I'm about four days into a month long vacation right now. It's cold as fuck, and thus extremely uncomfortable, I'm bored beyond my mind and cannot life a finger of motivation to do anything other than stay at home in bed browsing imageboards and useless sites all day long. I feel depressed and I wouldn't mind not waking up tommorow, and I bet the rest of my vacations are going to be exactly how it has been so far.

An average day off. Slept in, woke up feeling okay, started feeling like crap in the afternoon, and now I've calmed down.

I need to stop stressing over "IRL" matters like my job situation so much,

It been such a long time since I had sweet stuff, my hot chocolate which I remembered being mildly sweet is now overwhelmingly sweet. I don't know if this is a natural or a reflection of my dietary choices.

>>27209
Make sure you eat properly, or at least eat something. The thing I find with depression is that you can't be bothered getting out of bed to eat, then that causes you to have even less energy and feel even worse. I get headaches if I don't eat for a couple of days.

I drank a forty and a 32 ounce beer last night because I celebrated the fact that I don't owe anyone any money anymore.

A reason to celebrate, sure, but I don't want to drink alcohol anymore. I thought that I was getting better, but it turns out that relapses are common. I feel like a dumbass, even though it really could have been a lot worse.

I think I got a defective cinnamon stick. I'm chewing on it like I normally would but it doesn't taste like cinnamon at all.

Let's try this again!

I've recently started seeing a Psychologist, referred by a Psychiatrist I saw. The Psychologist is female, and from what I can tell she is not very good at her job. Or perhaps she is, as egotistical as this sounds (believe me, it's intended the opposite), simply not equipped to deal with a patient like me. This woman, a small town specialist, seems to be more used to dealing with 16 year old girls, fresh from a weekend hospital stay for signs of small cutting after being jilted by an ex-lover. Her mannerisms are patronizing, and she talks a lot. Ordinarily talking a lot would be ideal, but she wastes time. She seems to waffle on and on, to the point where I found myself fairly agitated during yesterday's session, finishing her drawn out explanations of simple exercises and ideas for her in rushed, irritated tones. She also forgot my name at the end of the session, her notekeeping was less than adequate (she found herself forgetting key events I'd made sure to highlight at her request during the previous appointment for future discussion) and she seemed to lack the appropriate agency with which to decisively correspond with my Psychiatrist regarding my treatment. She asked me at the end of the session what I wanted her to say to the Psychiatrist.

I could probably deal with all of this if it weren't for her awful sense of humour. She's like a spinster clown in a hospice. But getting in to see this woman was a months-long ordeal I'd rather not go through again. I'm just going to ride it out and hope I get prescribed Adderall or something.

>>27219
Do you still browse /jp/?

I went to go turn in my resume at a store because their website said they were hiring, but the person on duty said that they weren't. Defeated in less than a minute.

>>27233
I do still browse the jay, not often as I used to but I still do.

>>27236
And the illusion that you will meet nice people and make friends?

Gelbooru is down.
THE END TIMES ARE UPON US.

I understand my ear pro better now why some people don't like it. Its not because its shit but rather the way it handles sounds. Instead of filtering out the loud sound removing it. Rather the microphone picks it up too and lets you hear it at a lower decibel which is still loud but not damaging.

I found out that the little sweets I used to enjoy as a kid were called Koala Yummies. They're currently called Koala's March and I ordered some from Amazon along with some other sweets because why not.

I talked with my mother today, my brother has some (serious) problems with the degree he's doing (read: he's doing jackshit) and she's worried. She's has a lot of problems and this is the last one for her, she doesn't like her job any more but she doesn't want to quit because the plan was for her to leave it to my brother.

It made me remember all the time I wasted when I was doing my bachelor, the fact it took me 5 years instead of 3, and all the other related things. It feels horribly, what's worse is that I can't go back and fix it.
I told my mother if I can do something to help but she said no, and that I should go on with my own life. I'll hug her and be depressed all day.

I sent off the last 24 orders of my patches yesterday. It took the mail guy a total of 20 minutes to get through all of it and I got a receipt little over 2 feet long. Today it felt good to wake up and not have that fat stack of letters stare at me.

the past 4 years I've shut my self off from the world in order to avoid what I'm experiencing right now. Haruhidamnit why now of all places. This was not supposed to happen this way. I should have done my share of the work, come back, act akward the entire time, sleep then leave the day after but no I just had to forget about acting akward and unsociable the entire day. Fuck now I got people interested in me in record time (<12 hours) and now my week is dedicated to being with them. Hell one of the girls even likes me to the point of sharing meals and walking together. I'm digging myself a normal person hole with an excavator and I can't get.out of it.

I apologise for blogging but I feel this might be my final post on this site with the way things are going.

>>27268
wow drama

Rather nervous about my final riding exam tomorrow. I've got a Japanese lady from 1986 sitting in my garage which keeps me focused, but I still feel the pressure. To top it off, the lessons got me into a 'small' debt. A motorcycle might make it easier to find an alright job, though.

>>27291
I bet half of the items in your house were made by a 14yo Chinese slave

>>27291
who gives a shit who makes your dishwasher

>>27293
Korean products are lower quality.

>>27297
Yes, Korean and Japanese appliances are shit. We all know Europe makes the superior products.

>>27298
>Europe makes the superior products.
Kill you to buy american?

>>27298
Japanese appliances are on par with European.

Don't bring /pol/ into tohno-chan, thanks.

>>27302
This is but an innocent conversation about consumer appliances.

>>27298
Too bad now everyone makes their products in China with cheap underage slaves and cheap poisonous plastic.
Go to any big store and you won't see much "Made in Germany", or Switzerland etc.
We need fascism once again.

Today my mother bought a led light bulb and put it the living room. I was amazed by how they light up the entire place. I did some research about it, and apparently the japanese men who invented this received a Nobel prize for it.

I got my new dive mask today. Its higher volume than expected but I like the aesthetics of oval style masks more.

http://vocaroo.com/i/s1fQQgYPTQVY

The kazoo is an elegant instrument

I've a test tomorrow and I'm shaking, I spent the day studying but I realized there is still so much stuff I don't know. Fuck I'm panicking hard, feeling like not even showing up. Please god let it be a hail storm tomorrow

>>27313
Me too. I didn't even study today. Or ever, for that matter. It's frightening how blazingly fast a day can pass.

Desu is an anagram of deus. Coincidence?

I have been playing riichi on Tenhou pretty much nonstop for three days now. I didn't knew a single thing about riichi back then, but now I've already memorized all the yakus and tiles and sequences of dora indicators. I've even won a game whilst knowing what I was doing. It's a very addicting game after a while.

I've been thinking about this lately, What do you guys think of a measurable intelligence such as IQ, or intelligence in general?

Personally, I think IQ is a very small indicator of how smart a person is, and a even smaller indicator of what a person is capable of, it angers me when some people believe they're superior to others just because "My IQ is at least 25% higher than yours". Sure we can tell if a person is smart or not if we get to know them well enough, but if we know a person that much then we probably would find some qualities enjoyable about him other than intelligence that would've made us want to know him and hang out with him so much.

Even if IQ is valid, I'd rather hang out with the nice guy with a IQ of sub 90 than the dickwad with an IQ of 140. Intellegence is all about how you use it, not how much you have, famous people like Shakespeare, Einstein, etc. never were popular because they were smart, but rather because they did/made/said things that changed the world as a result of how smart they were.

