Just returned home after a 60h work week.
Working sucks. Now I'm free but I'm too tired to do shit.

I woke up at 4:12 today and I'm unhappy with myself for it. I didn't want to wake up so I stayed in bed. It's hard to bring myself to get out of bed when it's cold and I have a comfy daki to hug.
>>33538
>60h work week
My condolences. Those are terrible.

ive been doing pretty good! just finished a whole mess of a project at work and i finally can have some down time to relax, so im enjoying that. Also, for the past few months ive been building a website and its finally starting to come together, it feels good to make something on your own! Its still pretty small and there some stuff i need to change around or am unsatisfied with but its my own little project and makes me proud

I hate having to shave so often if I want to sleep with my body pillow. If I don't, my facial hair damages the cover. But then I keep cutting myself when I shave and it hurts even after I'm done. I just want to not have facial hair so I can sleep with my pillow.

>>33564
Try taking a shower right after shaving. That mostly gets rid of the pain.

>>33565
The hot water stings and it doesn't stop my skin from getting cut in the first place. I've tried shaving in the shower and going with the grain instead of against it. The shower helps prevent the pain and going with the grain doesn't cut me as much but the shave isn't as smooth either.

>>33564
How often do you shave? I do every day so it's not really an issue, if you left it then maybe it would become more difficult.

>>33567
If I leave it then the hair gets longer over time. If it gets long enough to start itching, then I can get a very clean and close shave without too many cuts. This can take about a week, maybe a little less. If I shave daily then it's harder to shave anything off at all and I cut myself trying to get rid of the short stubble. A clean shave normally lasts only a day for me.

A red back spider made it's web within a metre of where my pillow is on my bed, one of these days I'm going to be assassinated by a spider in my sleep.

The package from Japan that I've been waiting for has finally arrived (＾∇＾)ﾉ♪
Manga is the one thing I prefer reading on paper rather than on a screen, so it's great that I have a new job that leaves me with enough disposable income for the occasional haul of books and manga from Nippon.
I'm especially thrilled about the Parasite Eve manga since it's somewhat rare and I didn't think I'd ever get my hands on it, yet here it is and it wasn't even expensive.
It's all second-hand. So far I've seen food stains on 2 or 3 volumes, but no missing pages or anything that would really detract from the content.

>>33592
Isn't quite expensive to ship manga from Japan because of the weight?

>>33593
yes, it is. Those 32 volumes of manga cost me 45 Euros, plus 43 Euros for shipping and 21 Euros for customs/taxes.

>>33594
Where did you order it from? That seems a bit much but then I don't live in Europe and don't order Japanese manga much, I got one from Amazon from Japan and it was shipped for free though.

>>33595
I ordered from Mandarake.
Shipping from Japan to Europe is indeed more expensive than to NA. How much did you ultimately pay, though? Amazon Germany also offers a small selection of Japanese-language books and manga through 3rd party sellers, which is often offered with "free" shipping, but typically costs 10-15 Euros for a single volume, even for second-hand goods. Paying 88 Euros for 32 volumes means I paid 2.75 Euros per tome, which is obviously a much better deal.

When I buy new rather than second-hand, I typically order from Yesasia, which has higher prices than Amazon Japan but doesn't charge additional shipping fees, which usually makes it a better deal when ordering from the EU.

>>33604
I payed about $20au so I guess that's roughly the same. I didn't take into account the amount of manga that you got though and 2.75 euro per manga actually isn't a bad price.

I woke up in the morning one day and I felt good most of it and I was more productive than usual. I wasn't tired for no reason either. It's hard to stay disciplined like that on days off though. It was nice and I think I might try it again.

I went to the doctor and sat around sick most of the day. I've been awake for close to 24 hours now without signs of going to bed soon. I just feel awful. I have another doctor's appointment Monday. It seems like that's all that I do anymore. I haven't been anywhere else at all in over a year now.

Took a hour off yesterday for a dental appointment, then went to work, came home, didn't feel that tired but still slept in front of tv (was unplanned). Woke up at 5am and couldn't get back to sleep... so started today early. Heh.

Woke up too early yesterday morning, couldn't fall back to sleep. Took my dog out for an early walk.
Did some work for a neighbor later in the morning. Mainly moving some things and walking his dog. It was enjoyable because it was simple and his dog kept me company.
Went to job in the evening. The commute is insufferable. My job is insufferable. The people are insufferable. There are no dogs, it isn't a good place for them.
Came home late, tried to sleep but couldn't.
I've been awake almost 27 hours and no matter what I try my body won't sleep.
I feel broken.

>>33671
sucks. Hope you get better.

>>33592
So far I've read:
Ariadne up to volume 2. As he showed in Claymore, Yagi is one of the best mangaka when it comes to drawing action scenes where you can actually figure out what is going on. In this series he certainly lives up to my expectations in that respect, but unlike Claymore, the story is very generic shonen adventure stuff. I might have liked it if I was 10 years old, but i don't think I'll be buying any more of this series.

Lust Geass is about what I expected, a trashy ecchi manga. The drawing style is pretty good (which is the reason I bought it in the first place), but still I won't be buying anymore of this either. Also, the main heroine isn't my type.

Parasite Eve honestly blew me away. I only bought it because I liked Parasite Eve 2 (PS1 game) when I was a kid, but I loved so much about this manga. The character designs, the mtDNA parasite concept that serves as the premise, the way it deals with the topic of organ donation, and how all the sub-plots fit together in the end.
It also got me to do some further reading about biology. I started out reading some articles related to mitochondria on Wikipedia, then i listened to the audiobook of Richard Dawkins' The Selfish Gene which is referenced several times in PE, and now I'm on to JF Gariepy's recently released The Revolutionary Phenotype.

IRL, I'm on holiday for a week and will be visiting the only member of my family that I'm still in contact with.

I got hit by a car today. It was just a couple of minutes ago(10:50ish pm). I was getting off the bus and usually I go around the back of it since cars never go that way, but out of some stupid spur-of-the-moment decision I went in front this time. I don't normally use the bus this late, and my stop is pretty remote to begin with. Immediately after I just ran away. Luckily it was a relatively light hit, so i'll probably just get away with a bruise. From now on I wont cross until the bus leaves. I'm a little bit more thankful for being alive.

Post edited on 17th Nov 2019, 8:27pm

>>33681
Not going around the front is like rule #1 of using the bus. Drivers around these parts will honk and yell at you if you do that here.

>>33683
I've only been using the bus for a few months now. Plenty of people cross in front during the day too. I'm suprised people don't get hit more often.

My OCD or whatever it is keeps getting worse. I can barely concentrate on anything and I can't ever relax, I'm always thinking about dumb things that I know are dumb or I am getting up to wash my hands or do something else or worrying that I am not doing something right or that I should be doing something else right now, I'm unemployed but still have this stupid schedule that doesn't mean anything but I still follow and it makes me feel so constricted and unable to just lay back and do whatever I want. I can't enjoy something without all these dumb thoughts coming in to my head that are completely ridiculous either, even when watching anime I will be worrying that they have fake breasts or something equally as dumb when they are fictional characters and would never have fake breasts because the creator would never have envisioned them in that way. It's all so exhausting.

Today marks 4 weeks since I first found out about my armpit fetish. I've always considered the breast-armpit-arm area quite beautiful and attractive, but never looked at it in a sexual manner. At least, not solely focusing on that part.

Now I'm addicted to it. It began being the first thing I noticed about female bodies, and it further augmented the divide between being sexually attracted to 3DRL females, and 3DCG/2D ones. I could still fap to live porn before. Now, not anymore, as I less and less value other body parts and characteristics, and otherwise consider 2D more pretty.

It's also troubling me a bit in my relationship with my waifu. Precisely one month left to celebrate 2 years since we first met. We haven't consummated our marriage as of yet. Wasn't/Am not planning to do so for at least another year or two. I have however been paying particular attention to her armpits and imagining "fondling" with them. I do it more in a casual manner, tickling, for example, and I'm trying to restrain myself, almost scared of, not to be a creep or do something inappropriate.

Today I decided that I'll take this opportunity to learn how to better restrain sexual fantasies and perversions.

>>33685
I have the same sort of thoughts. Can't allow myself to fully relax and enjoy myself. Ever. I could be NEET with a year's rent saved and I would still have the thoughts.
A psychologist once blamed this kind of thing on a pervasive Protestant work ethic. Your parents needn't be religious to inculcate it in childhood. She wasn't a great diagnostician in my opinion, because in childhood I didn't have such thoughts. It's living in the capitalist machine with crumbling social safety nets that did it. Never goes away. Imagine if a worldwide revolution ushered in a socialist utopia like in some anarchist's wet dream. They would still have to treat generations of people for something like PTSD. Variable in its severity, granted. Just from the memory of this shit.

Sometimes I think about stopping my medication. I'm not sure but I think I feel weird some hours after I take one for the day. But sometimes I get sad because I think about sad things and I don't know which one it is.

>>33687

I spent two hours cuddling my body pillow after I woke up

>>33688
I feel somehow similar. It's like the generations that lived a war or a depression, they are permanently worried about amassing food and shit like that. I have a job and I'm still thinking about how many months I could live with the money I have saved, I feel guilty about spending and basically everything else. Sometimes every second I'm not worried, feeling bad or doing whatever repetitive task I feel guilty and like I'm wasting time or I'm forgetting something important.
For years I thought being a NEET was the source of my guilt but I think I still carry most of that shit.

I have been working hard at my job, but I don't really mind. I recently became better acquainted with one of my coworkers. This person also enjoys his job and is very kind, so that makes it easier to get through each day. However, I have started to feel lonely during times I do not have my coworker around; I fear that the massive tolerance to being alone I had developed over the course of my entire life is beginning to fade now that I have had a taste of the comfort of having someone be nice to me. I would therefore like to be my coworker's friend, but I don't think that would be possible without partaking in all sorts of normalfag social rituals, which I am far from familiar or comfortable with.
I also bought some books, which I look forward to receiving soon.

>>33711
That sounds nice. Try to keep that job as long as possible. Work you enjoy is vanishingly rare these days even for normals.

>>33712
Thank you for the advice. It is nice, but I don't expect to stay here forever. I routinely hope that I will be able to find similar fulfillment whenever I move on to something else.

In my experience, normalfags rarely like what they do. They seem to viscerally hate anything that isn't part of their routine of social rituals; in other words, they lack ambition or passion for anything besides shallow pursuits like chasing 3DPD. I suspect this is why so many consider it so abnormal or noteworthy for someone to have a hobby beyond superficial involvement. Many normalfags, for instance, might view routinely posting on (smaller) imageboards as fanatical because they don't enjoy anything besides social rituals and gossip (which, ironically, they routinely post about online, except on sites like facebook).

Why the fuck is everyone posting about their fucking jobs, what the fuck happened to this site? Don't you even know what N in T.O.H.N.O. stands for?

>>33716
Are you seriously trying to bring back this argument? Fitting every letter of the acronym isn't a criteria for posting here. Quite a few people need a job so they don't starve to death.

>>33716
You totally sound like the average Wizardchan user. What are we supposed to do when we reach 30 yo and our parents kick us out? And I know the wizardchan answer; "to kill yourself".
But that way you can only get a board populated with 20-something people. Maybe that's the point and we shouldn't be here, I don't know, I'm just thinking out loud.

I made a patch for an open source project, and it was accepted into it. The changes I made were simple, but it's still a nice feeling.

>>33845
I wrote a major patch fo an emulator a few months ago, but I'm too lazy to write the documentation that would make the patch useful to anyone, hence I haven't submitted it yet. I was planning to do it during the holidays, but my employer decided to make me work twice as much in the Christmas week as I would normally.

>>33846
I hope you are able to finish the documentation. What system is the emulator for, if I may?

Theres a lot of /so/posting lately.

>>33853
I think it's nice.

Bad weather today. I just wanna curl up and read a book or something...

Received my NEETbux, so I treated myself to wine and other fun stuff. Pizzas and internet (I stay offline most of the time).. etc.

I downloaded a few live Autechre albums and had a blast browsing boorus.

I returned to college despite my age.
My GPA wasn't great before, but now it's going to tank.
Communication courses are how they weed out the "undesirables."
I can't think well.
What's life?

I have to work cleaning movie theater's auditoriums after each showing, on Valentine's Day until late at night.

I can't wait to clean normie cum off of the seats until I'm exhausted.

>>34084
>normie cum
Do they actually have sex in movie theaters?

>>34085
I don't know how they would get away with it most times I've been to one unless it was dead in there. But I wouldn't mind a late night cleaning job, no one to bother me and I just do my own thing till it's over. I'm stuck in retail and I can't stand the horrible monsters I deal with every day I drag myself there anymore. The constant pressure to get them to sign up for shit when half of them can't even speak english (or any human language for that matter with the dumber one's) and everyone else has issues anyways. I had one chance at a job stocking trucks for delivery before around here and I should have taken it. My job is easy but people make it unbearable.

>>34061
I'm younger than you and plan on going to community college as well. First of all it's cheaper and my highschool GPA is terrible due to catching a bad virus that had me in the emergency room a couple of times, developing chronic migraines, and having a severe anxiety disorder as well as clinical depression.

Highschool was the worst time of my life. My mother constantly told my counselors and therapists lies which made the situation worse. None of my "intelligent" parents thought homeschooling me until I was physically and emotionally stable was good so I stayed back twice and basically do online classes at the adult center anyways so I really just do "homeschool"(So very ironic. The homeschool stigma needs to end). Yeah the situation was that nonsensical due to having ignorant parents who I NEVER lived with but wanted to compensate for their ineptitude and irresponsibility by coming in and ruining highschool for me even further. (Had me young, so they had to give me up to my Grandmother) Another interesting fact is that the guidance counselor and principal KNEW I should have been homeschooled but kept me in there anyways due to wanting to maintain their graduation rate to look "good". Man, I love how adults can exploit minors who have no say in the matter. Absolutely disgusting.

