I watched chuu2 and ate candy

Read a bit, installed a new OS on my laptop, had some tea. I guess I'll go to sleep now...

I listened to Thick As A Brick, rewatched Predator (the "digitally restored" release), ate candy, laughed at what.cd's halloween hijinks and promptly forgot I was pissed off at the niggers for not doing a sitewide freeleech.

I did >>18139 too.

I wanted to see the page where Itokin's mother drew the vagina before running off, so I started reading Boku to Issho and I've laughed out loud quite a few times. This manga is great.

I don't really feel like lighting myself on fire and doing stupid shit out of anger and sadness any more. Although I am still a little sad and angry, but that's something that comes and goes and has been going on for years now.

Woke up, found a massive amount of new music online I liked so I'm downloading all that now. It's some ambient/middle eastern style drum and instrumental music. It reminded me of music I hear in my head sometimes so it makes me feel at home. Later I'll get some pizza because I have a coupon. It'll be a good day in an otherwise shitty week.

Today i watched the latest episodes of the new Hidamari Sketch season, played some video games and browsed the internet. I'm thinking of picking up another current-season anime.

>>18148
this reminds me, I still have dozens of files on soulseek idled because the sharer is never online, I already bitched about it in some other thread but Haruhidamn bitch ass punks grgrhhhrhbg this makes me so mad

if only I could find these songs somewhere else...

anyway, I tried to install Fallout New Vegas on my pc but we had a blackout today so I couldn't finish it. this always happens this time of the year.

Ate candy, played against some computer opponents in DoW II, fell asleep around 3am and got woken up while sleeping sometime in the early morning because of some loud faggots hanging out in front of my place.

I went to a bookstore and read a lot of books on New Age shit, kept laughing and took notes about what was the most hilarious shit.

After that I went to an art show in the evening. It was very interesting.

I bit my own tongue.

Went to the dentist. Was supposed to be getting my braces on today but I've been told I have to go have some surgery because the dentist who removed my teeth fucked up. Great.

Going to go into town to buy some things later, but I just want to sleep. I am so tired.

Nothing else interesting will happen to me today so I'm documenting this now.

>>18162
I wish I was given braces when I was a child. My teeth look like a fucking quarry.

Visited the Graveyard with my father today. For the first time ever I seriously pondered the fact that in a ~few years time all that'll be left from me will be just another tombstone. Felt pretty surreal.

Woke up, worked a few hours, went to class, came home, ate some lunch, took a shower, and now I'm about to go nap for an hour or two. When I wake up, fakeneet-mode-engaged and nothing but anime for 10 hours.

>>18164
You can have braces at any age, anon.

>>18165
Not everyone has a tombstone, keep that in mind too.

Today I went to work, played with a Raspberry Pi and an Aurdino, had lunch with my twin and some other twins, then came back to my office and listened to some psych rock while I worked on some MacBooks. Those things are pains to work on.

For a True Otaku Hikikomori NEET Organization, you people sure work a lot.

Today I woke up, worried, wandered around in the cold until I felt like my face was frozen, and came home. Now having some tea and preparing for a night of anime or manga, still haven't decided which. I've been wanting a cigarette for the past few days for some reason. It's strange because I haven't smoked in a long long time and when I did it was very rarely.

>>18171
I really don't think there are actually that many true NEETs around here.

Feeling kinda ill today. The back of my head hurts, and my asthma got bad again. I hope it doesn't lasts

>>18167
Now that I'm a grown man I need to cough up ~6000USD for them.