>>27331
While it's not something to obsess on, I'd say it's a valid indicator overall.
The people who couldn't get past the stone age usually score 80 points or less while at the top you have places like Italy, Switzerland etc.
Also singapore but everyone knows those chinks cheat.

>>27332
thats because the test wasn't invented by those people. its like dropping a bunch of Jewish guys in the middle of Somalia.

>>27333
The test used was invented by europeans, but asians seem to be the best at it.

This is Flynn's test, it only takes into account the natives' IQ. ie, australian test was given to the abbos.
All the places in the 70IQ area in this map were stuck in living with mud houses and the like before the European came to give them civilization, or attempted to.
Is it really just because it wasn't made by their people that they scored so bad in an intelligence test?
And how could they hope to make a test of their own, if they couldn't even figure out the wheel and are still stuck in living in such an underdeveloped way?

Post edited on 27th Jul 2015, 5:29pm

>>27334
lol, australia

>>27334
Okay, so lets drop a bunch of Chinese people in Australia 40,000 years ago. You think they'd be able to build a better civilization?

Actually that experiment has already been done since the Australian Aboriginal people originally came from Asia.

>>27336
>You think they'd be able to build a better civilization?
Yes.

>>27336
They're completely different ethnic groups/lineages. Think Papua New Guineans vs Indonesians, Taiwanese aborigines vs Taiwanese or Ainu vs Japanese. Maybe they came from Asia but they're not asian in the sense that they're related to the main ethnicities living in east asia right now.

>>27338
But those people all came from the same place originally; we are all the same species. The difference between groups is due to where they ended up. People on mainland Asia took a different route because they had many different people to trade with, animals/plants to domesticate, fertile land that allowed agriculture to develop and cities to be built.

Imagine aboriginal people meeting Europeans for the first time and administering an intelligence test based on their own culture and the challenges of their geography. They might conclude that Europeans are dumb because they don't know how to find water in the desert or build a canoe.

>>27339
Europeans building the best 'canoes' is how they came to conquer the world.

>>27340
China had better ships but the Pacific was too large for them to cross

>>27331
I had an IQ test recently, something about determining if I had the autism or some such nonsense. It didn't seem like it had any sort of memory testing on it. As such, I did fine. My working memory works fine, but two minutes later, I won't remember shit. The supposed intelligence measured is useless if you can't remember anything...

I'm thinking about picking up drawing as a hobby again. There's just so much different and new porn I want to see but nobody has drawn or will draw it ever. The only thing that stops me is knowing I'll need to put so much effort and time into it to get to the leve I want to be.

Working on my terrible global ratio. I'm up from .34 to .78 now but shooting for a higher than 1.0 ratio. Feels good man

>>27346
Ah, I know what that's like. I didn't like my ratio being that low so I left myself seeding very often and eventually got my ratio to +100.0 . I'm not sure if I can check the ratio on Deluge or if it even has a kind of system that tries to throttle my download speed for not seeding, but I like to seed either way since I like helping out other people since I was also helped out by other people.

I had another dream about work again. It's starting to get to the point where my one ultimate sanctuary where I'm safe, my bed, is being violated. I don't know what to do.

Well, I just got a cat.

Tonight's blue moon really does light up the night


>>27355
Cute cat dude

>>27355
Cute. What are you going to call it?

>>27350
Nightmares don't necessary mean problems. Sometimes I dream awkward stuff and realize not until later what it meant, if at all. Yesterday I dreamed about some association were computer scientists taught undertakers how to operate computers, enabling them to control their incinerators.

>>27355
Nice, but holy shit learn how to post images dude.

I know I be moved further down as the week goes on but damn does it feel good to be 11th place especially after all my fuck ups right before.

I've waited 3 months for my mom to visit so she can clean the house. Finally!

>>27374
It's not hard to do it yourself!

>>27375
It's very, very hard.

I love to clean. Last week I cleaned behind my washer and dryer. I can't wait for the weekend, I'm gonna clean so hard.

>>27377
Serial killer detected.

>>27378
You're not the first person to say that about me.

I haven't killed anyone yet but I do love reading about serial killers. Israel Keyes is my favourite.

>>27355
Albino, huh. Is it deaf already? Looks a little scrawny as well.

>>27384
You're just jealous of its whiteness.

My fucking chest/heart hurts, but I know for sure this isn't the result of strong physical pressure, it's actually emotional pressure, but goddamn does it feel real. It's amazing how closely physical and emotional pain are.

I got drunk out of my fucking mind, threw up and passed out on the floor while trying to crawl to the bathroom. Woke up with my hair soaking up the vomit and an angry stomach.
I also called my mom before passing out but she had a sleeping pill and didn't hear me. Guess she's gonna have to clean again, oops. At least she's not angry.

Almost all politicians sound terrible on paper and great on the podium.

Fuck, I am terribly weak to human wiles.

>>27386
I know that feeling. At its worst it feels like something is squeezing your heart and it really hurts, but the emotional pain still felt stronger than it when I felt it.

>>27377
You should probably visit the other anons never cleaning their rooms.

>>27397
Who's going to wear the maid uniform in that relationship?

>>27397
Tohno-chan bros seem to be pretty high on the legitimately insane spectrum. I'd be careful.

Today is my birthday, but I'm more excited for tomorrow, our anniversary together! I can't believe it's going to be a year already, I can recall when I first fell in love like it was yesterday. I think I'll save what else I have to say for tomorrow, I can't wait!

>>27400
Happy birthday.

>>27400
Happy birthday.

Found more stuff in my room thats not mine and my bed smells like someone else again. I wish people would consider this room mine instead of like a bathroom, but I guess that just how it is right now.

>>27400
You doing anything to celebrate?

>>27403
What is the story behind your lack of privacy?

>>27404
Not an interesting story. I got in a fight with my dad so my relatives felt guilty or something about not being able to do anything and as a way to make up for it they decided to swoop me up while I was looking for a place to sleep. So here I am 2 months later occupying their "guest bedroom" while I save up to get out.

>>27400
Happy Birthday!

>>27401
>>27402
>>27403
>>27406
Wow, thanks a lot guys! I didn't do anything special for my birthday but I did save up some foods and a drink to celebrate the 1st year anniversary I've been in love with her for today. Currently waiting for some privacy, can't wait!

I looked at my data usage, only to find that apparently, my phone visited the future briefly. What is even going on? There are several things that annoy me about this phone (Galaxy S3), and this is only the most recent thing. Another is that for some reason, when playing music via Bluetooth, it doesn't always send the song metadata or something, although that might be a problem with the receiver. When using the newest version of Spotify, Bluetooth crashes between every song, so I had to download an older version from not the play store (as far as I can tell, you can't download old versions from there), so I hope that that program isn't doing bad things. The default browser is shit; for some reason sites are occasionally convinced that I have JavaScript disabled.

This might be an issue with the carrier, but one time a text message wouldn't download until I restarted the phone. Another time, I tried to make a call and it said something like "not registered on network," and I had to restart.

Also, the home button feels a little recessed, I think a piece of sand got in there or something, and I find out that the only way to remove the button to clean it is to remove the entire screen, held into place with adhesive fashioned from the jizz of ten thousand nerds, and essentially requires destroying the screen to remove it. I guess making one of the few mechanical parts of your phone goddamn impossible to clean is a good idea?