Anyways, my venting belongs on /so/ so I'l stop there. I'm not mad about community college because it's a much cheaper alternative and I heard it could be quite the experience. However, I plan to major in CompSci, and I don't want to transfer to a state university that will have me stay for an extra year (I want to leave asap so I can move away from my family into an apartment by myself). Plus, if I had gone straight to university, I would have not had to pay anything, because my family is a bunch of poorfags and I would have gladly exploited the system because I'm taking any chance life throws at me.

Anyways, any Compsci majors on here go to CC first and then transfer? Did you graduate in 4 years? I'm just curious because while there are credit transfer agreements for the Uni I want to go to, I'm not sure if they'll give me all of my major's classes in the allotted time even if I finish my gen Ed's. I feel like along with my gen Ed's, I'm probably going to have to take some introductory CompSci classes at CC too like discrete mathematics and Introduction to Programming.

>>34150
You should look at the details of the transfer agreement since this might vary between universities. Generally most general ED and lower-division courses should transfer, so it's best to get those out of the way in CC. In fact if anything it's better to do these in CC as opposed to uni because professors in uni are really not that good.

>>34157
Thank you for the information, I appreciate it. Turns out, the state uni I plan on attending has an extensive, well documented catalog to see class equivalents of all the CCs in my state.

>>34163
It doesn't happen to be a uni in the UC/CSU system, does it? (Just asking because the compsci major + existence of California's ASSIST transfer equivalence catalog made me think so).

>>34165
Nope, I dont live anywhere near California.

>>34165
Nope, I dont live anywhere near California.

I'm fine. Still cold though it's technically spring now. Was cloudy and had some precipitation today.

Basically, my whole day consisted of the following thoughts: I am tired of everything, but most of all of myself; I am untrained, I make the same mistakes all the time; there is no hope for me; I am disgusting. To be honest, I just want to fall asleep forever and either never wake up, or wake up in the ideal world from my point of view. Even when I look at other people who are better than me, or even at those who sincerely inspire me, for some reason this does not reassure me. They live in the same terrible world as I do, and they are not immune to the existential crisis, so it is essentially not important how good I am. I just can not cope with the absurdity of the world, it kills me. You can look at how normalfags go to work every day, study, give birth to children. I do not understand anything. This huge system scares me. The mechanistic behavior of such people can be ridiculed, and sometimes I do it when I am in a good mood, but then I admit to myself that I just cover my true negative feelings with irony, like Monty Python did. In the end, my actions are also mechanical, they are just not so approved by society (I sit at home all the time and other things of this kind). I just want to be a different person and live in a different world, completely isolated from other universes.

>>34323
It is only as bad as you imagine it.
What is "I" but an imaginary idea? If you lie in warmth and comfort in your bed, everything is good enough. Goals can be set up to a day, not up to a life, there is no merit in comparing yourself to other individuals in a (despotic, my god!) system. The only person you should compare yourself to, is yourself.
The system is nothing but a big illusion. There is not much to understand. Everything is mechanized, you can blame whoever you want, but there is no exit(except in escapism) to a system which is not in the hands of something like human fate.
Accept your true self, create the best system for yourself. You have to live for yourself, it doesn't matter what anybody tells you, it's still FOR YOURSELF.

Sometimes when I'm bored I reread an archived /mai/ post.

Weekend now. Lazy day.

Pasta lunch.

After going really well for several months, my weight loss has plateaued for the last two weeks.

I payed my tuition today, and the realization that I'm still taking higher-ed courses at my fucking age dawned on me once more. College would be awesome if all I had to deal with were math and the sciences. I can manage those; Even if I don't understand some of the material, hard work does pay off. The other bullshit necessitates something I don't possess. Writing a non-technical paper murders every part of my being; I'm either formulating a response to hokum, or trying to wrap my mind around emotions or some trash like that. It's impossible! The people who like this shit must've failed algebra or something (not that I haven't, too, failed it). All I want is an okay job to fund my hobbies.

Why does the process have to suck this much ass?
Why can't I be reborn as a little girl living in a quaint, Japanese seaside town?
Why can't I pay a doctor to peacefully kill me?
WHY

>>35743
Sounds tough but hang in there. It *will* get better.

>>35743
>The other bullshit necessitates something I don't possess. Writing a non-technical paper murders every part of my being; I'm either formulating a response to hokum, or trying to wrap my mind around emotions or some trash like that.
They're trying to make sure students are "well-rounded". Writing bullshit papers where you make massive assumptions and present evidence that doesn't actually prove your thesis because you have to take it from the articles they selected is something they consider an essential skill. I liked it since I'm good at it.

I think there's institutions with a 100% stem curriculum, but those are hard to get into.

Post edited on 23rd Aug 2020, 5:45am

Yesterday I posted here about having a game idea but not implementing it because I hate programming.
Today I implemented it, it melted some hours away which I hate. It's really primitive and the pieces every so often don't clear out correctly, I don't know why because the code is really ugly.
I've noticed that if I plan out the code nicely I never end up doing anything and if I just go ahead it ends up being unmanageable, I can only go full prairie dog or full beaver it seems.
Game here:
https://filebin.net/dl32tj7x3me0rdea/discs.love?t=zykwju5u
if anyone is interested, can be played with the love2d engine.
How it works is in pic here:
>>>/cr/3118

>>35745
For me it only got worse.

Practiced landings and radio calls, few to some place with a bunch of amazon warehouses with a huge airport. On return had breakfast with my dad who ranted about the fake disease and how everyone who wears a mask is a stupid "queer". Bought my mom a new cane from a yardsale on the way back 'home', while there a kid was staring at me with a confused look when I went for the canes, who then started yelping like a horse and hooting while hopping up and down. After getting back went with my mom to our po box to get a new headset I bought and get some lunch on the way back. After we ate, she left for the casino, so I had the place to myself and finished playing the asscreed game I was on (origins). With that done, decided to just chill on my laptop for a while.

>>35794
>my dad who ranted about the fake disease
Isn't your dad rich? How is he that dumb?

>>35795
He firmly believes it's a hoax created to adjust and manipulate the economy, Allowing big businesses and savvy investors to buy up stocks on the cheap then rake in the cash after the magic cure suddenly pops up after the upcoming election. Hospitals meanwhile are falsifying reports about their case numbers in order to increase their funding. At best that it's designed to kill off senior citizens who are a drain on the economy.
It's better than what my uncle thinks, which is that the virus was created to make Trump look bad, and all the protesters and sick people across the world are bought and paid for. Where as my mom thinks it's some sort of attack by bad people.

I just stumbled on this imageboard from Google what are you guys all about??

>>35797
Wow, this place still uses noko, huh? You don't see that very often these days.

>>35797
Whatever the topic says I guess?

>>35799
Why?

>>35797
ロリ

>>35801
Places like 4shit did away with the email field all together.

>>35803
Yes, this is what we're all about.

>>35796
We're in the middle ages. Those dumb believes are a symptom of something else, the end of civilization, the ultimate crisis. When the experts and organizations are into absolute idiocy the ordinary people will be lost and try to fill the void with something else.
Sometimes I wonder what is the stupid shit I believe myself without being conscious of it.

I have been feeling guilty about neglecting slower imageboards but I often have nothing to add. Its a catch-22.

>>35811
>but I often have nothing to add
Merely posting a screenshot of an anime you're watching is enough.

Monster Girl Doctor is such a cheap, wish-fulfilment anime. I can't stop watching it...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gXTjdm4N9tY

I wanted to post on /vn/ about some visual novels I read but it looks like there are only threads about classics, good VNs, and type-moan, so I don't want to make a kuso thread for what is probably a kuso vn.

Post edited on 15th Sep 2020, 10:21am

>>35938
A kuso VN is still a VN. The board really needs more activity.

>>35939
Then I will later post about Kukkoro and Nin Nin Days if I still have the energy for it.

I went for a walk by the sea at night. It was nice and I might make a habit out of it.

VNs both seem to be dying and having a sort of renaissance, I see more translations and discussions in the western side of things than ever before but most new releases seem to be pornographic in nature. Not that there's anything wrong with that, but still.
Key making a mobile game was sad to see as well.

It's getting noticeably chilly. People complain about summer a lot on imagebords, but i'll take heat over cold any day.

>>35944
>People complain about summer a lot on imagebords
most of those people are either fat or live in very warm countries.

>>35943
>most new releases seem to be pornographic in nature
You mean as in being outright nukige?

>>35944
It's easy to stay warm in winter. It's impossible to cool down in summer.

Some months ago I took off the pillowcase from my daki and replaced it with the plain white one I had sitting around from Artscow. It's not as soft or smooth and it doesn't make me want to stay in bed as long nor does it help me fall asleep easily. I don't like the flaps it has on the sides either, I don't know why they thought that was a good idea. The pillowcase is also too small so it compresses my daki.
But even with all of my complaints I'm happier. The smaller pillowcase keeps my daki firmer and the sturdier fabric makes it so that I don't have to keep a skin-smooth shave every night for fear of ruining the delicate fabric like before. Now because I don't have to shave as frequently I'm not cutting myself almost every time because I'm not forced to shave against the grain and I can let it grow out for a while to let my skin heal. I don't have to maintain myself to a detrimental degree like before. A part of me misses being able to look at a pretty face on my pillow but in the dark of night my imagination can be put to use.

>>35948
My thoughts exactly.

>>35944
The nice thing is that's prime walking season. It's boring but good for you. Easier if you live rural since there's less people to bother you.

I tried making a pure redhead character but it's really hard to imagine them as such. They keep turning into a slut in my mind and I hate it.

>>36033
I've heard there are a number of stereotypes associated with redheads, but never anything specific. Is being a slut one of them?

>>36034
I'm pretty sure someone will correct me later but based on my limited experience I've noticed these personalities are most common on redheads:
>slut - a variation of this is sometimes the lesbian bishojo
>violent - often a delinquent
>villain
>tsundere
Obviously, exceptions exist and I probably missed some but those are the ones I've noticed so far.

>>36035
I think country bumpkin is another common one.

Nobody is more of a slut than purples! though im probably having Eiken associations.

>>36033
I think this is because of your mind and not because of redheads.

>>36038
I'm pretty sure it is but I don't know what to do about it.

>>36046
Just having big boobs doesn't make you a slut!

( ﾟ -ﾟ) I have been feeling very bored recently. So I read the news. Without talking about the politics, is protesting over any social issue worth the risk to public health to you?

>>36059
>is protesting over any social issue worth the risk to public health to you?
Nope. It's not worth anything at all to me. I know that other people will never want what I want. Trying to convince them would be pointless and self-destructive.

>>36059
Doesn't seem like it. Far as I can tell peaceful protests rarely make any difference until they turn into riots. It's only then that anyone in positions of power start to pay attention, but once it gets to that point you might be putting your life in risk. I think it comes down to how much you care about the cause and if it's worth the possible sacrifice.

Post edited on 26th Sep 2020, 1:42pm

>>36061
>Far as I can tell peaceful protests rarely make any difference until they into riots
as for why it's "rarely" rather than never, let me bring up a counter-example.

German chancellor Gerhard Schröder had already promised George W. Bush in private that he would go to war with Iraq if the US decided to invade; but always the opportunist, the millions of Germans who went out in protest against the war convinced him that promising peace would be the only way for him to win the upcoming election against his warmongering opponent Edmund Stoiber.
End result: Schröder won and kept Germany out of the Iraq war. Since this had ruined his personal relationship with the Zionist power structure in the West, in order to enrich himself he made Germany's energy supply dependent on Russia in exchange for the opportunity to retire into a cozy but well-paid position in a company run by one of Putin's cronies.

Please keep political discussion in /tat/.

>>36062
Pointless, irrelevant, masturbatory post. If you have any sense of shame, delete it.

>>36064
While it's a little more political than I'd like to see here, I'd say it has a point in showing that non-violent protests can work. Even if it could have used some trimming down.

>>36061
Oh these fiery but 93% peaceful protests will accomplish something alright. It won't be what they want though. Let them keep accelerating, I'm ready.

>>36064
Looks like you got lost on your way to twatter.

I apologize for bringing up politics. I wasn't talking about the effectiveness of protests, I was just concerned about the spread of covid amongst demonstrators.

>>36066
>Looks like you got lost on your way to twatter.
I'm willing to bet you use twitter or some "alternative" more than me or most people on tohno-chan. You don't even know what to be ashamed of.
>>/so/25338

>>36068
Nothing wrong with Pawoo!

>>36059
In this climate? No. It really only hurts your movement in a way as well. I don't think the US ever introduced proper lock downs anyway but here they did and for many it really smarts to see people on the street protesting and then a few days later to be locked down for a fortnight. I'm not going to name names but there are movements here that have been increasingly angering the average citizen by doing things like this and by blocking traffic and I don't think it helps there cause.

It's simply irresponsible.

>>36070
I'm from California. Our mayor announced a "lockdown" but no one really knew what it meant, so everyone took it to mean we should buy guns and TP. We had a mandatory curfew for one night, but that was only because of the partly unrelated riots. A lot of businesses were asked to close, but enforcement is pretty poor to say the least. Due to a horrible system (intentional or not) in which people are punished by being made to pay fines, those with a lot of money don't need to obey any of the politics if they don't want to and it doesn't hurt them much. In some cases, businesses stand to earn so much in profit they can stay open and pay fines as part of the operating costs. An example being a gym my dad has become obsessed with (I make fun of him for having a crush on the owner), Said gym had it's power shut off by the city, but they installed a solar system, they were made to pay $1000 a day in fines, but being the only gym in the area still open they were making four times that a day. The city also cut off their water but no one seemed to care.

