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23463 No. 23463 [Edit]
Is this the only anime/weeb community left that hasn't been over run by children?
Every time I find a new one to join it's the same thing, retarded teenagers who wont shut up about school or spoiled rich kids and their college crap. It's all "dur hur I'm gonna be a doctor I'm gonna be a laywer" fuck you. I feel so fucking old lately and this shit doesn't help one bit. It's just so ackward being in these servers/channels with kids that are half my age. Not that it's uncommon here either. Where the fuck are all the 30+ weebs? Do they just kill themselves when they hit 30 or do they turn into normal fags and quit the internet? What the fuck man.
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>> No. 27341 [Edit]
>>27337
No I think it's because you don't.
>> No. 27342 [Edit]
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27342
You're all wrong!
Now prostrate yourself in the presence of our God, Her Moe-ness, Yurie-sama!
>> No. 27343 [Edit]
>>27311
Do you mind sharing those sites?
I am always interested in checking out new places. So far TC is the only place I know worth investing time in and I really would appreciate some variety.
>> No. 27976 [Edit]
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Another year. Time gently flows from the decay of all things. I’ve been attently observing the decay of all form, when distractions suddenly reveal themselves empty, which happens more and more now. You don’t observe the gentle flow of time like a person standing on the firm margins, away from the raging sea, but yourself as the very waves breaking at rocks and becoming foam; if you put attention to the tip of your fingers, you’ll see the flow of time as your skin turns to dust, a light breeze carrying your hand away like sand from a pavement.

What now, friends? Since my last post ( >>27124 ), I’ve continued on the path towards enlightenment, almost like there’s nothing left to be done about it. I don’t go around thinking “I need to take this step”, but “This is the only step that exists to be taken.” It’s not yet a completely stable progression, there are times I let myself be eaten by distractions, then suddenly I’m able to take a good look at our situation, like a flash of lightning making a night bright for an instant and I’m back on track. But enough of these silly allegories.

Six months ago, while I was looking at the trees being violently basted by the wind, a stray cat showed up asking for help. So I went inside and fetched a bowl with some cold cuts. Two days later it came again. A week went by and now two cats showed up, so I had two bowls. Would you believe it, now there are 3 cats showing up. They talk to each other. “Aren’t you fat? Where are you getting all this food?” “In such and such place, I’ll show you.” At one point I tried to convince them to be vegetarians “Here friends, try some boiled rice as well.” They had the meat and left all the rice, so now I’m purchasing cat food.

A middle aged housewife came to me one day as I was looking at the trees again. I could sense from afar she was rehearsing her posture to lecture me with chastising words. She told me “Your cats are making a mess of my azaleas, they’re pooping in my yard!” so I apologized profusely, and told the cats when I met them the next day “Friends, for your own benefit as well as mine, refrain from pooping at the azaleas.” The woman didn’t show up to complain anymore and I’m not sure how the solution came about, but it worked. It’s important to keep the noble eightfold path in your every view, every speech, every action, every livelihood, every effort, every mindfulness,every concentration, so at every passing moment you’ll grow closer to enlightenment. When dealing with humans, have a tight grasp on your thoughts, remember right thought, and what is right thought? Thoughts of renunciation, non-ill-will, and harmlessness.

Months later, as I was outside looking at clouds and enjoying the breeze, one of the neighbors came by while walking his dog “Hello there bud, I see you’re feeding those stray cats. I have some cat food I have no use for, you can have it if you want.” How I rejoiced at those words! I thanked him profusely. Isn't it nice when you’re given a point of fleeting brightness in a regularly dark world?

The third cat, he’s completely black and very suspicious. He never accepted to be petted under any circumstance. One day he stood by watching as I petted the first cat and the second cat as well. Then he allowed to be petted, but only after watching my behavior for a long time. I said to him “It’s very good, friend, to be suspicious around other sentient beings, for most are blind and some are worse than that.” I have three little bowls in front of the house and one large water bowl with water. I change the water everyday.