>>18164
You don't wanna see my teeth, they are terrible. Still strong but just look really bad. I got braces in when I was 16 or 17 from what I can remember. They were such a pain in the ass that I got them removed. Then they decided to put this weird plate in my mouth to stretch out my teeth a bit. I had that removed a couple days later because it was even more painful and got in the way of doing even more. Fuck them, if they want to do anymore to my teeth now besides a cleaning they can go fuck themselves and if they are going to try to force me they better be ready for a fight that will require the entire work force to hold me down because there is no way I'm letting them get anywhere near my teeth beyond cleaning them. They did more harm than good to my teeth. They are actually a little weaker and worse because of their experiments with me. I hate the dentist. Now they want to remove a couple of my teeth. I've seen how fucked up people get from having that done, they get so fucked up they can't even eat right and they mess up just once with those massive wounds the pain doctors leave in their mouths and they are in for an even worse experience. Those pain doctors can take a bunch of knives to the mouth because they sure love putting them in mine and everyone elses.

>>18176
I had two teeth removed and it only hurts for a few hours after, and not at all during. You hardly know at all other than a little force being applied to your tooth. I don't see how people have such bad experiences with the dentist, other than about 5mm of the roots of one of those teeth still being in my mouth, I've had no problems.

My dentist is a little asian guy who always tries to talk to me about life, and I don't have one so it gets too awkward. Haven't seen him in like 6 years

I drank a bit and looked for jobs online.

Ended up laughing and acting like a goof when imagining myself doing various jobs that were posted (girls basketball coach; scientist; drill sergeant).

Fuck man, I'm bored of NEET'ing it up. I want drug money and money for vidya.

I will never get a job and I never want to get a job. I will live as a man-child for as long as I live！

DRUGS id about 800mg of DXM and then got a phone call fron my mom. grandma and mom were comibg by my apartment, okay cool i can totally ahndel this. so tget cinme over after i drink a bottle of orange delysk + powder + orange juice abdwe talk as it starts to kick in. i hang out in my grandmas house abd takk about politics and religion and girls and shit while i trip balls. then i fix her computer and keep trippin balls. a friend calls her so i go up into her puutcg black /ttic and vude in the corner and hallucinate while still trippin and playin g haydn's "creatuon" and we just kept talking about whateer and she drives me home and im in my pitch black apartment and call shinden9 on the telephone and

>>18182
>okay cool i can totally handel this
Did you handel it?

>>18183
DRUGS I'm slowly coming back to the real world... but yeah, I think I made it. I remember me showing her my dry mouth -- "Grandma, check out how dry my mouth is! *sticks out tongue* What should I do?" and she gave me gum. Then I asked her if she seemed funny and she was like "No, why?" I swear old people must always be dexxin or something because she didn't act like I was odd at all.

Slept in then ran some errands in the morning, then read a bunch of manga all afternoon. Took some E later on. Spent the whole time playing Killzone 3 because the graphics kept mesmerizing me, but stopped after I got thinking about violence and war, then had a long conversation about morals and human sentiment with someone. Watched FLCL some afterwards because sleep is nothing but a notion now.

Woke up.
Played on the computer.
Went to the bank.
Came home.
Downloaded a few albums, listened to Happy End's "Kazemachi Roman" for the billionth time.
Sat around some more.
Wanted to finish K-On! but lacked motivation to do even that.
Going to bed right now.

Found myself in a four car pile up today. Managed to walk away without serious injuries, however I ache all over now. Both the front and back ends of my van are smashed up. Back window was shattered, radiator fluid was leaking profusely from the front, engine wouldn't start. It's probably totaled.

Managed to get a ride to the hospital after dealing with the police and the tow company to get checked out. Got some prescriptions for painkillers and muscle relaxers. Hopefully it'll help, but eh.

Got home, made some rice, and played FTL. Beat the boss, highlight of my day I guess.

>>18189
Glad you are okay friend.

Bought a gift wrapper and a gift bow and used them for obvious purposes. Shopping at the statnioner's was rather stressful (I'm a NEET and I leave my home <10 times a year) so I can't say I'm satisfied with the gift wrapper I ended up buying. Should've bought a red gift bow, too. But what's done is done, I think I did a good job with the packaging at very least. If I had a camera I'd take a photo but, well, I don't have one. I guess I could take one with my laptop's built-in camera later but the quality will be terrible.

Turned on my somewhat broken (won't charge without serious contortions) laptop for the first time in six+ months. Dust came out of the fan outlet.