I tried to spend time with my parents today. It was fun but I ran out of things to say rather quickly but tried to listen and make chit chat to be good company.

>>36071
That's hilarious.

I just realized that pictures start with 16*... now. Can time just slow down?

>>36099
Time passing wouldn't feel so bad if we weren't fixated on the past.

I have been trying to become a norm, to "grow up" and stop being a parasite on society.
The shit I see on social media is sickening, and not for the reasons they want you to be sickened. How do people do this?

>>36128
I think there's a laundry list of problems with modern society, is there any part in particular you're referring to?

>>36128
Going on social media is not the path to paying for your living expenses. You also don't need to be a normalfag to have a job. I'm only saying this to set the record straight.

>>36132
I don't want to be an outcast if I re-enter society, I want to be aware of what my peers are into and doing.
>>36130
As cliche as it is to say, both sides of issues live in these bubbles of warped reality where everything is far worse than it actually is, and the other side is the cause of said issue. People are so much more hyped up about everything than I remember when I dropped out, its almost kind of amusing that a shut-in is more grounded in reality than some people these days.

>>36137
>I want to be aware of what my peers are into and doing
You've completely lost your mind then. There is nothing to anything they are into or are doing. It is entirely soul-devouring, mind-numbing bullshit, 100%. That's what their head is filled with; that's what they choose to prioritize and spend their time on. Being an outcast is the best thing you can possibly do for your mental well-being. When it comes to other people, all you have to know is how to deal with them and not stand out too much. If they don't cause you any problems, that's the optimal position to be in.

>>36137
Not using social media doesn't make you an outcast, or unaware of your peers. Especially if the sort of sites you're using are asinine shit like Facebook or Twitter. You're essentially subscribing to the hugboxes of the insane like that, the sort of people who think shouting into the white and blue void will make a difference in their lives. I'd argue there's 0 correlation between integrating yourself into society and using those awful sites.
Despite what people are led to believe, Twitter is very much just a loud minority of the general populace.

>>36140
Okay, thank you. It's making me reconsider trying but if they are not important it doesn't sound as bad.
I will need to think about this!

>>36128
I tried to warn you but you looked away. None of that "growing up," "being a productive member of the yadda yadda yadda" shit is real. These are just some of the tools they use to make you a warden of your own prison. You chose to walk the path of an exploitable NPC.

>>36143
All humans enjoy socializing and exercise, I am trying to receive an education so that I'm not working a job I hate.
I don't think having empathy and wanting my father to retire when he should is becoming any of that.
I won't derail the thread any more than I have.

I went to Aldi today and I bought a bottle of almond milk pumpkin spice latte instead of the starbucks one they have because the almond milk was cheaper. I didn't like it and the pumpkin taste doesn't feel like it was strong enough. I think it was store brand or something. I'll buy the starbucks one again next time or hopefully I'll find cheaper bottles of pumpkin spice latte at other stores.

Lately I've been enjoying cute crying faces. I like to fantasize about bullying a cute girl in various ways like bringing her weight into question or pinching her cheeks for minor mistakes until she cries so I can savor her cute crying face. I'm worried that at this rate I'll become a sadist despite never having had such a fetish before. There are probably much worse fetishes I could have but I still don't like the idea of being a sadist. Maybe because I wouldn't want to have a masochistic whore as a waifu. I can even maybe get used to it and tell myself it's not too terrible but then I remember that I have a strong love for injury moe and I get worried again.

>>36207
>can savor her cute crying face
That's a slippery slope to enjoying ryona.

>>36208
I know, that's why I'm worried.

>>36208
Sad crying and in pain crying look different.

There are worse fetishes to have than Ryona.

>>36211
Like?

>>36225
scat
farts
insect
guro
prolapse
unbirth
vore
etc

>>36226
Insects are not worse than ryona.

>>36226
>scat
>farts
At least these two don't imply trauma or violence.

>>36207
I don't get why and how anyone could enjoy something like that. I'm literally unable of understanding it.

>>36230
That's probably just what fetishes are, I don't understand majority of fetishes and even more so bizarre ones like >>36226. The bigger question for me is why fetishes exists in the first place.

>>36230
>>36232
People like novelty and strong emotions often get mixed up in people's heads. Pity, revulsion, embarrassment and anger can get mixed with arousal. When people get excited about something, because it's novel and causes strong emotion, they get some kind of thrill out of it. People can get addicted to that thrill and form aberrant patterns of thought. Maybe some people have a predisposition for some things too. People who are more conformist or have weaker emotions/sex drive probably don't have as many fetishes.

Post edited on 6th Oct 2020, 1:53pm

>>36235
>People can get addicted to that thrill and form aberrant patterns of though
One might also get slowly acclimated to a certain level of "perversity" and thus seek something even more extreme in order to recreate that comparative thrill. This may not be true for all people though (owing likely to different susceptibilities as you mentioned)

There's nothing wrong with 2D ryona. The only reason why it's controversial in the first place is because it hits too close to home for certain people.

>>36228
Don't delude yourself, those are just as depraved if not worse. I don't know why people get hung up on having a moral superiority over fetishes of all things.

>>36238
I'd agree that any controversy is unwarranted, especially given that no one (*) seems to complain about RPG games or whatever where you kill enemies. And psychologically humans in the past have probably been acclimated to far worse considering that tribal warfare was not uncommon.

That being said, while I used to "enjoy" ryona – where my liking for it mostly stemmed from the "injury moe" aspect of tending to and caring for a damaged stranger – after seeing a sketch of a character whom I adored being beaten up, I realized that I really wouldn't want her to be subject to pain in the first place.

(*) Well aside from that minority that will always find a reason to complain about something, be it nudity or violence.

>>36238
Purity must be protected, reality and 3D is ugly as it is and I believe that ugliness should remain in that realm. I don't agree with 2D ryona but that's my personal point of view.

>>36240
2D can be anything. That's what makes it great.

>>36235
It's pure evil then.

>>36238
>Don't delude yourself, those are just as depraved if not worse. I don't know why people get hung up on having a moral superiority over fetishes of all things.
Firstly, I merely took issue with that list. Secondly, by stating their level of depravity, you are asserting your moral superiority. Further, if one thinks that shit-fixation is as bad or worse than violence, then I am awfully perplexed.
Regardless, I agree with you that people should just let others' fetishes be--especially so when we're talking about the 2D realm. I enjoy both ryona and prolapsing. Who gives a fuck?

>>36226
You people have no fucking idea what you're talking about. I personally fap to all these fetishes, and have been fapping for years to most of them. Scat, vore, body fluids, snuff etc. You name and I fapped to it. To this day I miss Gurochan. And I fap to all these(except guro because it would be gore) in 2d and 3d. The times when I would masturbate myself to them seem like a distant paradise, the innocence of youth. I would empty all my bank account just to be able to return to that state of innocence. I struggle a lot with lust, even today I'm just back from hours of late night fapping. I can't stop. I fap to some things you may consider even "worse" but are not there. Sometimes I fap to all of them at once, like a girl using you as a toilet them hard-voreing you and digesting you out. Full tour. This was innocence. Hardly can I do that anymore, because a year or so ago the FALL began. I fell into a world of sin and depravity. Of guilt and shame like other anon said here. I literally complete those iceberg charts of fetishes and cannot see any fetishes from the FALL there. They alone could make a whole new chart. I was innocent and didn't know. Enjoy your scat, your body fluids, your vore of all kinds, your violence. Because this period of innocence is gonna end someday, and you will know the true meaning of degenerate.

>>/r/1

Out of all the fetishes that exist, I don't understand why people like gross shape-less insect things especially when mammals are very aesthetic if you like non-humans.

>>36255
It's not about the insect. It's pretty much the same as an alien fetish. It's exciting because it's so bizarre. Insects don't have an expression and seem emotionless.

>>36250
Sorry, I meant >>/r/15
I apologize for the inconvenience.

>>36257
Heh, I had forgot about this rule. But then this entire discussion is against it anyway. What the hell does "Do not pass go" means.

>>36258
Nevermind, I found out the meaning.

It is a legendary post that should be noted by all anons diving into fetishes.

I think they gave me The Coof. Goodbye, cruel world.

Sometimes I want to watch this anime again or read the manga just to watch something that at least tries to have a mom be cute and a major character instead of just being a sexually frustrated whore but then I remember the horrible twintails girl. It annoys me that she's a major character because she never shuts her damn mouth or has much of any redeeming qualities. I haven't hated a character this much since D.W. from Arthur.

A week ago I watched the Made In Abyss third movie since the blue only recently came out. Forgot to post about it before. I liked it quite it a bit even though one of the characters felt kind of "cheap". I hope season 2 comes soon.

Had my hair cut the other day and she really took off more than I'd like. Now it looks funny because it's a shrunken version of what I wanted. It'll grow out and be fine but in the meantime it really sucks.

At least I won't have to get a haircut for another ~4-6 months.

I want to think that I'm finally recovering from the slippery slope of breast sizes I fell into but I still find myself looking through the "gigantic_breasts" tag on gelbooru. I know what I like and want for daily life, a woman with a more slender body and graceful mannerisms to accompany it is very beautiful to me. Not only that, but it can go very well with the kind of soothing personality I prefer. But I can't help but enjoy the idea of such unrealistically large breasts that I can bury my entire head in, watch bounce with each step she takes, or drink the endless supply of milk from. Not to mention I just like the look of it.
"Thicc" is not a preference I would consider refined and as such I'm ashamed to like it. It's very dedicated to a raw sexual appeal and I doubt how well it works outside of being completely nude since large enough proportions can get to a point where clothes does little to enhance the body's beauty.
Part of why this is a problem for me is because I've let a character I created, who I will not post, and like to draw often be subjected to this slippery slide. The last few pictures I have drawn of her are ones where I decided to scale back her proportions as such excessive ones really change the impression someone can get from looking at the character before they learn more about them and I haven't been an exception to this. But unfortunately it's hard to go back from what I found myself liking, regardless of how good or bad the reasons may look. It's probably silly to lose sight of the identity of your own character but calling it silly doesn't solve the problem. I would like to change my preferences back to where they used to be but I don't know if I can just condition myself to have certain preferences.

Yesterday I helped an h-doujin translation despite not knowing Japanese after somebody who claims to be a typesetter contacted me. In the end it was probably bullshit instigated by a troll. Here's a transcript of our messages and how I figured it out.

It's so bizarre I'm not sure what to think about it.
http://tohno-chan.com/ot/src/transcript.pdf

Post edited on 31st Oct 2020, 10:41am

>>36517
>nhentai
He was probably a troll

>>36517
>http://tohno-chan.com/ot/src/transcript.pdf
Woah I thought the url of uploaded files had the timestamp as the filename. How does this preserve the original filename?

That aside, what a strange conversation. Reading through those questions makes me feel like I'm taking the SAT again (read a half-page of text, answer a bunch of questions about what is meant by some quoted portion). It doesn't strike me as a "troll" in the conventional sense, because he clearly put some effort into typing up those questions and I don't see what he would get out of it ("teehee I made some random stranger analyze hentai" doesn't really some that risible).

Post edited on 31st Oct 2020, 1:53pm

>>36519
Literally every image and mp3 is the same on tc. Are you also messing with me?

>>36520
No, consider this image. Its filename is "reading.jpg" but when uploaded, the filename stored on the server is derived from the unix timestamp at time of upload.

>>36521
I see what you mean. It doesn't happen to mp3 or pdf files, so I guess that just happens to images for whatever reason.

>>36522
You're right - that raises the question of what happens if someone uploads another pdf with the same title.

I guess it actually overwrites the original. (Also apologies for overwriting your transcript, please re-upload that since it's a good read).

I guess that's how you find a bug! Tohno can you look into patching it? It should be an easy fix I think. While the fact that it can be used to overwrite others' uploaded files isn't really too significant considering it hasn't been abused so far, I think the greater danger is that since files are stored in a per-board namespace you can accidentally overwrite another thread's files unintentionally.

Post edited on 31st Oct 2020, 2:10pm

jpg converted to pdf

Different jpg converted to pdf with same name. My guess is it'll just link to the first one.

>>36524
I think it also depends on the user's cache. When I click on either one, it sends me to the orignal, but when I click on either one in a different browser, it sends me to yours. Also, I don't think tohno knows anything about bug fixing. He's said as much in /fb/ before.

Post edited on 31st Oct 2020, 2:17pm

reupload
http://tohno-chan.com/$/src/transcript.pdf
https://www.docdroid.net/7pNuEnl/transcript-pdf

Post edited on 31st Oct 2020, 2:51pm

>>36517
They've replied to me.

>The "translator" says he has a specific serialization but, conveniently, doesn't name it. So you appear to be correct. :P

>Thanks for your reply, and for the suggestion.

spooky

>>36526
Doesn't this mean that image-uploads can also experience a timestamp collision (although very unlikely?). I skimmed through vichan source and didn't see any locks/mutex preventing it (it just seems to write the file to a directory via imagemagick writeImage), and since php is fork-per-connection there's the possibility of concurrent writes.

I watched the third episode of the Yuuko bullying show hoping to give it another try and maybe see why everyone likes it so much. I just remembered why I dropped it in the first place. It's fine and good but I really don't like the comedy, it feels kind of mean-spirited since so many jokes are at the expense of Yuuko. I just feel bad for her watching it.

