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Anonymous
11/18/15(Wed)12:15
No. 19147
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I hope I don't get banned for this, but, I did have a girlfriend. I fell out of love pretty quickly, it just wasn't doing it for me. Humans just aren't for me, romantically. They have faults, they judge you, they get bored of you. It sucks and I really don't wish that on anyone. In fact the only time in my life I've ever felt suicidal was during that point in my life, when I was "in love". It was truly hell.
I find escapism very rewarding, if used wisely. Understanding reality is what it is, rather than lying to yourself, and seeing escapist fantasies as any other therapeutic outlet, is actually pretty nice. Rather than suffering through reality, I can daydream all day, or draw, or do whatever that lets me enjoy my fantasies, and it makes reality a lot more bearable, as I'm actually not forced to live in it 24/7. I have another world I can go to. They're entirely separate and have no effect on each other, I understand and respect that. But just unwinding and going to my own little paracosm makes the whole day a lot more nice. And being able to appreciate someone or something, because you actually appreciate it, and not just because it has a body you want, is a lot more enriching to me.