Sometimes one of the cats, I’m not sure which, shows up at 3 AM and starts meowing close to my window and I wake up annoyed. With my first thought I quickly grasp the annoyance, thinking “Why are you annoyed? Towards what end but your own detriment?” It’s important to keep the noble eightfold path in your every view, every speech, every action, every livelihood, every effort, every mindfulness, every concentration, so at every passing moment you’ll grow closer to enlightenment. In times like this, it’s important to remember right effort, and what is is right effort? Strive so unwholesome mental states don’t arise, strive so wholesome mental states arise.

Striving so wholesome mental states arise is not an easy task, but everything offers you help, if you know where to look. This cat has been showing up to warn me, at this late hour, saying “Time is short, it gently flows from the decay of all things, so hear, friend, how long have you left to strive towards liberation? Should you be sleeping so close to the end? Don’t you remember the words of the Enlightened One, on the day of his death? ‘All conditioned things are of a nature to decay. Strive on untiringly.’” And I realize he’s right. So now I wake up at 2:55AM and meditate until 5AM. When the cat shows up, I check the time. “Look at the clock, friend, it’s 3:08, you’re the one who’s late. Thank you.”

My dad had a rake I would regularly use to rescue insects from drowning at the pond nearby. He hired a bumbling gardener to help with a tree that may have ended up falling on the roof. After the job was done, this gardener used the rake completely heavy-handed and broke its braces. I didn’t see this happening, I just noticed the rake gone and asked my dad about it “The idiot so and so broke it, so I tossed it, I’ll get a new one”. What a tragedy, I thought. That rake had the kamma of a holy monk, having constantly saved sentient beings from certain death for the past 6 or 7 years, and above all, that rake was completely absent of self, unmoved even by scripture, like Bodhidharma would say. Now it was lying in a pile of rubbish somewhere, all broken and useless. One doesn’t need a charnel-ground nearby, filled with corpses, one, two days old, swollen, blue and festering, corpses eaten by crows, hawks, vultures, corpses reduced to a skeleton with some flesh and blood attached to it, corpses blood-besmeared and without flesh, corpses reduced to disconnected bones, scattered in all directions, corpses reduced to dust, to be reminded of the fate of all things subject to existence. A rake, a cat, a shat on azalea will do.

I keep coming back to this thread and I’m not sure why and if I should. But this time I have a good excuse (funny I would need something to excuse myself), this time I have something to offer. I edited a nice and clean version of one of the most important suttas out there, the Mahasatipatthana or The Great Discourse on the Establishing of Mindfulness. This sutta is like a hammer, it’s a tool to be put to practice. It’s short enough for you to memorize it. I also added in there a nice diagram of the 4 noble truths. I hope it’s useful. Hopefully you can appreciate it at any level, even if it’s just as a curious piece of literature. There are many beautiful passages in there. If nothing else, read The Nine Charnel-Ground Contemplations located on the Contemplation of the Body session. It takes like 4 minutes to go through it.

I've made 3 files. A PDF, here:
https://anonfiles.com/v0f7r4T6yf/Mah_satipa_h_na_Sutta_pdf
An epub you can download at:
https://anonfiles.com/x6u8hfTcy4/Mahasatipatthana_Sutta_-_The_Great_Discourse_on_the_Establishing_of_Mindfulness_-_Anonymous_epub
Finally, I've made an html file of it, it's hosted at: https://mahasatipatthana.neocities.org/
I’ll probably post these files and link in another ib or two, we’ll see.

And that’s that, friends. I guess I’ll see you next year, if we live. Or not. Be as it may, I hope you’re well and when/if you’re not, to put in the effort in the right places to be able to bear it.
>> No. 27977 [Edit]
>>27976
>At one point I tried to convince them to be vegetarians
Cats are obligate carnivores. You'd know that if you learned a bit about biology.
>> No. 27987 [Edit]
>>23464
Fortunately for me it's the opposite regarding social media: I finally gave up all kinds of social media, including the "alternatives" ones. I only keep twitter and only for following artists I like. As about communications with relatives, I only use viber.
>> No. 28014 [Edit]
>>28013
The irony of this post is palpable
>> No. 28015 [Edit]
>>28013
Should newfags message you on IRC?
>> No. 28016 [Edit]
>>27976
It's good that you're feeding the cats, but you have a right to be annoyed if the cat is waking you up. What purpose could he have for meowing at your window, other than to be let in?
He's being a bother.
>> No. 28017 [Edit]
>>28013
This better be an avant-garde jest.
>> No. 28019 [Edit]
>>28014
Oh, I'm sorry for not using chat apps nobody uses!