>>36562
> it feels kind of mean-spirited since so many jokes are at the expense of Yuuko
Yeah Shamiko is indeed a pitiable character, but at least to me the balance of the jokes never swung too far in the "mean-spirited" direction. It was clear that Momo cared for shamiko and vice-versa (unlike gabriel dropout, for instance), which usually softened any jokes at her expense.

>>36563
I'm not that poster but I share the same view as you, I can stomach Machikado Kazoku but Gabriel Dropout is just painful to watch.

>>36562
She's somewhat pitiful but things get better for her as it goes. I think it's nice to see how her life is noticeably improved by her relationship with Momo as time goes on.

i tried out manjaro xfce today. i think it looks quite nice out of the box.

i'm high. i installed vimium on brave, it's super comfy even thouugh i don't use vim i'm familar with vim shortcuts. i've been talking with 2 girls over on tinder, they're cute. how was you day/night/whatever, anon?

fuck off with your tinder shit

>>36586
Funny, the day before yesterday I installed Manjaro's KDE flavor. But yeah, their XFCE looks quite good.

I commissioned an artist and after the second time I asked for changes to the sketches they sent me they haven't replied. It's been more than a week now so I think they dropped my commission. A friend told me sometimes they take a long time but I would have assumed they would at least keep in touch. A week after I asked for those changes I asked them if they are still working on it or if they dropped it but it's been a few days since I asked and I received no response to that either. Maybe I asked for changes one too many times and they got fed up with me or maybe I'm just impatient. I feel like I have no way of knowing since I don't normally commission artists. Pic not related.
>>36587
It's nice to know mods actually are actually awake on this site.

>>36589
Do you pay before or after receiving the drawing (or is it like an escrow situation?)

>>36592
The way they have it work is I pay after receiving the finished product.

>>36593
Then it's possible that he thought you were too picky or otherwise had some bad feeling. It seems like a large risk on his end to collect payment only after finishing the final product. I don't know if that's standard for commissions, but I've heard that for (software) freelancing most people usually request a percentage upfront.

Post edited on 6th Nov 2020, 10:20pm

>>36589
It once took me over 4 years to get an artist to do my commission.

If I had to guess they're probably busy with school or some shit. It's always "finals" this "midterms" that with 20somethings on the internet. They'll likely prioritize that and ignore everything else.

>>36594
I've heard artists actually prefer that people be picky and precise in what they want. They don't like having to do guesswork while making something the client probably wont want.

this is >>36587 , sorry if i ofended anyone with my comment. needless to say i was pretty high, lmao. don't take my tinder comment as a sign for a normie takeover or whatever, i've been lurking this and other small imageboards for a long while now. love this place, even though i don't really post.

I'm pretty sure you haven't lurked long enough.

>>36587
Oh yes, rub it in my face why don't you. I hope you die.

>>36589
In my experience, the delivery rate for commissions is directly correlated to how complicated your request is and how familiar the artist is with what you want. Every illustration I've requested is usually worded something to the effect of "I'd like you to draw (waifu). The composition and pose is your choice." I pay upfront and don't contact the artist until it's finished. Even then, I still only have a 60 percent success rate because it's an obscure character from an old series.

I wanted to translate a game for some people, but it turns out that my translations are unnecessary, unwanted, and have only had an adverse effect on the people who play. It wasn't an incredible amount of work, but it was enough of an effort for me to be incredibly disappointed when the only thing people think of my translations is that I'm an amateur who only ever breaks shit due to a script issue I didn't even know existed.
This isn't even mentioning that people don't give a shit about my hand translations when they don't care about the difference between them and terrible edited machine translations, and that most of the text I translated would never be seen by anyone anyways, either since it's impossible or because it's buried so far down in a dialogue tree that they'd never bother going to look for it.
I was doing it as a volunteer, so really the only thing I really had to look forward to was people being happy about it, but it seems like I'm not really getting that sort of reaction and never will. All it's really done is put stress on me since I've always been worried about how it would be received, and quality checking, but then it just turns out that I did the one thing I wanted to avoid doing which was breaking the game and making everyone hate me. It's demoralizing, annoying, and it seems my existence isn't even needed anyways, so I'll just forget about it before I start to harbor unnecessary resentment towards certain people there.

So, with that, I suppose I have free time to translate something else. Any ideas? Preferably something that doesn't involve breaking a script I can't even read and wasn't told the existence of. Maybe a novel or manga or short video or something.

>>36636
You shouldn't worry about us english-only peasants. We're entitled and jealous. I'd recommend just enjoying your understanding of Japanese. I would appreciate it if you translate this https://exhentai.org/g/1639538/ea8e0119e8/ , but it's way too much of a Herculean task for me to ask you to. Translating random images on boorus might also be good like this one https://img2.gelbooru.com/samples/88/32/sample_88327522c435d6458cc3e31ddc54d25b.jpg I can't ask you to do that though.

>>36638
Not him, but there are phone apps that can translate text. They're not perfect but they give you a general idea of what's being said.

>>36639
I know what ocr is. It's still not nearly as good as being able to understand something as soon as you see it.

>>36636
Translating shorts is fun (especially if you're able to acquire the JP script), and you can just chuck them on nyaa. There are lots of random unsubbed things, for instance machikado mazoku minis. But reciprocally it's not going to have a large or very appreciative audience. And doing timing can be a pain (I haven't done timing myself, since the one time I collaborated someone with someone on a series he took care of the timing. And we had access to the JP script so poor listening comprehension wasn't a factor).

Another impactful thing you can do is translate ED/OPs. Even for popular shows these can often be missing (especially for full versions). It's also very easy to do, and you can have a bit of fun in coming up with good sounding English equivalents for phrases. And JP lyrics are also easy to find.

There's also a /sub/ board here on TC. It'd be neat if that was active again.

Post edited on 9th Nov 2020, 6:56pm

>>36638
>You shouldn't worry about us english-only peasants.
You're right, I shouldn't even bother. I'm basically God. Thanks for resolving this inner crisis of mine, since I was losing sleep over confidence in my own divinity.

I listened to the Gunslinger Girl OST. I'm in tears.

I had a "conversation" with someone in the replies of a comment on an End of Eva ost video over the course of a few days. It kind of reminded me why I disable comments and how little value there is in talking to most people. These comment sections are all like a bunch of people circjerking over how well adjusted they are and how wonderful their worldview is.

Original comment:
>This was such a well made movie. I wish more people could see the optimistic meaning behind it instead of looking at it shallow in a depressing way. Its message is inheritely optimistic. It's about accepting the "AT fields" that exist in our psychology and we protect ourselves with, but behind them are just people who want to be accepted. The human instrumentality is the "Koombaya" everyone comes together idealism, but that it may not be as you hope. Our reality is accepting that we have these barriers and it's apart of what makes us human, and that we must strive under our own will (Not communism or forced koombaya) to come together as a species. And it starts with each individual accepting themselves first, and from there being able to also accept others. From here you can come together.

Me:
It's a pretty message, but it's really not true. There's no intrinsic value to the way we are or live. All this positivity stuff is just a way of compensating for not being able to change things by pretending that there is something intrinsically good about people's inability to fully understand one another. I have no doubt that society will reach a blockade where humans as they are now can go no further.

Some other guy replying to me:
>See now that's the beautiful thing with Evangelion. Hideaki Anno even said that they leave the message vague enough that it's open to individual interpretation. With that being the case, I think everyone's EVA experience is unique in a sense.

Me:
I think how people interpret it depends on whether they actually have a mental abnormality or not. Most people feel bad from time to time, but if they're both capable of it and actually enjoy social interaction, they'll obviously agree with the message as it's stated. Since Eva, Anno has become happier in his personal life, but his creative output has worsened.

Eva failed to get otaku "out of their shells" because its message didn't account for some people being more content while isolating themselves. Since quarantine started, I've never been happier. People like that are universally shunned or made fun of. Interacting with others isn't worth "improving yourself"(changing yourself) by society's arbitrary metric of improvement.

Plus, the characters, for all of their flaws, are still more appealing than most people in real life.

Him:
>Well while I don't necessarily agree with you, my point still stands. If that's how you interpreted it, that's the way you see it. It's like the Rorschach test.

Me:
You could make a case that Charlotte's web is an anti-abortion story. Eva isn't unique in that people can construe whatever themes they want from it. The actual message Eva tried to convey isn't that obscure in my opinion, regardless of how mysterious Anno says it is. My "interpretation" of the message is probably almost the same as yours, what's different is how I feel about that interpretation.

Him:
>And that's your interpretation. Everything can be subjective dude, that's all I'm sayin.

Me:
You should consider saying more than a trite "everything is subjective" point.

Him:
>I'm more so trying to politely end this conversation because it's going nowhere.
>Plus, I have nothing to discuss with someone as close minded as you.

Me:
"Plus, I have nothing to discuss with someone as close minded as you." Apparently you've figured out that I'm too much of close-minded person to be worth discussing anything with after reading a few paragraphs I wrote. If it's so easy to figure people out like that, I wonder what the point of instrumentality was? Very interesting interpretation.

>>36803
I don't really see what you were arguing about.
But I don't really see what are people arguing about most of the time. At some point I just see words words but no meaning. I don't know if it's a fault of our language that makes people fall into vicious dialectic circles or I'm just dumb and I don't get what people are talking about.

>>36804
Basically I wrote a dissenting opinion on a popular comment and someone who agreed with the general consensus went out of their way to tell me everybody has a different opinion. I tried actually discussing this difference in opinion and why people would feel differently about the same thing, but he kept dismissing my attempts by repeating "everything is subjective". When I called him out on this directly, he ironically called me closed minded to justify not saying anything else.

A lot of fake "conversation" is subtext and ego battles. There really was no point to his first reply except to dismiss me "nicely"(in a roundabout way). He might have even done it subconsciously. He never intended to talk to me.

>>36805
>"everything is subjective"
Post-modernism is deleterious garbage.

>>36806
Post-modernism gets a bad rap because of politics and how easy it is to abuse, but it can work really well in fiction. Shiki and No Country for Old Men are two of my favorite examples of post-modernism being used correctly. It can create a type of atmosphere and feeling you can't find elsewhere. It's just another tool in the creative toolbox. I like post-modernism more than modernism actually.

>>36803
The moment you try to argue with people on social media sites that have a 'social validation' point system with likes/upvotes, disikes/downvotes is the moment that you have failed. These people aren't looking for a means to discuss and ruminate over their belief systems, but rather, they are looking for social accredation, or clout from others to help them fill in their little bubble of self-esteem. TLDR; they are seeking attention.

Most people though don't care about arguing about the semantics of their thoughts anyways. It seems like the guy you were talking to just didn't want to 'waste' his energy on arguing. Try not to argue in a youtube comment section alright? Great waste of time.

I don't think your statement was closed minded by the way. I feel like the guy you were replying to was the closed minded one. Never did you discredit the initial comment you were just giving a differing sentiment towards the interpretation. I felt that the guy replying to you thought you were being antagonistic and attacking his viewpoint.

>>36803
I've gotten into too many pointless arguments on YouTube comments that just ended up resembling the Spongebob "It's not my wallet" meme.

>>36809
>It seems like the guy you were talking to just didn't want to 'waste' his energy on arguing.
What's odd is that he was the one who intitated it. I left my first comment with no intention or expectation of a discussion/argument. I can't relate to why someone would start a conversation and then just drop it right after.

>>36811
It's because, he probably made the false assumption that you were gonna leave it at that. People are surprised when their arguments are challenged.

So tired, just wanna lie down & sleep. Zzzzzzz.

>>36887
Me too except I want to do it forever.

For the first time in a long time I will go to sleep earlier than I normally do. Good night.

I found out about this website, theporndude.com, which has reviews of porn websites. Suprisingly, there's no ads on it. A pretty weird concept to begin with since most people can probably figure out if they like a website or not just by looking at it for a bit, which is faster than reading a review. Pretty much every website seems to be rated 4 or 5 stars too. It presents itself as everything being written by one guy, who loves going on porn sites and talking about them, but after a few minutes, you see some inconsistencies. The writing style is a little different on each review and some websites have more than one review. The stance on hentai is also inconsistent. Some articles say he loves it, other say he doesn't. Most of the reviews are focused on praising the subject matter with only slight, surface level criticism and have a mostly cordial tone with a bit of inoffensive dude bro humor mixed in. This gelbooru review stood out to me though.

>Alright, faggots, I ain’t one to be jerking off to gelbooru animated cartoon bitches, but once in a while, even I like to shake things up. So today I’m bringing you a review on a goddamn hentai site. For you fuckers living under a rock, hentai is basically Japanese cartoon porn. Imagine jerking off to bitches from Pokemon, except with potential for some unbelievably sick shit, and you get the general idea.

>Gelbooru.com is referred to as an “imageboard”, although to me it just looks like a big ass search engine for hentai. Gelbooru is pretty fucking famous, and the reason why is because it uses a tag system so you can easily find the sick twisted pics you’re looking for. With over four million pictures of girls and boys ranging from extremely questionable young to saggy-ass-titties old, not to mention all kinds of weird creatures and fetishes, you’ll probably find what you’re looking for. More on the tag system later.

>Gelbooru’s been around since 2007, and its legion of slanty-eyed weeb users continues to grow every day. You’d think with their tiny ass peckers, they’d grow tired of jerking off, but apparently, them zipperheads are just as horny as I am. The site was built off the source code of another famous website that’s since died out, and Gelbooru is now the world leader of hentai bitches.

>When you first go to Gelbooru.com, you might get fucking disgusted. Between the full-screen ad raping the entire background and the masturbatory counter of how many images they have as shown by some anime cunts holding up signs, you might wanna turn around and never come back. But once you actually type something into the search bar and click SEARCH, you’ll find something far easier to swallow.

