I'm really terrible at handling anything with romance if it's directed at the viewer or player. All it takes is a cute character telling me she loves me a few times to send me into a deep state of suicidal depression. It's not exactly fun being reminded of things I've never actually had and never will. I don't think I can handle most eroge because of this.
I guess it's a byproduct of never being loved or shown much affection. It's one thing if it's just a story about other people, but if it's directed at me, then it just hurts. It might be nice at first, but reality will sink in knowing it's not real, they don't really feel this way about me, they don't really like me, no one ever could. It's just a script and per-recorded lines, lines I wish someone(not just anyone) actually would say to me and mean it, let me know I'm not alone in this god awful hell of world.

>>27871
I don't like hetero romance, even in anime. It always feels idealized and hence fake. It doesn't even have to be strictly romance, whenever there's substantial hetero interaction it always disgusts me.

>>27873
Everything in anime is idealized.

Gore and cruelty.

>>27871
Not really. What I like about anime is that I feel like I can accept anything it throws at me, even when those same things would feel horrible to me in a film or show.

Rape. Its too real. Also most romances. Because its too real.

>>27873
I find it surprising to see someone say this considering how much worse, realistically, a non "hetero" romance is. If we're going to talk about idealized, there's probably nothing more ridiculously idealized and out of touch with human reality than the depictions of same-sex relationships in anime or media in general. I've noticed homos and those who enjoy seeing homolust have this sentiment fairly often, so I can only imagine there's some major deviation in the perceived ideal human behavior. I feel more or less the same way about yuri/yaoi, and not because I particularly care about it being "degenerate" or whatever bullshit. It just repulses me for some reason, not for the physical reasons, but something about the way the depictions of the emotional/romantic interactions feel is incredibly obnoxious. Maybe it's because I know enough about girls/women from my own family and life to know what parts of their behavior I hate the most, but it's grating to me in the same way a fork scraping on a metal pan is. Usually I never have any problem like this at all with normal relationships, so there must just be something about the dual feminine or dual masculine romantic interaction that creates an energy that sickens me. I can only imagine there's some deep gulf of a divide between the mentality and outlook on human social interaction between the people who enjoy it, and myself. I actually have a really hard time relating to people in otaku circles these days, because it seems like the kind of people who enjoyed the themes I like in anime/manga/vns have been completely absent for the past decade at least. Everyone loves yuri, and frankly speaking, it's like waterboarding for me. I've probably only enjoyed one or two yuri relationships in anime or manga or anything, and usually that had some more interesting themes that made it seem almost like a real relationship.

>>27881
Probably it's because to me with hetero romance there's a tendency to self-insert and that breaks suspension of disbelief. Whereas with yuri that doesn't happen. That said I prefer yuri in the style of Kirara rather than "gachi yuri" like bloom into you, since it's very "pure" and closer to the deepest forms friendship one could have.

>>27884
Yuri absolutely breaks my suspension of disbelief. I also find it very uncompelling.

>>27885
I have the same problem. It's a shame since I find the characters to be very cute.

>>27889
Don't get me wrong, I've seen some yuri romances that put most anime/manga romance to shame, but they're few and far between. Usually they're best when writers use the more abstract relationship to depict concepts and emotions that tend to get a little lost in the usual stupid bullshit of most anime "romance".

>>27890
recommendation?

When I see responsible adults caring after children, it bothers me.
When I was younger, I had the idea of being a therapist/counselor. School counselors helped me when I was young, so I thought it'd be nice to join their field. Life happened, I pretty much dropped out, and now when I see characters who are looked up to and provide support to young ones, I feel like a failure.
I actually stopped playing Trails of Cold Steel III because Rean Schwarzer triggered this response in me. It's funny and sad for me.

All the ones that if you speak about it here, you get banned.
Tohno chan seems be one of the last places where I can hide from the normalfag's stupidity around the internet, and I'm eternally grateful to the people who keeps the normalfags away from here.

>>28108
You got any other place than TC? Few days ago I had to bury the last place I knew besides it. Makes me paranoid to only know one place to dwell.