>>28017
Huh?
>> No. 28021 [Edit]
>>28019
IRC isn't an app...

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>> No. 28022 [Edit]
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>>28021
Can't expect much from somebody who openly shares their social details when they haven't even been asked for them.

>>28013
>>28019
Well, you can't be an oldfag at all, can you?
>> No. 28036 [Edit]
>>28021
To be fair, there are apps that let you connect to IRC.

>>28019
You're asking oldfags to use something that is popular with newfags. I think that's what other anons are saying is ironic. Then you're saying no one uses it anyway as if that somehow makes it cool? That's a bit insulting.
>> No. 28039 [Edit]
>>28036
Though that anon is retarded, I think more oldfags use discord than you think. I think it's been mentioned before that a lot of oldfags move on to invite-only channels on whatever instant messaging service, like discord. Many a time I've been on an old forum from the late 90s - early 00s which for some reason now has a discord server. You can be an IRC elitist all you want, but you've gotta admit that discord is convenient.
>> No. 28041 [Edit]
>>28039
>you've gotta admit that discord is convenient
How? Because instead of posting links to images, you can post the images directly? Discord requires an email address, has global content rules, and you might get hassled about account security or whatever the fuck.
>> No. 28067 [Edit]
>>28039
I'm almost 35yo, I tried use Discord multiple time, stopped using that shit for good now because that "discord app" is just shameless spyware, and now, is explicit shameless spyware.
They change they privacy policies, now, they are 100% explicit about what they do with our data.

I will use IRC until the last day of my life.
>> No. 28464 [Edit]
>>26380
I'm 42, autistic. Remember watching Buffy the Vampire and wondering if that was normal life. Re watched it recently and enjoy it more and I'm more at peace with myself. I have a pet Kestrel which keeps me and is too long-lived for me to take myself out anytime soon. Blessed be honestly.
>> No. 28636 [Edit]
>>26694
I mean you must have been exposed to it by your aprents or whatever, I hated showing anything to my parents and only when I realised i could use headphones did i try anything other than video games
>> No. 28649 [Edit]
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>>28636
Nice necro. I had older college-aged relatives who were into anime when I was a kid and I was always curious about it. My mother sometimes made mocking comments about them (liking those 'Chinese cartoons' or whatever), which made me self-conscious about liking it at that age. I could say more things about both of my parents, but I'll just mention that I wouldn't mind them dying even if it means I'd have to stop being a hiki and get a shitty job.
>> No. 28925 [Edit]
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28925
The realization that I'm now in my late 30s is hitting me hard. The awareness that it's probably too little too late is starting to sink in. I've always felt that I've walked the best possible paths I could in my life despite how things have turned but for the first time in my life that feeling is slowly giving way to a longing sense of regret for what could've been. I'm at a complete loss as to where to go from here, the desire for an end remains but the same cannot be said of the willpower to go through with it. I've never seen myself living to my 40s or 50s but the prospect of it is becoming very real and I'm struggling to reconcile with that reality.
>> No. 29462 [Edit]
>where the fuck are all the 30+ weebs?
36 here. I'm not dead,just not on social media/message boards much these days. Everything seems so oversaturated anyhow,i just like to chill and listen to my music and watch anime and yt. Its kind of nice not having a rectangle in your face 24/7 .sometimes
>> No. 29463 [Edit]
>where the fuck are all the 30+ weebs?
IRC and those psuedo-chatrooms like meguca
>> No. 29466 [Edit]
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29466
Just read through most of this thread and wow. I actually did get into anime when I was like 12 and man was it really fun, discovering doujinshi on blog sites and fanboying was really something I guess. I may have been too "rawr XD" to realize how adults saw me (who didn't reveal my age at that time), but I do look back on it weirdly fondly. I have no idea why. I guess I was more passionate about animu? Almost like a pure worldview I guess, before it got ruined by puberty and family problems lol.
>>29462
I'm a like a decade younger than you and I've also stopped using social media and even coming to imageboards as often. A post-2016 internet is nothing worth logging on to anyway. It was kinda bad before that year but pretty much everything has gotten worse since then. I draw and listen to music, youtube is just the source of today's problems so I avoid it unless I truly need it.
>> No. 29467 [Edit]
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>>29466
>>29462
I envy how separated you are from the zeitgeist. For me "keeping up with the times" is like an addiction. Not that I use tiktok, but I waste tons of time looking for bs happenings to occupy my attention.
>> No. 29548 [Edit]
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29548
I just turned 30 and haven't an hero'd yet. I do feel really isolated though. Anime becoming so mainstream really has made connecting with anyone through the communities I used to unbearable. It's only a matter of time til Tohno-chan gets a tiktok made about it and becomes trendy and zoomer infested like lainchan and uboachan.
>> No. 29549 [Edit]
>>29548
I'm actively opposing my desire to connect with anyone. I am failing hard at opposing other desires, but at least this one doesn't bother me too much. As long as I can dump my mental illness into some postform I'm fine. I don't care if I get responded to or if the response is mean. I just need an anonymous postform. Nothing more. People are unavailable this day. I hope you don't suffer your isolation.
>> No. 29551 [Edit]
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29551
I turned 41 this year and much like >>29462 I avoid most social parts of the internet now, preferring to just watch anime, read the occasional VN or manga, and listen to music. I go through a cycle of working for a few years & then NEETing for a while with my saved up funds which allows me to enjoy my hobbies more so than somebody who works every day would, though at the cost of my retirement; regardless, I digress.

