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01/04/11(Tue)02:35
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UNO: Her straightforward/intransigent attitude.
I had initially identified myself with Shinji, mostly in a bad way. Shinji showed extreme weakness, egotism, laziness, apathy... shameful features I could easily find in myself as well. Yet, he had something that I could respect: he longed for authenticity; his terrible journey was that of a man who, clueless about what's the right thing to do, is ready to obliterate the humankind and himself, rather than living in a delusional/dispicable world. Everyone just used him or pittied him; nobody dared to give him the honest scolding answers he really needed and actually deserved; nobody but one: Asuka...
DOS: Her arrogance, intelligence and longing for self-sufficiency.
It wasn't developed any further, but the mere mention of she being a child prodigy arroused me immensely. Also, the fact that she had experienced terrible lost in her childhood, and had thus decided to become a precocious and self sufficient person, made her (for me) quite someone to look up to. Yet, ironically, the lost of the only person towards she dared to show vulnerability, Kaji, with that childish crush on him, was probably the last hit that finally broke her...
TRES: Her bulletproof dignity, even in total failure.
Asuka is quite a queen of failure. She started so full of honestly gained confidency, and well based high expectations about herself. She had everything to achieve succes; she worked really hard; and yet, she failed pathetically. Unable to understand it, she reacted with hate, towards everything and everyone; but, most than anything, hating herself: she was never a harder critc on anyone, than she was on herself; her destroying of everything (that could be easily solved with tolerance and sympathy) and her sinking into total misery, rather than accepting mediocricy, was for me an undeniable image of pride taht I could, a few years later, quite relate to. Asuka became my model to follow, in utter defeat.
CUATRO: Her beauty.
As I reatreated from the world in favor of 2D, I started to rebuild the concept of her raw appereance in a way that rendered her extremelty apealing. Each one of her features got sublimated, and their combination started to fall together as a masterpiece portrait of blindingly wild beauty. So, after a long period of admiration towards her, one day I finally realized that I didn't wanted to be like her anymore, but her to be with me; that she was actually the most oustanding female I have ever known; that if I was going to let myself fall in love again, it couldn't be with anyone better than her; that she was, as I am now, the only possible one for me...
TL;DR It was a long process full of pretentiousness, until I realized she's simply the best for me.