have only worked two jobs, both of them vastly under my skill level (although only one was shitty). I've been stuck here since 2010 and while I might move, sooner or later, I have no idea where to go. No place for me. No one to be with, or connect to. All I do is play computer games and occasionally write interesting things. I barely have done anything worthwhile since 2014 outside of no longer having roommates. I don't see it changing anytime soon, although I'm not very mad about anything anymore. At least I stopped drinking alcohol five months ago.

I do have regret, because it was all for nothing. I should have chosen a different path. But at least I tried, you know? And my life is technically better than it was since I came back home, and I'm not doing stupid stuff like going to bars alone, getting drunk every night off a six-pack of cheap beer (or more) and getting high on dumb legal highs (outside of DXM; I like that one too much).

It might get better. My health isn't quite as good as it once was (I just recently obtained a slipped disc in my back), but at least I'm no longer degenerate and it seems to be on the road to recovery. I just need to actually do something, but I have the odd feeling that 2017 would be a bad year to do that. I need to wait until next year, because everyone is so pissed off. I can't go to a certain place anymore because I made a dumb joke that was taken out of context (and was ratted on by a person who knew me for over six years and I thought that she was solid).

I just have to be more careful. I can't trust anyone anymore. Once your mother dies, no one else is there for you. Learn from me, kids.

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22653 No. 22653 hide watch quickreply [Reply] [Edit]
Are anime people really as happy as they look?
>> No. 22657 [Edit]
Anime characters are as happy as they're made to be. I'd like to pretend everything we see is a glimpse into another world, another reality, or universe... but I'm not that crazy. Characters from the more happy types of SoL anime typically don't have the sort of depth in emotions to warrant these questions. They tend to have very flat personalities and what you see is what you get. If they look happy they are happy.
>> No. 22719 [Edit]
thanks for posting such a wonderful image, really fantastic. thanks

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20538 No. 20538 hide watch expand quickreply [Reply] [Edit]
Anyone else her crafting a suicide note
Errmm just for creative outlet?

"All these tragedies and failures paint me, define me. I have crafted my own ruin."
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>> No. 20687 [Edit]
I've been at the end game for a while now. I'm tired of the optional content. It's time to see the ending.

Alternatively, "no thank you" to the imposition of working life.
>> No. 22655 [Edit]
/leave irc.reality.net
>> No. 22656 [Edit]
A while back I started writing up a note for my mom indicating where and how to sell my crap and other useful info. Don't remember where I left it though, and doubt it would help much anyway so I haven't gotten around to making a new one.

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22622 No. 22622 hide watch expand quickreply [Reply] [Edit]
What keeps you from committing suicide?
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>> No. 22629 [Edit]
Escapism and ultimately hedonism. Like >>22623 said, hobbies occupy me enough to the point where I can stave off misery so as long as I don't think about the future or allow my mind to wander.

I'm pretty much a parasite, sure, but I have no attachment whatsoever to human civilization and quite frankly couldn't care less about "contributing" to a dying society. I don't fear death, but I do fear what I might miss if I were to randomly decide to commit suicide tomorrow. What kind of video games and anime will be produced over the course of my life- or even the duration of my life in which I have a somewhat comfortable existence being a leech? What if advanced waifu interaction technology is developed in 15 years and I'm not around to experience it? Thoughts like these legitimately bother me whenever I think about dying, even if it is little more than mindless hedonism.
>> No. 22632 [Edit]
I'm too much of a pussy to go through with it.

Maybe one day I'll be strong enough to do it without fear and remorse. Then I could just let everything go.
>> No. 22646 [Edit]
My sister shot herself a couple years ago, and it would destroy my mom if I went that way too.
>> No. 22652 [Edit]
If I die today, I'll never know about all the anime, manga, and other 2D media that I might have enjoyed had I lived. What if I kill myself the day before an anime that turns out to be my favorite is announced?