I've known a lot of people over the years, ranging from an old anime MUCK to old IRC channels to several imageboards/forums, and the majority do just move on. They may not quit the internet entirely, but they usually dial back on their hobbies and begin to take a more passive role as life takes over. Additionally, the internet is far more walled now than it used to be despite the rampant centralization of it all; there's a good chunk of "old weebs" that went to platforms such as Twitter and Discord, but these by their very nature are not conductive to open discussion. The former is largely reliant on who-knows-who (much reminiscent of the more ugly parts of IRL) and the latter is quite literally a walled garden where you can't join unless you're granted the secret password. As a result, you'll most likely never encounter these people.

Another aspect I've thought a lot about which I equally assign this to is how a good chunk of people treat this general 'sphere' of hobbies. Anime, manga, VNs, etc. tend to attract a lot of people who use the hobby as a means to socialize rather than socializing because they enjoy the hobby. This results in many people significantly dialing back their interests over time & moving on to other stuff once they've established a group of friends. Whether one considers this bad, intentional, whatever, I don't really care, but it's certainly prevalent.

Cutting the rant short, I believe it a mixture of people moving on due to life; people moving onto walled gardens, which makes them practically nonexistent to anybody outside of said gardens; and people who were never actually that into the hobby in the first place, using it as a means to socialize instead. Those left are either the occasional rare older people who still have a heavy passion for the mediums and still contribute publicly & those like me who hardly ever post anything online. It's a boring answer, but it's that simple; people change and so has the internet.
>> No. 29791 [Edit]
>>29551
I'm curious what type of work you do where you can work on and off for such periods and sustain for that long. Is it more decent jobs or more a frugal lifestyle? That type of gig is beginning to sound more appealing to me as I get older.
>a good chunk of people treat this general 'sphere' of hobbies. Anime, manga, VNs, etc. tend to attract a lot of people who use the hobby as a means to socialize rather than socializing because they enjoy the hobby.
This is putting into words something I have known but never could materialize in my mind. I've always felt like the shared hobby was secondary for most people I spoke to whereas for me the hobby is the priority over the people I share it with. Very well said.
>> No. 29838 [Edit]
>>27976
Two years ago, I made this post. Years before, I made that other one, then the others ones itt, back to 2018. The better part of a decade has passed. What has changed since then? I tried to be part of society again. I tried hard and earnestly. It's the same. I'm only allowed in as a slave, as an implement of destruction, as a believer of lies, as a knot in a bloody whip, as a perpetrator of suffering. Only allowed in as chattel, as cannon fodder for one tyrant against the other. Only allowed in as a blind follower of oligarchs, warlords, despots, tycoons, and maniacs. Only allowed in as a morsel for the lions. Only allowed in as a gullet for putrid, corrupted values; to be oppressed and to oppress, to abuse and be abused, to destroy and self-destruct. If I'm told to eat my own feet, I'm to be thankful for the opportunity, to stop when I'm gnawing at the ankles and ask for further instructions. I am not, no matter what, to dispute any of this, but to propagate it. I look at this inequity with crystal-clear lucidity, with excruciating intensity, and my reaction is a long, confused laughter distorted by bitter tears. They dry but don't stop running. I bend in pain, I crush my forehead against the floor, almost breaking my nose. This is the deal. Another one won't be offered, now or ever.