Also, hidden locations that do specific things are pretty frequent, it's like UI designers actively loathe the user. Surprise! Touching here while a video is playing changes the volume. No, you can't delete part of your data usage history. No, the default keyboard doesn't have arrow keys, if you want to edit something, you'll slide your grubby fingers all over the text trying to get it into place.

This is my first smart phone, are they all this much of a mess?

Post edited on 12th Aug 2015, 9:08pm

I can't seem to pull myself to leave the room so I haven't drank or eaten anything today. Am I going down a road I shouldn't?

>>27411
Starving yourself is a very bad and stupid thing to do. I did it when I was pretty depressed and all it got me was being sick and getting weight from overeating afterwards.

Its all so weird. I looked out the tiny crack in the curtains right before the flash happened and looked at my computer right before it lost power like I knew it was going to happen.

Walking home from buying some fast-food cause I can't cook, I seen this guy walk out of his car to use an ATM. Leaving both the keys in and the door open, as I was walking by someone cut me off, jumped in the guy's car and drove off. Almost hitting me.

A cop then drove by, seeing all that happen he just phoned dispatch and kept driving off.

I just sighed and kept walking home.

>>27417
You should've jump in the car with him and start a new life of adventures and fun.

>>27418
Getting arrested and brutally raped to death doesn't sound like fun.

>>27420
It takes all types

>>27418

If it was someone like Marisa behind the wheel I would of for sure.

>>27417
Leaving his car like that was just asking for trouble.

It appears my internet connection depends on the time of day as during work hours I easily get 200Kb upload but on a friday night like this I can only get 3Kb at most. Kinda sucks

God, I hate sundays so much. It's the one day of the week that takes the longest to pass and I always have to spend them all doing nothing from morning till night on the computer browsing imageboards. I wish sundays would stop existing.

I'm going insane !!!!!!

>>27430
Me too!!

Killed two porcupines tonight. Never thought I'd have a legitimate complaint about hollow point rounds.

>>27399
Thank you for the concern.

I've been coding in Python! It's fun stuff. Yesterday, I took a nap in a graveyard and listened to roommates' problems while chatting on IRC.

I tried mountain biking today with a wallyworld bike. I left the mountain bruised, battered and with a new nickname "one pedal wonder". I'll stick to using on my own two legs and not to use cheap shit.

I've started looking at a bunch of flash videos because I wanted to catch up on whatever I've missed out during the last 6 months to a year.

I've found a few interesting things, I found out that Zone is still making videos, and I found a flash where some people were making Japanese girls say inappropriate things in English.

I guess it was okay and stuff. The experience is kind of reminding me that I do need to wander around the internet a bit more often to find some interesting things since I've been very detached from everything as of late.

I did find this incredible flash just now, however. I love it. I know that people here don't like Kancolle, so I'll put this old Ronald flash that I was reminded of during my time awake during these last hours.

I currently hate myself intensely, to the point that I cannot stand being around myself. I've enrolled myself into a small kind of scholarship in my university where I have to correct exercises and then help students with their mistakes in class. I don't know how I didn't noticed that this would clearly not work since I have to stand in front of fifty people and deal with them, but I ended up taking this up. I did my first day of this yesterday and I believe it was truly a trainwreck. Now I feel horrible about myself and the prospect that I shall have to repeatedly shame myself in public every friday morning. I wish I could dissapear right now.

It's raining!
Also I ate some melon and now my stomac hurts.

I pulled an allnighter to study but ended up doing jackshit.

GNFOS and Merorin have gone. All the other /jp/ spin offs are to slow so I am spending allot of time refreshing pages and being bored.

My hours have been cut pretty hard at work. Last week I had 7.5, and this week it's only 4. Usually I go in for 12 hours a week. I need to escape this retail hell and find a less stressful job with more stable hours.

Working on decensoring an ECM swf scene. So far I've got 4 of 6 frames done.

>>27503
>ECM
That series with the pink haired girl, big tits and semi-elf ears?
I really like that artist

>>27504
Thats the one. I wish his mosaics weren't such a bitch to remove since I'm having to redraw everything it touches in photoshop.

>>27505
that 2nd part sounded kind of salty let me rephrase it. His mosaics remove all details in parts of his drawing so I have to fill in that missing part with my imagination in photoshop which takes a while to do.

>>27505
Isn't this uncensored enough? Who cares about smoother pixels

>>27518
I was already hard as diamond, but then I noticed she cut off his shota balls to keep him around as an obedient slave
Now my dick has become something much harder than any diamond could ever hope to be

>>27518
I'm also doing it because I have nothing else to do all week

>>27524
That looks shitty.
Just leave it alone and stop wasting your time.

>>27525
I wasn't expecting it to be a mona lisa or anything good in particular but it was something to do other than anime, games, and imageboards.

>>27526
It's not bad actually, it looks like what things like that are supposed to I guess so it's good.

Today I panicked because I fear for my future.

>>27551
That's everyday for me.

My parents found out my brother lied about how many uni exams he passed, 5 in 3 years. Things could get ugly.

I signed up for the maximum number of classes per semester and I am holding a part-time job.

I really like all of my classes, but the stress is already building up two weeks in. I wonder how people with actual social lives manage to pull this off.

>>27124
Is it happening yet?

>>27567
Just a week or two more.

>>27568
are u gonna steal her panties?
i will buy

Felt pretty good today. A lot less stressed about my work and job situation. Tomorrow is going to suck though, since I work 1:30-7. Going to be murder on my feet, and since it's not quite a full 6 hours, I don't get a lunch break; Just a regular 15 minute break.

I guess this is payback for having worked only 4 hours last week.

>>26876
Its been about 3 months since I started and now I finally got rid of all 100 of them. I almost miss having that pile on my desk.

I jerked off three times and now i'm going to sleep because I have class in a few hours

I'm eating melon again while watching yodelling videos. Life is good again.

I have found religion for the first time in my life it seems. Been visiting church and taking part of some local activities lately. Feels way better than staying apathetically at my place all the time.

Jesus Christ.

This is the third time I've masturbated and came in the day (I've felt the pleasant relief alright), but none of them have I ejaculated, not a single drop. I actually had an UTI recently and didn't recover fully even after taking cephalosporins; now, after the first test of a series I have to take, I seem to have prostatitis...

I might be really fucked up this this time.

My doujinshi collection is turning into an expensive habit.

At this point, I will probably just start buying NSFW material also.

I've started studying all the basics of mathematics again, all the way from pre-algebra to third year of highschool mathematics, so that I can study university level calculus to understand some things of my field of study. I really love studying these things as they held an amazous magical image for me since they are complex and I could never do them since I hadn't studied them when I needed to. Just solving basic high school algebra functions or trigonometry exercises makes me really proud of myself.

>>27614
That's nice. I always wanted to do that, and I urgently to do that, but no willpower during breaks and no time when classes are going on. That and the thought of someone seeing me studying that material troubles me deeply because then I'd have to admit I have no mastery of even the simplest concepts, let alone the ones I'm supposed to be studying right now.

>>27615
I know how that feels all too well. I've been using a very good free site for it (Khan Academy) that I recommend if you want to do it. They have classes and exercises from all the most basic of math all the way to calculus. I'm also kind of ashamed to be studying this now, so I just do it at home and keep it a secret until I match the knowledge I should have.

>>27614
I'm truly glad for you.

>>27610
OK. Three days later, after some more attempts, I still can't ejaculate at all.

I guess I'm done for.

Thursday I'll get the results of my tests.

