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No. 26743
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>I feel like I've already exhausted all possibilities in my native country. Everything bores me. Never liked anyone or anything in school, it's to much of a hassle to get a job
>I tried higher education several times
>But I want something more. It's not satisfying to be dependent on my family because they are normalfags too and I don't want to be surrounded by normalfags my whole life. I keep getting the feeling that if I exist then there must be others like me.
>The only prospect I have left that remotely interests me is becoming a drifter. Maybe then I'll finally find what I'm looking for.
I relate to this so much.
I'm in a similar situation, except my fantasies involve(or used to involve) Italy instead of France. Not too long ago, I learned of jus sanguinis and how people of Italian ancestry are considered citizens of Italy, even if born in another continent. I was born in South America, and likewise have the most absolute contempt for the local "culture". Everything here is so ugly, noisy and deprived of any redeeming quality, and I can't relate to people around me at all.
Other people also treat me like a stranger, I've heard the "Where do you come from?" many times, and I've been here for well over 2 decades already. I've been told I "look Italian" by others, but I wouldn't put too much faith in these peoples assessments.
I would fantasize about living in Northeastern(Veneto or Friuli) Italy, and making some friends, and maybe feeling some sense of belonging to the world around me. Climbing the Alps, visiting nearby cities with rich history. But I'm also afraid that this is all just a gigantic cope, that what I see as the South American way-of-life is in fact just normalfaggotry, and it will be present in equal measures anywhere I go. I could arrive at Italy and be the same despondent person I already am being here. The furthest I have ever been to on my own is a 4min-walk distance grocery store.
Then I learned that there's a law in Italy, and that if your ancestors came from the Northeastern territories(my case) there were very likely expatriated as Austrians, and are not eligible for citizenship. Of course, Austria also does not recognize them as Austrians, resulting in them arriving as stateless individuals. This marked the waning phase of the "Italian fantasy", and other fantasies began to surface. By this point, the fantasy was already deprived of any grounding in reality, and often involved Roman Cults, Futurism, Operation Gladio, Irredentism and the Croatian territories and anything else to amuse me as the days passed by. One day would be an incursion to Fiume, the next a secret Roman Empire Cult that made it's way into the hearts of Italian youth.
When you take all this into account and add the immense costs of acquiring the citizenship, I think is unlikely it will happen anytime soon. Nowadays this fantasy, along with many others function as the "Daydream Theater", keeping me entertained.
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