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22905 No. 22905 hide watch expand quickreply [Reply] [Edit]
Is there a way to start over in the year 2017?
I was daydreaming about moving to scandinavia and pretending to be a refugee. But they probably have a lot of controls in place
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>>22914
this will be difficult to believe but I was having substance dependence problems and attacked someone with a knife in the street. My dad paid for a good lawyer who managed to change the label of the case from attempted murder to fighting in public so I didn't have to go to prison. even if I could get my record cleared it wouldn't really change anything. when I google my name the first results are news articles related to my case. one of them is a tv interview with the family of the man I stabbed complaining about the sentence. I can't get jobs or do anything because of this.

a few years ago I signed up for a college class, and when we got our first assignment and had to form groups, people in my group tried to find me in FB and found the articles. I had to leave the class after that

also I have a EU passport so I could move anywhere in Schengen. but there's no country in the EU that lets you to change your name as far as I know
>> No. 22917 [Edit]
>>22916
Where are you from? Continent, at least.
>> No. 22918 [Edit]
>>22915
>I have.
What country if you don't mind me asking.
I honestly don't know any 1st world country that will offer a work visa without a degree + job prospect or a shit ton of money or, if you don't have any of that, an employer willing to sponsor your visa (but good luck with getting a job in another country without a degree or visa).

>>22916
>there's no country in the EU that lets you to change your name
Most countries will let their citizens change their name if they have a good reason. Not being able to move on and get employed or educated because of a mistake in the past seems like a valid reason.

The problem is the criminal record.

You really need to look into that, I know that in some European countries your crimes get cleared after you get sentenced or released from jail and a certain amount of time has passed.

Also, how common is your name and are there pictured with the articles that come up. You could just lie to employers/landlords/whatever and say it's just someone who has the same name.
>> No. 22919 [Edit]
>>22916
I can say with some certainty that no one will bother googling your name if you want a shitty construction job in most European countries. If I was in your position (and wanted to work) I'd work as a labourer for a few months then try become an apprentice carpender or something after you get a good reference from working as a labourer.

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22216 No. 22216 hide watch expand quickreply [Reply] [Edit]
How have you changed in the last three years?

I've grown less bitter and angry. Those feelings have been swallowed up by a kind of resignation where I find it too difficult to feel passionately about anything. I'm also just a bit more self aware than I was then.
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>> No. 22776 [Edit]
hope is a normal meme there's nothing better than hiki life on planet earth, out there is full of evil FULL OF IT
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I used to be much nicer towards people and making others happy used to make me happy. Now I'm cold, bitter, angry, jealous, and a mess of negative emotions that begs for death.
>> No. 22862 [Edit]
>>22776
You're like the mom from Carrie.
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22923
I don't even lurk tohno-chan as much any more.

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20868 No. 20868 hide watch quickreply [Reply] [Edit] [First 100 posts] [Last 50 posts]
Post cute anime girls in this thread every time you think about killing yourself
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>> No. 23036 [Edit]
>>21950
Don't know if you're still here but
>Come on. What about life then? Following your stance, after growing up people should be thrown out of home because living with parents is too lazy. Only overcoming difficulties shows whether you really want and to live or not. So, yeah.
I wasn't implying anything like that in my post. And it surprised me a little that you thought I was.
You can't undo suicide. Almost all decisions you consider a mistake in retrospect you can try to fix at least somewhat, you can't do the same after you've killed yourself (I think most beliefs agree here).
I was responding to a post about assisted suicide, which is other people helping someone to do exactly that one choice he can't undo. Which is, regardless if they're really trying to help that person, really irresponsible, since they can never know, if that person really wanted to die or not. Only the person themselves know and I'd argue they only know themselves the moment they try do it.
You probably have already tried to kill yourself, so you should know how hard it is. Have you thought about why? What exactly went through your head the moment you tried to do it? Why couldn't you do it? As opposed to a lot of people (who say it's only cowards who do it) I'd argue killing yourself is the most difficult action to go through with and takes a lot of courage exactly because you're ending your existence (as you know it) and it's the only thing you can't go back on. So you have to really think hard about if you really want it or not (unless it's completely on impulse of course but I already said what I think about that, you can't say they really wanted it since they didn't think at all during the action).

