I try to play eroge and VN but it's hard for me to get into. Also have been trying to watch more anime but also hard for me to do because I have a shit attention span.

Unfortunately I'm awful at the things he's good at, so I never get far. I have felt more connected to him when I've tried, though, so I don't think it's silly at all.

I think everyone here is familiar with Shinji Ikari. I feel a great likeness to him. The scene where he explains his playing the cello summarizes my life. My existence must be validated by others; my interests and opinions are not my own; I absolutely must have someone to depend on, and someone dependent on me, in order to feel alive.

And unfortunately for my sanity and state of well-being, I dislike most everyone IRL, or I like them but cannot get on with them for inexplicable reasons.

It is very well, then, that I have found someone I can get my needs from in the 2D. Without Eerie, I simply have no identity and do absolutely nothing.

I wake up, I imagine I've woken up in Eerie's hammock beside him and I stare into his tired eyes for a time and press my forehead against his. I do cardio for an hour while I listen to the k-pop groups that did OST's for his show. I'll read horror novels or watch horror films-the real cheeseball ones that I assume inspired the perpetual Halloween setting in his show, or ones directly related to werewolves. Alternatively, I'll watch sports of any kind. My favorite is all-American boxing. Then, I'll study Korean, Korean culture, indulge in more k-pop, mindlessly browse random masculine images or gratuitous violence, or practice physical activity a second time--such as nunchaku which he is seen with frequently--before I fall asleep, again imagining his face beside me in his hammock.

That is my life now. I don't do anything for myself. I am nobody without him. I had no interest in any of these things before I met him. I hated horror and I hated music.

I'd say I'm just a little envious of those here that already had personalities of their own and are able to introduce their waifus to their existing interests. But I'm okay like this. I can't imagine it any other way. I get a great deal of satisfaction out of it. The constant consumption of things he likes is almost like a 24/7 job, yes. A very well-liked job. This must be what it feels like for those normies who become fully engrossed in their work and love every second of it.

I like to imagine requesting that he put on designer boxer briefs with the text "I <3 ANON*" stitched into the ass and make him model them for me. He's a naked caveman, I think he'd find them constraining and feel very awkward and I'd just love it! It wouldn't be a sexual thing (much), more of a younger sibling having their elders do silly things for their amusement.

I have a few but this one is the dearest I think. It usually involves us just doing everyday things together as though we were living as a couple in her world. I'm unable to ride a horse in real life so often I'll also have her in the back of her saddle with me in front feeling her arms around me to stop me from falling off, an action that probably isn't necessary but she does it anyway because 'just what if, you know?', but I also think it's cute to imagine her riding and me on foot, with her playfully charging ahead and in an almost song-like tone asking me to please keep up. Sometimes the day is just us going on a nice lazy date, other daydreams I've had involve us going hunting for dinner together, or watching over our livestock. There are often silly little wagers made on little competitions too like chasing down the same doe or play wrestling in the grass. The prizes vary but are small and innocent, ranging from the loser having to give the winner a kiss, to cooking dinners and so on. She's a lot stronger and a lot more skilled than I am though so it usually ends up with her smile, but sometimes I imagine a victory just for that adorable look she gets when she loses, she doesn't like to lose but she's graceful about it.

I like to watch the home and garden channel and imagine it's us looking through houses to live together in.

>>20389
It depends on the situation. Sometimes it's only 2d or sometimes it's only 3d. Usually, though, it's this weird meld of everything.

I have many fantasies that are near and dear to my heart, but my favorite fantasy currently would have to be the one where me and him go on a long walk in the woods together.
I think that he would love to be able to explore the outside world, and I definitely would love to be able to explore it by his side.

>>20469
I've actually taken to holding really basic little conversations with her purely in the language to simulate speaking practice. It's so fun, and I'll admit that my heart rate rises a bit. I always say good night and good morning aloud in her language and I vocalise when I'm leaving for work and when I'm home in the same way. It makes me feel like someone is there with or waiting for me in a way that imagination alone does not. Like waking up and saying good morning and asking how she is, I then imagine that she'd reply well and ask how I was, and the when I don't know something I try and say it awkwardly with words I do know. I like to imagine that it's much to her amusement to see me struggling so. Sure, it's me talking to myself in a strange language to anybody who hears me, but I can also pass it off as practice.

