Used to have plenty of friends up until 7th grade, then I moved to a different town and frequented a shitty school. After that I don't remember ever having a friend. I'd talk to my colleagues on occasion, but every moment I was just hoping to be alone as soon as possible.
Then came high school, I might have talked to a handful of other guys during my whole time there, the rest was spent in complete solitude, either within or outside the school perimeters, and that was kinda boring.
In time, this solitude became my standard, go to way of being, which I realized later when I was "supposed" to make friends. College was the same shit, I don't understand people who form friendships in that environment. I guess at this point it had been so long since I had a friend I just didn't know how to keep up with everyone else, and how this whole social dance works.
Recently (a handful of years later), I've seemingly started forming a friend over the internet, but funnily enough I'm about to just up and disappear cause it's not working out again.
I don't even think I'd find a friend in /so/. I don't feel strongly about any subject, including anime, waifus, imageboards, anything, so I wouldn't provide a good conversational partner. As for people with other personalities, I'm actually more comfortable talking to them. It feels like nothing's at stake, is one way to put it. But still, I don't think I could talk for more than a few minutes before getting mindnumbingly bored and prefering to be alone doing my own thing.
Post edited on 11th Jul 2014, 7:19pm