I did not say that assisted suicide shouldn't be allowed because it's lazy. And I don't think people should be thrown out of their home. The parents took up a responsibility when they decided on getting a child (or at least not aborting it), of course I'm not saying that that responsibility extends infinitely. Throwing out your child can be justified
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22766 No. 22766 hide watch quickreply [Reply] [Edit]
Do you feel empty? Not really happy, not really sad, but alien and different from your surroundings. Only spiced up by the occasional shame brought about by base desire like lust and hunger. Like there's just nothing there at all within you.
>> No. 22769 [Edit]
I often feel like shit and feel that my life is not heading anyplace good but I never really feel empty.
I mean no offense but these things are 1st world problems. Like we surf the net with full stomachs while there are people who it bugs and their own shit.
>> No. 22773 [Edit]
>>22769
Oh I'm fully aware it could be worse. I prefer this over my depressive spells any day. But saying it's first world problems doesn't really help since then you're always better off than someone. It doesn't mean anything; it's just a deflection tactic. And that's part of the emptiness to me. Anymore it feels like words almost don't have meanings. Like they're just ways for humans to bark primitive signals at eachother.

Everyone else seems to have some sort of identity. But I don't, I'm just there. And I find it all so ridiculous. Reminds me of a part in No Longer Human, where the main character joins up with a group of communists. He doesn't even agree with them but it makes him feel alive, makes him feel like he has purpose. All of society is like this. Music is the most obvious example. People listen to stuff that makes them feel like they're something, like they're a warrior. Like they've accomplished something. And the reality is they'd be better if they did nothing at all. Because then they'd be forced to look at how silly they are. How silly everything is.
>> No. 22788 [Edit]
I do often feel like shit i haven't genuinely smiled or have been happy in 3 years.
>> No. 22791 [Edit]
Life feels like a boring monitor stream that I can't really get engaged in and don't have any feeling towards. Like the blinking screen of some phone on display at a cell service store, dull and noteworthy.

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22673 No. 22673 hide watch expand quickreply [Reply] [Edit]
Have you ever experienced a kind of wave of negative emotions where you realize that you are eternally, utterly alone in the universe and that nothing will ever change that?
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>> No. 22678 [Edit]
Of course. I just try to reassure myself that I can somehow deal with it and try my hardest to hold onto that feeling, otherwise I end up breaking down and crying those feelings away.
>> No. 22679 [Edit]
It doesn't bother me as much as the fact that I'm surrounded by a world full of humans, supposedly like me but I can feel no connection to whatsoever. It questions the very essence of your existence.
>> No. 22680 [Edit]
It's strange, infinity and eternity bothered me when I was a child, I would cry myself to sleep at night thinking about how neither ending my existence nor living forever appealed to me. But right now, the idea of infinity just feels like endless opportunity to me, and I don't really mind either living forever or dying tomorrow. I have my waifu, so I do not feel alone. And besides, I've been talking to myself in my head since I was a kid, I'm very much adjusted to myself being my only company. It's a funny realization to make, but if you talk to yourself, you'll never feel lonely. Maybe I'm insane, but I'm too far gone to realize it or care if I am.
>> No. 22681 [Edit]
>>22680
I don't yearn for company and I've always talked to myself a lot too, I think it helps.

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22659 No. 22659 hide watch expand quickreply [Reply] [Edit]
Has anyone else here done absolutely nothing with their life and regret it?
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>> No. 22668 [Edit]
>>22667
I know exactly what you mean. When I look at the world, I don't see anything within reach that could make me enjoy it or like it. It's just dull, empty, and restrictive.

I've managed to fool myself into thinking that if I were to get strong, I might be able to do something. I'm not sure if it's right of me to even humor the idea, but it's the only thing that I can do. I'm trying to get strong not only physically, but in every way possible to somehow change something in myself if not the world around me.

