>When did you realize you'd be alone forever?
When I grew old and jaded enough to realize I probably wasn't just lost in the world, fallen through a crack from some other dimension where I really belonged.
>How do you cope?
Getting lost in worlds I'd rather be through art, entertainment, and daydreaming.
And I generally don't mind being alone. If anything it's always been less painful than being reminded of my failure to be a proper person among the ones who seem to pull it off.
>What stops you from just giving up now? I just don't see the point.
A futile hope of one day creating something beautiful or meaningful, and increasingly little of even that recently. My most constant companion, anxiety has made space for a stagnant resignation.
That said, I never really thought there needed to be any point. You either see some point to it or you don't, and you might be crazy if you do, or crazy if you don't. And regardless you either think it's easier to keep living than not, or you don't. Just boils down to me being—for now—on the side of the still living.
But had there been a form to sign before birth, explaining what would be expected of me in life as a human, things would probably be different. They really should get to work on implementing that procedure for life. Or stop having children.
People online are still people and I tend to think that if anything you could ideally have a more "real" friendship online since you'd be sticking around each other simply because you genuinely want to rather than largely because of physical proximity, being in the same class or whatever.
Of course, that's just the naïve waffling of someone who has never managed to have a meaningful interpersonal relationship in any way.