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22602 No. 22602 hide watch expand quickreply [Reply] [Edit]
I thought I was doing well for myself for a few months, but I once again hit a low. It's like a seesaw of going from normal to depressed. Can anyone else relate?
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>> No. 22605 [Edit]
That's life for ya.
>> No. 22606 [Edit]
I have that too. I swing between good and bad fairly regularly but I'm not good at letting it out and it stays inside and festers. Then maybe once or twice per year I have a meltdown where depending on the severity I can be completely non-functional for anywhere from a few hours to my longest one lasting a week.

I'd honestly prefer to just be depressed all the time to this. At least then I'd know what to expect instead of wondering if I'm going to feel okay when I next wake up, or if It'll be one of those days where I need a few hours to build up hunger pains to motivate myself to get out of bed.
>> No. 22643 [Edit]
I thought I was coming out of my depression and I was worried because I've been this way since I was a kid, so finding who I was without it is kind of scary, I found myself wanting to go back to when things were less confusing and I could just be sad. Well they say be careful what you wish for because now it's back and with the added bonus of insomnia. So I guess it is normal
>> No. 22644 [Edit]
I definitely know what that's like. It was weird to not feel sad at all when I'm so used to it and feel that I deserve it.

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22587 No. 22587 hide watch expand quickreply [Reply] [Edit]
What was the happiest moment of your life, TC?
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>> No. 22592 [Edit]
The good and bad moments of my life have all just blurred together into a hodgepodge of continuous, pointless existence. I don't feel like anything stands out one way or another.
>> No. 22593 [Edit]
I don't really have a happiest moment, but the thing that I did that made me the happiest would have been drinking coffee before sunrise while watching the ocean on the beaches of Whidbey Island. I also really liked walking around and driving on the northern end of the island (almost never went to the southern portion). I haven't been there for almost nine years and I've yet to find a more beautiful place.
>> No. 22597 [Edit]
Maybe the second half of 2011. Played a handful of great video games, my first real experience playing together from my friends from school as well. We made stupid lewd jokes at school and in-game too and trying to do that now just isn't as fun. At that point I still enjoyed anime more even though I didn't watch that many good shows. You could say I was just into enough escapism to dull the boring reality of existence. 2012 was tougher but I still had that one damn game, it was powercreeped and imbalanced to become unplayable the next couple of years though. The game was a derpy fighter and there's no real substitute for it unlike MOBAs and generic MMOs, and most of my friends since then have left me too.

Of course I guess if there's really something like VR or AI anytime soon that would be an improvement, I dunno.
>> No. 22619 [Edit]
I don't think I've had a "happy" moment in my life. I don't really feel excitement or joy beyond "wow okay, cool" and then forgetting about it a few days later.

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22436 No. 22436 hide watch expand quickreply [Reply] [Edit]
What do you do for escapism? I'll start, I binge read BL, and I don't know why.
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>> No. 22553 [Edit]
Video games and listening to Touhou remixes. Recently I often just walk around listening to music and thinking how I can make the world a better place.
>> No. 22555 [Edit]
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Useless code and math. Technically, it's a grave violation of my NEET privilege to do something traditionally purported as productive, so I have to be extra careful and craft it meticulously so it serves no purpose at all.
>> No. 22594 [Edit]
Huh. What does that program do?
>> No. 22595 [Edit]
video games and clenching my teeth

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22287 No. 22287 hide watch expand quickreply [Reply] [Edit]
My english will be always shitty.
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>> No. 22537 [Edit]
It will actually improve staggeringly fast the more time you spend writing on english boards/forums.
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>> No. 22554 [Edit]
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Slav country language skills ("runglish") being so unique to the point of it becoming a recent popular culture fad involving round country flags, displacing engrish - which is now like a racial slur.

I'm fine with it, it means slavs are white at last. Such cases.

Only for the first year or two when learning foreign language by immersion from scratch. A lot of us are into online escapism for far longer than that. Most of online prose is bottom of the barrel anyway, and the fecal molecules get stuck in our typing centers of brain or something.

Read a book, or at least a shitty asstr fanfic.
>> No. 22589 [Edit]
Your sentence already places you miles ahead of some people I know, OP.

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