>>18193
What did you buy?

Bought a Sansa Clip Zip and a bunch of tea. Later while I was at Walmart there was some guy screaming in the clothes section. I didn't see what he was doing but a few minutes later he was pinned down by the police and I managed to see him as they took him out. His face was all bloody and there was blood everywhere on the floor too. The blood was there before they pinned him down too. I wonder what he was doing. Seemed like a nice guy.

went out for coffee when the sun came up because i ran out of tea. spent most of the afternoon doing some preparations for a nice dinner i felt like making. tried to take it easy when that was done, but began to hallucinate real bad. to ignore it i played jrpgs and read a book until it subsided. got around to finally cooking and then finally settling down and had a fun talk about intentionality with someone. now researching some uses for these 'PICAXE' microcontrollers a person from IRC mailed me. they're so tiny and use BASIC as their main language so i can't wait to make something

Today was...really good, haha.

Like every other day, it could be better. But it was alright, and I'm not complaining.

I tried playing Tribes Ascend. I'm shit at it.

I added a blog to my site today. This is going to be one hell of a time getting the blog's style to match the rest of the site.

I tried doing some pushups today to counter the boredom but I couldn't even finish one set, I got dizzy as hell and my head started to hurt. I workout regularly and this never happened before

shitsux

today i played some chess against a stranger, bought a nice black tea grown in kenya, looked around for a long distance moving company, did some shopping, read some william Haruhiwin, rebuilt some corrupted DB tables, then slacked off. really productive sunday i guess, but the DST change threw me off.

>>18227

it's only shit if you're a shit programmer

Today was my birthday. I sat in bed all day feeling sad, then ate some cake. Currently trying to get drunk on champagne, and I guess I'll try to catch up on some anime later tonight.

>>18232
Happy Birthday.

>>18232

Happy Birthday!

Did some DXM (I'd guess a high first plat). Thought about my waifu. Decided it was really messed up that I'd really...kind of change to be the inversion of what she'd what, rather than be the best person I could be. So I let go of her. I basically let the ghost in my head free from the prison that she was trapped in, and it felt really kind of liberating. Not the absence of a waifu, but the idea of not having to feel guilty for my lifestyle/choices. Wanting to change for your self is much healthier, and even funner, than wanting to change for someone else - Real or fake.

I also watched anime for the first time in...a long time. Too long, I'd say. Caught up on K, Shinsekai and Kyosogiga. I thought I'd be disappointed by the 9-minute episodes of Kyosogiga, but it's not that bad. The series is perfect, other than the short episodes, I'd say. K is still entertaining, and Shinsekai is still "kind-of-sad-Miyazaki-esque". I saved Jojo for last, and I'm going to watch that before I turn in, because it might make my dreams awesome and manly.

Looked for a job. Actually not really. Although I decided to actively *gasp* get out of the house and search during the week, that is. Which is good, I think. I honestly don't believe that internet applications are the way to go about finding one. I could use it to find which places are hiring, and then go from there, but I'm definitely not getting hired based on a Haruhi damn online application, haha. If for no other reason, then specifically because of my status. That is, being a drop-out with no references and no prior work experience.

But still! I'm a little hopeful now. It might just be the euphoric drug that I'm coming down from (and as a surprisingly high portion of this site knows, DXM even feels good on the downside), or the fact that life is a little brighter lately. I don't know. I'm also way chattier than I have been lately, haha.

>>18232
Take another happy birthday from me~

>>18232
Happy birthday!

As expected, the quality is plain shit. Oh well.

>>18200

A CD. I used to buy a book every year but that's kinda boring, so this year I decided to go with CD. Today's the day~

>>18232
Happy belated birthday!

>>18245
I'm sorry that you and your waifu broke up.

Went to work. Came home. Now for a bit of DOTA2 after my lunch is done.

wandered around in the cold listening to iggy pop and sun ra and ornette coleman, then came home and drank a bottle of wine. i'm feeling quite well today.

