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26312 No. 26312 [Edit]
Last one (>>23024) hit the bump limit.
It was nice having a thread to casually express those somber thoughts.
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>> No. 27271 [Edit]
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Maybe next life will be more fun. If it exists.
>> No. 27272 [Edit]
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I hope there is no next life. I just want my conciousness to stop existing.
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At this point I have trouble just imagining how that would look like.
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On edge.
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I wish.
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My cousin has kidney cancer. He has a lot to live for as a normie. He has a gf and many people who care about him and is always really happy and positive and makes people's days better. It should have gone to me or someone else who doesn't appreciate life and is a net drain. He's too good of a guy. Not fair, everything seems too random and chaotic.
>> No. 27319 [Edit]
In a similar fashion, the other day my mother told me an old classmate of mine got a brain tumor and only has a few months left. Also a normal, not even 40 yo, a daughter. What I felt was hard to discern, conflicted and contradictory. I felt some guilt, I've been suicidal for a long time, hoping for a terminal disease or something, and then some guy who probably appreciated life gets fucked like that. Also relief, because in the end there's no fairness and whatever you do it doesn't matter that much, so there's less to worry. And then this feeling of having wasted most of my life, if this would happen to me I could directly experience the absurd of all. There's no real punishments or rewards for your actions, in a way, nothing matters... so what's the point of just doing what you're supposed to do, when that makes you miserable?
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A relative ended up getting accepted into college, so naturally there's other family members asking when I'll do the same. Why aren't you doing this, you should do that, if you don't make the same choices as so and so then you're basically dead meat.
I'm tired of being pestered and compared to others.
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It's getting harder to justify prolonging this existence.
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anonymous, can i have my account back? im asking only because you said so. if you want to keep the account, could you at least give me an invite, and a .zip with the torrents i downloaded (you can get it from the main page -> downloaded (dl) iirc). i have this email: temporary1572 (a) protonmail dot com.

>let us know how you are doing even if it ends in failure
i give up on going to an university. ive realized its too late for me, there really isnt a point in struggling anymore. there are problems beyond my control that make it impossibe to go to college. id have to quit at some point, so id rather not even start.
ill just live as a neet for as long as i can then off myself.
since i will never have a life, all this knowledge is pointless, so theres no reason to be completely devoted to learning anymore. thus, i can spend some time with visual novels. hence i wish i had ab again.

sorry for making a fuss, sorry.
>> No. 27371 [Edit]
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Please check your email inbox.
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Do they have VNs in Japanese at animebytes or just translated stuff? If there are, I would like an invite if you guys still have one and are willing to send it to me. I don't know anybody online so I'm kinda left with begging as the only alternative. I can give you an iptorrent and/or avistaz invites in return if you want.
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Unfortunately, there wasn't any invites left. But I can confirm that AB has untranslated VNs.
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That's alright, thanks for letting me know.
>> No. 27376 [Edit]
If you commit to always being on good behavior, I could see if I have any. I know AB strictly mandates that invites are for friends and known people only, but I consider you guys to be people I trust as friends, and I know for a fact any poster here will be better behaved than anybody I might know from steam or whatever.
>> No. 27377 [Edit]
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Well anon if you do have an invitation and decide to send it to me, I'll send you one for IPtorrents or Avistaz. In those sites you can get banned for inviting people that don't follow the rules, so we'll be in a position of mutual trust, I think that's fair. Here's my email: namelessnonameno (at) gmail (dot) com.
>> No. 27379 [Edit]
you could always go back to drawing
>> No. 27388 [Edit]
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Same anon here. I'd like to have a confirm that you have seen my email message. Otherwise I'll assume it never reached you.
>> No. 27389 [Edit]
Hey anon, no, I didn't get any emails at all. I just assumed you had given up and decided to save the invite. I wonder what happened. Needless to say I checked inbox, spam box and everything else, nothing there. What a pity, you probably lost the invite by trying to send it, didn't you?