I have the feeling that I'll finally need to buy a new laptop. I've been using a second hand one that mother ended up not wanting, and it has been overheating and becoming ever slower. Soon I won't even be able to watch an anime in 480p without having the computer turn off on me. I just don't want to spend the money on a new machine though.

>>27634
Look around for a disassembly guide (a video or whatever) and clean the dust out, put some new thermal paste in there and who knows how much longer it'll last you

>>27635
I defragmented the disk and tried to clear as much garbage as possible, and it seems like it got somewhat better now. I'm not very computer savvy, so I don't know much about opening up my computer. I will try it if it the problem persists.

>>27643
You definitely need to open it, clean it up an replace processor's thermal paste or get someone to do it for you. It's a normal maintenance procedure that all laptops must go through at some point.

While searching for something to get off to I came across a picture of two girls that were a few grades below me while I was in school. The part that bothers me the most is they're no older than 16 and their asses are already making rounds through the imageboards.

>>27645
Different person here, but I need to clear out the dust from the heatsink on my laptop. Ive been blasting compressed air through it, but its starting to not work in terms of getting the dust out.

The problem is that its an HP laptop and they design the heatsink to be behind everything else, so you have to take apart the whole laptop to get to it. I'm not very experienced at it and the few times I opened a laptop I ended up breaking it so I'm scared to attempt the thing.

>>27567
It's happening. I talked to her a few hours ago and I will see her tomorrow morning as well.

>>27569
Not possible only pair is the one she's wearing.

I feel like I'm on the most detached moment of my life right now. I feel completely afloat the entire day, as if I couldn't grasp anything at all. I feel away from people and from events around me, and I honestly can't tell what I have been doing so far or will do in the future.

>>27655
The most amazing thing is how much better you're at writing English now.

Keep us posted.

>>27661
I know that feeling. Don't worry it'll go away eventually.


>>27662
I think its just you at this point but Je suis american. I will admit my first few posts about this were whiny and I would like to reword them however I believe I am past the point of no return on them. Also I have no idea how the edit button works.

Anyway I ended up talking to her mother and father a lot more since her brother (I think?) was right on her heels most of the time and had this pissed face. Odd thing is I thought he was Italian when I first saw him. Though when I did get the chance to talk to her I tried to avoid topic of modeling since everybody and their mother probably has talk to her about it. She said hi Im (asian name) nice to meet you anon. Then she said shes finished with modeling and is now focusing on college. Also about being settled in at new York.

Sorry pal she just wasn't that interesting in person and I got more caught up in talking to other family about business management and stuff.

>>27667
Oh well. I guess the Light Novel will have to wait.

I have class in one hour and haven't gotten any sleep, this is gonna be funny.

I have been feeling depressed recently as I have become more and more conscious about the state of my life, and my inability or lack of initiative to change things. I've been feeling like doing nothing at all most of the time and panicking about everything the rest of my day.

I've grown a lot more anxious and I hate myself a lot more than before, what's going on? My life is only getting better from here and yet my heart aches from crippling anxiety and I constantly have hateful thoughts of myself over the meaningless shit in my life. I can't even browse my once favorite places and have to avoid certain places and discussion because I'm scared of what they have to say, I don't want to exhaust myself with a huge debate again, even if it is on the internet. God, what is happening?

>>27417
>cause I can't cook
You can. Just read some stuff up on the internet. Most of it is pretty easy and it's much cheaper than buying fast-food which is important if you don't have a steady income.
It can also taste much better.

I'm absolutely terrified of the inevitable job interviews I'll have to accept.

This is more of a Q3 2015 report than a daily one:
One of my teeth feels like it is going to fall out.
I have been cycling through antidepressants trying to find one that works, no luck so far.
I am trying to improve my diet but I'm too lazy to eat most days so I have ordered something similar to Soylent.
Finally I have put in my application and should be returning to university next year.

So I was bored and went to the app store out of boredom and saw Potion Maker on the front page. I ended up getting it because I saw the tag for Potion Maker on a booru while looking up pictures of Morrigan Aensland because I saw one of the girls (Tia) dressed up as Morrigan.

Anyway, the loli asked this and I just loved it.

>>27769
I played that for a bit but got bored of it after two minutes. It's cute sure but it felt extremely pointless and repetitive which is really saying something for a mobile game.

>>27763
Try bupropion/Wellbutrin! It was great for me.

>>27610
I hope your dick gets better, bro

>>27776
I think he is going to start me on agomelatine, I will ask about trying bupropion in combination with that. I've got to find something that works because I've been sleeping the days away for years now and completely laid waste to my life.

My grandfather died at the age of 92 today.

After doing his morning exercises, he went inside, had my grandmother make him his Sunday milkshake, and while he was drinking it he just closed his eyes and stopped living.

While most of my family is heavily upset, I think that was quite the positive note to end one's life. I don't feel like I missed anything vital, since I've heard all of his stories multiple times already, and I spent plenty of time with him in the last few years.

However, my Grandma, who is going through the early stages of dementia, is having a hell of a time, and I can only feel it will get worse for her.

>>27781
I wonder if thats possible. Just deciding to die like that, and dying. I couldnt do that if I tried.

>>27782
Well, what probably happened is that after the exercise his blood pressure went too high or too low, knocking him out, and then his heart just stopped beating.

Nothing of note happened recently, so I don't think he decided to die. He just did.

How do you commit suicide efficiently/painlessly if you don't have money of your own and you live with your parents?

I spent a whole week without internet and was pretty productive with classes and with my art, there's internet at my uni so I can use it there for basic things such as mails, messages and posting my shit.
Since I got internet at my place i've been VERY unproductive and i'm starting to get depressed again.
Now I know what I must do. I think this is going to be my last post here, i'm glad I came across this place during my short NEET phase (it's been almost a year now) because I made a very good friend.

Bye bye tc.

Post edited on 10th Oct 2015, 5:50am

>>27800
Dishonest? That's exactly what every company/business ever has done since forever. If you ever bought something from a local store it's been marked up from it's original value to make that store a profit. The only exception being items sold at low costs to draw in customers in hopes they buy the other more expensive stuff too. The real question there is if it will make money like you said. It's true weeaboos will willingly overpay for Japanese garbage (it's the principle j-list is built on) but you have to make sure that you can sell the stuff for a high enough mark up to make up for amazon/ebay fees on top of ebay fees and payment processing fees. Then you have to be mindful of competition selling the same items. If you can sell them items at a high enough price to clear the fees but low enough to beat out the other guys then you're good to go.

Going to be starting a college course tomorrow. Fucking terrified because I haven't left the house in 5 years and have no idea what teenagers are life, my clothes are trashy and old and I don't even own a phone. I'm going to die.

おほほほ！

I managed to find something with my limited Japanese that is somewhat rusty since I haven't practiced or went over any of the Kana in a long while.

I still can't be assed to study Kanji.

>>27803
we are in very similar predicaments. i wish us both luck!

>>27805
Kanji is in my opinion one of the most interesting aspects. It isn't really as hard as it may seem, they do make sense and there's a lot of shit repeating, so after a little bit of time, it'll be much easier to learn new characters.

Also with programs like rikai, Kanjitomo, ITH etc. it takes almost no effort to look up characters, I really don't want to imagine what a pain in the ass Chinese and Japanese learning must have been.
Just don't let yourself get overwhelmed, start with some interesting furigana stuff if you haven't already and learn the characters on the go.