What choices are left for someone with a shred of morals? I find myself extracted like a bad tooth from the vicious maws of modern society. I am rotting, head first; my ambitions have rotted, my anger has rotted, my lust has rotted. My distractions have rotted. The basic prerequisite to be part of the self-proclaimed productive, enlightened, progressive society has rotted in me; I no longer covet. The insurmountable mounds of orders, proudly provided and brutally imposed by the political, financial, and secular powers of this world, lose their appeal. It becomes sewage. The only thing lingering is a bad odor in the air. A gentle breeze blows it away. My interest in Japanese culture has grown organically, without any pruning, for over 30 years now. I see the good parts and the bad parts. It's a growth that took unlikely turns, culminating in my own Journey to the West. One last mental effort before the breakdown of the body. I find this extraordinary, if for nothing else, because I didn't see it coming. Three years ago, Buddha was staring me in the face. "Enough is enough," I thought then; I made him think this through me, for my own benefit. It was time to get up and go. I got up. I went.

Where am I now? You wouldn't notice external differences yet. The surface has barely changed, except everything is further decayed and closer to its natural, unavoidable end. As for the mind, I'm studying Pali. I'm disappearing now, the little dust remaining is to be used to assemble a monk. This is my sandy, sinuous, last road to the West. I'm a lingering shadow of Dogen, of Moksadeva, crossing yet again the broken paths, the deserts, rivers, and mountains. 靴が壊れ足には水疱ができている पदत्त्थानं भिज्जति मम पादā पीळितā होन्ति। Where am I to end up? Where am I to fall upon the earth to not rise again? Where is the spot I'll look at my own two hands one last time? Wherever it is, I focus my mind towards the dhamma. I got a glimpse one day, years ago, and now I walk towards it. I was shamed and isolated as a student, shamed and isolated as a worker, shamed and isolated as a NEET, isolated I found my peers. I strive relentlessly towards the dhamma. The time for myself and others is over, the time to unbecome and remain dhamma has come.
>> No. 29839 [Edit]
>dmahha
>religion
When I realized that even religion and pure ideals were created by them too, I first vomited, then went empty. Since then I haven't believed in anything except the simple truth – you suffer proportionally to your mental weakness. What did it give me? Nothing. What did I expect? I don't remember. As of this second, I don't expect anything. Don't strive for anything. And don't really believe in anything. The machine has succeeded in breaking me by simply showing me how broken it is itself. It's not that struggle is useless. It's just that there is nothing to struggle for.
>> No. 29842 [Edit]
>>29838
I assume you're also working to develop attention and awareness along with your studies though, or else all the theory in the world is going to be useless.