Thanks for trying though, I have received invites from private trackers in this address before and never had a problem with it. Who knows what went wrong, but I don't want to leave you hanging, give me your email and I'll send you an IPtorrent invite just the same.
>> No. 27390 [Edit]
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I think we have a misunderstanding here. I'm not the anon who was going to give an invite to you but someone who's trying to return the other anon's account.
>> No. 27391 [Edit]
Oh I see. Sorry anon. I hope he sees your email.
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i got it. thank you.
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I love you all, in a sense. Thank you for always being here.
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I don't know what the hell happened. Once upon a time I did great things and could have done anything. That's what everyone said, and it was the truth.
A few years ago I was a very high achieving student. Doing a lot with extracurricular activities and being the top of my class in school. I received multiple letters from an ivy league school that I never applied to. I didn't hate everyone then and even found my own way of communicating with others.
Now it takes a lot to leave the house. Even leaving my room to eat takes a few deep breaths.
To think I went from a very promising young man to just another person that feels right at home on Tohno-chan. Not that I haven't always been strange or an outsider. Here I thought this thread was stupid and I'd never post in it.
For all I know, I may very well be the biggest fuck up in the world.
>> No. 27446 [Edit]
>I received multiple letters from an ivy league school that I never applied to.
Why didn't you apply? Also there's a good chance that you would have ended up here after graduating anyway.
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>Why didn't you apply?
I was a dumb kid. I guess I didn't think much of it then. I didn't really think I'd make it and nobody really helped me figure out what was viable. I never expected help from my parents and nobody told me how to get scholarships or anything. On top of that it always sounded like you needed hours upon hours of voluntary community service to get anywhere while I only had a few hours and no idea how to go about getting more.
If only I was better at communicating. I might be well on my way to a nice job and not doing the occasional minimum wage janitor work.
>Also there's a good chance that you would have ended up here after graduating anyway.
Anon, please... If anything I'd be on Tohno sooner. No matter how you cut it, I'm a weirdo. I regret not being such a great weirdo that I put the normalfags to shame. I won't go into detail, but I've long sworn off the things that make normafags, normal. Not to mention, I've been on imageboards since my early teens.
Thank you, anon. I spent a few minutes crying writing my initial post, but thanks to you I will briefly remember that confidence and pride I had back then. Knowing that I'll always be better than a normalfag.
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Treasure happiness, treasure joy.
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Things felt simpler when I was a NEET
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I got out of bed after 12 hours today. I was going to make a pot of coffee and do something. I can't think of anything to do so I'll probably go to sleep.
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I realized how slowly I live my life, and how I'll never reach specific milestones that people in my generation already did because of that.
Yeah, I know the younger the generation the older they were when they accomplished specific things so don't worry, but I still can't help feel like I'm lagging behind more than the average person.
If only the other people in my life taught me how to be a civilized person first and foremost then I wouldn't be sitting here aimlessly.
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I feel sick. I have so much stress, anger, and sadness inside, growing like pond scum in a pool of stagnant water. I've been unable to sleep more than a couple hours without waking, sweating. Trying to go back to sleep, all I can think about is how easy it would be to kill myself, wondering if it'd really be worth it. I feel hungover, but it's been a while since I've drank.
Living with my family is deeply upsetting. They all have some sense of belonging, friends, loved ones. No matter how they treat them, they always have someone there. I figure there are people that care about me too, but we might as well speak different languages. The only person I can speak to anymore is my dad, and even then, there's no way I could dump all this shit on him.
I can't enjoy the little things that I would once appreciate with a sigh, knowing that everything would be fine. No longer am I energized by the scents of the early morning. Even the small period of silence I have most days do nothing.
I've considered many options and changes I could see in the future. Somehow they all seem worse than what I have now. Moving in with my dad, I'd have to deal with his 3DPD's family which would be just as bad if not worse than my current home. Eventually I'd get pushed to get my own place, which is worse. Living in an apartment alone, quietly spending my free time refreshing tabs forever, playing games, watching anime, and saving money for nothing or buying merchandise so to not live in an empty room. I'd be silently counting the days, looking forward to nothing.

I just wish I could get away from it all. Someplace I don't feel so suffocated. I like the mountains. They're far from everything and the air is cool and fresh. Maybe I'll go back someday.
>> No. 27485 [Edit]
> I've been unable to sleep more than a couple hours without waking, sweating
I've had this before, it's kafkaesque that when one already dreads waking life he is unable to find satisfaction in sleep as well.

