>>28323
Because they're a virgin with rage.

>>28324
This is TC though...

>>27871
i guess rape, or other sexual abuse or related trauma.
i generally dislike how demonized any positive display or portrayal of sex and sexuality seem to be (generally speaking, anyway, clearly some people take it to an extreme); it seems like, in some cases, the only "acceptable" way anything sexual can be portrayed in media is in the context of some horrible trauma.
i've never particularly understood why sex is so maligned, since i feel like it should be a pretty natural urge to have, so i guess my brain interprets stuff like that in media as either the author or the audience going "see this? you're no better than him. you're the worst kind of scum" and the thought of that genuinely makes me feel really sick and depressed, sometimes to the extent of killing any feelings of sexual desire i may have for weeks at a time.
for some reason, every girl i speak to, at least online, seems to have some horrible sexual trauma, and that makes me feel bad for even being near them. do they think i'm a threat? do they think everyone around them is out to get them? the vast majority of people (probably) aren't predators of some kind. at least, i know i'm not, but people seem to have a weird "one rotten apple spoils the bunch" mentality these days, you see it online all the time where people seem to have such an irrational fear of men, so i just feel gross about it...

on the flipside of this, i see other people online who i can only describe as needlessly edgy, for lack of a better term. "it's normal/it already happens a lot/it's in our nature, so you're pathetic for not being able to handle this!" i'm not a rapist, nor have i ever had any adjacent desire to do such a thing. i really hate people who try to reduce human behavior to a science to try and justify weird backwards mentalities.

i guess on some level, i am just overly sensitive. i'm having a hard time looking at the screen as i type this. even seeing the word makes my insides churn.

tangentially related, but i also don't like grimdark at all. less that i "can't handle it", it doesn't mak

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>>29199
To me it's always felt more like there's only one way where it's appropriate to be sexual. Heterosexual, dominant man, submissive (but not too submissive) woman. Guy reads woman's mind and she's always frustrated anyways. Anything less gets seen as something to mock, some kind of abomination or an interesting little sideshow people play lipservice towards accepting while secretly laughing under their breath.

For context I'm a guy with strong submissive tendencies. Hard not fly into self hate when it's so stigmatized. At best people will insinuate that I'm gay or that something happened to me as a kid that requires I go to some kind of sub to dom conversion therapy because that's the cultural default.

I think I get where you're coming from though. I think part of what drew me to sub fantasies was chronic shame around sex which made me feel bad for being horny. Then I eroticized the shame and mixed it with other things and you get... whatever is going on with my fantasies now.

>every girl i speak to, at least online, seems to have some horrible sexual trauma
It tends to make people angry but a large part of this is socialized fear.

I grew up evangelical and they kept teaching me about how dangerous and sinful the world was. About how under every rock there was some stranger ready to murder you, sell you drugs, etc. Most of it was bull but it didn't stop it from serving as the root of a strong agoraphobia that I don't think can ever be cured. Meds help but they turn me into a zombie and that's not living.

Younger generations seem hyperaware of every possible threat while our environments are far, far more safe than they've ever been. It's in their head but emotionally speaking perception outweighs reality.

Keep in mind online you're self selecting for people who for whatever reason are more anxious and agoraphobic.

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>>29188
can you take your own advice and stop lashing out, at least? not that I completely disagree with it
>>29182
I hesitate against caring for the same reasons as >>/so/28883 but I can relate to the posts here more than anywhere else, including yours. So I guess I feel the same...

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>>29189
If I could take my own advice I wouldn't even be here.

>>28913
I've honestly never seen T-C as being dead. If compared to its heyday around when it started then maybe, but there's still frequent posts ... quality over quantity. Maybe I just have higher standards for calling something such. Having something that's the opposite of what's considered "dead" nowadays seems like a Monkey's Paw situation anyways; more activity would be nice, but what it would bring alongside it worries me more.

>>29226
Looking at the affairs of lainchan I can't help agreeing with you.

>>29098
>¨force¨ myself to watch and read everything in JP
At least for me, doing so is a chicken/egg situation since if I watch the shows I like in JP then I will miss out on too much nuance to really appreciate it. And conversely I feel watching shows I don't like in JP just to get through it is a waste of time.

It's not that you are dumb.
>there's no practical use for such language
You have summed it up.

Did you actively try to learn your language ? No, because you had a practical use of it.

Unfortunately, TC's too strict spamfilter has struck another one. As the convention, the ban has been removed.
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>>29099
I want to add that what you mentioned is the reason why I dropped it many times; I used to try to look up every single grammar point I didn't get or be autistic about words that had no exact English translation. It's something we are able to understand one day, like how the average anime viewer could tell you what やはり (yahari) means from seeing it translated in different ways many times. The ¨slog¨ is dealing with the frustration of it at first and having to look up almost every word (this is where anki can be helpful). Wasting an hour to get through a single manga chapter because I wanted to understand exactly what they meant wasn't fun, no matter how compelling the manga was. It wasn't until I took a break from anime after my 2nd burnout of it that I wanted to come back to it exclusively in Japanese. Some try to devalue it a little, thinking ¨it's just a show¨. I understand not wanting to miss out on nuance but I don't force myself to watch anything, that's why I put it in quotes. Re-watching anime you've forgotten in Japanese can help with that. Conversely, you can do what I do and convince yourself that you are getting the real nuance of it because you are watching it in JP. Sorry for blogg*ng

>>29127
If you are crafty you could swap the order of the slogging by taking transcript of anime (or use a deck for a manga if someone else has created it) and then SRS'ing on that _before_ watching the show.

