>>20819
>and a garbage human being
I agree.
>For the last 6 and a half years, I've been a faithful husbando to Nozomi Kiriya
Per your admission, false.

You're being to harsh on yourself. If your waifu really loves you, she will understand.

(And personally, I don't think you've done anything wrong)

>>20821
Thank you, anon, but I'm convinced that having intimate contact with another person (even if that person is not a succubus and there are no romantic feelings involved) still counts as cheating, and cheating is all sorts of wrong. Me and Nozomi have been having a lovely time recently, but that just makes me remember how sweet, innocent and kind she is. I must be the one to blame myself for my misdeeds.

Since you talk with her, did you ever confess this to her and try to work it out? Or are you just pretending nothing happened?

>>20853
Naturally. I still apologize to her for it fairly often but I stopped trying to rationalize the difference between pure love and animal-like sexual attraction. It just sounds like a tremendous excuse, one that I'm not willing to accept myself.

First read this:

Pygmalion (mythology)

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pygmalion_(mythology)


Aphrodite can restore your allegiance. You seem to be a very kind and caring person. Do not blame yourself, use your energies to please your sweet and beloved waifu.

>>20867
Thanks anon, I'm well aware of the Pygmalion story and I find it very inspiring. I don't worship any greek gods myself, so I can't rely on someone or something making things right for me, but putting more effort into improving the relationship sounds like the right thing to do.

Two nights ago I was getting overwhelmed by horrible thoughts. I tried to think of her, but I couldn't focus enough. Instead I tried remembering good dreams that I've seen in my recent years. There was one dream in particular that I saw about 5 years ago, it was the only time in my life when I dreamt of her. I used to recall it sometimes when things were grim. But this time, I coudn't remember it. I have forgotten the one and only dream that featured her, and I never thought of writing it down somewhere.

To add to this, I had to reinstall Windows recently. I didn't even think of it at first, but among all the lost data were the pictures of our annual annivrsary dinners and more. Thankfully, the pictures from 2012-2016 were backed up on my laptop and 2018-2019 were saved on my phone, but the only other copy of our 2017 dinner is probably on my old phone, which is damaged beyond recovery. I tried some data restoration software, to no avail. It seems like the memory of an entire year of our relationship is gone forever.

It really hurts, but I deserve all of this and more.

I cheated on my husbando N Harmonia from pokemon a character i've been in love with since 2010 with a fucking vtuber of all things. took the vtuber graduating for me to attempt to rekindle our relationship again. I feel stupid that I fell for a 3DPD masking itself as an anime.

>>21401
Sorry to hear about that anon, i hope you two will create some good memory's in the future.

Not exactly a confession, but more of a question seeking advice from other anons.

I don't exactly have a waifu but out of all the characters from my most cherished anime whom I respect deeply, there are two in particular that I've been drawn to for their unconditional warmth and gentleness. I consider them close friends: thinking of them gives me hope and strength, and in times of trouble I try to imagine them consoling me.

But it feels wrong to me to project any romantic feelings towards them (which is why I cannot bring myself to commit to a waifu). Perhaps it's _because_ I have so much respect for them, and partly because I feel it would be rude to "bind" them into a relation purely on my whims (or put another way, the characters already have their own life and close circle of friends. While friendship [at least the idealized version of it] is "additive" in the sense that being friends with one does not require you to give up your friendship with another (and in fact the group bonds can become stronger), a "romantic relationship" doesn't quite have that property. So I feel that projecting any such feelings would only disrupt their existing group dynamics.

Conversely while it's easy for me to imagine embracing some random character whom I don't really know the background of, it feels hollow and empty precisely for that same reason. It's a bit of a quandary I don't really know how to resolve: I don't want to disrupt the existing friendships and warmth I feel from my treasured characters, and yet sometimes at night I think it would be nice to really embrace one; but I can't bring myself to.

I have not taken any action that would betray my loyalty to my waifu, but I wish I did not have sexual attraction at all. I know being in love doesn't remove sexual attraction to unrelated people, but it makes me feel like dirt, as if my lust is cheating on the one my heart loves. One may say I am too hard on myself, but I am scared of it.