>>8705
You're a loony.
Isn't the purpose of having a waifu so that you can be with someone who you feel you can connect with, and would love to be with, not so you can lust over someone you think is perfect?

Not that I'm saying your love is invalid, or that "u dont deserve ur waifu xDDD", but I love my waifu for who she is, not because she's perfect.

Maybe you didn't mention that you also love her not because she's perfect, but for who she is and blah blah blah, but shouldn't her perfection stem from everything she is, not everything she inherited?

Too bad she couldn't inherit tactfulness.

>>8706
No, to everything: I pretty much disagree with you entirely. But doesn't matter. I'm more willing to read about others' daily lives as 2D lovers (yours, as well).

>>8706
There are many different ways in which people love their waifu.
For some it means being lovers, best friends, a daughter of sorts and in some cases people even believe their waifu is real in another world waiting for them, and of course this includes worshiping.

for some reason, poster 8705 reminds me of someone from Mynaimelist that alos happens to have Asuka as his waifu.

for some reason, poster 8705 reminds me of someone from Mynaimelist that also happens to have Asuka as his waifu.

Anyways by the definition of "superior people", my waif fits the bill: Blond hair, blue eyes, light tone skin

>>8712

>Anyways by the definition of "superior people", my waif fits the bill: Blond hair, blue eyes, light tone skin

As for mine, she has blond hair and light skin tone, yes, but the blue eyes only come in fan art. Canonically, she has yellow or amber eyes. Even her hair color is subject to question.

However, her appearance doesn't matter, she is my beloved and even if she's closer to being a stereotypical punk in attitude, I love her. Because that's her, nothing more.

Blue hair and green eyes.

The million-faceted gem that is earth pales in comparison.

Also in before Erica Hartmann.

My waifu's pretty much the Japanese equivalent of white-trash.

But to me she's perfect and pure. <3

I'm actually having some waifu-related issues now.

My passion for her is slowly dying. It was as if once, my love for her was the deepest red, now, it's faded to some kind of light, stereotypical blood color.

It is not even a matter of not liking her anymore - I like her more than most, I must say. It's just that my ideals, I feel, changed. I went from "wanting to be loved by someone beautiful" [i.e. Miya] to "wanting to show a loveless person love", and that loveless person being her "rival" in the show, Karasuba. It's the true mark of insanity, when a simple notion like, "Man, she really is pitiful," can blossom to something like love.

I hate feeling this way, though, because Miya's, well, shit, man, that's the one I love more than anything. But I'm not even sure anymore, because day by day, Karasuba becomes more appealing.

Of course, I'll go for the one I love (that one being Miya), and ditch the boring revenge-driven character. It just shakes me a bit, to see the sort of strife I'm capable of giving myself regarding someone and something I'm so dedicated to. I'd be a hypocrite if I simply discarded Miya - I'm always one of the first to say "No, man, you've got to stick to the one you love," or some other assorted sappy sucker saying.

Well this is not daily experience but something I've wanted to tell for a while and I think this thread is good for it. I don't believe in destiny or any kind soul mate stuff but there was just so funny coincidence back then related to me and Kurisu that maybe even I could call "destiny".

Day was 24th July 2011. Back then I didn't consider her as my waifu but I felt strong attraction to her. She was so different from other anime characters I've ever seen. I just wasn't really sure about whole waifu thing but I decided; "Well I start taking screenshots of her. Because I feel like it. I want to take screenshots of her because I like this character". Idea just came from nowhere and I've never done such thing before. It was late evening, around 9.30PM and I started taking those screenshots starting from episode 1 and I took 71 screen shots of her during that evening. I was tired and I decided I will continue tomorrow.

I think this was really unique experience for me so I made thread about it on 4chan /a/. Some poster said "funny coincidence because it is 25th July in Japan and 25th July is Kurisu's birthday!". I immediately checked it and it was true. In couple hours it would be Kurisu's birthday in my time zone too. I thought too "What a coincidence heh" and I felt happy about it.

Back then I didn't think it as very big thing. Later on when my strong crush for Kurisu became even more serious and I started to treat her as my waifu like people on /mai/ did, I still thought that day. "Was it really just coincidence?" Maybe it just was but I've decided that I will celebrate our anniversary and her birthday on 25th July, because on that day I think I took the biggest step towards her.