>>18259
I was also went for a cold walk today. I like the numbness it brings me. Today I felt that weird "so bored that it's painful and time feels like it's moving slower than normal" feeling. I hate when time feels like it moving slower because you just can't get your head out of the future even though it's just as empty as the day your currently going through. You also have no desire to buy anything but drugs and food because they're they some of the only things that brighten up your life anymore.

Besides that today I tried some new instant Asian noodles I got from Target. They were these kimchi noodles and they were surprisingly good. I'm going to pick up some more. During the week almost all I eat is instant Asian noodles in all their thousands of varieties and brands, they are a life saver. Thank you cheap Asian noodles.

Power blacked out for a bit today, after going off for like an hour yesterday. One of these days it's gonna do it while windows is updating or something and I'm gonna cry

I played Tetris for the first time in a long while. I almost want to write my own little clone of it, like I should've done years ago instead of wasting my programming skill on useless little scripts.

Today I watched Steins;Gate and played Touhoumon. A lot. I think I got to episode 7. Touhoumon is hard, though. I'm playing the "Insane" version, so grinding is a necessity. I just wish the emulator I had had better fast-forward capabilities. I started with Marisa.

I'm trying to cut back on my internet time, but it keeps calling me back, luring me in with some kind of siren's song.

>No matter where you are, everybody is connected.

Also thinking about revisiting SEL. But I dunno. I always end up bored of it.

I'm trying to reset my sleep schedule by staying up for a long time. I've been awake for only 15 hours and I feel like I'm going to fall asleep at my desk soon.

>>18268
It's great.

>>18271
Make sure you don't mess up again.

Ive had tinnitis in my right ear the past two days. I keep hearing this low volume low-pitched rumble in my right ear, it randomly hums in and out all the time. Any ideas?

>>18274
It's your waifu trying to talk to you from another dimension.

>>18274
I don't think there is anything you can do but wait till it gets better on its own. Sometimes I'll get this high pitched, annoying ringing in my ear that feels like a there is a wall between my ears and the outside. It comes and goes randomly for very short amounts time, not enough for me to care.

Broke my computer.

I'm writing this from my PS3 (my TV is really bad). The keyboard is really hard to get used to. I keep deleting what I wrote because of the Shift+Backspace shortcut.

Anyway. Ubuntu won't load. It just goes to the GNU Grub screen, and I can't get into Windows to do a chkdsk/re-install, because...I deleted it. Which was stupid. And...yeah. It sucks. I might need a new PC, because I can't even use the CD that I burned.

Bummer.

>>18279

Try booting from a USB maybe?

I voted. It's fun pretending to be an engaged, responsible citizen once every couple of years. Now back to my cocoon.

>>18283

Me too. Got to see the inside of my old elementary school again, it still looks like shit

>>18281
My computer is so old is has a floppy disk drive. So, it doesn't support USB booting. I think I'm going to try PLoP tomorrow, but I believe you need two PC's or something for that, or at least a computer with an OS on it (formatted all of my partitions, now there's nothing on it - No Ubuntu, no Windows, no nothing).

I dunno. I'd just be better off buying a new computer.

>>18287
my old computer still had a floppy drive. It was made in 04 and I needed the floppy right away to get the thing to work. Had to put a current BIOS onto the thing to make it boot. Later, when I bought a SATA hard drive, I needed it again to load the driver for Windows XP to even install.
That computer just bit the dust. I did overclock the fuck out if for years so no big deal. My brother wasn't too happy as I unloaded the thing on him two years ago.

>>18287
Unless buying a new computer is really easy for you, you can still burn a CD of whatever you want on another computer (even at an internet cafe).

Noscript seems to be broken. This is dildos.

>>18290
You is teh dildos.

Woke up around 3:30 PM to snow. Which was really nice. It made me feel good, but also a little worried (I have, er...pretty important plans this weekend, and awesomely enough, those same plans are going to be for every weekend for the next 3 weeks). Today was kind of shitty because I meant to get a lot done, but it's no big deal, because there's always tomorrow. I wanted to try applying to a bunch of shitty places - McDonalds, Dunkin Donuts, Wendy's, Target, Petco, and signing up for the GED test.