>>29839
Change "mental weakness" to "emotional weakness" to be more precise and I would say you are spot on.
>> No. 29843 [Edit]
>>29842
>Change "mental weakness" to "emotional weakness" to be more precise and I would say you are spot on.
Why'd I do that? I don't understand the difference. I suppose mental strength goes first and then forces emotions in place as well. Controlling just the emotions will simply lead to suffering with a straight face.
>> No. 29844 [Edit]
>>29843
You don't control or suppress the emotions, but be aware of and integrate them. In a sense this is how past karma is dissolved, no longer letting previous emotional states (e.g. childhood abandonment) affect your current state (producing anxiety and loneliness). "Mental weakness" is too nonspecific, since emotions are one layer below the conscious mind.
>> No. 29845 [Edit]
>>29844
It doesn't work. How can you "integrate" them? When I'm okay I can suppress them, when I'm down, they gnaw me alive, that's it. No amount of self soothing and saying things like "it was a good lesson" or "it doesn't matter anymore" or "it cannot be changed now" helps. I don't understand how exactly I am supposed to do anything with subconscious twangs of pain. Conscious mind on the contrary is well understandable and it's not hard for me to understand how it's fortitude would directly increase my ability to resist whatever emotions are at hand.
>> No. 29847 [Edit]
>>29845
>It doesn't work. How can you "integrate" them?
Well that's the great puzzle of course. If there were a surefire way, then all of therapy would be solved. The end-state is clear, to be at a point where you have memories of the event (those can never be erased of course), but they no longer produce any emotional response. Traditional Western "talk" therapy works at the conscious mental level with little success, some slightly more niche schools like EMDR try to induce reprocessing of memories by the right-brain in a fashion that disassociates them from emotional responses, and eastern schools try to deal with it in somatic terms exploiting a form of mind-body connection.

I strongly believe that the last one is the right way to go here and it works but very gradually, over a span of years. In fact when done daily it is the easiest way to effortlessly achieve the non-dual state, but I won't bother trying to convince anyone on its merits. Nor could I really make a cogent argument for it since the personal way I view it relies heavily both on implicit acceptance of things like mind-body connection, (breakdown of) bicameral mind, attention schema theory of consciousness, etc. as well as exposure to various eastern traditions (traditional chinese medicine, tai chi, etc.) whose theory has gone through a game of telephone and needs to be reinterpreted with a more modern grounding in psychology (something adjacent to Jung's theories).

> I don't understand how exactly I am supposed to do anything with subconscious twangs of pain.
At its simplest, you sit still and place your attention on it until it fades. Alternatively you can maintain awareness of it while deeply breathing. This is the basis for all the eastern schools of therapy. You don't want to suppress or resist the emotions to rot in your subconscious, you bring enough attention to them to lift them out of the subconscious. You "feel it out", until everything has been drawn out into the open and there is no more emotional charge left to experience any more. It's akin to how crying externalizes inner sadness and usually makes you feel better once the tears have dried up.

Most schools of meditation are very clear that actively working to achieve a non-dual state without gently surfacing these suppressed emotions is a recipe for disaster, and likely this is what is responsible for the many stories of "kundalini awakening" gone awry. There's a linkage to the phenomenon of the dark night of the soul here, as strongly charged emotional trauma can also violently resurface past trauma, overwhelming the mind and in a sense giving you the "ego death" you want but at huge price.
>> No. 29848 [Edit]
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29848
College and jobs are more interesting than depressive, incessant navel gazing. If you're consumed by anhedonia, you're not a weeb anymore, you're a washed-up neurotic spreading negative energy. It does not matter how ornately you dress it up.
>> No. 29850 [Edit]
>>29848
>College and jobs are more interesting than depressive, incessant navel gazing
I don't know what I want more, to laugh at you or to punch you. Though I guess if my job was to harass depress people on imageboards and if I were a psychopath on top, that could indeed be fun.

Anyway just in case somehow this post wasn't written in deliberately bad faith, both college and jobs become a hell born torture once your grasp at sanity slips. Or perhaps at normalfaggotry. I think I would rather ditch it all down, yield to computer game addiction for as long as possible and then kill myself than to go on for one more fucking day doing this stupid shit. I'm very disappointed with your post.
>> No. 29851 [Edit]
>>29850
A computer game addiction would also be better than dwelling on your poor mental state with a paint job of buddhist bullshit.
>> No. 29852 [Edit]
>>29851
what the hell are you on about
>> No. 29862 [Edit]
>>29852
Moping aroundsad is worse than being distracted by something.
>> No. 29864 [Edit]
>>29862
It's not something I'm in control of, stop projecting your personality on my void.