>So let’s say you type in “taint”, like I did. Right away, you’ll see a bunch of pics of cartoon bitches’ taints, just like the uploaders had tagged their pictures. That’s right- for every picture you see on Gelbooru, the degenerate loser uploading it made sure to point out that a “taint” was in the goddamn picture. Isn’t that goddamn convenient?

>On the left, you’ll see a shitload of “tags”. These are popular tags that were used in other photos. I’m looking at shit like 2girls…alcohol…arm support…”blue kimono”? These Gelbooru freaks make me sick. Anyway, you can enjoy browsing around these random tags if you’re bored or feel the need to get inspired for your session.

>First, the tag system is all about specifically finding what you want. That means that Gelbooru rejects vague ass terms that it considers too basic or too generic. For example, if you search “bitch”, you get to an error site. You search “cunt”, you get an error. You search “slut”; you get an error. As a man who appreciates the basics, this made me pissed off.

>But like I said, I get it. Once I successfully jerked off and let my brain start working again, I realized that this is why Gelbooru became popular. It really encourages the uploaders to make good tags, and the system stops retards from clogging up the search with stupid content. You have to get used to using underscores a lot. That’s ___ <- this shit, in your tags. Like you can’t search “Tifa Lockhart”, but you have to use “Tifa_Lockhart”. It can get confusing.

>Whatever, if you are a loser who likes jerking off to cartoons all day, I’m sure you have zero life and can learn and master this system. Arigato to you faggots.

>There’s also some other weird things which I’ll quickly go over. First, apparently, you need to be a member to do some more complicated tag searches. It’s free to join, though. Second, they have this weird Wiki that is just random as hell. Again, this is some weeb inside-joke community shit that these Gelbooru nerds love to jerk off to even more than pictures of cartoon girls getting fucked by a cartoon starfish.

>Also, for you sick fucks, there’s a shitload of lolicon. For those who don’t know what that is, good, don’t you ever fucking learn. I just felt compelled to mention this because, apparently, it’s a big reason why Gelbooru.com is famous.

>Also, like I said before, the tag system at Gelbooru.com needs some getting used to. When you use tags incorrectly, you get sent to a bizarre error page talking about some chickens or some shit, and then some message telling you to “check your blacklist”. I didn’t know what the FUCK this shit was talking about, so I ended up having to Google it to figure out what was going on. I still don’t know exactly what the FUCK this is, and no, I ain’t gonna learn. It just wasn’t intuitive. BUT AGAIN, I get that they have a reason for this shit. Weebs are degenerate sick fucks, but they are smart.

>When you send your users to an error page, clearly explain why the FUCK they were sent there. I know you weebs like to have your secret little circle jerks and shit, saying shit like “Fujiwara from Kitonasabe Ko Intei is the most kawaii~~ senpai!!” and then looking down on a normal person for not understanding what the FUCK you just said. Still, for a website, this attitude ain’t the best. It makes Gelbooru unwelcoming and unintuitive. Fuck you! Also, cool down on the ads.

>In typical weeb fashion, Gelbooru.com is the kind that you can tell is smart and well-designed, but also has a very inclusive nature to it that can make it hard to breakthrough. It’s just like a fucking anime. At first, you just watch it like what the FUCK is this shit, but at some point, it clicks, and then you start getting into it and learning all the weird mumbo-jumbo zipperhead shit that you were calling faggotry five minutes ago. That’s what this fucking site is, and it is the best at it. Have fun, and don’t forget to commit seppuku after for being such faggots who can’t even jerk it to a real girl.

My theory is that the site makes money off paid reviews and is actually written by multiple people who try to follow a style guide, one of which was drunk or on meth or something when he wrote the above review.

>>36913
I just read like one paragraph and I think I got cancer.

>>36913
>When you use tags incorrectly, you get sent to a bizarre error page talking about some chickens or some shit
I think this guy has brain damage if he doesn't know what that means.

Follow up to >>/so/26201
I couldn't sleep last night either. I started trying at 11pm, only a little earlier than usual. I don't think it was from stress, not consciously at least. I cleared my mind and kept it clear for prolonged periods. I could actually feel my body starting to become rigid, but my mind didn't enter that point where I no longer felt awake. How much I would have liked to close my eyes and open them again to see daylight. Towards 6am, my memory is fuzzy, so maybe I actually slept 1 to 2 hours.

My plan is to drink chamomile tea(no caffeine), brush my teeth after eating instead of right before bed, and reading beforehand too. If that doesn't work, I might try pink noise and if this goes on for a week I'll see a doctor or resort to sleeping pills. I hope people eventually pass out from being tired; I wouldn't want to die from this.

>>36941
It worked.

>>36943
I had some trouble again last night, but following the advice I read did seem to help. There was periods I was stuck in the first stage of sleep(where you still feel awake, but really aren't completely), usually I would quickly, without even realizing it, transition into deep sleep, but it didn't happen for some reason.

Whenever I noticed, I would get out of bed and just sit in a chair, staring into a wall and "try to stay awake". After three times, it seemed to work. I also never looked at the clock. This was definitely less painful than the second night.

Boring day. Can't go anywhere cos car is in the shop.

I've taught myself juggling last year, and during today's training session I've become proficient at a new pattern, the 423 (not pictured; search for '423 juggling' on youtube if you want to see some variations of it).

I'm also teaching myself some new knots to tie (I've only ever learned how to tie my shoes as a kid and that was it), and I just ordered myself a set of transparent locks and a bunch of lockpicks because I want to learn lockpicking.

>>37248
Tying knots and picking locks. Wonder what that could be used for.

>>37249
Mysterious, isn't it?

>>37248
Nice. Does the lockpicking works on most locks? I tried to learn it before and couldn't open. Most tutorials on youtube seem to all open the same kind of lock, that you don't see around here.

>>37251
Not him, but yes I think almost any lock can be picked open, but for weird ones you might need more specialized tools. I've seen the YT channel LockPickingLawyer mentioned frequently and while he doesn't do tutorials on technique, he shows that a wide variety of locks (from the common pin tumbler to the fancier disc tumbler/detainer) can all be successfully picked open.

Looked at forums today, fun novelty that they’re still going.

>>37278
I've had the misfortune of posting on a forum for three days now. Massive time waste and since anonymity is something I take for granted it fucking sucks when that's removed.

>>37279
It depends on what is being discussed I think, aside from super niche topics most forums are just people asking for help or piracy links.
I imagine it's worse on large gaming forums where drama is common.
It also feels weird when there are like 6 people there who have been posting for years and have families and shit.

>>37279
Even with how bad forums are, they still are better than the alternative. They're another place for non-social media hangerons and we should be thankful they still exist.

>>37279
I love this artist.

>>33592
another one just arrived.

I'm back to my parents house for a while. They live in an upper class gated community. It's your typical suburbian Mcmansion enclave where everyone has a guy just to take care of the lawn. People do look healthier around here, I wonder if there's anything to do with the lack of city smog. Lots of families with kids. Lots of well trimmed pets everywhere. My siblings all moved away to very far away places and I'm the only one left around, but that's not the reason I'm here. The matter is financial, I want to save some money and there's no way I can do that paying rent, groceries and utilities. Or anything really. My parents are kind to me and I don't need to foot any bills while staying here. It's been years since I lived with mom and dad but now I'm back again.

Today for the first time in 5 years I walked mom's pet dog. It's a nice change of scenery. Before, I was living in a heavily urban, heavily grey and somewhat decadent part of a megalopolis and here everybody has a front yard 4 times the size of my entire apartment, rather the apartment I rented for a couple of years. There's a lot to look at, walking around this place. I like prying inside people's homes through the usually oversized front window everyone has for some reason. Probably the same architect for every single construction. So much junk people have in their homes, specially inside the garage. So far I have spotted ping pong tables, expensive bycicles, tons of kid's electric vehicles, all sorts of sporting and fitness gear, pool cleaning tools, like those long leaf rakes. There are so many of those. How many leaf rakes do you really need? Tons of leaf blowers even though the gardening people aroung here bring their own equipment. And of course the vehicles themselves, all expensive (except my parents car that is, we came to live here before it was cool.)

Anyway so I was walking the dog and coming the opposite direction a family of 4 (mom and dad, a 3 or 4 yo girl and a 6 or 7 yo boy). I dislike walking around here because it's one of those places where everyone feels compelled to greet each other. Then there's the matter I had a dog with me, which means you'll likely have to stop because kids always want to pet the dog. And so I was going through these thoughts and preparing myself to have small talk since it was too late to turn around and go the opposite direction without looking like a weirdo (though I have done this before). Few seconds later, of course, the kid comes running to pet the dog.

This kid though is not satisfied with petting, he wants to take the leash, too. I might add right now that this is a 15 yo dog that is very afraid of kids. Anyway I let the kid have the leash and walk a few steps back and forth with the dog. I start looking at the parents. They're actually around my age which is always interesting to see. How people with the same time on this earth as you can end up having such a different existence. For example, how they can even afford to live here? Did their parents bought the house? Did they inherited? Or they simply are so good at making money that they can afford to buy or rent a 7 bedroom house?

How is it like to have wife/husband and have small kids? They look pretty happy. Even to the point of looking idiotic, no offense intended. Do those people have friends? How is it to have those people as friends? Disregard that, how is it to have friends at all? As I finish to walk around the block, I see where they live. It's actually just 4 houses down from my parents'. Two unecessarily enormous vehicles parking at the driveway. I don't even know how to drive. Right now I'm looking at the window and I can see the tip of that family's roof. How is it to have a life that is not this one, that's where I always end up at. I guess we can never really find out.

>>37333
When my grandparents from the soviet union came to visit almost 20 years ago, they were shocked by how none of the houses have fences around them.

>he wants to take the leash, too. I might add right now that this is a 15 yo dog that is very afraid of kids. Anyway I let the kid have the leash and walk a few steps back and forth with the dog
That's seriously annoying and dangerous. You're not wrong for calling those parents idiots.

>>37333
>How people with the same time on this earth as you can end up having such a different existence.
This is something I wonder too. I'd just like to pop into other people's head for a moment to see how they think and make decisions. Time has given me a glimpse of that but... I'm very curious about what actually goes on inside other people's heads. I can only know them filtered through my own perceptions.

>>37280
That seems to be the case for forums that've been around for a while. Just a place for old timers to circlejerk.

Could always be worse. Could be discord which combines the worst aspects of a forum and a chatroom into one.

I read through Guin @ グイン's profile and liked a lot of their Arknights webcomic panels. It's really cute and hits the spot for the kind of comedy I like and have been needing lately and then I found a couple of other Arknights artists I like who make art I really liked in some other ways. But now pixiv thinks I like Arknights and it's slightly annoying.

Post edited on 13th Jan 2021, 5:21pm

Today I felt very nauseous after eating breakfast. I went to the toilet and started to vomit, but nothing would came out. The fact is, I'm a serious emetophobe. This is my greatest fear. I have feared it for most of my life. My entire OCD probably stems from this fact alone, performing rituals to guarantee that I won't puke. And then it evolved into a whole weltanschauung. I began to unconsciously do magick stuff, I had created a entire magickal system to keep me from vomiting. All this time I avoided incountable things, just to keep myself safe. Not just overeating and writing or comsuming any form of media that contains words or imagery of it. Any time someone would vomit, I would trace back what I did the past 24hrs of different, and whatever that was, I would stop doing it. I began to have thoughts of associating two apparently unconnected things with nausea and vomiting, and would stop doing that too. Just the past days I wanted to order a book, and I give it a try reading a pdf, the book looked pretty good, but it had the word vomit in one chapter. I couldn't bring myself to order it. Well now I felt nauseous.
When writing on tohno-chan I would avoid writing things such as "I'll" "will" "still" "skill" because they have the ill part in it.
I would spent days doing literally nothing, in fear that doing anything would provoke retaliation from some kind of fate, causing me to vomit. Weirdly enough, when the nausea subsided I felt light, felt kinda free. I had done nothing that could possibly have broken those invisible rules, yet it happened to me. Who could have caused that? I am now convinced it was the Holy Guardian Angel. He was tired of waiting for myself to get out of this situation, and he sent to me my greatest fear, so that I would wake up. I must cling to this newfound feeling, this fearlessness. I can not go back to that dark cave I exited just now.
Who would have thought I could even write such a post containing this many trigger words? But here I am, and I hope to be able to do all those things I avoided all those years. Time to face the truth.

>>37365
You should have talked about this way earlier. There's so many thing worse than vomiting. Vomiting is sexy and a reminder of our shared humanity. Are you afraid of being a vulnerable human being?

>>37366
>You should have talked about this way earlier.
Yes, that's true. Today is the only day that I felt brave enough to type this. Despite considering talking about this phobia here, I was terrified of the thought of just making the post.
>There's so many thing worse than vomiting.
That's also true, but if you would ask to my younger self, about 7 or so years ago, whether he would rather die or vomit, I can guarantee he would have spent a considerable amount of time pondering, no matter how ridiculous this may seem.
>Vomiting is sexy and a reminder of our shared humanity.
As for the sexiness of vomiting, in the one hand I would say is very scary and dirty and terrifying, but on the other hand despite my phobia I confess I have looked at videos of woman puking with extreme arousal. Vomit porn is very sexy to me. If it was a man or someone very ugly I would find it repulsive, but if it is a beautiful woman, I would be aroused by it. It happens often, this fear/sexy arousal response with phobias. Fear and desire go hand in hand. I remember from some emetophobia resource site, a sizable amount of emetophobics are emetophilics and vice-versa. And it is a humbling act, he who vomits can not do so standing tall, he must lower himself or even get on his knees.
Are you afraid of being a vulnerable human being?
Yes, a lot.