I ended up sitting on my back porch (freezing), smoking and listening to this song on loop for around 10 minutes. It was nice. Made me feel deep nostalgia.

Other than that, it was the same as last time. Touhoumon Insane and Steins;Gate.

My step-dad asked me what I'd like for my birthday (which is on the 26th). Couldn't come up with anything, so my mom spoke for me ("Clothes" she said). What a bitch. I want a laptop or at least a shitty little netbook. Maybe I should ask later...I don't want clothes at all.

bought a 32gb SDcard for my cellphone, no more puny 2gb for me, now I can finally cram it full of touhou arranges and bad hardcore music like I always wanted

Nothing really worth noting happened today, the whole day just went by surprisingly fast. I had some nice green tea and replied to some emails from the few people I keep in contact with, which took a while since I kept rereading them to make sure I didn't say anything stupid or worse. It's still early so I'll watch the latest 2 episodes of Chuunibyou, maybe start Girls und Panzer, and go to bed. Or stay up until 3 or 4 daydreaming and reading/researching, if I'm not sleepy.

Tonight I had a bunch of extra money on my Amazon account with nothing I really wanted. So now since all I ever want to buy from there is the occasional new pair of headphones, pack of energy drinks, and something else I'm just gonna buy a bunch of candy I can't easily get where I live and maybe other interestings foods too. I ended up getting a 4 pack of milk pocky, my favorite flavor I haven't had in so long since it isn't available around here anymore. Next up I saw green tea kit kats, which should probably be a mouthgasm also. After that I don't know, I'll just be searching around for tasty stuff. I'm actually excited over something for once, even if it just a bunch of stupid candy.

I worked then worked some more until I finally got caught up with everything. Relaxed for the rest of the evening in a big comfortable bed with a book and some animes.

Thinking about trading in some PS2 games to Gamestop, for money for...various fun substances.

But they only give store credit, right? And even then it's like, $0.50 per game.

Edit:
I also hooked up my old PC (this one has a broken fan) and put a lot of old music on my MP3 Player - Capsule, 88KasyoJunrei, The Cabs and Weezer. I have these bitching-groovy headphones now, and I really liked revisiting old tunes with the awesome sound of some quality equipment. Also thinking of trying to fix the fan on it (we have a bunch of old computers, surely one works), but that'd just be a pain in the ass and then some, I think.

Post edited on 8th Nov 2012, 6:32pm

>>18316
Putting them up on ebay would probably get you more money

I recently had two interviews. The most I've had so far. They could smell my autism a mile away. No responses. I want to die. Even if I get a job, what does it fucking matter? I'm completely unlikable, everyone else is too. We're all disgusting fucks in a disgusting world living disgusting lives. And it can be no other way. There is no hope. Nature is, at its core, a violent clusterfuck of hate. I hate it. I hate everything.

>>18318
I hate everything, too.

I had an appointment with a social worker in order to fill applications for temporary disability pension, rehabilitation, and sickobucks. She was obese and had quite a bit of facial hair. Still, the forms got filled, and the verdict should pop in the mailbox in two months.

Today I felt various objects in my house. I think that the sense of touch is underestimated, probably because it's easy to forget about it.