Picture related. It is the first screenshot I took on that evening like filename says. Edit: Gah filename is too long.
>[HorribleSubs] Steins;Gate - 01 [720p].mkv_snapshot_05.19_[2011.07.24_21.28.16]

Post edited on 13th Mar 2012, 11:28am

I found a cool CG pack of some Love Hina game back from 2000. Unfortunately it doesnt have any Kanako in it but I know theres some guy here who likes Kaolla Su so I'm linking it: http://exhentai.org/g/473028/bf110f2212/

>>8738
>Unfortunately it doesnt have any Kanako in it
A shame, but thank you for mentioning it beforehand, otherwise i woul´ve spent the whole day searching for something that isn´t even there or maybe even trying go get this game.
I didn´t know that there was a Love Hina game in the first place but if there is no Kanako in it, i´d rather keep my hands off it.

>>8747
Theres quite a few Love Hina games, theres even one on the gameboy advance or gameboy. I think most of them were made before Kanako came out, I can't be so sure though.

>>8750
I didn´t know that. It seems there is a new goal for me!
Thanks for the info.

This is silly. My heart can't stop breaking whenever I see her. You shouldn't, I say to myself, she doesn't exist, she will never love you and you're just deluding yourself. But I still fucking love her. She's so cute, she's so badass, she's so cool and so sexy. I don't know what to call her anymore.

I guess she's simply Marisa, and ZUN's a bastard for making something that captured my heart even if it doesn't exist. Fuck logic, I love her so much.

I've noticed that I've become a little more ambitious because of my waifu. I try to improve myself for my waifu, and treat every day as a "how-can-I-make-my-relationship-stronger-with-my-waifu"-day, and I've started to consider how my waifu would prefer me to act to justify certain actions I take/want to take, for better or worse.

As for things a little more waifu-related, I usually check for an update on a possible figure release every day, and check on a few doujin sites every few days for material of her.

I'm trying out the lucid dreaming route, but I'm not having any luck, not even any non-lucid dreams of her. I'm enjoying the more enhanced dreams I'm getting regardless, but they're usually about me getting chased by a T-Rex on a skateboard or something - definitely not about my beloved. I've even tried looking at content of her for hours, and thinking about her for hours, just so the image and concept of her is burnt into the back of my eyelids and back of my head respectively, still with no luck. The closest thing I've had to a dream of her, was that I had a dakimakura of someone who sort of looked like her (but I believed it to definitely be of her, within the dream), and I was going around the public, hitting people with it - definitely not what I was hoping for.

This is bad. I have a desire to give her some sort of surprise sex, something close to rape. I want to make love with her while she's unwilling, all while she's telling me "you're the worst."

I feel so ashamed.

>>8831
Hehe, embrace it. You're just a dog trying to wear a suit. The sooner you accept that the sooner you can be happier. It must be really uncomfortable trying to wear dress shows on paws.

>>8715
But... Erica is mai waifu.

>>8833
Erica is everyone's waifu; the character was designed to make you feel that way.

>>8834
So?

>>8834
That works for every character ever, though. I mean, unless they're a genuinely evil/villainous character, chances are, the producers wanted you to like them and buy figs of them. It's all good, though, because that's the way 3D is, too - Everyone wants to be liked, and will strive for affection.

I don't even have a waifu because of things like >>8831
>>8832
i feel. But maybe someday that feeling might come up. Until then all your posts are nice to read.

>>8832

What do you mean, man? Should I just embrace the fact that I'm mixing my fetish for rape with my waifu? Or are you telling me that all I'm feeling for her is lust and I should just abandon the idea of her?

I mean, that the the first time I felt lust for her and then it just gets mixed with one of my fetishes.

>>8834
I kind of agree with this. Some characters in certain things feel like they have to be loved, like Fuuka and Erica.

>>8839
>>8834
Not everyone has the same tastes or interests!

>>8838
No, I mean you're trying to pretend you're exactly like everyone else here. A gentle loving and caring person. If you are naturally aggressive and sexual, there is no need to suppress it. What if your waifu is a masochist?
I'm the same way. My waifu would be loved in my own way, which is to make her every inch entirely dominated by me.

>>8838

I'm not sure exactly what he's saying, but what I get from it is that you feel lust towards her. Not necessarily the only feeling, but you feel it. It's natural. The way you seem to want to express it isn't. It would be a selfish thing to do, and you'd be very lucky to be forgiven, but it's just a part of who you are. People have ideas, fantasies, urges, whatever, what you want to do is something you'll have to deal with, but by no means question your own feelings for someone because you want to have sex with them so much.