[I haven't really seen a good push-button workflow for this for arbitrary shows though. And the state of publicly available Japanese tokenizers was really bad up until 1 year ago (I always find it amusing that it took LLMs basically solving the entire field of NLP to give us something better than the SOTA released in 2006)].

I've also had the mutism spell casted on me.
Too many bad social experiences conditions you to avoid socializing, to lessen the pain in a way.

I don't like leaving the house much, but i'll try to aim for a 30 min walk daily to stay sharp.

I can't help you much, as I too need assistance.
Ganbare !

I don't have mutism but i do have a speech impediment that people would make fun of me for. it made me not want to speak for a long time, and i remember taking speech training to help me work on it but i was stubborn and didn't listen most of the time. that was a big regret cause now that i have a job my co-workers are expecting me to talk more. what i was taught was speak slowly and take your time, people are more patient then you think.

>what other people even want from me
Depends on context. Often "Yes, that's cool" is all they want.
>I'm afraid to push boundaries
What boundaries?
>saying nothing is also wrong
Silence is the always winning strategy as long as you're not deaf.
> When they're nice to me I assume they're lying
Don't assume anything.
>When they're cruel it seems like they're being honest.
Let nothing seem to you.
>Their love has always been fake
Wrong.
>their hate is real
Wrong. Their emotions are context driven and can't be considered either real or not. You can't reliably identify when they are faking or not. It's the same as with being sometimes upset and sometimes glad. It's just there and means nothing.
>I have a fear of being seen

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Maybe some more modern philosophies as well, if there are any that bother to descend down on earth and find a way to live happy life without having to explain foundations of the world and nature of knowledge nobody gives a fuck about. Maybe also look into Cynicism for some ideas, but you'll never achieve that fully either. Generally speaking any philosophy that doesn't concern itself with what they call Eudaimonia is a worthless waste of time. And even those that do are still a waste of time most of the time. For example you never realize how much of a scam is Epicureans philosophy until you wake up in a war devastated shithole with no hope of future or anything.

Don't know if this belongs here, but I have tried to use forums again. One overstepped my boundaries heavily despite being a dead site and also refused to delete posts of mine. The other one is based in an age group that I have desperately tried to mimic since my preteens but even as a young adult I fail. It all makes me feel more and more like a child. It makes me want to sleep through this decade and nothing more.
>>28892
I think people have also become less compassionate, then again I'm not exactly experienced enough to say "things have always been that way" when they probably haven't. I've had to slowly accept times changing but it's just straight up bitter. There doesn't seem to be any sweetness in this day and age at all...

It all is just screaming into a bottle. You get your lungs overworked and never make a sound. Better just stop breathing at all and maintain boycott.

>>29040
>Better just stop breathing at all and maintain boycott.
Can you elaborate on what this actually means??

>>29042
Sure.

>>23048
that sounds good, i'll will read that one

>>22436
I talk to my waifu, cuddle with her, buy/set up/pose figures of her, look at pictures of her, and sometimes talk about her or post pictures of her online.

I started watching a show with her (cuddling with her daki while I watch), and I was thinking of taking a small figure of her out into nature sometime so we can enjoy it together.

Occasionally I find a new show, movie, or game that I can enjoy, or I can enjoy re-watching a show or movie I haven't watched in a long time.

Occasionally I play a musical instrument but I don't practice seriously because it starts to hurt after awhile. So it's like I'm roleplaying being a musician by fiddling around.

And of course mindless web browsing and occasional posting.

Browse imageboards, it does make me feel less lonely. Listen to music, and sleep. Sleep is the best escapism though. I wish I could sleep forever and never wake up.

>>22436
I write a lot and listen to music,play the occasional video game. Existence can be quite overwhelming sometimes,so it is good to have distractions

>>28883
If you are who I think you are then you're actually one of my favorite users here. I appreciate your posts and value your contributions. Please keep posting, even if just occasionally.
But anonymous message boards just aren't a good place to sate your loneliness if that's what you hope to get out of posting. While you might be able to befriend or form a connection with an individual anon once both parties remove the mask of anonymity (even if it's just in exchange for a different mask that gives a persistent identity), Anonymous will never be your friend.

>>28885
>We're all here of our own will
Not really. I've been desiring to quit imageboards for good for a year or so, but have never been able to find a substitute. End every time I return I get deeper in this vain crybaby posting thing. Half of posts itt read like have been written by me personally, honestly. This is a relatable thread. And guess what? I do not have anything to add.