Post edited on 21st Dec 2024, 8:33am
>> No. 29872 [Edit]
I'm a little distraught to see that my post (>>29838) caused animosity between some people here. It's strange, I thought my words were pretty positive overall in the end, at least I feel a reassurance I haven't felt in a very long time, maybe ever. Well, let me address your thoughts.
>>29839
I don't know who is 'them', anon. Our crimes are committed with everybody's incentive, it's a little push created by every hand, or most of them, anyway. Even in the smallest, casual interactions between two people one can see ill-will, harsh speech and harmful thoughts. Look at the interactions that followed my post. Some guy feels like punching another guy and proudly lets him know about it. Proudly says that person is deserving of his mocking. Was it 'them' who posted that? No, that was a person in anger, and for no good reason. Look what followed that. Two people finding ways to be disagreeable, acting in a passive-aggressive manner with each other, again, for no good reason. Was it under some tyrant's order? I doubt it. Maybe an internalized one. My previous post was not a political statement, but a spiritual diagnosis of our society. Your path is blocked to me as my apathy has been incinerated, also, I don't believe there is nothing to struggle for.
>>29842
Reading the suttas carefully and memorizing them is, in itself, a development towards the dhamma. I know you didn't mean useless literally, but there is great value in studying Pali, even if taken as an endeavor by itself.
>>29848
In case you were responding to me, I'm not consumed by anhedonia, anon, on the contrary, I'm free from it. I did make an extra effort for that post, those thoughts were developing in my mind for two years and it was the first time I shared them with the world. I tried to be as concise as possible but also completely illustrative of my points. It's odd to see the reactions that followed, mostly negative or dismissive. It's good you find several aspects of the secular world to hold your interest, I'm just being honest when I tell you this is no longer the case with me. Is that really deserving of your loathing? If so, it somewhat strengthens my resolve.

Time to face the wall again, anons, I wish you all the best.
>> No. 29873 [Edit]
>>29872
It's human nature. I can't quite understand why exactly, but it seems there is some deep internal desire to offend. You did nothing wrong. People fight for no reason at all, it's the same as sexual drive.
>> No. 29874 [Edit]
>>29872
>>29873
I've refrained from voicing it out until now but I'll take the opportunity to say that I've personally noticed an increase in hostile posts in tohno for a good while which seems to coincide with the increase in activity in recent years. I hesitate to pin the blame on an increase in new bloods but that is my personal conjecture.
>> No. 29875 [Edit]
>>29872
>I know you didn't mean useless literally
Yes you're right, bad choice of word on my part, I didn't mean the tone to come off as dismissive.

I'm not too familiar with buddhism, but at least in yogic practices if the goal is to experience samadhi then texts are only meant as a guidepost. That is, "memorizing" it seems a futile endeavor, when that time would be better spent simply meditating (in any form).
>> No. 29876 [Edit]
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>>29872
>It's good you find several aspects of the secular world to hold your interest, I'm just being honest when I tell you this is no longer the case with me. Is that really deserving of your loathing?
It's like going to a small cafe that caters to coffee aficionados, and the regulars socialize in, and talking to them about how you don't drink coffee anymore because you've transcended the need for caffeine. You converted to Mormonism and realized drinking coffee isn't what Jehovah wants from you, so you stopped having any desire for it. Then you'd start talking about how you're preparing for the after-life and the end of the world, which you can tell is imminent. Then other people would get sucked into this and start talking about all the bad things going on in the world. Can you not imagine why a regular would get annoyed by this?
>> No. 29877 [Edit]
>>29876
this is Ronery why would you instigate a fight? what is even the point you want to prove?
>> No. 29878 [Edit]
>>29877
Now that I think about it, I'd prefer /so/ be like /tat/, where you don't see it on front-page. That's a topic for /fb/ though. I don't visit tc to hear about people's morbid fixations.

Post edited on 22nd Dec 2024, 2:08pm
>> No. 29879 [Edit]
>>29878
if you put emotions aside waifuism could be described as a morbid fixation as well. why would you go to such extremes? the anon wrote a few peaceful posts, didn't offend anyone, didn't even flood or whatever. why do you need to attack him out of blue? everybody has their own way of coping with life, why snapping at everyone who isn't you? how exactly did he offend you, or what harm did he do to tohno in general?
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