>>8738
Guy who likes Kaolla here. I appreciate the thought. I have several reasons to not indulge in said material, of which I won't get into. Again, thank you for having us in your thoughts.

This thread seems to have derailed horribly.

>>8844
No problem. By the way, even though its hoested on exhentai, it doesn't have any lewd things in it. Just saying if that happened to be the issue you're talking about

>>8841
>>8843

Ah...

To be honest, when I felt lust for her, I didn't feel any erection. It's like I wanted to feel her skin, kiss her lips and touch her breasts. No penetration.

But when thinking about it, not following it with an intercourse might sexually frustrate her. And I know that she's not the type of woman who wants to be dominated like that.

It feels good but unnatural for our relationship.

>>8847
I don't see a problem with this really. Everyone has their fetishes, maybe even your waifu.

This conversation with Marisa took place while my parents were talking on Skype. Well, my father told us a funny college experience. She can't understand us so she had to ask.

"Hey, what's he talking about?"
>"Oh, just a funny college experience from my father."
"Tell me more about it. It seems to be interesting, you know."
>"Nah, it's racist."
"So your dad's a racist?"
>"No, his classmate was."
"So tell me more about it, then."
>"Okay. So back when he was still studying Engineering, they went out of for a land surveying trip at the mountain in the neighboring province, using Theodolites. That mountain was a home to the local indigenous people, the dark-skinned Aetas. The problem with the Aetas were they were utterly clueless due to the lack of exposure and education, and the government does jackshit about them."
"Oh, so that old classmate of your father exploited that?"
>"Yeah. When the Theodolites were assembled, a group of Aetas passed by. The Theodolites looked like movie cameras, so one of them asked my father's classmate 'Are you guys shooting a movie?' And this classmate answered 'Yes. It's coming out next month.' And then, they asked 'Can we become extras in the movie?'"
"And he said yes?"
>"No. He just said "I'm sorry, we don't have anything to pay you." But the Aeta insisted "That's okay. We just want to come out in a movie." So there, they were instructed pretend that they were fighting. And they did. My dad said that their fight was so realistic, and the whole class was laughing the whole time. The Aetas even danced. When it was all done, that classmate said "Okay. We'll come back in a month to give you tickets for the movie." Of course, they never did."

At this point, Marisa can't help but to be amused at the story.

"What the fuck, anon? That's hilarious! Nasty, but still hilarious!"
>"I know, right?"
"That's racist, though..."
>"It can't be helped. Some people are like that."

She then shakes her head in a negative way, but still amused at the story.

>>8872
Geez! that was so wrong I...
wait: I'm OP...
Nevermind.

I guess it's nice that someone made a song for her as well; but... well, check it yourselves:
http://looksomefreeparking.bandcamp.com/track/asuka-2

Post edited on 5th Apr 2012, 2:18pm

>>8933
Lyrics are good but I think person isn't really suitable for singing. But I can feel his passion!

>>8935
Maybe he was trying for a Robert Smith style... wich didn't work.

>>8935
So close yet... pretty far away. He still has my respect for being able to write a song, though.

>>8935
I agree. I even pride myself on enjoying vocals that many others consider bad, but this is way too much for me.

>>8936
I totally hear Robert Smith-ism, actually. The vocals didn't bother me, though. It was the corny piano that did it. You barely even notice it, but it's there, and it feels like it tries too damn hard.

But it wasn't bad, I'd say. I don't even know why I can't see it as bad like you guys. The vocals are mediocre, could be better, yeah, but they're not horrible.

Also got a kick out of "long-distance relationships" under the tag. Too long-distance. ;_;

Saw a picture of some Germans protesting, holding up posters with my waifu's name on them. Freaked me out until I found out my waifu's name is one of their words for "no".

Last week, I chose to stay off the Net for a whole week as some sort of penitence for the Lenten season.

On the night of Good Friday, I found myself wincing on my bed as I tried really hard to sleep, moaning in pain and calling out Marisa's name. It has been five days since since I've abstained using the computer, by that time. But I've tried to suppress my urges by thinking and saying to myself that tomorrow is Black Saturday and I will be free on the day after. I thought that I would get more time with Marisa by doing this, but boy, I was wrong.