>They all have some sense of belonging, friends, loved ones
I've been meaning to write something about this: if you ask most people why they live, they'll immediately say something like "for the sake of my {child | spouse | sibling}". And then you ask the counterpart the same thing and you get a similar response. Social bonds are used as a means of anchoring people to life, it gives people some semblance of "meaning" by weighing them down: "You can't kill yourself because then $COUNTERPARTY would suffer."

I don't know if this deception is _bad_ since they seem happier, but it's at the very least illogical. It's probably why monks go off and live in the mountains, they recognize that any form of social relation is ultimately strangulating.

Of course as you noted, isolation by itself would just result in trying to fill that time by aimlessly browsing imageboards or watching anime. It's a curse that the brain quickly normalizes to stimulus. That's probably why the monks also spend their time trying to suppress thoughts entirely, so they're basically giving up consciousness in exchange for not feeling anything. But if you do that, basically killing the mind, why not kill the body altogether?
>> No. 27490 [Edit]
>If only the other people in my life taught me how to be a civilized person first and foremost then I wouldn't be sitting here aimlessly.
my parents tried immensely hard to teach me that sort of thing, even throwing money at the issue at times, but mostly investing their very own time and energy. but something had clicked in my brain a very long time ago, around 8, 9 or 10 years old, that gave me an early awareness and hatred of all normalfaggotry. so to their surprise, they ended up with a son that rejected every attempt to civilize him, to turn him into an ordinary hardworking member of society, and rejected it with bile and acid at that. I feel bad that they didn't get the son they wanted, at least not out of me, but it is who I am and that would have to have been inflicted on some parent. perhaps it would have been better to inflict it on the sort of parent who deserves that sort of thing.
anyways, now I'm an adult nobody tries to force me into a normalfag mold anymore, finally living the dream.
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One of those days again.
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So infuriating.
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read something bad and got demoralized
feel like i'm too demoralized to perceive reality
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I tried to kill myself yesterday after finally being let off a sex offender registry I was wrongly placed on. It was 8 years long and destroyed my life. I had to drop out of uni at 20 when I had just been accepted for CompSci. I lost my friends and became a depressed hikki. I finally met the love of my life at the end of 2020 and felt happy for the first time in my life. In December my world broke again. He changed in one day. After that the abuse ramped up, physical once and the rest was bullying, manipulation, starving me of attention to punish me. Putting me down. Pushing me away then calling me back. Promising we would get back together, saying we would buy a house together. Asking me to wear my ring (he had an engagement ring in his bedside drawer). I didn't reply to him for 48 minutes so he blocked me on everything for the 50th time. He deleted me on everything. I was isolated and alone. I have no one now, he was my only reason to get better, to grow, to get up every day. I am so sorry for failing. I wish I was better. I'm sorry I'm so shit. I'm sorry I'm a failure. I don't understand why this has happened. I'm confused. He started online dating 2 days after sleeping with me and saying we had a future and life together. I am so tired. I'm sorry, I tried to be strong for so long but I can't do it anymore. I'm so sorry. I will find a better way to kill myself and do it as soon as possible. I'm sorry for being so worthless. I couldn't be anyone's Senko-san.

>> No. 27551 [Edit]
I asked you politely in the other thread to avoid brining up relationship issues here. I get it, things seem pretty horrible right now, and this guy sounds like an asshole. Killing yourself isn't going to solve anything, and it's not going to make him into a better person. The person you fell in love with is gone now, replaced by a stranger wearing his skin. He's clearly not the same person anymore. It's better to accept that and to move on, rather than to try and cling to what isn't there anymore. It also makes no sense to blame yourself for someone else's problems. It's (probably) not your fault this happened, people change, and not always for the best. Sometimes we just can't do anything about that. All we 'can' do is get away before they drag us down with them.

Anyways, sorry but rules are rules and I already gave you a warning.
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Another fit of rage.
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If I ever were to do it, I hope I wake up in her sunflower field.
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It’s harder to cope without drinking. You feel every second of your misery. What’s the point? Why am I sober anyways? It feels vaguely nice about achieving a long term goal and proving that I can do it. But other than that, I can’t say it’s been worth it. I don’t feel happier, more energized or motivated. I’m still the same miserable person minus the hangovers.
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I hope we all recover one day.
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