>>28109
There's smuglo.li for anime, but I stopped going there since most threads are just image dumps (it 's still worth checking a bit since threads are alive much longer so there's more chance for discussion of niche shows). Beyond that, not really much I'm aware of. There's "afternoon letterbox" for random chitchat. I used to visit "bus stop" but since a few years back there seemed to be a tonal shift and there were many more posts inclining towards normalfaggy things.

>>28108
TC has really great rules. I always thought that if I ran my own imageboard, it'd be pretty much the same in that regard. That would be pointless though, seeing as TC already exists.
I'm very grateful for this place.

I can't deal with money.

>>28217
In what way?

Anything to do with promiscuity, even its insinuation. Every promiscuous "person" should get shot.

>>28322
Why?

>>28323
Because they're a virgin with rage.

>>28324
This is TC though...

>>27871
i guess rape, or other sexual abuse or related trauma.
i generally dislike how demonized any positive display or portrayal of sex and sexuality seem to be (generally speaking, anyway, clearly some people take it to an extreme); it seems like, in some cases, the only "acceptable" way anything sexual can be portrayed in media is in the context of some horrible trauma.
i've never particularly understood why sex is so maligned, since i feel like it should be a pretty natural urge to have, so i guess my brain interprets stuff like that in media as either the author or the audience going "see this? you're no better than him. you're the worst kind of scum" and the thought of that genuinely makes me feel really sick and depressed, sometimes to the extent of killing any feelings of sexual desire i may have for weeks at a time.
for some reason, every girl i speak to, at least online, seems to have some horrible sexual trauma, and that makes me feel bad for even being near them. do they think i'm a threat? do they think everyone around them is out to get them? the vast majority of people (probably) aren't predators of some kind. at least, i know i'm not, but people seem to have a weird "one rotten apple spoils the bunch" mentality these days, you see it online all the time where people seem to have such an irrational fear of men, so i just feel gross about it...

on the flipside of this, i see other people online who i can only describe as needlessly edgy, for lack of a better term. "it's normal/it already happens a lot/it's in our nature, so you're pathetic for not being able to handle this!" i'm not a rapist, nor have i ever had any adjacent desire to do such a thing. i really hate people who try to reduce human behavior to a science to try and justify weird backwards mentalities.

i guess on some level, i am just overly sensitive. i'm having a hard time looking at the screen as i type this. even seeing the word makes my insides churn.

tangentially related, but i also don't like grimdark at all. less that i "can't handle it", it doesn't make me sick or anything, but stories and settings like that just irritate me for reasons i can't really articulate. doesn't help that some fans of those stories have bad protagonist syndrome and seem to think stories like that are inherently more valuable or "manly", or that living in an apocalyptic hellhole is somehow cool.
...on a totally unrelated note, i really, really do not like berserk.
i didn't know where to bring this up in the post, but playing eroge or looking at fanart where that ends up happing to a character i like feels really awkward.

>>29199
To me it's always felt more like there's only one way where it's appropriate to be sexual. Heterosexual, dominant man, submissive (but not too submissive) woman. Guy reads woman's mind and she's always frustrated anyways. Anything less gets seen as something to mock, some kind of abomination or an interesting little sideshow people play lipservice towards accepting while secretly laughing under their breath.

For context I'm a guy with strong submissive tendencies. Hard not fly into self hate when it's so stigmatized. At best people will insinuate that I'm gay or that something happened to me as a kid that requires I go to some kind of sub to dom conversion therapy because that's the cultural default.

I think I get where you're coming from though. I think part of what drew me to sub fantasies was chronic shame around sex which made me feel bad for being horny. Then I eroticized the shame and mixed it with other things and you get... whatever is going on with my fantasies now.

>every girl i speak to, at least online, seems to have some horrible sexual trauma
It tends to make people angry but a large part of this is socialized fear.

I grew up evangelical and they kept teaching me about how dangerous and sinful the world was. About how under every rock there was some stranger ready to murder you, sell you drugs, etc. Most of it was bull but it didn't stop it from serving as the root of a strong agoraphobia that I don't think can ever be cured. Meds help but they turn me into a zombie and that's not living.

Younger generations seem hyperaware of every possible threat while our environments are far, far more safe than they've ever been. It's in their head but emotionally speaking perception outweighs reality.

Keep in mind online you're self selecting for people who for whatever reason are more anxious and agoraphobic.