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I used to have an "identity" but now I don't. The "self" I once had has vanished into oblivion. The more I think about it, the more distant and far away it gets. At the moment, I have no identity nor ego. I think this manages to be offputting to a lot of people because so many times people act out of identity/ego preservation. They act in certain ways towards me, intending to harm/wound my ego/identity, and when they are met with indifference, it's like a glitch in the matrix. See, I even watch people try to project their ways of operation onto me. "Winning" or "losing" doesn't matter to me. There are times where I've gotten into an internet argument, and the opposing party accused me of trying too hard to "win" an argument for brownie points. Yet I cared about neither of those things. I merely sought to confirm objective reality. I had no interest in convincing the other party. In fact, I hoped to learn quite a bit from the other party, and that our discussion was a mutual collaboration although a clashing one. But, the thought is silly and naive, the idea of having a good-faith argument online.
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