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>>31128
Your post just filled me with memories. Back when I was a teenager and into young adulthood I had this fascination for the idea of purity in conduct. A good part of it came from anime and such characters as Fujitaka but also from Buddhism, specially monks. This purity was a lot about having no sexual aggression in my personality whatsoever. Like a completely ascended person, free from all bodily desires. On top of that I was also interested in "minimalism" for a lack of better word. Basically I would try to not make any noise, walk silently or avoid hitting the fork on the plate, eating just once or twice a day, stuff like that.
Anyway, it wasn't hard for me to have no sexual aggression in my personality but I would go that extra mile to never talk about anything sexual or show any desires towards people. In my mind this was an important part of a "perfect friendliness" personality. To this day if I think about it I guess there's some truth to it.
It's funny though, because as you can imagine people didn't saw this behavior as ascended at all. No, they just though I was gay. Some girl I knew just in passing from some class asked me if I liked boys or girls (in a very childish manner, probably attempting to hide the very fact she was asking), apparently I gave so many weird and contradictory signals she couldn't figure it out. Couldn't curb herself and had to ask. Another funny episode is some guy asking me why I would take so long to close a door (you see, I would slowly close the door to avoid hitting the frames and making any noise with it).
It's all behind me now of course, since I don't have to go anywhere or interact with anyone anymore. I like to think my neighbors are appreciative of me though, since I'm easily the silentest person to ever grace the face of this building.
I'm sorry about the offtopic. I'll be updating this thread in a few days with actual, relevant content.
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