Id like people to discuss manga more on tc.

I'd hate to kill the current Japanese language discussion going on in the thread, so please continue warmly despite my post.

I bought some cheap bourbon tonight, Old Crow. It's as good as I remember.

>>27814
I've started reading a whole lot more manga recently, but I don't tend to discuss it in Tohno-chan because /ma/ is too dead.

>>27814
I've sort of been taking a break from reading manga for some reason despite liking it more than anime, but I might go back to reading it eventually.

Lately, I've just been feeling too busy to read it aside from One Piece for some reason.

>>27821
Why did you feel the need to spoiler One Piece

>>27822
I felt a little bit of shame admitting that I still read One Piece. Not enough shame to stop myself from saying that I do, but enough to spoiler it.

It's pretty stupid now that I think about it.

I turned 27 yesterday. All downhill from here now.

>>27830
Happy birthday, Anon.

>>27830
Happy late Birthday!

People not liking manga just because they were made by Koreans, or Westerners, or whoever, this is just silly.

I am way too young for my hair to be falling out.

Finally finished a component of my potential future alternative to MAL for seiyuu.
This one allows to search for anime based on a list of voice actors starring in it. For when you only care about 2.5D.

Making a service without a server while learning AngularJS and Bootstrap was an interesting experience.

That said I should really start watching Cross Ange now. Wonder if it's anything like Symphogear.

>>27840
Didn't really mean it, but if I talked about real people any longer someone could have became triggered or probably already was.
Do people really hate seiyuu though? I would have said I'm more interested in them than anime itself if I knew Japanese well enough to follow them, but that's not the case.

>>27839

>That said I should really start watching Cross Ange now.

You really shouldn't. I doubt you'll have any respect left for Nana by the time you'll finish it.

>>27841

>Do people really hate seiyuu though?

I don't think we do, I'm confident some of us like talking about them. Almost all of us are interested in their voice acting and their voice acting alone, though.

>>27841
I enjoy talking about VAs, but only their roles and stuff.
I have no interest in what they look like, their personalities, their love lives, or anything of that nature.

Voice acting is the only thing that makes characters alive though.

Anyway, what's that about Nana in Cross Ange? Is the character lewd or something?
I just found out it has all the stars in it, even Chihara Minori in addition to the three in the screenshot. Although experience tells me sometimes all stars cast is used to balance out really bad anime and vice-versa (promising titles voiced by rookies).

Post edited on 28th Oct 2015, 3:19am

>>27840

>>27846

That and it's literally the worst anime I've ever seen, and I actually have some confidence in my power level.
Nana's voice acting was fine but it was really hard not to hate the character she voiced.

Saying a seiyuu is 2.5D because she create voices for anime and game characters is like saying artists are 2.5D because they create the artwork and design the characters.

>>27850
Hating 3D girls is the same as hating 2D girls since 2D were created after and because 3D ones exist and attract us.

>>27852
That doesn't change the fact that 3D pig bitches are all trash.

>>27855
2D normies are still normies though.

>>27852
Even if they were created after, they are idealized forms and perfect because of that. There is no equivalent in real life.
Also not everyone is attracted to 3DPD, buddy. And people who like 3DPD don't automatically like 2D. Hating 3D girls isn't hating 2D girls. The difference is huge.

My grandpa died. I don't really care, in 25 years of my life I don't think I've seen him more than 30 times, he could have not existed at all and nothing would have changed.
What's surprising for me is how bad my mother took it, she always said she hated him and couldn't wait for him to die.

>>27865
>she always hated him
Why though? Why did she hate him? I think it's worth noting that love and hate are two sides of the same coin.
It could be however, much like the cries of the teenage girls over the death of the introverted, quiet, nerdy loser who literally nobody gave any fucks about when he was alive, that she's simply crying in response to a reminder of her own mortality. All of the bonds she's formed in life, everything she's hated and everything she's loved, it will all die by the hands of time and now, once again, she's not allowed to look away from it.

>>27866
He was a scary man with serious anger issues, bad enough that my mother picked a university far away from him and never came back, seeing him only on occasions like Christmas.
I don't know, I thought she hated his guts and would have been happy to see him dead, as bad as this sounds.

I'm uncharismatic.

Oh no, its Tohno!

My father is a scary man with serious anger issues, and I have more or less emotionally and mentally shut him out of my life now (because he is going to remarry when he promised my mother on her deathbed that he never would).

Looks like me and yo' mama got something in common.

Tohnosexual

For some strange reason I have been getting random outburst of energy, I just spent 2 hours cleaning my apartment. It's 1AM and now I feel the need to go for a jog but I don't think I will.

I'm stuck in my room and it taking forever to get out.

>>27876
Call 911?

>>27876
Is your name Weston Parker, and are you involved, affiliated, or in cahoots with The Goodmen?

>>27878
Hows your tendonitis?

>>27878
How's your anti-nepotism sentiment?

>>27877
Not that serious, I just slipped and dumped a box of tacks that I had gotten for my new corkboard and the light wasn't on so I had to minesweep my way out.

>>27878
I feel like I should know where that's from

>>27869
I see. I guess familial bonds are a really complicated thing. Even when they're that shitty, there's always that irremovable feeling of love for this person and wanting the best for them. You can drown this feeling out with hate but you can never truly extinguish those flames.

I've started watching Serial Experiment Lain two days ago. I don't know what the fuck is going on so far, but I hope to find out sooner or later.

I got banned on an MMO so I sent an appeal saying unban me or I'll kill myself and they called the police and sent them to my house using the billing information. Now they have printed-out logs of the e-mails and everything I did on the game and needless to say my parents are pissed.

>>27910
wow, did they at least unban you?

>>27911
Nope. Still banned, forever.

>>27912
Jesus, what a bunch of massive fagots. What game is it anyway?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TE0tqPn_o6Q

>>27910
You should've just posted a cute girl on the /so/ thread.

I really,really want to hug a ww2-era warship or pat her bow if she's a destroyer.

>>27924
I want to do that too!

They're all so cute and I want them to all be happy!

I finally did it! I don't even know how long it took me, but I finally got SAND MARINE!

It feels like my soul hurts from doing that Hell level stage after so many times and having RNG screw me over with the luck based coin drop.

It sucks, but I think that I'll need Wrath Allen since I've heard that he can mow down KoF units like nothing, so I'm going to need to go back for this. It's only 1 million coins, so I might be able to do it, and if SAND Marine can kill Sol, it might be a lot easier for me.

I changed laptop and I'm having to run a virtual machine to use an old scanner.

Watching this screen once again really brought me back.

I'm so old.

>>28003
I used to have a huge problem of just putting all my images together. Sorting through them would be impossible now, it's literally gigabytes of images. I've resolved to make a new images folder, with categories like "cool stuff" "cute stuff" "lewd stuff" etc., and just rename my old folder as "Archive". There was a bit of a transitional period, but I'm so glad I did it. I do still look into my old folder for stuff to add to the new ones from time to time.

my friend from tohno chan keeps ignoring me

Ah, it's 5AM. I'm glad that I finally managed to find something to distract myself with since I had a horrible time yesterday just trying to get through the day/night.

>>28010
Me too

Today I started learning to play Red by King Crimson. I always thought it was a really overrated piece because of just how often it's played live and covered despite not being their most impressive work by far, but as it happens it's just really fun to play.

i want to increase my charisma stat irl

Did some upgrading on my computer today. More RAM, a modular PSU to replace the old non-modular one just to make cable management a bit more bearable, and an extra hard drive.

tohno-chan is dying

>>28074
It's not dying, it's just sleeping.