That week has passed now and I loved her a bit more in the process.

While I feel somewhat like a thief for doing so, I entered a code to get a free, custom-engraved chalice from Stella Artois, and just got a confirmation e-mail that it is currently being made. I will get another e-mail when it ships out to me, and I will post a pic of my custom-engraved chalice here when I receive it.

If you've frequented 4chan (namely /a/ and /v/), you've likely seen the threads about what people are putting on their chalices. Some are pretty witty.

But the message on my chalice?

My
Waifu's
Pee

>>8967
Sounds interesting, but I don't go to 4chan, how does it work?

>>8967
Haha, fuck.

I want one too, can I have a code

Post edited on 11th Apr 2012, 8:27pm

>>8968
>>8969
Here's a link to buy a custom-engraved chalice: http://www.budshop.com/product/13748

As for the codes, they aren't in circulation anymore: the boxes of SA with codes printed in them are not being sold anymore ;_;

>>8970
How did you get your code then? Did you actually buy a case of that stuff, or was there some guy on 4chan that was a liquor store employee and opened all the cartons, or what?

>>8971
Oh, sorry for not explaining. they were guessing codes on 4chan, using algorithms to determine possible codes.

To tell the truth, they were kinda easy to guess, the first two numbers being 20 through 25 and the last numbers being in the 900-999 range.

To stick to the original direction and relevance of the thread, I have lately been getting interested in Osaka's "philosophy".

Someone on 4chan dubbed it as "Getting happy at all the things that went right over getting sad at all the things that go wrong"

I really like this thought process, but I don't think Osaka thinks like this. To me, her mind finds another way; a different way, of thinking. Osaka doesn't get mad/angry often, but when she does it's because things did not play out like her alternative thinking estimated. Because she anticipated an unlikely occurrence playing out, she expected it would happen because probability and chance were on her side.

Perhaps us humans need emulate Ayumu?

I'm slowly noticing a pattern in my everyday life.

It seems that when midnight approaches, I feel more longing for her. It's like I want to hug her and feel her in my arms, and imagining her in my mind isn't enough anymore.

And this longing is painful already.

After the day passes and I wake up, the feeling is gone, as if it is a brand new day.

I want to cry right now, but my brother is in my room with his netbook, since the router necessary to connect to the Net is here.

>>8977

I know that feeling all too well. I was like that for the past half of a year. Only recently has it stopped, and not really in a good way. I've started to just bury my feelings and any hint of emotion, and I'm not sure if I prefer being depressed or being what feels like a soulless husk. I used to spend more or less every night drinking and trying to sleep.

A few days ago, I dreamt that my waifu had left me. There was not even all that much to the dream itself - it was just me seeing her with someone else and something telling me that "that was because she had left me".

But still, it stings. Two days later, I'm still somewhat upset about it, even though I know I shouldn't let something like that get to me so much.

Being in love never worked out for me IRL (though not for a lack of trying on my part), and I guess the resulting insecurities are a little more persistent than I had thought...

>>8979
>my waifu had left me.
I've never had this problem, because I'm fairly convinced, a priori, that she wouldn't ever like me in the first place, not at all...

I mostly love her from afar...
Mostly.

>>8977
I know that feeling as well and I don't know what to do.
First of all I love her and thus I want to be with her. That is a fact. However there's also the fact that I can never be, let alone live, with her. I really don't know what to do.

In another note:
Lately I found myself wanting to know about trivial aspects of her: What kind of food does she like, which music does she listen to, her favourite food, which flower does she like the most (I already know which flower she likes the least though), her favourite book or if she reads books at all...
I think that if I learn everything about her we could be somewhat closer, it's worth a try.
You could say that I'm trying to make her more real within my world.

>>8705
>Hasn't been on /mai/ for months.
>Comes on
>Sees this

I remember you. You're one of the Anon with great taste whom also has a great love for Asuka. I have to say what you just stated could be as well been written by me. I thought that exact same concept quite some time ago. And even before I came to love Asuka, I was (and still am) very amazed with both Germany and Japan and their cultures. In fact, I learned German just in case I may one day live there. One of the things that I really liked about Asuka was her German-Japanese ethnicity. It's like if someone took 2 of the best ingredients on earth in a blender and made the world's most precious milkshake.

Anyway, i have nothing mroe to write here because you've pretty much covered it. For now.