Today was my birthday. 20 years down the drain.
I played some touhou, then went to a japanese restaurant with my parents, and spent the rest of the day listening to music and looking at pictures of my waifu, so it wasn't a bad day I guess

Post edited on 10th Nov 2012, 5:24am

>>18318
I was just thinking about that last night, I was high but here are my thoughts anyways for anyone that cares. Nature is not naturally love and light alone. In order for there to be love it must be born through chaos, pain, and hate. Conflict is natural. Hate and pain is the seed that lies at that core of all humans that may or may not grow into something nicer not purely filled with hate anymore. Have you ever noticed that many people who lived purely through the energy they got from their hate and natural conflict to power through their pain from resistance against the norm usually turn out to be a little nicer than the average person who was normal from the start of life and had little conflict and pain directed towards them with no real reason to hate anything but whatever they grew up being taught to hate and reject never questioning anything about the world around them and living in shame for everything about themselves they've been conditioned to reject that is naturally there they won't embrace? Some of the others grew up to accept and find something beautiful in much more as well as stayed more true their selves. Many of them are also more capable of love without outside restriction, there is no care about outside influences between them and the love they have, it's pure no matter how hateful and twisted they may be all around their heart. They've grown into something better through negativity but don't forget those roots will always be there and everything always flows back to the source. All begins in hate and pain and all will end in the same for them, much more harsh but they got so much more out of life with it. It all makes sense now to me. We are the children of nature at it's purest.

18 times. 18 times I was forced to leave my room today. Anon can you do the dishes please. Anon can you take out the trash. Anon, can you go check the pipes, I'm trying to take a shower and the water is too cold. Anon please get the phone, I'm reading a book. I complied every single time, even when some of these were less than 5 minutes apart.

Well the joke's on you, sister. I unplugged her ethernet cable when she wasn't watching and now she can't browse the shitbook. She actually called a technician to check out her computer and see if there's anything wrong with it.

>>18329
That's pretty pathetic.

Washed my dishes, did laundry, and took out trash. Earlier this evening, I saw my dad and he bought me dinner. Now I'm watching Gamer Grumps.

A friend I made on /tc/ is high on drugs tonight. He's been calling me and talking really strangely and saying all kinds of goofy things on the IRC.

Why do people need to mention drugs every chance that they get? It's so fucking annoying and I hate them for thinking that it deserves a mention.

I wanted to ask a person to help me with something but I was too scared and too shy to ask. I hate myself. It wasn't even anything serious, but I couldn't bring myself to open my mouth despite knowing exactly what I wanted to say and having said it a million times in my head.

Other than that, I just drank lots of tea and listened to music. Wanted to watch some anime but now it's too late for me to focus on anything so I'll just lie in bed and daydream until I fall asleep and drea m properly.

Smoked old, shitty cigarettes. Had a nice dinner. Watched Steins;Gate some more (I'm at the groundhog day part; and it's really quite depressing). Regretted the past. Felt hope for the future.

Played Parasite Eve 2. I got quite far. I'm on the way to fight Tlalaos or whatever the fuck it's called. Bigmouth (or whatever the fuck it's called...) was really annoying. I ended up taking the lazy route and crushing the big bitch in the trash compactor. I really like these games. They've aged well, I think. And The 3rd Birthday wasn't bad at all. They're all challenging in their own way, and I like the notion of survival-horror games being hard (although 3rd Birthday can hardly be called survival-horror), instead of taking the post-PSx RE route and making sure you can win. It's a pain in the ass hunting enemies for BP, though.

Now I'm off to fap and watch Steins;Gate and fall asleep way too late. Might play Touhoumon Insane for a while, but that game is fucking silly. I'm still in Death Forest!

I finished replaying Yoshi's Island. I was going to try to 100% it, but the music is getting too annoying.

I thought about fear and how it relates to me. The thrill seeker in me wants to believe in the chance that I may be transported to an alternate plane where I am hunted down by vicious and horrific beings, and if they achieve that goal, I will be faced with a most gruesome death. The real, apathetic me isn't even scared of the most scariest jump screams, creepy pasta, or horror games. I just want to feel alive, and today taught me that only experiencing true horror can actually pump adrenaline in my veins. Perhaps one day I will be hunted down by a paranormal being, one thing is for sure though, I would probably have the funnest time of my life.

>>18339
>pump adrenaline in my veins

It's possible to force your body to do so without external assistance, but I don't think that it'd be okay for a novice to use it so much. It can really destroy you from the inside.

>>18333
I thought about what you asked this morning and came to the realization that if people mention drugs in the daily report thread, it's likely because someone used them today.

