I constantly hear voices in my head telling me to face challenges that I perceive to be challenging. The majority of these activities are quite simple, but this one was particularly interesting. 
Although the test itself was very simple, there were some delicate subjects covered by the wager. The bet was that if I won, my waifu would be entirely a pure virgin and would not die in the manga,As the Manga leaves her fate undetermined. 
I took the bet, but I'm not sure if I succeeded. I merely feel empty and always fear that my love for her has soured. Sometimes I try to outdo the voices, but I feel like every time I fail the challenge, my love fades away for her.

I am terrified of these thoughts, and the voices have destroyed my feelings for her.

I genuinely hope that my thoughts have no bearing on reality, that they can be changed, or that my magical thinking related to my autism and schizophrenia is the only thing affecting my love for her.

Does anyone here have a similar problem to me What are the solutions?