>I find sad is how many posts, especially long ones, never get a reply. I might read them and think about them but they won't know. ¨If a tree falls in a forest...¨ you know the rest. it's sad! That's why I made this thread instead of replying to an existing one. Messages getting ignored feel worse if you can tell others ignored it on purpose, sometimes you realize you made a bad post after clicking submit...
I don't think that because a post doesn't get replies, it means that it's a bad post or that no one saw it. Maybe someone did see it, but they had nothing meaningful or in depth enough to add to the discussion. Perhaps they were stuck in a lurking rut.
I do think that many of these long posts have an impact despite never getting replies. There have many times where I have read a post, and it has stuck with me for years. Many posts I save to look back on.

>What do you think of the fleeting nature of imageboards?
I like it. It allows me to anonymize myself. I find that no matter what I write, I will always regret it. If I primarily post on imageboards, then every post I write will be whisked away into the wind, which is appealing. Many times, people write things that they regret on social media, and then for some reason or another become unable to access their account. Then, they're left with a permanent trace of the person they no longer are. Even if they didn't use their real name, the trace they leave can be corroborated to build up some sense of identity regardless of what usernames they choose.

>>28883
>It's just so fucking ridiculous, we're throwing words at each other but there's simply no connection.
Are you sure that there is absolutely no connection? In a sense, I feel like the nature of imageboards allow individuals to experience a certain sort of connection. You are anonymous, but I am also anonymous. We've yieled ourselves to a collective consciousness in which ideas stew, change, shifting with each contribution. We also find ourselves influenced by the ideas, and our ideas influence

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perhaps the whole nature of life is fleeting and we are just rambling.

>>28731
>Might be worth it if you don't get side effects.
They all have side-effects. By definition they're a pharma product, and preventing hair loss wasn't even their primary goal, it's a side effect. Why would anyone take one of those?

>>28650
>For some reason, in my dreams I still have my long hair.
That's interesting. I notice I'm usually around five years younger in my dreams. Which is, looking back, how I've alaways felt my maturity age has felt, I'm neurodivergent.

I also recently noticed I do not have my moderate chronic tinnitus in my dreams. Hopefully, that susan shore tinnitus device ends up a success and prevents the inevitable shotgun mouthwash when it gets too loud to bear at some point.

>>28733
It feels like a cruelty from our minds... like you are still young and less fucked up in your dreams so you wake up and experience the loss again and again.

>>28739
Said that and last night I dreamed I was in the 90's, very clearly. I can't remember if I had long hair but I was definitely younger. For some reason it felt very comfy.

I started visiting here when I was 18. I'm 31 now. I haven't gotten better. I'm just depressed all the time. I haven't achieved consistent employment and media is no longer fun to consume.

>>28406
Where do you hangout? Lolicon is controversial sure but if you're not like on social media it's mostly just ribbing and I've not ever seen anyone offended for being not attracted to 3D.

>>28415
You're not a good person for doubting them in the first place.
>>28422
>The work probably felt like play to them, and it was probably fairly effortless, but to a person of a different disposition they wouldn't even know where to start.
That's precisely what there is to be most resentful about. All work is drudgery.
>>28658
I don't know what he's talking about. I watched a pro-loli subreddit grow from a couple thousand to the tens of thousands while still managing to fly under the radar and not be banned.

>>28657
This word for word including age.

Alas, my mutuals would tremble in my awesome presence.
It's a lonely path on which I walk.

>>28564
No. I think I would see them as the same normal people I interact everyday. The internet kinda makes possible the illusion of talking with similar creatures as yourself (only sometimes, not even that often) but that fantasy would disappear IRL. In the end, if normal people finds you disgusting it's very probable the not-so normal people will find you disgusting too.

>>28564
I've always been too weird for normal people and too normal for weird people. I think I'd seem too normal if I were to meet people from here, even though we might be in the same predicament in real life.

Probably, but I figure there will be an underlying sense of mental illness keeping me from becoming truly close with someone.

Yeah and my thread gets deleted I've been longer than you dorks but anyways I truly do wish y'all happy winter. Winter is personally my fav time of the year.
testing if 'jak gets deleted even if it's a legitmate post

Whoa mod deleted xe/xers post I'm sorry.
Seems tohno-Lad is still keeping this board locked downed whih means no fun allowed

>>28609
>no fun allowed
why are you replying to yourself?

>>28589
>don't even bother looking at places "discussing" tsukihime for instance
I'm sorry this thread is a bit older, but it was linked in the other thread so I had to reply since I relate so much to this post. I have had the very unfortunate experience of getting into Melty Blood and downloading Tsukihime in 2019, actually playing the VN in 2020, and then due to very rough events I forgot about Tsukihime up until they had announced the remake. By that point, I hadn't finished the VN at all, and the fanbase went from one of the most dead peaceful TN fanbases to probably being second worst next to FGO. I haven't touched the fanbase in years, and it's sad to think that while I was reading it my biggest fear of it becoming twitter bait sadly came true. I mean it is a Type-Moon thing after all, combined with the fact that shitty remakes of games seem to attract the barely 18 discord/reddit/youtube trifecta for some odd reason.