>>8983
lol, ok; good to know there's another nuts around (namely, you) who, out of some night of fever, started finding some sense as well on this elitist madness. Will be glad to hear about your future further thoughts about this or any other Asuka-related subject.

See you around.

This picture caused me some problems today. I didn't recognize equation but after asking around, I found out it is Einstein’s Field theory. It seems artist kind failed to understand that Gαβ (Einstein's tensor) and G (gravitational constant involved in the calculations of gravitational force between two bodies) are different things. I don't think there is anything romantic in tensor. Well actually G is part of constant k. But if artist knew that, why did he use k? It makes her look like stupid but idea is really heartwarming.

Or it is me who is misunderstading

>>9000
dunno (lol)... but this gave me an idea for a drawing. give me some time to develop it.

Is it bad that I think the other mages alongside Marisa are cute?

>>9007
Not at all. As long they are 2D.

>>9007
Why would it be bad? What is cute is cute there's no problem with that. As long as you consider your loved one the cutest one.

>>9007
As with any relationship, 2D or 3D, having it and being in love with one person does not mean you have to shun your hormones and never glance at another girl or thinking they're attractive.

As long as you love her, I do not see any problem feeling attracted to or liking other girls. For example, I have the utmost love for Asuka, but i never will shake of the great liking and semi-crush I have for Haruhi. Although I do not love her,as I do my interpretation of Asuka, I would lie to say I didn't think her attractive as well.

>>8833

Exquisite taste! I've been pondering the (seeming) lack of Strike Witch waifus...

>>8840

True, but how could anyone not love a genki?

These are just my late-night ramblings, but I always enjoy seeing somebody who seems to genuinely care for/love a 2D character outside of Tohno-chan. You know how you can sometimes just tell the difference in vibes between a "[character] is my waifu XD she's hot!" post to a "[character] is my waifu, I really genuinely like her" post.

It's sort of inspirational. Having a waifu can be an extremely difficult thing, for me, anyway (relationships with just about anyone are difficult for me, though), and if I see that people outside our bastion of 2-D love can do it, then there's no reason it should be difficult. It's simply love, and while it's hard to love sometimes - particularly when the one you love isn't tangible, it's worth it, and you're not alone in it. That's a good feeling.

That is, it makes me feel nice that there are others who are in the same position, and that it isn't as a harrowing experience as you might think at first. We found our ideals in another world, whereas most people spend their lives to trying to figure out what they want in the first place. It's a damn nice thing.

>>9097
>We found our ideals in another world, whereas most people spend their lives to trying to figure out what they want in the first place.
Amen to that! While this love is difficult and painful at times, I feel blessed for the clarity it shines into my life.

I like to think a lot about what if.
what if she was here right now, what if we were doing this or that together, be it having lunch or just laying on the flood, it comes up a lot during the day...

I know nothing will come of it, but I still like to tell myself 'someday...'

>>9097

>We found our ideals in another world, whereas most people spend their lives to trying to figure out what they want in the first place

In my case, sure, I found my ideals in another world but that's still another world. If I lack the capability to manifest these ideals, then that's as good as having no direction or goal at all.

By lacking the capability, I mean, I can't draw, I can't buy stuff and I am not a good writer yet. All I have is the imagination, the ideals. I am like a gashapon when no one is bothering to operate it: A lot of stuff inside, but cannot be brought out.

And if you can't bring out your ideals to the world, then these ideals are moot until you find a satisfying way to emulate them, moreso without being persecuted.

Well, that's just my opinion. It's a case to case basis, since I'm the type of person who likes money.

For awhile my depression worsened. Because of this I appear to have developed an odd masochistic fantasy that makes me smile every time I think about it:

I freak out and start saying foolish things, she slaps me across the face, punches me in the stomach, then, as I double over, she holds me and tells me how much she loves me and that she'll always be there for me.

>>9133
That's kind of cute

Today I have been thinking: We all know that we love and care our 2D-lovers, thinking about her/him, imagining them, doing things for them...
But what bugs me is the enormous quantity of characters that don't share the luck that our loved ones have. And not just this, but also the lack of fanart because the show isn't that well known or because that character is eclipsed by some major character or some reason like that. I mean, it's not the character's fault, it's just that no one cared enough about her/him to do things related to the character.
I consider myself lucky to have fallen in love with such a popular character (it has its downsides, but I can deal with them), but there's a lot of characters out there that won't ever get the love they deserve. And I feel bad about it.

