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Anonymous
02/23/24(Fri)17:57
No. 21959
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Not exactly a confession, but more of a question seeking advice from other anons.
I don't exactly have a waifu but out of all the characters from my most cherished anime whom I respect deeply, there are two in particular that I've been drawn to for their unconditional warmth and gentleness. I consider them close friends: thinking of them gives me hope and strength, and in times of trouble I try to imagine them consoling me.
But it feels wrong to me to project any romantic feelings towards them (which is why I cannot bring myself to commit to a waifu). Perhaps it's _because_ I have so much respect for them, and partly because I feel it would be rude to "bind" them into a relation purely on my whims (or put another way, the characters already have their own life and close circle of friends. While friendship [at least the idealized version of it] is "additive" in the sense that being friends with one does not require you to give up your friendship with another (and in fact the group bonds can become stronger), a "romantic relationship" doesn't quite have that property. So I feel that projecting any such feelings would only disrupt their existing group dynamics.
Conversely while it's easy for me to imagine embracing some random character whom I don't really know the background of, it feels hollow and empty precisely for that same reason. It's a bit of a quandary I don't really know how to resolve: I don't want to disrupt the existing friendships and warmth I feel from my treasured characters, and yet sometimes at night I think it would be nice to really embrace one; but I can't bring myself to.