Well I spent the day at the doctor where she hypnotized me or something for my dissociative identity disorder. Both her and I got to learn a lot about my other identities...speaking "directly" to them...in a vague way (before all I could do was write to them in journals, and hope they write back). I learned a lot I didn't want to know but I think it will be beneficial. Some of it is awful, some of it is good. All of it was uncomfortable to hear; to imagine I'm doing things without any recollection is beyond stressful.

After I went home then tidied up the house and did more chores. I read some essays by a historian by the name of Michael Stürmer for a bit. After I took my medications, then watched Roboticks;Notes, JoJo, and Psycho-Pass - the latter of which is actually turning out to be really good. I don't really remember the rest of the evening after that - I imagine I "switched" and wasn't myself. Comfortably woke up in bed hugging a laptop for warmth.

I woke up very late, then slept for a few more hours. I went to the supermarket and then talked to an imaginary therapist for about an hour in the shower. I can't wait to be tired enough to sleep again.

I woke up, masturbated, ate, watched a bunch of an old comedian's sketches, then messed around a bit with some terminal programs, which are really fun. Now I'll watch some anime and maybe keep reading Candide later. Fun book.

>>18352
Any thoughts on Candide? I find it a bit overrated. For philosophical literature, it's neither very philosophical or literary.

>>18355
I liked it and I thought it was a fun satire, not philosophical literature.

>>18348
That's interesting, how do they do that? I wish I could somehow learn about my different identities and separately experience them by force. From analyzing my life and myself enough I have a good idea of what all of them are like. I believe I have 3 but there may be more. They all serve different purposes.

>>18356
This. It is definitely not philosophical literature, and I have no idea how you came to think that.

>>18355

Candide itself isn't that philosophical. It was a pure literary work, only touching on Leibniz's system of theodicy and optimism to draw parallels between how Candide and Pangloss view the world.

It's funny in an absurd way.

>>18357

It was odd. When I was supposedly hypnotized, she was able to talk to the alters and learn a bit about them. One was open enough to talk, and we learned she's been around for a while (having memories of things that happened years ago). I was able to learn her age and some interests, but that's about it. The others were a bit vague and unresponsive but she hopes we can learn more the next time she sees me.

People keep saying saying "it's rubbish, DID isn't real, hypnosis is bullshit" - all I can say to that is then just what fuck do you consider it? Something is certainly wrong when you have multiple identities who, to an extent, go lead multiple lives. The proof is there. Though I guess listening to ramblings on the internet isn't really to be taken seriously anyway. However, I've at least met some nice people who have actual experience with it, and it's really helpful to learn how they are or were able to deal with it. It gives me some hope. Whatever it is...I'd love it if stopped.

Can't remember much of my day, besides sitting around the flat watching anime, reading, playing some chess against someone, having some nice talks with people on IRC and other mundane tasks. Cooked a nice fresh salmon and wild rice dinner that was delectable. I felt a bit sick after taking meds, then went to try and nap. But instead I must have switched identities and gone out as I found myself riding home on public transit around midnight...without any idea as to how or why. Oddly, I had a few PS3 games with me, so I guess I just went out to shop.

Beat Parasite Eve 2. Got the bad ending. Meh.

Now I'm listening to Foals, smoking and waiting for 2:00 to roll around, so I can go meet a friend. I'm really really hungry.

Today was a waste of time, mostly. I was supposed to go play go downtown, but the subway stopped a few stops before mine since they had to repair something. I was going to try and catch a streetcar, but the whole street was closed because they were filming some movie. They said it would take a while, and since I was already late, I just got on the subway again and came back. I wasted $10, 2 bus tickets and 5 hours for nothing. Well, almost nothing, I managed to go buy something I had been meaning to buy for a while at least. Unlucky day though.

Finally watched the Strike Witches movie. It was wonderful to see the 501st again.

Bad day. Don't know what I'm going to do. Bored. Hungry. Not tired enough to sleep. Can't talk to anyone...Can't really do anything.