I know that it's delusional, stupid, and outright foolish to entertain such an idea, but it's all I've got left in this world.
>> No. 22669 [Edit]
>>22668
It's kind of the same way for me. And I've been aware since I was about 10 years old that the only things I actually liked or cared about were fictional. I always knew I didn't want to work the boring lives other people did, but I guess until I about 18 I somehow thought something would happen to make the world as interesting as stories. Even now it's a hard delusion to break, but I know that escapism is the only life for me.
>> No. 22671 [Edit]
>>22659
>>Has anyone else here done absolutely nothing with their life and regret it?
Why live a life constantly pursued by the expectations of others? If you find something you want to do, you should do it. Chances are, if you're thinking of things like a wasted life, I'd say you're probably internalizing what others believe makes a life "worth living". That's just my experience though. Once I started being concerned with what I want to do, rather than feeling bad because I'm not in a relationship/making a lot of money/being in a position of high status as the world pushes me into wanting, I felt a lot better. Those are mostly all illusions anyway.Simply be kind to others, and behave ethically and you're already a finer human being than most.
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I went to college, was a NEET for a year, did a certification as a pharmacy technician for a year, went to Tennessee to get a Master's degree for two years, came back when I was 26 after obtaining it to be with my sick mother (who died two years later), and it was all for nothing outside of becoming intellectually mature.

Do I regret it? Yes and no. I do regret it because now I'm on SSI and have only worked two jobs, both of them vastly under my skill level (although only one was shitty). I've been stuck here since 2010 and while I might move, sooner or later, I have no idea where to go. No place for me. No one to be with, or connect to. All I do is play computer games and occasionally write interesting things. I barely have done anything worthwhile since 2014 outside of no longer having roommates. I don't see it changing anytime soon, although I'm not very mad about anything anymore. At least I stopped drinking alcohol five months ago.

I do have regret, because it was all for nothing. I should have chosen a different path. But at least I tried, you know? And my life is technically better than it was since I came back home, and I'm not doing stupid stuff like going to bars alone, getting drunk every night off a six-pack of cheap beer (or more) and getting high on dumb legal highs (outside of DXM; I like that one too much).

It might get better. My health isn't quite as good as it once was (I just recently obtained a slipped disc in my back), but at least I'm no longer degenerate and it seems to be on the road to recovery. I just need to actually do something, but I have the odd feeling that 2017 would be a bad year to do that. I need to wait until next year, because everyone is so pissed off. I can't go to a certain place anymore because I made a dumb joke that was taken out of context (and was ratted on by a person who knew me for over six years and I thought that she was solid).

I just have to be more careful. I can't trust anyone anymore. Once your mother dies, no one else is there for you. Learn from me, kids.

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22653 No. 22653 hide watch quickreply [Reply] [Edit]
Are anime people really as happy as they look?
>> No. 22657 [Edit]
Anime characters are as happy as they're made to be. I'd like to pretend everything we see is a glimpse into another world, another reality, or universe... but I'm not that crazy. Characters from the more happy types of SoL anime typically don't have the sort of depth in emotions to warrant these questions. They tend to have very flat personalities and what you see is what you get. If they look happy they are happy.
>> No. 22719 [Edit]
thanks for posting such a wonderful image, really fantastic. thanks

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22602 No. 22602 hide watch expand quickreply [Reply] [Edit]
I thought I was doing well for myself for a few months, but I once again hit a low. It's like a seesaw of going from normal to depressed. Can anyone else relate?
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>> No. 22605 [Edit]
That's life for ya.
>> No. 22606 [Edit]
I have that too. I swing between good and bad fairly regularly but I'm not good at letting it out and it stays inside and festers. Then maybe once or twice per year I have a meltdown where depending on the severity I can be completely non-functional for anywhere from a few hours to my longest one lasting a week.