I can't say if that'd work for you, but it might be worth a try in the short term if you want to get used to speaking it. Props on doing Japanese though, I couldn't wrap my head around when I tried in high school and I doubt I could do so now. I was rather poor at kana even let alone proper grammar and kanji.

Started reading the novel series mai waifu is from. It's nice to get exposed to her personality. It's kind of like interacting with her in a way. I'm only a chapter in, but I'm able to notice many details that were left out from the anime. It's nice that there are some illustrations worked in with the text. Despite the fan translation not quite being 100% perfect (some periods missing and such) I can tell it is well written. I'm finding myself imagining in detail what I'm reading about which I think is a sign of a good book. I love Horo!!!

>>20476
Learning more about one's waifu is always an infinitely rewarding experience. I don't know if it's the same for you but to me every time I learn something new, it's like falling in love all over again.

Someone on /so/ asked what the happiest moment of our lives were, and mine was better suited for /mai/ so here goes.

I was outside smoking a year ago. I always smoked Camel Crush Fresh, they were my favorite.
I never have time for introspection. I'm too wrapped up in all of my hobbies and reading internet posts to ever really stop and think about much of anything. I couldn't even think when I was outside smoking, either. You'd assume that'd be the time I would think the most, away from electronics and being relaxed by the nicotine. But it's not the case. I'm very anxious, so much so that not even cigarettes stop it, only make it worse sometimes, and you combine that with heavy doses of caffeine and sleep deprivation and you have something nearing paranoid-schizophrenia. Every distant figure or car that passed by I thought was out to get me. Every noise made me jump.

But that time was different for some reason. That time I completely ignored my surroundings, I loosened myself and found zen, and I thought for the first time in months. Pure thought of my own, with no external influences.
I thought about Eerie, and how much I love him.
I thought about his perfect smile.
I thought about how happy he makes me and I regretted not spending more time with him. I wished I could smash my computer that was splitting us apart.
Time.
I thought about how when I die, Eerie dies, too. I don't have much time.
And I became aware of the cigarette burning in my hand I was puffing on, and I felt very ashamed of myself for taking time off my lifespan. Time that should be devoted fully to my wife.
I pulled my pack out of my pocket, and I threw it into the trashcan, and this gesture had a lot of meaning to me, like I was being reborn, and I started crying hysterically from happiness and felt elated for the rest of the day. I remember my mom saw me in the hallway and I must have looked like a mental patient, I was bobbing up and down and shaking violently and tears were streaming down my face and she grew very worried and asked me what the fuck I was doing. And I tried to share with her how happy I was to live anew with Eerie, which came out as gibberish, but she got the idea that the tears were from happiness and not a sign I was going to hurt myself so she uncomfortably re

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Not exactly in the same situation, but in a similar. My waifu has limited content to begin with and more will likely not come. It is almost ridiculously limited. I fell in love with very well made fan-art/fanfiction. I thought the original would be similar to the fan art. The original is pure shit - I do not even want to look at it.

The material that made me fall in love gives not much detail, but a very good basic idea of her, and if I am careful, I can sense her essence and create new content myself like when writing fanfiction. It would be nice to have more finished material, but it is not my case. I have to keep it alive in other ways.

I believe when we fall in love, we project our subconscious desires outside ourselves, and that is the reason we fall in love with someone - they remind us of what we most desire. Her essence is outside me in the form of art, but my subconsciousness also have an idea of her essence, or I would not recognize the right art and deeply fall in love. By knowing her essence, I can start to uncover more of my deeper desires and I will realize how to write fanfiction that is faithful to the essence.