Some while ago, I think a few weeks or month or two, I finally worked up the motivation to dust my room. It wasn't all at once, and it took a while, but I did it. It was a little nice to have some videos on in the background while I cleaned my room since it was time-consuming. It was a little nice to fantasize about being a cute 2d maid while I did it. But sadly not but a few days to a week after I did it then dust started showing up again. I don't know if that's normal or my room is just really dusty.

>>37333
>How is it like to have wife/husband and have small kids? They look pretty happy. Even to the point of looking idiotic, no offense intended.
Because part of being happy seems to be living on autopilot and not listening to your internal voice, most people just dive in with the social norm.
>Do those people have friends? How is it to have those people as friends? Disregard that, how is it to have friends at all?
They are more acquaintances for most people. Having real friends is like having a sibling, and it's a give-and-take relationship that should be positive for both partners. Not just someone you exchange pleasantries with frequently.
>How is it to have a life that is not this one, that's where I always end up at. I guess we can never really find out.
There are some people who pretend to be different people to cope with things, but unless reincarnation and souls and all that are real, we will never really know but it's not hard to see the perspective of others.

I sometimes wonder if I'm a schizoid, or if I'm just doing the first year psychologist thing and thinking I have whatever I read.

>>37375
Sometimes I wonder if there's such a thing as an "schizoid" and it's just another one of artificial labels without a real meaning.

>>37376
I see it more as a phenomenon rather than the mental/personality disorder it is perceived as.

>>37377
Explain.

>>37378
In a way, I think the "schizoid" is a consequence of the modern world. That is not to say it is a completely unique modern phenomena but a situation perhaps exacerbated by it. Most schizoids doesn't seem to see the condition as being in conflict with their self-image and think of themselves as rational, as opposed to more severe forms of mental illnesses such schizophrenia. Perhaps then the schizoid becomes a problem because it is inherently incompatible with modern society but ironically and in parallel I would also add that the modern world are increasingly changing in a way to accommodate the schizoid with the many forms of escapism available.

>>37379
I think it's more compatible with society now than ever before. Before being a loner meant death in most cases. Now you still would have a harder time than social butterflies, but you probably wont actually die.

>>37380
You might be right although it's probably difficult to actually quantify and likely dependent on where in the world you live in. I'd like to argue that people with schizoid tendencies in the ancient past might have more "choice" but I'm probably wrong.

I don't think schizoid only means asocial, I thought you also had to have a rich internal fantasy world, hence the schizo- spectrum thing?

>>37379
>is a consequence of the modern world

In which ways?
It makes me think of;
Decadence of a particular civilization.
Failure of natural selection.

>>37379
I'm diagnosed as one, and yeah I don't view it as a problem. I view it as a solution that as you've said helps in a world that might otherwise leave me in despair. I can be content in solitude, where as all those forced into it at the moment seem to be suffering. For me, being quarantined just means free time to explore games movies anime and other hobbies. Fame is unappealing and seems bothersome. wealth is only as good as what it gets you, and I feel little desire for over priced luxury items which exist only to make a person feel superior than others. Romance isn't very appealing and the current state of the average person makes it even less so. The various closers and restrictions out there now mean little to me personally, but I do understand how it's all hurting normals. I might not be able to feel things the way they do, but I understand they're suffering, I see it a lot as these more weak minded people struggle to cope with current situations. As I watch those near me break down mentally, and in some cases physically, I find I can do little more than hope for the best before returning to my internal fantasy world as some put it, as attempts at more are typically fruitless.

Post edited on 20th Jan 2021, 9:04am

>>37384
>I understand they're suffering

Think about it, like, they suffered for the few months of not going outside, while we suffered for a lifetime of being forced to go outside.

>>37385
Autist =/= schizoid.

>>37387
Yes, and?

>>37383
I think society is at the point where the common conception of natural selection needs to be reviewed. There's no guarantee that nature will select for any one particular trait, only that those who survive, survive. If a certain trait starts growing in prevalence, that doesn't mean natural selection failed, it means that the world is no longer the same one where such a trait would be a fatal flaw. So when people talk about natural selection, they REALLY mean that they wish the world still selected particular qualities. Remember that there is only one rule of nature: those who live will live on and those who die will die off.

>>37389
There's no point in questioning that. Most of society's common conceptions are actually wrong or only half-true. The general populace doesn't even know what a theory actually is.

>>37389
Not really, modern times do not select for different traits thus meaning that natural selection has to be reviewed rather it enable other traits to continue being passed on. For example, we have many illnesses and diseases that could not be treated in the past that now can be, so type 1 diabetes had no treatment until insulin was invented and therefore anybody with it was going to die before 36 years old. The fact that we now have insulin and the people with type 1 diabetes can live longer healthier lives and thus are more likely to reproduce does not mean that natural selection is selecting that trait to be spread but that there is no longer a medical reason for it to be suppressed. Nature is not enabling this or encouraging it, we are.

>>37391
But that is natural selection. Natural selection doesn't mean being selected by nature as in "the uncivilized world", it simply means the process by which the environment a creature lives in filters out the ones who, well, die. Nature also isn't some conscious driving force that prefers to be a certain way, it is simply a description of the state of our environment. Extinction is natural, asteroid impacts are natural, and humans and tools are natural. We have changed the world, that's why the world selects differently. There's no "mother nature" fighting back or trying to stop humanity or some bullshit. We ARE the driving force in nature at this time, so nature now selects for what is useful to human society.

>>37392
Think about it like a bunch of rats being experimented in a lab, with all kinds of external conditioning, some scientist deciding what rats survive or not over arbitrary reasons. You could say that's also natural selection because, well, the humans are also natural beings and all that, but it doesn't really make too much sense.

>>37393
You would call that "playing around" with the parameters of natural selection. Again there's a pretty common misinterpretation of what natural selection is due to the wording, it doesn't mean it the way people think it does. I think a lot of people think about how a wild animal has to fight against wild things and other forces to make it to adulthood, but if you put humans in that situation at this point, on purpose, how is that any more natural than putting rats in a lab? What's really going on is that people think different traits should be selected against, and that's more a result of peoples minds not having caught up with the technology we created. But natural selection is at play here and it's because the environment changed that the selection process changed. As for schizoids and autists they do tend to not reproduce, which is pretty understandable. For the greater percentage that do now than they did before, well, that's probably because some of the pressures of our previous environment don't exist, not in the same way. That's still natural selection at work, we're not cavemen anymore and this isn't the cave-world anymore.

>>37385
I do not believe two wrongs make a right. The irony wasn't lost on me however when this all started, I admittedly found it rather amusing at first seeing people forced to live the way I try to live. I didn't expect it to drag on this long however and quickly grew to feel sorry for them. They might not have much sympathy for us, but to have none ourselves makes us no better.

>>37393
Natural selection is a life form selecting or suppressing certain traits due to environmental pressures. If the lab was set up in a way whereby say, white mice were killed for whatever reason like by a cat that could only see white then yes that is kind of natural selection even though it was created by us, they are going to adapt based on this artificial environment. However, in the modern context this is not true because we are not actually encouraging or suppressing these traits like the Diabetes I mentioned, if culturally we had an adoration of diabetes and therefore that trait was highly desirable then yes it would but we do not, it is a trait that just sits in the gene pool unaffected by natural selection at this point(well hypothetically, as with any disorder it is still a disorder so the effected might have lower self esteem or have been raised in unusual circumstances so would still be slightly less likely to reproduce).

>>37396
>it is a trait that just sits in the gene pool unaffected by natural selection at this point
I wouldn't use the word unaffected because it creates a false image of the problem. It simply isn't being selected for or against. I would argue, slightly against, but to a diminished degree because the environmental pressures have shifted.

People can't fuck kids anymore. The raising of age of consent might have had some kind of effect. In chimps, lower status males mate more often with younger females. That entire avenue of reproduction has been mostly closed off in modern society. There's no arranged marriages either. I would say that slowly, casual social skills are being more heavily selected towards. Something like diabetes would never be selected against in an uncivilized environment because it's too unlikely or takes too long to manifest. As long as the person manages to reproduce, that trait gets past on. There's plenty of things which don't kill the person fast enough to prevent them from reproducing in the wild.

Post edited on 21st Jan 2021, 4:26am

Relatively recently, I've been incapable of any substantive activities, and today is no different. My eyes are pointed at my monitor, but VIM continues to display nothing but its splash screen. As usual, in hopes to disrupt this monotony, I rest in my bed while finishing a bittersweet manga; read a VN; contemplate the confluence of my previous choices. Nothing changes, but truthfully, there was never such an expectation.

>>37395
>I do not believe two wrongs make a right.
They don't but I'm not in any rush to feel any kind of sympathy to the sadistic, ignorant, instinct and greed driven creatures that are normalfags. As far as I've seen, heard, and known, they get off on hurting people. Why then should I sympathize for creatures who only hurt the environment and people around them? As far as I'm concerned any consequences they've suffered are a result of their sins catching up to them though not giving them their full due punishment.

>>37410
That's like blaming a scorpion for stinging someone. It's fine not to sympathize with them, but acting like this is some kind of justice is hypocritical. Are they creatures, or are they responsible for their own actions?

>>37411
>That's like blaming a scorpion for stinging someone.
Well, they do. I certainly wouldn't carry a Normal Driver across the river.

>>37411
>That's like blaming a scorpion for stinging someone.
The normalfag does it for fun.

>>37395
>>37411

When I mentioned that it wasn't in the sense that justice was made and I was satisfied because of that, I don't believe in such a thing, that sounds like Elliot Rodgers kind of bullshit to me. I just found some psychological satisfaction, if something. I've been told all my life how weak and incapable I was for not being good outside my comfort zone, even after being forced to it and taking enormous efforts, now that the rest of the people have to spend a merely few months outside their particular comfort zone they just go like it's the end of the world and endless cry over it. So I can help but feel a little smug about it, but it's not a moral stance or anything. Actually the whole idea came to me because a podcaster I follow (not a weirdo but not a turbonormal either) just mentioned the irony of the situation and how the extroverted could experience for once what the introverted experience in their entire lifes.

Homunculus is getting a live-action adaptation, not sure how I feel about that. The director is responsible for the Ju-On series and whilst the choice for the main lead isn't the worst, I'm not sure he fits Nakoshi's character and profile all too well. I'm quite annoyed with Netflix constantly bankrolling unnecessary adaptations and reboots of Japanese medias as well as acquiring licenses of decent IPs. Everything they've funded so far has been thoroughly crap as far as I'm aware.

>>37449
>a live-action adaptation
>not sure how I feel about that
How do you not know how to feel? The two options are indifference and anger.

>>37450
It can only be anger then.

>>37365 here again.
Since I made that post, the exact FUCKING THING happened both last week and today. Last thursday I woke up in the middle of the night around 2 AM, I wasn't really sleeping anyway, and it happened. Then today in the morning, around 11:20 AM.
WHAT FUCKING SHIT IS THIS?
I feel very nauseous but when I puke nothing comes out, and then I feel normal again. There's also nothing else beside this nauseous feeling. I've been thinking about what could have been causing it. I think it could be masturbation. I remember that insane-tier addicts get to point of having these side-effects, almost like a hangover or something. The problem is I have no idea of how to solve this. What can I do to stop this insatiable, self-destructive urge to masturbate?

>>37454
Exercise lowers libido.

>>37454
How many times do you fap per day? I don't remember having nausea because excessive fapping, more like psychological effects like feeling disgusting. What I've been feeling lately is nausea and difficulty breathing when I'm sorrounded by two persons or more.

>>37455
Tried that and cold showers, libido remains the same.
>>37456
Normally, only once. Sometimes one day yes other not. The problem is I edge my way to end, instead of doing many times a day, I end doing it once but it takes a lot of time. I didn't meant exactly that the amount of times was causing that, more like the psychological effects of post-fap lucidity and regret. Also the material I use just gets worse and worse, I want a way to soft it down.
I need some kind of hobby, that preferably can be done any time of day, and doesn't include a computer.
Sounds like you having agoraphobia or something.

>>37457
It doesn't seems too bad, unless you can fap for hours and hours like in the fapping olympics or something. I fap a lot more times.
Material can't be worse than what I use sometimes, at some point you get used to it and don't really think about how fucked up it's all.
It sounds, like you said, something mental, related to guilt.

>>37454
I don't see the connection between the nauseousness and the masturbation. Only thing I can think of is testicular torsion, but I'd imagine that you'd probably know if that were the case.

>>37454
I've also suffered from problems with porn/fapping and I don't think trying to lower your libido is the best solution. For me the addiction is rooted in trying to escape sexual shame. Learning to sit and "just be" with sexual desire has been a lot more helpful. You're always going to have to deal with sexual desire because people are just horny idiots by nature. It's hard to explain but once I really started to allow myself to have sexual thoughts the addiction lessened. My libido is actually higher now but I engage with it in a way that's more healthy. Like I'm very attracted to Roon. Sometimes I'll see a picture of her or use her in a fleet ingame and feel aroused. My pornified brain would automatically take it as a cue to jerk and fighting that urge becomes a battle. But if I just sit with it and even focus in on something specific I want to do to her in that moment the urge loses some power. It's helped soften a lot of my fetishes too. This sort of sexual fantasy is a lot more loving and realistic. Instead of conflating sex with power you're conflating sex with fun and love.

I still have a problem with binging but doing this has shown me the most progress. Your post made it seem like you might have some of the same underlying issue of shame going on. Good luck anon, shit's hard. At the peak of my addiction all I did was fap and sleep. I had headaches all the time. Physical sideffects to porn addiction are a very real thing.