My dog died yesterday.
I loved her.

>>28076
Dang that sucks. I'm sorry to hear that. How old was it?

>>28079
12.
Thanks.

>>28075
But I just woke up.

Well today I cried at an insurance commercial.

>>28084
I don't blame you. Those commercials show a very sweet and idealised version of reality. One can get emotional seeing these things.

>>27799
Same here
My pc's psu burned so I had 2 weeks without it and that time I was really productive and happy.
When they delivered a new psu and I started idling on my pc all day again, I returned to being really Depressive and felt sick all day.
Well, Internet FTW

I can't believe social anxiety is classified as a mental illness these days. When my friend said he had a mental illness because he had social anxiety I was just filled with disbelief, he had to go to therapy and that did fuck all for him because it's clearly a scam. I know it's been tried and true but goddam the corporations will do anything to make money if they can get away with it.

>>28089
Well, feeling anxious is social situations is nothing abnormal, but if it gets to the point where it severely affects your everyday life it can be classified as a disorder.

>>28090
I know, that's not my point, the same could be said for anything. It's just that anybody who displays behavior considered not normal or ideal can be classified with a mental illness. Sorry for not making myself clear.

I went in to see a therapist and the receptionist handed me a form asking how you're doing, have you been sad lately etc. and there was a space to fill out your preferred pronouns & gender identity.

>>28096
Maybe it's an acknowledgement that this is an issue that only affects and concerns those with a severely diseased mind.

>>28087

>productive

another form os slavery, why do you enjoy making sociopaths richer?

Today I watched the news and misread the slogan on one of those Trump hats as "Make Anime Great Again."

I'd vote for that.

rff hng hrff mmmghhooo

Anyway, so I'm downloading 50 GBs worth of Queen's Blade. I can't really do much but wait for it to finish, even though it is at 88% complete as of right now.

Here's a bit of coincidental weirdness that actually occurred a few minutes ago: I was playing the Metal Slug mobile game and got an ad for a game called Clash of Cuties. I saw big tits and clicked on it. I was surprised, but the first thing that I saw when I looked at the pictures were the fact that the characters are pretty much Queen's Blade characters, just with different hair colour or clothes. However, in the screenshots of the actual gameplay has them wearing the clothes they wear in the series.

At least the game isn't wrong about them being QTs.

>>28145
They're little more than glorified daycare centers, so yes they are that bad.

>>28145
People who dont read and dont care about school won't know about these things.

I need to take it easy

why do normies think loli is CP but violent movies aren't murder?

I ate some sushi that I bought from the supermarket and it made me sick. I had to go home from work at lunch. I tried to sleep it off, but became overcome with the urge to vomit and ran to the bathroom. I didn't make it to the toilet, however, and first vomited all over my hands and arms in an attempt to catch it and not get it on the carpet. Then, I almost made it to the toilet but vomited all over the floor in front of it and in a pile of dirty clothes. Then I knelt in my vomit and threw up all over the toilet seat and in the toilet for a while. I was pretty gross so i took a shower, but now I feel feverish and too sick to clean up the mess. I live alone so if I die they'll only know when they come to evict me.

M-Merry Christmas, Tohno-chan.

To me it isn't the same thing, since no child is hurt when it is drawn. But nonetheless, I never willingly look at it. I prefer grown women.

Good mornafternoonight, Tohno-chan

>>28152
Normals are fucking stupid that's why.

>>28152
There are two things that make people stop thinking, those are sex and children. Combining them creates a worse effect.

But loli or whatever name you want to call it is porn of drawn children (see the connection?). And who likes masturbating to children? That's right, pedophiles. And people hate pedophiles, so they hate what they masturbate to. All people think is that they are masturbating to drawn little kids, it doesn't matter if you like real kids or not, it's assumed you do, which is probably right in most cases.

Loli is illegal in a lot of countries, and people make moral judgements based on there laws. If they started banning movies just for violence, people would agree with the decision and assume 'it must be so bad they had to ban it'. It's also funny that the judgement of 'drawn child pornography' or whatever, is characters under the age of 18, so that is not just loli. It also include girls that are older high school students.

Anyway, this topic is incredibly old, and nothing can be said that hasn't been said before. I wish kids got smarter with time so they don't repeat the same shit again and again. Most things can be figured out with a little thought. Yes, the answer is usually 'people are irrational', but you don't have to run away and get people to agree with you. Or you can think, 'lol their so dumb, im right' and laugh it off.

My parents are gonna get divorced and my dad already decided that my mom will get the house & most of the money...

>>28159
Before my parents got divorced my mom declared bankruptcy and then she moved into a house with her boyfriend. My dad was forced to live in a 24 foot travel trailer.

I used to see that a lot back when I had a job. Now, it has been almost three years or so.

I wish I could go back in time and live in 90s Japan

I reached a new level of pointless, and put translated Niconico comments on a Youtube reupload.

>3:13

>>28172
You and I both.

I played with my visiting relatives' kids the entire day. I had a lot of fun and joy but I can't shake this empty feeling i'm having right now.

>>28176
Did you play with their genitals?

>>28177
Kimmo? This isn't Tinychan. Go away.

>>28179
I don't bother with doing any of that because I hope that I don't wake up in the mornings.

>>28103
fhrrr ngg ghrrrru hgoooghh

Happy New Year... or so.
This year, for better or worst, I'm going out.

I just learned that a very close friend I used to have in middleschool and highschool, whom back then I admired immensely, died last wednesday and was buried today... and I couldn't care less.

>>28184
Suicide is for cowards.
Become a NEET.

>>28186
I meant out of my room, to live, at all cost.

>>28188
Going out of your room is for normies, do the other thing.

>>28189
That's a childish and irresponsible advice. Not that I'm wanting to discuss it with you, though.

Finally got all the required materials so I can start painting, or realistically speaking completely screwing up, my first model kit soon.

>>28191
Good luck with it.

My own garage kits are still waiting in their boxes after like 4 years. Maybe this one.

>>28188
So what exactly are your plans? Have any goals? What caused the change?

>>28193
Finally finishing my thesis and getting my degree, apply for a master (I'm already on it) and get a scholarship while on it. That should give some money and options for at least a few more years.

My mother is one step away from getting cancer. My aunt isn't very good either. There's no way I could survive without them the way I'm now. Years ago I thought I'd just kill myself after they die; but now I don't think I want to... and that's enough. For as long and deep as you look for it, there's no real good reason for living, none at all, at any level; so, I finally understood that it's a pure act of the will, a choice, and that's what constitutes its ethical value. Now I believe it's ok to fight for living. Anno was right.

Post edited on 1st Jan 2016, 6:47pm

>>28194
I think a lot of brohnos would benefit from adopting a pragmatic and stoic mindset. Good luck!

>>28194
>>28195
Living for the sake of living is good enough for me. I don't need petty reasons, reasons come and go. I do what I do because I can do it.

>>28183
ummf hmmmohff frroog

I've started to get Google ads in Japanese from how much time I spend on japanese sites.

>>28202
Use uBlock Origin?