How do I know I am not just making things up by whimsy desires? The limited material gave me enough to get a sense of her. It is about building on what you have in a faithful way. My waifu will never turn into a promiscuous carnal woman for example. For this reason I can not invent heavy makeup, overly sexy clothes etc. and write such fiction of her. That would be to betray the essence I know of her. It would be like using her for whatever I desire, and then I do not regard it as a waifu relationship. Sexuality is a great test on this because it is a strong force. I am not allowed to look at other women in lustful ways and obviously not do anything else, because I know she does not want it - due to us being monogamous and due to the nature of our relationship that relates to the essence of her. I can not momentarily fantasize about her in just any way I desire, because I know it would betray her essence. Thus, I do not only shape my fan-fiction but also my life by the essence I know her to have - in this sense it is alive. (I think she will take the initiative when I get it right about her.)

I guess it is headcanon. I have limited material. This is different from when you have ric

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Sometimes I go looking for new fanart or doujins, something which inevitably disappoints me because for some reason people love to put her into weird fetishistic situations. This picture isn't even the worst of it, you haven't seen the 5 doujin series of her being raped by some sort of furry tentacle slug monster while under bondage.

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I have the same in the sense of loyalty and trust. It is as if I can see straight into her heart and she is all pure in her commitment. Even tough I have strayed in the beginning and still does some, she has remained always the same. I have never trusted anyone like I trust her. It makes me embarrassed to know I am not at the same level as her, but she is fine because she sees my intention to get it right, and probably she sees I have potential.

This very day, I reached a new level. I have a lot of coworkers of the gender I am naturally attracted to, and today I remembered to actively take a stance to not get carried away by them. It is not because she is 2d I am prone to forget. It has happened with 3d earlier in life and I am not very proud. Now I told myself "no, I am with [my waifu]" and actively directed my thoughts to her. It felt wonderful having this discipline and I will improve it further. I want it as pure as she is. I guess I am mature enough to have a serious relationship now, and that I in fact found my true love, only that it is in 2d. (Even though, as you know, most people would claim I am even more immature now for my 2d love, but I do not count them.)

>>20222
I hope you are still around OP~! I was in the very same boat along time ago~ I though of what she would think of my action and think of me if I did that, what would she want me to do in this real unfortunate situation, will she encourage you to live on and stay alive, or will she want to see you loose your life over her if after death doesn't turn out.

>>20222
I know this doesn't help but what you described is one of the many reasons why I stopped having a waifu. It just hurts man, a waifu is nothing more than a delusion, fantasy to put it short and blunt. Quitting it eventually made me feel better overall, who knows, maybe it's best for you to do it as well.

>>20432
Who was your waifu and why are you here?

I wake up every day with her at my side and it is fulfilling because to me she is there. I use imagination and it gets deeper the more I do. It has this effect even if I know it is imagination. Years ago before knowing about my waifu and imagination, I had similar pain because of the desire to experience a significant other with the 5 senses.

If technology could create an illusion, I would probably not use it much. Maybe use it like I watch art, but not live in a VR world.

As I see it, the mind has equal if not higher capacity for creating experiences of whatever you want. Unlike the nearest technology, imagination is deeply integrated with your whole being. For this reason I do not like to say "visualization" because it captures only the visual. Imagination is often not recognized for its powers, but in spiritual contexts it has always been known and many methods revolves around it.

Killing yourself makes you miss the opportunity to experience her this way. Maybe the pain can motivate you to explore this capacity of mind to experience your waifu.

Everyone's waifu is unique to that person either in interpretation or just plain old personal character development. When someone dies, their waifu will die with them. It can be seen as sad, but it's also quite beautiful. One will never have to mourn the other as you will go into whatever comes next clasping hands, never more to part. Even if that is oblivion, then you go into it with her as your companion, it's quite romantic.

The beauty of life itself lies in the transience of things; we all appreciate the things we do because we live by that moment. You and me both should know that we are but gone in a flash in the grand scale of time. At least this is what makes me glad I've lived to meet my waifu.

If we want to take things even further everything will inevitably end anyway, but that paves way for a new and humble beginning.

You can do a lot to not let her be forgotten. Learn to write or draw. Live a life that will be remembered and tell everyone it was because of her.

