Very realistic. After school ended, I was NEET for a year, , then my life just became centered around working. I did not do much in school, had no friends and hated school in general, but I could always count on toughing the day through then going home to browse the internet and watch anime and shit, especially when summer come.
When I was 17/18 I lost the spark of video games and anime. all star battle was released, JOJO was being animated, watamote got an anime, PS4 was out. None of it interested me. My life ended sometime around this time.
I was without internet for a good chunk of that time, so I hypothesize that I became "unaddicted" to anime and video games, and was reduced to a dead soulless husk with nothing to look forward to in this world.
My oh my, the lull of video games and anime was so sweet. Being absorbed in anime and videogames is like being on drugs. And when it's over I snap out of it and I'm crying on the bathroom floor.
when I was in middle school and early highschool, I wanted to do drugs, wanted to fuck women (or at least prostitutes) trannies, twinks, whatever. Wanted to watch all the anime in the world, play every video game, spend all my days browsing the infinite internet, spend hours combing gelbooru and paheal. Wanted to learn japanese, wanted to learn to draw manga and hentai, wanted to master guitar shredding. wanted to start a metal band, never wanted to work. wanted a full gaming PC set up, wanted a dakimakura, posters, onaholes, wanted an outcast loser tomoko gf to love, I wanted everything life had to offer.
It all just fizzled away in a moment somehow, don't know how, but now I'm here and I don't want much of nothin. It's all gone now. Maybe those were juvenile desires, maybe I got raped or something. Who knows? I did have a bad trip on shrooms at the end of this time. Don't recall it having much of an effect on me but the following months I was smacked with a series of existential crisis' and I guess I realized that none of this matters. So sad, I suppose.