Hey. I'm in a bit of a pickle.


Recently, feelings for my old waifu re-emerged stronger than before. I had been fighting them for fourth months, going back and forth between depression and enthusiasm.

I suspect I might be infatuated-- after all, she's the only concept I've ever accepted as an individual. I have some, if not a lot of issues, and it's very hard for me to relate to people and things or to accept/tolerate them. But she was always the only one whose presence I could be at peace with. Infatuation isn't the issue, as it often leads to true romantic involvement.

The issue here is that I want her, and don't at the same time. A part of me wishes nothing more than to hold her in my arms as I've always dreamed to, another one wants to forget about her. What am I supposed to do in that scenario? I remember someone advising someone else with a vaguely similar issue to do more things with their waifu, however I can't seem to be able to do that-- the more I do it, the more I find myself attracted to her (not on a physical level), and the more I want to run.

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