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I was quite healthy as a kid, the only issue I had was pain in the legs from growing a lot in 5th grade. This caused me to have issues with sleeping, but the whole thing only lasted for a few months.
During my early teens it started though, in 7th grade I had an accident where I hit my head very badly. A whiplash injury was the result, that came with multiple horrible headaches a day. Those headaches ruined my 7th, 8th and 9th grade, where I plunged with my performance in school. Furthermore the entire school started to bully me. All of this caused low self-esteem, anxiety, depression, trust issues, isolation and self-harm. When the time in school ended it was decided that I should go to work immediately because I was too stupid for further education anyway. A whiplash injury is nothing you can see and therefore give proof of, so most people didn't believe me. It didn't help that the doctors needed more than 2 years to give that diagnosis.
After working for a few months I collapsed, because after the accident I was unable to do any sports, which resulted into my muscles reducing itself to a bare minimum. Then the state stepped it, saying I need an education and sent me to some business school.
While being there I managed to tackle two issues that emerged during puberty, acne and badly positioned teeth. The teeth after my baby teeth didn't come up well, some of them didn't have enough space and started to put pressure on the others, which moved all of the teeth into bad positions. The acne was all over my back and face, sometimes it itched a lot and scratching made it even worse. Both could be solved with bracers, some locations and salves. During the time at the business school I also got a little bit of confidence due to great teachers and school mates that didn't bully me anymore.
All went downhill when I finished the education and had to start working. The cycle off getting hired, being fired, being unemployed started. With all my issues I never experienced an ordinary youth, this lead be to be alienated from people outside of image boards like this. Everywhere I am perceived as weird or even creepy, because I just have nothing to talk about those people. Even If I force myself to talk, all I can manage is work related stuff. This leads to statements like being cold, distant, reserved, uninterested in co-workers and so on. After every layoff it gets harder finding a job, so the time being unemployed grows and grows. Unfortunately the experiences made working destroyed all the progress I made and made my conditions as bad as they never were before. Right now I am on meds, else I would lay in a corner or something. Doctors aren't helping either, they say I am just fine as long as I take meds, while therapists are even worse. They say I just need people. The state refuses to give me money, they are obviously siding with those people.
Else I work out once a week in order to strengthen my back. The pain gets unbearable if I don’t do that. I eat a lot of fruits and vegetables too, furthermore every day the sun shines I go out on the balcony to get some of its healthy influence.
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