Dose anyone else ever feel like the universe wants them to be miserable? The only reason I'm not an atheist is because I feel like there has to be someone up there who gets off on taking diarrhea shits all over my life every time anything slightly nice happens, or just for the hell of it even. I'm at the point where I get scared if anything too good happens because I just know something bad is about to happen in turn. I've gotten pretty used to bad things happening for the most part but it almost seems like accepting it and not reacting just pisses off the cosmos and makes it go overdrive on fucking with me to push me over the edge. I feel like a lab rat constantly being poked for a reaction. I've long since stopped looking forward to anything or allowing myself to be excited. Everything is a disappointment or doesn't work out. I don't even know if I'm even capable of feeling 'hope' anymore. I'm long past dead inside. With each passing day I sit here just waiting for what life is going to throw at me next.Post edited on 14th Feb 2016, 6:49pm
To quote Boethius -- the greatest pain is remembering what one has lost, and the greatest joy is self-possession. Does that reflect your thoughts at all?
I think about this a lot myself Perhaps it's just foolishness, but I often wonder if I did something wrong to deserve how crappy my life can be at times. I often wonder if there really is a god and he has forsaken me for my Atheism, or if Karma is real and I'm doing something bad or evil without realizing it.
No, thats silly. The universe doesn't want to punish you. The universe is indifferent.
>>21426 Not OP but thank you for posting
If you had to guess, how many people around the world would you say killed themself's today?
Too many to count.
Valentine's day is mostly an American thing. On the world scale the spike is not very high.
my mechanic knows I'm a socially awkward beta who likes to avoid conflict so I think he intentionally rips me off extra because he knows I won't do anything about it
Maybe get a different one? Possibly at a place where you don't directly interact with the mechanics.
>>20045 That would mean going to some place like Pep Boys where you are getting ripped off no matter who you are. Finding a more honest mechanic is a better endeavor.
If you have an old car learn mechanic and diy.
>>20044 Just tell em "Look I'm tired of your shit carlos, just fix my car already"
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