I dont know if that would work, when I was a trainee I was even more stressed than I am now. I really hate to have dutys. But I know that I wouldn't be able to survive like that as soon as I don't get money anymore. So maybe I should give it at try to not being a hassle for my parents anymore.
>I just want to drink sake and make potato soup in a garden, lie around on the floor reading manga, work hard for something that doesn't even matter because it still matters for some reason.
Something like that is what I wish as well. Just a harmonic life, a few good friends and something to work for. But in reality its all shit, people who backstab you, dont acknowledge your work and overall mostly, if not only selfish assholes.