I'd honestly prefer to just be depressed all the time to this. At least then I'd know what to expect instead of wondering if I'm going to feel okay when I next wake up, or if It'll be one of those days where I need a few hours to build up hunger pains to motivate myself to get out of bed.
>> No. 22643 [Edit]
I thought I was coming out of my depression and I was worried because I've been this way since I was a kid, so finding who I was without it is kind of scary, I found myself wanting to go back to when things were less confusing and I could just be sad. Well they say be careful what you wish for because now it's back and with the added bonus of insomnia. So I guess it is normal
>> No. 22644 [Edit]
>>22643
I definitely know what that's like. It was weird to not feel sad at all when I'm so used to it and feel that I deserve it.

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22575 No. 22575 hide watch expand quickreply [Reply] [Edit]
I just want to lay around doing nothing, maybe sleep all day or something like that. I can't though. I have a little voice in me that wont shut up and keeps telling me to do something productive. I'm always working on one thing or another. There's always something to clean or fix or improve, and it stresses me out whenever I'm sitting still for too long. I can't even watch anime without doing one or two other things at the same time. It kind of drives me nuts. I can't stop thinking about all the things I should be doing with my time, even now I feel like I'm wasting time by typing this when I could be working on a dozen other things. I wish I didn't have to feel like this all the time. I wish I could just do nothing and not feel guilty about it.
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>> No. 22583 [Edit]
I'm the same way but I'm fine with it. It's great to keep reaching for higher heights, quite enjoyable. Given you have to enjoy the process of reaching said heights more than getting to the heights themselves or you'll get into trouble.

People like us need to be careful because we're prone to being taken advantage of. If life is game theory we play the cooperate card too much. People notice and we're easy prey to rack up points on.

Altruism is a lie; an elaborate mechanism of human parasitism. All humans are parasites. The defective humans, that is, the ones who aren't find themselves weeded out of the gene pool quite easily. And if they aren't they find themselves attached to a mate that doesn't give a shit about them. You're "a great guy" because you put up with their bullshit, you let them do whatever they want. You get the point. If you don't fight back, you don't compete, you're on the chopping block. Both literally and figuratively.

The only solution for people like us is to intentionally cultivate selfishness and narcissism. Otherwise people just take, and take, and take. Until you're drained of all drive, all love of life. And they lack the soul to even realize what they've done.
>> No. 22584 [Edit]
>>22581
>I do that with crappy anime. The worse it is the less attention I pay to it.
Why would you watch it if you don't like it?

>as long as you can still hear what they're saying anyway.
You mean you can understand Japanese?
>> No. 22585 [Edit]
>>22582
Well, my computer is pretty slow so I cannot do other things while anime is on, not that I would if I could.

If you set madVR to max settings then maybe it will take all the resources of your computer, disabling you to do other things and thus forcing you to only watch.
>> No. 22586 [Edit]
>>22584
>Why would you watch it if you don't like it?
Well like I said the less I like it the less I watch it. If I really don't like it then I just drop it.
As for why at all. It can help pass the time even if you're not looking directly at it.

>You mean you can understand Japanese?
A little. Enough to have a basic understanding of what's going on and follow along a bit.

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22564 No. 22564 hide watch quickreply [Reply] [Edit]
Does anyone else just feel sad for no apparent reason? I just don't know what's wrong and it's making me feel worse. And it's really getting in the way of my life.
>> No. 22565 [Edit]
yeah
>> No. 22566 [Edit]
There's a lot to be sad about.
>> No. 22570 [Edit]
Yes.
I've realized that I have mood cycles throughout the day. At some point I'll feel chipper and I'll be quite talkative and productive, but I always mellow out eventually and just sit and mope/shitpost. Sometimes I wake up like that and then get happy, but the transition always seems completely arbitrary either way
>> No. 22573 [Edit]
Yes. And I have plenty of things that I should be doing too.

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22558 No. 22558 hide watch quickreply [Reply] [Edit]
Remember anon, just because you're not good at something doesn't mean there aren't other things you might be good at!
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You can't ruin a perfectly good thread with shitty premise like that. This is now a sushi thread, where cute girls make cute sushi things.
>> No. 22563 [Edit]
It certainly feels like i'm not good at anything
>> No. 22567 [Edit]
I know what I'm good at. The problem is I don't belong in society.

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