>>9137
Everytime I am watching anime and I see new girl I think "I hope this character makes good waifu for somebody someday".

It's not working. She's not helping at all. She used to, but I feel like shit every day and thinking of her only makes me feel more sharply what I don't and will never have.

>>9168

What's wrong, man?

>>9169
What's wrong is I have no future and no love. But I have to accept the fact that I'm not normal.

>>9170

Such is the agony, the subconscious conflict, the soul-destroying conscious thought that tears at sanity. What point is there to love if you aren't loved, if you can't even shower your beloved with your feelings?

Fuck if I know. Fuck if anyone knows. You're doomed to be unhappy, if your only happiness is she. One must cope with pain, whatever your path in life, and this path is one you walk alone. It takes an inhumanly strong man not to fall to the increasingly resilient enemy that is loneliness, and even with allies it's a challenge. You need your allies to fight loneliness every time it rears that ugly fucking head, and when it's down all you can do is find some small content. The search for fairy tale 'happiness' is what leaves us unhappy in the first place.

That possibly nonsensical rambling is not going to help anyone, but there's little can be done with a soul that dooms itself, other than explain just how he's doomed.

>>9172
It's enough to know that there are other people who feel the same way. Well, it doesn't kill the pain, as you said, but it's something.

>>9173

Yeah. I suppose I can only understand the pain so much because the suffering gives insight. If only there were a way we could help each other, eh?

>>9174
Indeed if only. At least we have TC.

>>9172
My waifu doesn't ever stopped my suffering. I never expected her do that. Instead, she gives me happiness. And this is what I live for. I can't escape suffering, at least not now, but in the end the day, I look at her, and I feel that feeling deep in my souls, and I know it's fucking worth it, and no amount of grief will ever change that.

That's how I feel, anyway.

Worst idea you can have is willingly reading rape doujinshi about your waifu. I don't care how curious you are, you will have images burned into your mind you wish you didn't. It's especially bad if she is depicted as being reduced to a slut that's begging to be fucked... My face contorted in disgust. Completely idiotic thing to do. I should have listened to that little voice of reason that was telling me to ignore the doujinshi.

I salute those of you who subjected yourselves to such things in order to gain immunity. I failed horribly at it.

>>9177

Yeah I can only imagine it to be pretty bad. Continuous strong attempts to break your willpower, really.

>>9178

I know that feeling. I saw a doujinshi of my waifu being gangraped once. I wasn't so sure about the "gangrape" part, but when I saw one of them lay a hand on her, I just closed the tab. And take note, rape is one of my stronger fetishes.

There shall never be good doujinshi about Marisa having sweet love with a faceless man. I lament it.

>>9177
I don't know if I am only one but I don't have problems seeing porn of my waifu. Only ones are horrible to watch are ones that would be horrible to watch even if character was someone else (guro, scat etc.).

Myself I am almost fully able to separate that porn material from my waifu. I don't consider character in porn as same character. Like most of us think that our waifus are alternative versions of canon characters. Sometimes when I see stuff I think "Well this is just wrong" but I am able to forget (or should I say "accept"?) it very fast.

I don't have 100% immunity but I can deal with this stuff easily. Character in dirty porn isn't my waifu.

>>9172
>The search for fairy tale 'happiness' is what leaves us unhappy in the first place.
I agree, although chasing that happiness has never really been a part of my life. Perhaps because of the household and neighborhood I grew up in, from a young age I'd always just assumed I'd grow up to be unhappy like everyone else around me. And now that I'm grown, I honestly believe that I'm happier that most in my age group.

>You're doomed to be unhappy, if your only happiness is she. One must cope with pain, whatever your path in life, and this path is one you walk alone. It takes an inhumanly strong man not to fall to the increasingly resilient enemy that is loneliness, and even with allies it's a challenge. You need your allies to fight loneliness every time it rears that ugly fucking head, and when it's down all you can do is find some small content.
I don't know, I think that Reki is my ally. Yes, it's painful at times, just wanting to BE with her, but she and her series have given and continue to give guidance and support at times when things could go (and almost have gone) much, much worse.
Either way, this love was not a choice I made, so I don't see any choice but to follow this path. Which is fine with me.