I've been playing an MMO lately. I joined a guild when I got an invitation out of nowhere. It was fun to watch these people talk for a few days until one of them tried talking to me. They offered me help in advancing my character to the next job. They took 10 min or so to gather me items, but then told me to do the rest on my own. I gathered the rest of the items over the next 3 days despite not really wanting to job advance my character to begin with. After I finished gathering all the materials I told the person who helped me that I was going to level up a different character instead, as I would rather have used the materials on a different character. They started yelling at me "after i spent all this time helping you!! I even bought some of the items!!"... fun ruined instantly. I uninstalled the game.

tl;dr 3d whores

That is why I always play MMOs where I don't have to interact with anyone. I'd rather explore a virtual world by myself than to deal with any bullshit like that.

This morning, the sky was golden and pink.
I loved that.
I wish it could have lasted forever.

I found out today that a local grocery store sells re-ment miniatures!! Theyre in the impulse buys at the bottom but theyre kind of overcharging for them, 8 dollars a box.

Insomnia's a real bitch

I fell on my ass and made a snow angel.

I've had a bad week. First my laptop audio went bad so I decided to assemble a computer and install debian. I'm not into computers so it's not really enjoyable. It's just stressful. But the story isn't over. There was no audio in debian. I spent two days trying to fix it while learning how to use linux shell. I have no fucking idea. I've given up. I'm going to give my entire computer to my father's acquittance and ask him to fix it (and tell me what he did).

It's really annoying. It feels like I've been working a stressful job but I'm not getting paid and I'm wasting time I could be doing things I want to do. I just want to take it easy.

>>28242
did you unmute it in alsamixer?

>>28242
This might be a stupid question but are you sure it's not a hardware issue? speakers might not be plugged in correctly or there's a problem with the jack?

>>28242
Haha, linux and sound are not the best of friends in my experience as well. It's always some little thing, but it's never magic

I got a bunch of electronic components the other day for a little board a friend wants. Tomorrow I'm going to go back to the store for a real breadboard / some kind of casing. Hopefully it works as it should

>>28243
>>28245
>>28246

Okay, I did it. It's a real basic solution, I think. I think my motherboard was too modern. I had to update the kernels. But I fucked up my Debian install so much I tried mint to see if audio would work. It didn't. But it showed it was a common problem in both (also, I noticed that ubuntu had more help for more basic things). While I was searching I found out that some audio problems could be solved by updating the kernels to 4.2. And I found out that mint has a GUI to update kernels with. So it was easy to do.

I'm just going stick with mint for the while. It has the image of a baby os but I think that's fine for me, right now.

It took two and a half days. But it works.

That actually is pretty funny.

I stayed up until 4 in the morning because I wanted to be polite with my neighbor downstairs and his friend. His apartment was a mess, but he seemed to have a lot of high-tech stuff. I tried to show them vaporwave, but by the second song (Purity Boys by Blank Banshee) they said that they didn't like it; that it was "too sad". They then showed me videos of punk rock; the music videos were awesome and had a lot of symbolism, but I think that it went over their heads and they just danced to the lyrics. I don't dislike punk rock, but they all sound the same. Same thing with Neutral Milk Hotel.

His friend unironically showed me a video of Justin Bieber and said that he was awesome. And this is a guy around my age (early 30s). Admittedly, Bieber is a talented vocalist, but I would never willingly listen to him.

Just...wow. Just all the bling and the scantly clad women and the partying in those videos. People actually take that seriously; they genuinely feel that pop music is real life. Prolefeed, more or less.

I only got up four and a half hours ago, but I feel like I've been up all day. It is nuts. I don't regret hanging out with that guy for an hour or two (he seems nice), but it just reinforces how weird I am, I guess. At least I can pretend to be interested in other people's shit.

>>28257
It makes finding someone who likes the same things even more enjoyable. I have yet to find anyone I can share my love of Maurizio Bianchi with.
Also, what's that in your image?

Today I discovered that Soylent makes me gassy. I also discovered Performing Musical Interpretations Of The Paintings Of Paul Klee by The National Gallery.

>>28260

It is t e l e p a t h テレパシー能力者 and Silver Richards - 夜遊び. It is pretty good.

Cooked some pasta which turned into a delicious yakisoba.
I've been listening to the same songs since monday, will probably drink some liqueur tonight and maybe pick up steam on legend of heroes sc again from where i left on chapter 3.
I was also searching for the image i posted of a loveliver saying he'd die for Yazawa Nico, only to realize mods deleted it.
Probably because it was 3DPD on /mai/, i'm relatively new around these lands.

>>28272
Sorry and thanks for the heads up. I thought it would be alright since it was from a comike.

Read this and felt kinda bad. I can easily see why people see this as the best version with it's bitter realism(more than the anime/manga), not-so-qt Misaki, and Satou's drug usage contributing to his neuroticism.

>>28281
How good was it?
And where does he get the money for the drugs?
I heard that it's a really impressing book.

>>28282
Can't say I found it impressive but it's a worthwhile quick read on the author's fictionalized personal struggle with hikikomori/neetdom. The few characters in the novel serve to provide opportunities for better reading into the protagonist's state of mind and don't get too much characterization themselves.
>where does he get the money for the drugs?
His parents send him a progressively diminishing fund every now and then which he sometimes uses on "legal" drugs.

Starting taking these 200mg caffeine pills is the best decision I ever made. I can concentrate on what I need to do for hours at a time without getting distracted. I finally feel like myself again. I guess what I'm really trying to say here is

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>>28152
Isn't it by definition child porn? Not criticizing loli or lolicon or anything like that, but it depicts children (assuming they don't bypass that with the infamous "I'm X years old but look like I'm 12!" cliche) having sex. Just because it's drawn doesn't really make it any different.

Although I have a bit of a bias because in my country Loli is treated like real life CP and you can get arrested for it.

>>28297
That 4:3 monitor gave me a wave of nostalgia for my old NEET cave I used to have at my parents' house. Fuck, I miss that time. I miss just waking up every morning with no pressure or obligation to do anything and spending days on end exploring old sites and playing Dwarf Fortress. Those days are never coming back.

>>28295
Just because it's drawn, it's completely different.

>>28295
>>28315
You know, i was never into loli but i've always found SD characters cute since i was a kid, i think this was my slippery slope to get somewhat into it.
Lately i'm kinda seeing the appeal of lolis, i think it's all about innocence and pureness. Most doujins/mangas like comic LO, involve bro/sis or people really closely related and most of it is consensual. So i can see why it would be popular, since things like innocence and love in real life are extinct, only rational for people to migrate to fiction.
However, i see why lolicon is bad and dangerous, for the old otaku it may not make sense but for the "new" otaku, it does.

Some "otakus" are unable to distinguish between fiction and reality, some even plaster fiction INTO reality. This is where the danger lies in and why i can see a plausible explanation as to why loli was banned in some places.
One day he'll fap to LO and the other he's on known pedo hideouts, unable to tell the difference between fiction and reality, always wanting more to satisfy twisted desires.
Fapping to a fictional story has no implications, it's all art, drawings, whatever you may want to call it. However, fapping to CP is another story, the poor kid you see is already broken for life and you're supporting the monsters who did this to him/her. You're basically telling him to continue destroying other kids minds and lives. May you rot in prison then.

If i had a 3DPD and she confessed to me she was a shotacon/lolicon i would be fine with it, but only if she was an otaku like me.
Last thing i fapped involving a loli was "Before the festival" and i felt heart-warmed by it at the end, this is how loli doujins should be, not some disgusting works i've seen around where they get raped by some creepy guy. I don't know you but even if it's fiction it doesn't sound right to me to fap to the suffering of others. If it's a somewhat cute tale with a happy ending it's alright but things like rape involving lolis or NTR i just can't. Even if it's fiction, i need to draw a line for my personality, and i don't support this.