>>37468
> in trying to escape sexual shame
For me masturbation and pornography was used as an outlet for my dissatisfaction and frustration with the world. I enjoyed guro and ryona because seeing a helpless, crying girl somehow was the mental (and visual!) equivalent of a punching bag that relieved stress. The actual masturbation was really more of a side-effect and I'd often just browse boorus looking at these pictures without even bothering to masturbate.

>>37459
>unless you can fap for hours and hours
I actually can't tell how long it takes, I lose track of time while doing it, also I normally break it in periods with intervals of rest between them.
>Material can't be worse than what I use sometimes,
I wouldn't be so confident.
>related to guilt.
Indeed, this seems to be the case.
>>37465
I remember reading some letters from the 1800's dealing with this, I believe it was a correspondence made by Richard Wagner. Also I searched around and found this https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/POIS
>>37468
>the addiction is rooted in trying to escape sexual shame.
Seems to me that it is some sort of (anti-)escapism wherein one tries to deal with uncomfortable thoughts and realities by sexualizing them. I will try your advice.
>Instead of conflating sex with power you're conflating sex with fun and love.
I hope to get there.
I will try my best, thanks for the advice everyone.

>>37474
Different anon. I started when I was around twelve with 3d videos. Before that I would just look at porn. Almost immediately after I gravitated towards 2d shota and incest. It was exciting, but I never felt guilty in the slightest. I can't relate to that feeling. Maybe it's because my family is secular.

>>37454 here again, I figured out the problem. Turns out that I developed a lactose intolerance. This feels very weird, since I've been drinking milk and eating dairy based products for years, and never felt a thing. It looks like in the past few days I started drinking milk at night and that ended up surpassing the limit of dairy based products my body could handle, so my body had to reset or something, and now I will not be able to ingest those kind of foods. For at least a month it seems. Problem is, my whole diet was based on this, now that it is no longer available, I don't know what to do. At night I get weird hunger pangs. I feel like this new diet is not as nourishing as the old one used to be.
So, it will take around a month to my body to get to it's normal level of lactose production, until then I will have to figure out what to eat.

>>37509
>until then I will have to figure out what to eat.
You should still be able to eat milk-derived products like cheese. And yogurt seems to be easier to digest even for those with lactose-intolerance. There's also the various alternate-milks (almond, etc.)

I entertained the idea of saving up money to buy a sex doll. I don't know how long that will take but I feel like the sooner I can do it the better since it probably won't be long until the soys in power have that banned or something. But I have a few reasons not to buy one as well.
For starters, their faces look kind of creepy. There are anime sex dolls out there that just have anime styled faces but they aren't as common and sometimes don't look very good. Even so, it's something of a solution to the face problem, at least. The main problem is the weight. I've heard they can get really heavy and it isn't likely that I would even be on this board if I was a particularly strong person. I heard some guys who can lift heavy weights still struggle to carry them. The easier fixes are to use some kind of dolly or even a wheelchair, the latter which I might like because I think disabled girls are cute, but you still need to pick them up off of whatever you use and set them down on something like your bed or your couch. The other easy fix is to get a shorter doll but I'm a tasteless individual who likes very large proportions on women, height being one of them, so I don't know if I want to settle for so much less than what I find attractive if the product I'm buying is meant to be attractive to me.
Another problem might be that it might make me feel even more lonely. The doll I buy will probably be more than just a sex doll, I'll probably have fun dressing it up, having dinner with it, keeping it by my side when I do fun things, and having it sleep with me like some kind of dream partner. But much like a daki the awareness of what it really is will never go away and I'll always be aware of just how much of a cope it is which might make me feel worse over time.
There are probably more issues I don't know about but the ones I can think of off the top of my head are pretty strong deterrents for buying one. Maintenance would be a hassle but I can at least work into the habit but the others take much more work to improve on like having to lift to get strong enough to pick her up or not letting the fact that it's a doll bother me.

>>37511
queen Victoria would sleep with a cast of her dead husband hand, so if anyone gives you shit about it bring that up.

>>37511
>it isn't likely that I would even be on this board if I was a particularly strong person
>cope
You need mental purification, not a sex doll, anon.

>>37511
How much do they weigh compared to a real person of the same size? Is it more?

>>37511
Mine's around 30kg and has the proportions of an Asian woman. If you want larger, yours would probably be closer to 35kg or so, but it wouldn't increase that much since the skeleton would just get a bit longer and that's where the weight lies.
Heavy, sure, but if you've ever lifted a big sack of rice at the wholesale place, you can lift it. It can get a bit unwieldy during action, but nothing too complicated. Btw, every sex doll maker I've looked at has the weight of their dolls written somewhere on the website. You can test if you can carry them easily, just buy a lot of rice and an old person-sized dakimakura. Measure rice by weight, fill daki, carry. Dolls tend to be easier to carry because they've got a metal skeleton so they don't sag as much.
I've got a DSDoll, the faces there are fine, as long as you go for an Asian one. Their European ones tend to look like a macho with a wig though, and they absolutely do not help you with customs, so expect a two-week daily email chain with DHL to get it through (if you make sure to state that you're a private person importing it for hobby purposes, they're a lot more helpful).
As for maintenance, make sure to get a doll stand. Usually this means you take off the head and hang the body from a hook on a stand. That means you can wash and powder without having to slug around 30k of weight. Also, make sure to wear a condom to help prevent mold.

>>37511
I had the same thoughts for some time. Didn't see weight as a big deal, though I'm probably weaker than you they can't weight like a real person or anything. Problem is how expensive they are, the shipping would be complicated, and it's not something you can really have unless you live by yourself. Then moving would be a pain too.
They opened some sort of doll whorehouse in my city not too long ago, and though I had my hygienic doubts I thought about trying, but it was quickly closed because it attempted against women rights and some bullshit. It even appeared in the newspapers and it was a little scandal for a short time. It would have been nice to try just to see if it was really my thing.

About maintenance, I remember some guy full of money that got bored of doing it and just bought a new one everytime their dolls were too used. Then he was afraid of throwing the old ones to the trash since anyone seeing him disposing of them would suspect he was getting rid of a corpse. Really funny stuff.

>>37516
> just bought a new one everytime their dolls were too used.
Probably still cheaper than a 3DPD.

>DSDoll
Decided to check out of curiosity and found this video on their website.
https://www.dsdoll.us/video/vd_kouqiangfunction.mp4
Seeing the doll's head bulge out when they put the dildo inside her mouth gave me a very depressive feeling for some reason. Sex dolls always made me feel a little sad (both for the guy who buys it and I feel sorry for the doll itself, go figure) but this video really made me extra miserable. Whoever edited that must know what I'm talking about because the music he decided to use is definitely not a happy tune.

>>37518
They look uncannily off. Like the weird feeling you get from kigurumi. I've thought about getting a doll but then I realize that a simple onahole would probably be better.

I don't like the direction this thread is going.

>>37519
Onaholes are nice, but it's quite different from actually being able to feel hips and ass and boobs and kissing, or stripping her slowly piece by piece. Hell, handholding even. It's less of a comparable experience that you might think.
There's also anime and fairy models from some manufacturers, if that's more to your taste, but you have to be careful depending on where you live because they tend towards being quite petite.
It's not for everyone, I'll say that much, but if you're the type of person that lives more in his head than in the "real" world, then they're great.

>>37519
I can't speak for others, but I prefer to look at them less like sex toys and more like life sized dolls. I mainly want one to have fun dressing it up in pretty outfits because I like cute fashion but I'm not into cross dressing. It would also be nice to use for a lap pillow or have them take the place of a daki. Maybe even to just have at my side when playing videogames or watching anime/movies. Almost like having someone there without having an actual person over (I don't mix well with real people).

>>37518
What are you talking it? It's hilarious. Get a sense of humor.

>>37520
Dunno why. I've seen conversations about sex toys get de-railed into stuff much less related from the original topic. This is extremely tame even without comparing.

>>37522
If they weren't so expensive and I didn't live at home I'd consider one for these reasons, though not for it's intended purposes, that'd be too much work and would not be worth it. Plus most are ugly as shit. The doll pictured in >>37516 looks nice, but looking through the DSDolls above I have to agree the Asians look fine, but the whites and the negress one all look like trannies.

>>37518
>>37523
It's depressing AND hilarious.

>>37524
Some dolls just look too 3DPD in my standards. At least the realistic ones.

That said, I'd like to get a ball-jointed doll.

>>36803
I got into another pointless argument, this time with somebody on mal in a bad thread. This guy in particular got on my nerves for some reason and I kind of suspect he was a troll. I can't stand the fake sophisticated thing.

Him:
>Anime isn't considered for adults these days because the execution is bad and the writing is childish. You can find a lot of dark teen fanfiction on the internet but all of the dark elements don't make it any less childish. Japanese anime is better when it comes to the actual animation (usually), but western "anime" has better writing and execution (usually). Romance doesn't need sex. Adults consider a romance that relies on sex (erotica) to be trashy. Popular at times, but trashy. Romance is about the up and down of emotions and portraying that. (insert disney Hercules clip)

Me:
Your post is even more embarrassingly ignorant than op's. Anime isn't a genre. Hentai isn't either. And stop watching dubs.

Him:
>Dark means "more mature" but not always "adult". You can see this nuance in stuff like Australia's rating system which has an MA15+ rating. (The MA 15+ rating was introduced in 1993, to flag content that was too strong for the M classification, but not so much so that the content should be restricted only to persons over the age of 18. - Wiki) Attack on Titan is dark and has killing, but receives the 15+ AU rating

Me:
Australia is a free expression hell hole and their example shouldn't be followed. "Nuanced" rating systems are just an economic tool used to discourage certain content.

Him:
>The function of the rating system is irrelevant. I'm pointing out that there is a difference between something being mature and still aimed at kids (teens) and something being mature but aimed at adults.

>Literature makes these distinctions as well, though it has more to do with the protagonist. You have young Adult (typically 13-17), New Adult (typically 18-20 something), and adult (anything above). A young adult book, generally has a different tone and style than a new adult book.

>Keep in mind that this isn't to say one is worse than the other, but saying something is meant for adults just because it uses dark themes is not taking into account how the writing and execution also play a factor. So, going back to my original point, (in my opinion) anime isn't largely considered for adults because the writing and execution aren't done for adults (adults being early 20's and higher).

Me:
And somebody who's an anime enthusiast doesn't care about how non-fans perceive it. Seinen exists and specifically targets an older demo. Plus "maturity" is a false god and stifles free expression and enjoying "immature" things. Westerners think all anime is "for children" because of economic and cultural factors crippling animation in the west as a medium. That and people willfully being ignorant of foreign attitudes. You're a putz and you don't belong.

Him:
>Lmao. The OP himself cares. I'm providing reasoning. I just want good anime. I don't care what other people think of it, but I personally want fantasy/isekai anime that has better all-around quality.

>Also, my Disney example is evidence agianst your economic and cultural reasoning. I can also add DC and Marvel to the list. Additionally, I could point to the popular animes that are universally renowned like basically anything produced by Studio Ghibli. Adult westerners have a negative perception of most foreign anime because of how they are executed, not some cultural bias.

>When I show my Dad a lot of anime, he laughs and says it's better than most movies or tv shows. Want to know why? Because I show him the good stuff (mainly in the form of action). But that's only in snippets or compilations. It's hard to find a show that can entertain an adult all the way through because the other areas are lacking (writing/execution). Another reason is that a lot of animes are largely helped by the Japanese voice actors and dubs are rarely able to capture the same energy (imo), though some like DBZ were actually helped by their dubs.

Me:
For a westerner bitching that anime doesn't meet their fine art standards, capeshit and Disney's ugly, water-downed fairy tales don't make a good argument. Most movies are bad, but people don't say "movies suck". Anime is an entire medium, but your oh so mature and intelligent adults don't think of it as such generally. Instead they spend their time on more sophisticated things like syndicated sports and crime dramas. "Universally renowned" anime is praised so much because it's inoffensive and child-friendly. Nobody cares about Monster except people who already like anime.

Him:
>You sound so silly. There are plenty of animes that meet my standards, just most fantasy/isekai don't. Art isn't the only quality to a good anime, just like it isn't the only quality to a good video game (which is why I still enjoy older rpgs). How am I saying "anime sucks" as a general statement, when I literally pointed an anime that I like. That's not the only one you know.

>Also, people absolutely do say movies suck. Sounds like you are stuck in a bubble. Go ahead, type it in Google, "Movies suck".In addition, Princess Mononoke is universally renowned, I believe. Just old, however.

Me:
"How am I saying "anime sucks" as a general statement"
"Anime isn't considered for adults these days because the execution is bad and the writing is childish"
Okay, backtrack and ignore most of what I wrote. Princess Mononoke is about half as well known as Spirited Away and Ponyo, if that, and made way less money in the US. Critics liked it, but it's not what most people think when they think Ghibli. Googling "Movies suck" returns mostly results complaining about Hollywood or "modern movies", not people saying that about the entire medium.

Him:
>Yes, but in your context, you are making it seem like I'm saying anime=bad. As if I'm saying something being anime cannot be good simply because it's anime when my follow up is providing animation that has superior execution than what you normally see in current anime. My statement is simply saying, most anime is poorly written and executed, thus not well received by adults. Though I will admit, it can be read as a general statement, so that's my fault. Most people usually don't need the #notall. People do say movies suck, the google search easily proves that. You just apply the #notall to them, but decided not to apply it to my statement so you can argue whatever it is you're arguing.

>Princess Mononoke came out in 1999 (US). Spririted Away made more money, but that's not to say Princess Mononoke was not its own success, and you can even say Princess Mononoke paved the way for the success of Spirited Away. Doing rough math, it made 7x its budget which is comparable to the Matrix but it's certainly no Lion King. Regardless, being universally renowned is not about the profit, it's about the reception. How it is received by a wide audience and whether they liked it or not.

