I know this might be a bit off-topic, but do you have trouble looking the same way at your waifu after seeing a porn image of her? I feel quite bad, solely because I feel like I am responsible for its existence.I remember being on some board and seeing that image. I was not able to feel good for the entire month, and still now, when I remember that image, I get I feel like I deeply hurt her and don't deserve her. She was pure. before I found her. She literally had no NSFW images on Pixiv, except for one that was not porn because Pixiv does not like gore. It was her holding her dead mother's head.
It was literally in the middle of me browsing a random 4chan board. It just hurts. I just feel like it was my fault. I just hope that image gets wiped from the archives, and I am happy no one found it and uploaded it to Rule 34. It just hurts knowing I made that image because of my stupidity.Knowing there is an image of her being raped makes me mad and makes it hard to look at her because it reminds me of that mistake.
I think it helps to remind yourself it's just doodles, fan art, scribbles made by random people. It's not Canon, it's not really her or something she did. Even with well done art it wouldn't be any different than a good photoshop. I know it's easy to say that and hard to get that mental image out, but I think it can help.
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