Some of you guys are alright.

Don't come to tohno-chan tomorrow.

>>28321
Alright

I'm getting to a point where I just don't care anymore about my life and future. I wish it would all just end all of a sudden.

>>28327
If you find the walkthrough to this part, let us know. I want off this shitty MMORPG.
It sucks now that i've learned it's Pay-to-Win so far into the game.
I've been scammed all along.

Reading and posting on 4chan these days is such an alien experience. It doesn't even feel like it did in 2012. I used to complain years ago that all the unique board cultures had become watered down to some flavor of /b/-lite, but there aren't even distinct board cultures at this point. There is absolutely no sense of community, and all reference points to "old 4chan", even 4chan of 2011, have been severed. Sometimes I wonder if most of the people posting there are even over 18; There aren't even whiny, overdone meta posts like there were in the past. The posts there read like some redditors who read /r/4chan for a while and decided they understood what made the site great was greentext and reaction images, with no appreciation for some of the actually cool history or lurking. I don't want to play up the whole 'whiny oldfag' schtick because I don't think there's any glory in staying on an imageboard for ages, but I feel like I honestly just overstayed my welcome. I wish this stuff didn't matter to me as much as it does, but I guess that's what I get for not having friends for years.

>>28331
4chan went to shit when it started getting mentioned in mainstream media, most notably because of the whole Project Chanology thing. It turned unsalvageable soon afterwards.

Does anyone want to learn to program?

I always wanted to try teaching.

>>28332
The truth.

>>28331

I noticed that started getting weird around the beginning of 2013. That was when I left. Even /jp/ wasn't worth hanging around for anymore. I simply felt that I got too old for it.

I'm still on here and 420chan, but that is a different story.

>>28341
I always wanted to learn it, but I can't imagine that I would have the time to put the necessary effort into it right now.

>>28341
What languages are you wanting to teach?

>>28348

Any one, I imagine someone wanting to learn has a target language they want to use. Maybe Lua if they don't have any in mind? It's a great language and used a ton as an extension language in video games. But it also might be a bad starting point for how lax and error-tolerant it is. I could teach C# since it's strongly typed and the littlest error is picked up by the compiler. But it's also really verbose and I don't want to scare people with it's syntax. I'd definitely go with C# if it weren't for the syntax, but then again it was my first language so maybe I'm just underestimating people.

There are better languages to teach, of course, but you gotta start out with a language that already had a billion questions about it asked on stackoverflow so you can easily troubleshoot instead of getting hopelessly stuck and giving up.

I'm quitting my job next week and will be NEET until I can find something else. On one hand I am relieved because the hours were making me a miserable husk of a human. On the other, I feel guilty for being unproductive and continuing to leech off my parents into my mid 20s. Any ideas on how to feel less shitty and focus on the positives?

>>28350
Escapism. Have fun with 2D qts, dude.

>>28350
What point would there be in receiving suggestions when you're likely Dysthymic?

>>28351
Probably a good idea.

>>28352
I mean maybe. Doesn't mean I can't figure out how to deal with it or feel better though.

Sometimes I think it's a waste of a lifetime how I don't become invested in literally anything so far in my life.

>>28350
Study. And exercise.

>>28350
Train, say your prayers, and eat your vitamins, too.
These are all the things us maniacs do.

>>28355
Good idea. I was thinking of taking the CompTIA A+ exam so I can study that. I can also walk on the treadmill, and when it warms up, walk outside.

>>28357
Whatever you do, just make sure you keep that ball rolling. Try gradually reading a few pages from a book every day likely recommended off a high school language arts syllabus if your attention span's shot. Maybe watch a film or two from /tv/'s "art film" charts if you're looking for alternative forms of escapism.

I fucking hate people sometimes. It's not my problem I did my job correctly like the construction workers who built auschwitz. Don't blame me blame the guy who hired me.

I just finished a obscure-ish 20-hour RPG which I enjoyed thoroughly, but now that's it over I feel so sad and empty inside. The characters and story really grew on me, at least the ending was well done. Another thing irritating me was because I didn't log in until after I finished the entire thing, the achievements I earned were not record, so now it registers as if I have no achievements at all, like I didn't even play the game.

Thankfully I still have the game save data showing all my progress and hours recorded, and my own fond memories of the game.

I slept for a while in the afternoon and woke up feeling like I missed some important event.

>>28074
seems that way...

I cofounded a gang today.

>>28396
is it a moe gang?

>>28396
Sounds like the start of a manga or anime.

>>28397
We're a bunch of cute girls doing cute illegal things.


>>28401
Lol one of my older posts was commented that it sounded like a LN. Hopefully some fun stuff comes out of it.

>>28350 Here,

NEETdom begins in 50 minutes. Wish me and my waifu luck.

>>27612
I'm glad I don't know where to even buy them, I have 1000 English rips on my computer now.

I'm selling shit on eBay so I can be NEET-rich again. I hope I can get a swag~ass loli figure.

I'm so fucking lazy. Just one day of work drains me out. Fuck work I'd rather be NEET.

>>28196
What manga is that from?

>>28419
Shiki

Why must cute girls in cute girl anime die when they are killed?
It ain't right.

>>28430
If cute girls are being killed in the anime that you watch, then you're watching the wrong ones.

>>28432
This. Almost all anime have at least a couple token cute girls. You should learn how to better spot anime that will take a dark or violent turn, it's really not that hard, it's almost always very obvious.

>>28432
>>28433
You're right. Sometimes however, the cutest smiles are sadly not found in perfect worlds without danger. Not to mention adaptations of somewhat loose source material that may or may not be dark depending on how it's done.

I found out Natsumi Jonjoh, the person who drew Fujoshi Rumi, never got a serialisation after 2005. Now I'm depressed.

>>28469
That's really sad. Fujoshi Rumi is quite good.

>>28490
Funnily enough it was your post that led me to pick it up.

WHY DOES AYU HATE ME SO MUCH

>>28604
That's just how he is, don't worry. He probably hates himself more than he hates anyone else anyway.

>>28604
>>28605
I still have this saved.

>>28407
So how's the neet life going?

>>28613
A month has passed (more or less). I've been feeling a constant un-ease in the back of my mind due to lack of employment and a fear for the far off future (I could in theory live off of my parents for the next 20 years until they die). I've been slowly getting better at beating back the negativity though. I've got my job application in at a handful of places but nothing has really came forth.

My parents are pushing for me to apply for ANYWHERE, even reatail or fastfood just so I have something, and that "I can't sit around all day doing nothing." I don't disagree, but physically I am very weak, and I worked retail for almost a year and it damn near killed my feet.

Aside from unemployment blues and some parental pressure, things aren't bad. My home situation has usually been good.

wow, no wonder I don't like going outside during the day. Direct sunlight makes me physically sick. Looking back, it always did that, but it was very subtle and I just thought it was car sickness. But it's gotten worse, and today I tested it by blindfolding myself in the sun. I just sat out there for five minutes and I lost my appetite and had to run the areas of my body that got the most sunlight under cool water.
I'd almost be proud of that from a hikki standpoint if I wasn't afraid that I might have SLE.
But if I don't then that's pretty cool that I'm literally intolerant to the sun. I'm like a hikki legend.