>have nothing at all going for me
>never was better at something than someone else
>no source for self-confidence
>with no goals and passion no motivation to do anything
>somehow this is all my fault and I get told by good looking, social, talented, people that I should "man teh fuk up".

You know life would be easier if being a loser was accepted as a disability. Having down syndrome sucks but no one will tell someone with down syndrome that he is useless and should try harder. If one still achievs something with a disability it's seen as an accomplishment. As a loser if you finally achieve something it's something that is expected of you and society only offers superficial support because it doesn't understand us. We can't even ask for it because people believe we are simply lazy and looking for excuses.