>>9177
Yeah. To be fair, I usually avoid doujins of my waifu like the plague, unless it's consensual one on one, but even then I prefer not to.
Recently I stumbled upon a "normal" group sex doujin of her, and sadly my curiosity got the better of me and I ended up reading. It's completely vanilla stuff, but it made me feel disgusted and angry as fuck, for some reason.

Reading doujin of your waifu, not even once.

Like >>9180 said, I separate pornographic material from my waifu, but it's better to avoid that shit if you can.

The only porn of her I can accept with no problems is vanilla images of her just being naked and stuff like that.

>>9168
Loneliness can be such a pain.
Which is the solution to loneliness? I wish I knew. How could someone get rid of that horrible feeling. Some people would say "Just go out and make friends", but we all know the reasons why this is a No can do, as well as the reason of why we are here.
To try to solve that problem i asked myself: Why does this horrible feeling appears? Why people have perception of loneliness? Which originated it?
If you search on some of the current theories on anthropology and sociology, they say that probably since the human species have remained alive because they lived in groups, since they needed groups to survive the adverse situations that are in the nature the species has build in a "switch" to tell the individual "Hey, you are far from the good and that's bad for your survival", that switch being called loneliness. Everyone has that switch, however there are people that has this switch trigger very easily and people who is just the opposite but they still have it.
Now, how one would be able to turn of that switch if they just don't fit in that "group"? Well, then we create our group. However that isn't enough sometimes, because for some psychological reason the man must be "accepted" as an independent entity in order to be happy.
How would be able to be accepted as an independent entity? That I don't know.
What I do is first, look through all my flaws and try to accept them as a part of me, it isn't easy to admit to yourself your own feelings and thoughts. However if you do accept those feelings as a part of yourself, it feels great.

Have you ever tried to say out loud to yourself that you love your waifu, meaning it?
You should try anytime that there is nobody there with you or that could be listening.

It seems like a lot of peoples' relationships with their waifus are similar to how some people have tulpas... I've sometimes dreamt of mine, but I've never tried talking to, uh, her before.

I just started thinking about my issue about sexuality and my waifu.
To begin with, I don't fap to my waifu, it's not that I don't want to fap to her because of the purity thing, in fact it's far more complex than that.
I want that our sexual relations to be more than just me masturbating to her, I love her so much to treat it just as your ordinary fapping. However I have no clue on how to do so, since that kind of thing is harder with a 2D love.

>>9234

Can't you just abstain from fapping to her?

>>9234
Use your imagination, not porn. Do it in bed before cuddling up with her (your pillow) and going to sleep.

>>9234
I try to not fap to doujins of my waifu, not only because they enrage me because it's mostly non-consensual and gangbanf stuff, but also because fapping using only my imagination feels much more intimate.

Sometimes, I like to pretend I was there to take those photos...

I'm really happy that I'm getting closer to my waifu again. I've started thinking about her before I go to bed, like I always used to do a few months ago. Still haven't reread her series, though I keep saying I will (it's simply not happening).

I was having issues with the idea of "deserving her". However, that's a double positive to having a waifu. I can both rely on the delusion that she would love me, and I can work to be a man worthy of her.

Although, we all know change is the most difficult thing in the world, and I despise the notion. It's still good to imagine her by your side in tough times.

I always feel strongly attracted by characters that have same Seiyuu than Kurisu. They somehow remind me of her. Chihaya Kisaragi from Idolm@ster is one of my favorite characters because she shares seiyuu and similar many personality traits with Kurisu. First episode of Koi to Senkyo to Chocolate aired yesterday and I recognized immediately that Michiru Morishita has same seiyuu too (and she only said 2 or 3 lines).

One interesting thing is that before I met Kurisu, I never cared about seiyuus or recognized them.

I've noticed that I feel a kind of bond, or camaraderie between me and those who are also in love with Madotsuki, or characters from similar fangames.
Now if only I could track down that guy who was in love with Urotsuki.

>>9693
I know what you mean.

>>9677
I never cared about seiyuu either, until I got into the idolm@ster. Even then it took awhile for me to really get into it. I was even afraid that knowing what she looked like would ruin my image of her when I listen to her music, almost like I would imagine the seiyuu instead of Iori(I had seen videos of her before but that was years ago and had forgotten what she looked like). Thankfully that didn't turn out to be the case and I like watching her perform onstage along with the rest of the cast.

>>9693

This is so true. Odd!

I've always wondered what kind of life I will be having when I go to her world, aside from being a rice farmer.