Me:
Something can't be "universally renowned" if it's not well known. It was watched by anime fans and arthouse viewers on release, not the general public. Princess Mononoke is only as well know as it is because it was made by the same studio behind My Neighbor Totoro, Kiki's Delivery Service and Spirited Away, not the other way around.

Your entire premise that adults like things based on how "well written and executed" they are, and they wouldn't like things that don't fit that bill, is extremely moronic. There's a million and one examples that prove that's not the case.

Him:
>You really want to argue about Princess Mononoke? It came out before Spirited Away. Allow me to just paste the snippet from Google. "Box office. Princess Mononoke was the highest-grossing Japanese film of 1997, earning ¥11.3 billion in distribution rental earnings.

>That's not my premise. I said (and let me quote this time), "Anime isn't considered for adults these days because the execution is bad and the writing is childish." and "Japanese anime is better when it comes to the actual animation (usually), but western "anime" has better writing and execution (usually)."

>I didn't say adults like things based on how well-written and executed they are. I said if you want an anime to be considered for adults it has to be well-written and executed. Serious themes can get lost in an animation (whether Japanese, American, or whatever) if the execution is not done right. There is an inherent softness to drawings that has to be overcome, an inherent softness to colorful worlds, and an inherent softness to animated characters since it is more difficult to make them show emotion, especially subtle. So, because animation has inherent softness, it's more difficult for an adult to take it seriously regardless of the theme. It NEEDS to be executed right and/or written well. The execution involves things such as music, color palette, transitions, settings, voice acting, etc. Some animation that keeps the inherent softness (like Disney films) heightens values, such as music, to a level that even adults can appreciate.

>A rape in anime can come off as a depiction of real-world issues or hentai based on the execution. It's hard to make that error in live-action. Crying in anime can come off as cringe or actually sad, based on the music and voice acting. In live-action, it's mainly the actor that sells it.

>If you are an artist, you have to choose the best medium to tell your story. Anime is an uphill battle for telling adult-themed stories. It takes skill from both the writers and the animators. Something that was dark and gritty as a manga can come out like a kid show when animated if not careful. Terra Formars season one vs Terra Formars Revenge is a good example.

Me:
The performance of Princess Mononokoe in Japan is entirely irrelevant. People there don't "not consider anime for adults". Anime and manga for every age group is produced. When you say the reason anime isn't seen as "adult" is because its execution isn't up to par, that obviously implies that being "well-written" is a prerequisite for being seen as "adult".

Now you bring up animation's supposed "inherent softness". I disagree with that notion. There's no "inherent softness" to animation and you only perceive that as such because you were conditioned to see animation as inherently childish. You have a western perspective. Don't treat it like fact. "it's more difficult for an adult to take it seriously" is nothing but skewed bullshit.

Either you're a troll or you're an idiot. Keep watching your /co/ shit and fuck off.

Him:
>Imagine this hostility in a forum that talks about SJWs not being able to handle stuff. lmao. You are honestly making yourself look foolish trying to deny one of the most popular anime films in history. I've also been watching anime my whole life. You say an anime fan doesn't care if someone thinks it's for adults or not, but it really seems to be getting to you.

>Anime has inherent softness. Sorry, you refuse to believe reality. It takes effort/intention to make anime look as gritty as the real world. Older anime was better at having rough styles but now, it's too soft as if they aren't trying to add a real-world feel. This is a good style if you want to do a mature theme, as was the first season of Terra Formars.

>The problem is that even that intentionally styled aesthetic pales to the grit that live-action can capture, simply because it's live-action. The dirt on people's clothes, their wrinkles, their sweat, the dust that erupts when someone disturbs an old room.

Me:
I care when somebody masquerades as a fan, but sees anime being more beautiful than real life as a negative. Being more beautiful adds to emotional impact. Part of why I watch anime is so I don't have to look at disgusting 3dpd. You worship ugliness and you don't belong. Back of the bus.

Him:
>The softness can be a good thing, but it's not when a soft theme isn't your goal. You have to make some conscious decisions to overcome that softness. Now, if you're making a Disney movie, that softness helps add to the fairytale.

>It's not one-sided. Live-action has its limits and often looks terrible when it tries to adapt an anime, especially an anime that has supernatural elements and powers. Live-action has to overcome its limitations and make conscious decisions, just in a different way, however, they often fail to do so. I don't have to bring up the Dragonball movie, do I?

>Admitting that anime has to overcome its softness is not an insult. It's something for anime producers to keep in mind. Adding music can help make up for that. Some change the style for particular scenes (sometimes for budget, sometimes artistic, and sometimes both). Some play around with transitions and shots. In other words, execution can make or break an anime and its reception.

Me:
"it's not when a soft theme isn't your goal"
Wrong. Saying the same thing over and over wont make it true. Some of my favorite rock hard, throbbing anime has a moe art style. That adds to it, not subtracts. The contrast between moe and dark elements creates greater emotional impact than live action shit. Empathizing with a 2d character is easier too.

The vast majority of adults are morons who consume the dumbest, least creative, most play it safe shit possible. You try to blame that on some inherent short-coming of anime because you're a fake fan. Anime wont change for your up your own ass, "mature" taste and that's a good thing. Last reply.

Him:
>Then you are delusional. Can't admit to the success of Princess Mononoke but want to call others fake fans. Yeah. Okay. Glad that's your last reply so you can stop embarrassing yourself.

>>37527
Australia? really? That country should only be used as an example of what to avoid. When it comes to anime & manga it's the most closed minded backwards place out there.

>>37527
You say it's pointless anon, but I doubt you realize how pointless it really is. Everytime you feel like responding to shit online, imagine that you're not actually helping curb the shit, you're swallowing it instead.

>>37529
>Everytime you feel like responding to shit online, imagine that you're not actually helping curb the shit, you're swallowing it instead.
That's a good way of putting it. I'd like a larger pool of people to engage with, but arguments are the only form of engagement possible with most people besides idle chit chat.

>>33538
what do you do for a living?

>>37531
I think I posted that but I can't be completely sure because alzheimers.
Anyway, I worked amd keep working as a receptionist in a multinational. I used to work 12h per day some days and weeks but I stopped taking shit and I'm trying to avoid it at any cost. That makes everyone hate me but fuck them.
Before that I worked in a hotel 80-90 hours/week, now that was a living hell.

>>37532
why did you have to work such extreme hours?

>>37527
There's this obnoxious, mind-numbing ignorance to his posts, as if he knows just enough about what he's talking about to form an opinion on it but not enough for that opinion to make any sense. He takes such a surface level look on everything, not considering any of the obvious factors or contradictions to that look. I find that most of the MAL people I've seen do this, although I don't browse MAL that often at all. They feel obligated to take a pretentious view on everything, presuambly to avoid looking like a rabid "weeaboo" although they end up looking ten times worse. It's impossible to like a show if it's too childish, except if it's a childish show made by this popular studio that's well known by everyone, then they're obligated to like it.
The worst parts tend to come when they act like they know anything about animation, anything about the hard work that people put in to the production of the shows they're talking about. It's something that's incredibly easy to overlook, especially if the animation is well-done, which is why I assume he had to rely on box office numbers instead of his own intuition to understand why Mononoke was liked. His talk about "softness" in animation is completely void, it's as if he doesn't understand animation in the slightest. It's true that more detail requires more effort, but such detail can spin in any such direction. He assumes that this 'softness' is the lazy way out, since he's a mouthbreather with no experience or understanding of animation. You can put just as much, if not even more effort into something designed to be 'soft' in style as you can into something gritty.
I'm not sure if it applies to him, but another thing I've occasionally noticed among MAL or other anime reviewers is a lack of understanding of the target audience of the shows they're watching. Having an elaborate review is one thing, not realizing that the show you're reviewing is targeted at children is another. For an example, this would be as if someone was reviewing Scooby Doo as a piece of horror fiction designed for adults, and then criticizing its supposed shallowness.

I'm honestly surprised someone can be an anime fan all their lives and hate every last bit of it, but in the same vein it's something I expect from one of these pretentious queers who try to justify their escapism at every single bend by trying to argue that it is or should be their vague definition of "art" or "more adult like". Same shit happens in video games too.
Perhaps the crux of it all is that liking things makes you more vulnerable to be criticized, so they avoid this by only ever liking things that everyone else likes too.

>>37536
This is tangential, but I'm surprised that MAL hasn't been able to better capitalize (not in the monetary sense, but in the "functionality" sense) on all the user-data they have. For instance, I've noticed that issue you mentioned
>lack of understanding of the target audience of the shows they're watching.
when skimming the reviews of shows that I've planned to watch, and it's astounding how many are from people who self-proclaim to dislike the genre and then give it a low score (this is particularly bad with cgdct shows; yes the fact that "nothing exciting happens" is the point of it. But the nuance between shows is what that "nothing" consists of).

This could be partially mitigated if they provided a way to weight reviews based on how much their watch history overlaps with yours. And more generally I don't know why they haven't been able to make use of people's watch lists to give better recommendations. Now while it's true that recommendation systems are challenging to get right, a simple SVD as was seen in the Netflix Prize challenge can get you most of the way there. Even just clustering users based on any similarity metric would work.

>>37537
>I'm surprised that MAL hasn't been able to better capitalize (not in the monetary sense, but in the "functionality" sense) on all the user-data they have.
Kind of hard when you don't have a shit-ton of money to cover server costs. The other option being making their site slower and heavier on the user-side of things.

>>37533
When workmates couldn't make it I was the one and only substitute. All this have teached me some non intuitive truths about work relations; being receptive to help and nice is really detrimental and goes against your interests and how people see you.

Who the fuck has discussions in MAL of all places. I don't understand. I can't understand.

>>37540
Boredom and controversial subject matter.

>>37540
In the 10+ years I've had an account on mal, I've posted maybe 3-4 times in the forums, felt pretty pointless. I also tried talking to people via profile comments/messages for a bit and found most of the users are retards.

>>37542
>I also tried talking to people via profile comments/messages for a bit and found most of the users are retards.
This is true for any sufficiently large community whose gates are open.

>>37536
>lack of understanding of the target audience of the shows they're watching
>>37537
>when skimming the reviews of shows that I've planned to watch, and it's astounding how many are from people who self-proclaim to dislike the genre and then give it a low score

This is something I think about it often. How good are you at picking a title to watch. I consider being able to peruse, inspect and select a media you'll enjoy to be something of an art form in itself. Knowing exactly what the show is, where you stand in relation to it and your expectations towards it plays a huge part in your ability to enjoy it. In fact, if you get really good at this game, you can enjoy bad shows because you watched them at the right time. There's lots of fun to be had on trying to pick the right title at the right time just by looking at the cover and reading a short synopsis.

>>37543
I'm convinced this is more related to the delusion people have they're the only intelligent person that happens to be perpetually surrounded by morons.

What's the deal with 2006 and popular anime? Haruhi, Death Note, Black Lagoon and Ouran Koukou Host Club all aired then and I don't think anything since has surpassed those in terms of popularity on the internet. For some reason, 2006 is the "defining year" or something. Did some bizarre event happen in 2006? Maybe it's just in my head.

>>37537
What bothers me from MAL scores is how they are so low in OVA's and old anime that isn't the typical entry level stuff, at least compared to seasonal shit. Stuff like Dragon's Heaven, Black Magic or Madox barely have a 6 or less. Someone told me it was because they priorize plot over anything else so short action OVA's were at disadvantage but then I read how they say they suffer from "bad animation" (some of those OVA's are not only good but even excellently animated) and I just knew they don't have a clue about what they are talking about, besides being blind.

>>37542
I haven't used MAL in many years, but even back then I found the forum both too big and filled with too many users either being the pretentious queers mentioned above or some kind of early version of the ironic weeb. I can only imagine what it's like now. Sometimes I miss the list function because I'm senile and can't remember how many episodes I've seen.

>>37545
I feel the post-2012-14 stuff has surpassed. Sword Art Online, Jojo, One Punch Man, Konosuba, Re:Zero, Tokyo Ghoul, whatever else they're called.

2006 was probably the peak year of mangamania in my country, though it was never really a mania and never really mainstream, we mostly got shounen and a few shoujo and South Korean manwha, and a majority of incomplete series. There was a nice MAL-like community back then, but it got shut down along with all the series being cancelled at the end of the decade. While poor sales were mostly blamed, "hate speech" and "bullying" on the forums were also. Miss those days, but I'm kind of glad they're over because it would've turned to shit sooner or later anyway.

>>37546
>they say they suffer from "bad animation"
They can't handle cell animation and people conflate old with bad. I will say that stills from Dragon's Heaven remind me a bit too much of the 70s, which is a style I find ugly irrespective of anything else.

>>37545
I hardly ever hear about them. I can't even remember when I would have heard of or seen an image of one of those last, probably a few weeks ago in a thread about live action remakes. I would say many animes have surpassed them in terms of popularity, Kemono Freinds, Fate, Yuru Camp, Yuru Yuri, Precure(thought that is seasonal I guess), Madoka, Girls und Panzer, Lucky Star, ReZero, Konosuba, JoJO(whether you like it or not) etc, that's just from the top of my head. I see all of these anime mentioned much more than the ones you talked about.

>>37546
The most highly rated anime on MAL is Full Metal Alchemist Brotherhood(or it was last I checked) so I would not read much into it.

>>37549
To me those feel more like passing trends while people will be talking about Death Note til the heat death of the universe, so I guess it's just my perspective.

>>37548
Do you find Moebius ugly?