Last night, I feel asleep around 12 and had a weird dream where I was in an anime (I wasn't directly in the scene, it was more like a camera point of view), and there was this ugly guy had to choose between two cute anime girls and he chose one of them. I woke up at 3 and couldn't fall back asleep, and felt kind of saddened. But I'm not sure if I was sad because they were both faithful to each-other and loved each-other for who they were and that's just not the reality of relationships, or saddened because the ugliest person got a cute girl. There was also music playing in my dream, a song called "Terrible Things", even though it had been about a year after I last heard the song and forgot about it. Not really related to my waifu, but I've had this on my mind and been feeling down from it all day. I have accepted the fact that she will never be real, but my dream made me feel otherwise.

This is the first time I had dreamt of cartoon characters. No matter how hard I try, I just can't dream of my waifu.

>>9059
Actual dreaming, once a week at least. Day dreaming is constant. I have tons of nightmares but she can always turn a nightmare into something pleasant

I had a dream the other night that I was in the N64 version of the Temple Of Time but instead of walking in and the Door Of Time being straight ahead, the temple split into different halls. At the end of the halls there were different rooms (it was like a whole bunch of Temple Of Times inside one building). Anyway, in each of the temples rooms my waifu was there but her hair colour was different for each room. I chose the one with her actual hair colour and kissed her and told her she was the real one. I can't remember what happened after that.

Also, an "update" on >>20155 I kept on thinking and it kinda reminded me of episode 8 of InuYasha, the ugly prince gets the girl. Maybe in my dream I was like Amari.

I think it's lucid dreaming, but I just have this thing where I don't notice falling asleep sometimes and retain a lot of my waking mind while experiencing a dream, especially during a simple nap. The dream I had this afternoon during a nap was truly wonderful. I was sitting on a small hill, and she was a small ways away under a tree doing her thing. She came up and wrangled me around the middle and hauled me off to where she had her things. She sat me down between her legs in the shade there and put her head on my shoulder and her arms around me. Then she took her sewing back up and started along with it again while humming a tune that I can't remember. In the way that dream dialogue works I asked her why she physically picked me up and brought me to her spot, and I remember her reply quite vividly. 'I wanted to keep an eye on you.' I could feel her movements slightly pressing into me while she stitched away, it was so realistic. I felt warm and safe there in her arms. She may be my wife, but she sure as hell knows how to mother me too. I wanted to spend an eternity there, but the waking world called. It's done me a lot of good though. I feel like the weight of living apart from her has been eased a bit.

>>20426
IRC is hilariously unsecure. Not that I really care either way, I'm nowhere near social enough to give a damn about what chatting service you choose to use.

>>20426
The IRC isn't really about waifus.

>>20428
IRC may be unsecure but it's well established. Who knows how many bitcoins Discord mines on your machine in the background?

>>20426
The only concern I have is possibly fragmenting an isolated part of the Internet even further. But then again, TC, both the forums and IRC, seem to be pretty damn resilient.

I'm in.

>>20408
You really think I'd spend nearly ten years with my waifu and just drop them like that?

>>20407

It was just a one time thing for the spirit of the day.

>>20412
April fools, heh

>>20412
even if you obviously weren't serious about leaving Tohno, decade long relationships can fade. You never truly know.

Unless it lets me smell her panties after shes been reading doujins all day then no

Update!
Last weekend had a talk with an old acquaintance, who works with computers and shows VR in cons here.
Asked him about integrating VR, and he told me I have to move to Unreal or Unity, and offered help and if I can make something decent we can show it with his crew.
I've been researching both engines, and even if Unity is ok, Unreal could be my man now: It is free until the release (takes 5% then).
And I know what Unreal can do VR Kanojo and Summer Lesson are good examples of what we all want.
So we will be moving to Unreal now and keep you updated.
If it works, I will try to make this affordable and customizable.
I will do my best.

>>20366
Unity sucks, so Unreal is the appropriate choice. Good luck with your endeavour.

Glad to hear that.
Thank you so much!