It sucks, guys.

I saw on some other site that CBS did an article about Hatsune Miku. They called her the world's fakest pop star. Lots of rage is in all of the comments.

>>18375
Yeah, I heard too. The entire article wasn't really as bad as tabloid sites make it sound, overemphasizing that one indeed terribly poor initial comparison:

http://www.cbsnews.com/8301-205_162-57547707/hatsune-miku-the-worlds-fakest-pop-star/

In any case, such reading was only to be expected from NORP journalists who also may have close to none musical education: they have no idea of what they're adressing, neither any proper parameter to judge vocaloid as anything but a threat to the petty standards they may wield...

But the entire affair is ludicrous, really; like if any 3DPD pop singer could perform at Miku's range and speed in real time (let alone matching her beauty), or interpret Offenbach or Schoenberg like she fairly does.

Post edited on 12th Nov 2012, 4:25am

>>18376
But Miku is a synthetic instrument, not a sentient being. By that line of logic, you could say that a violin interpreted Sibelius, which is not only ludicrous but also devalues the person using the non-sentient, thoroughly dead tool.

>>18377
Possible answer 1:
Just like dancers to choreographers, performers are (good or bad) functional tools for composers, indeed. Calling the orchestra a composer's palette is quite a common place. Nureyev himself was even compared with a Stradivarius once, for how the music effortlessly "flowed" through him.

Possible answer 2:
In a similar way than anime characters are not the acrylic paint over acetates that provide the substratum, the vocaloid program is a synthetic instrument indeed but not Miku. She is a virtual character which the fandom thoughts and feelings embody as a performer: she is treated as a sentient being because people choose to, by the means of an aesthetical experience (so there's no abuse or contradiction in my talking about her that way), and that precisely is the revolutionary appeal of vocaloid as it is now and which separates it from mere musical instruments or spelling machines. It might be a novel step not just in terms of musical affairs (close to Pierre Boulez's efforts at the IRCAM to get computers acknowledged as performers), but also in how we deal with feelings and interpersonal relantionships.

Post edited on 12th Nov 2012, 5:36am

Got drunk and listened to an 88KasyoJunrei song on loop for the better part of the hour. Still bored as I've been for the past few days, though.

This was quite hard to type, hahaa.

I caught the flu or something it's awful since it's so boring laying around.

I actually got the motivation to shave myself today, my whole body. I feel a lot more free and in a better mood tonight as enjoying things is easier without feeling like a hairy animal somehow. Amazing how just doing one simple thing to myself can change my mood so much. Might get back to stretching and watching anime at night soon. Even if I have to force myself to, I'll feel better about myself in the end.

Last night I went to bed at 3 and fapped. I woke up at 7 and fappped. Then I woke up at 9 and fapped again. Finally, I woke up at 2 and fapped once more. There were no other highlights during the rest of my day.

>>18426
I did the same, except without all the masturbating. So, not the same at all I guess

Woke up, skipped some terribly boring classes since nearly everyone in them is away celebrating diwali anyway, listened to music to block out my family arguing, started thinking about things once it got silent, regretted thinking, got a really bad headache, and now I'm going to look for some Tylenol.

Post edited on 13th Nov 2012, 9:07pm

Today was good. Although I woke up at 4.

Smoked some more of those really old cigarettes. I hate them. Fapped to some Umemaro. Now I'm listening to Hum and getting ready for bed. But I'm not going to sleep until like...4 or 6.

Even though I have to wake up early in the morning to get anything done, I just...don't. It's such a shitty feeling.

/ot/ really has become my personal blog. I'm sorry I can't contribute anything else to this board.

>>18428
As a sort of worthless and unasked for update, I found some Tylenol, the headache is gone now, I made some green tea, found a bunch of nice websites and bookmarked them all, and read some articles and essays. It's nice to feel at least a little bit productive.

>>18429
That's not sorry enough!

Went to class. I worked hard for an essay I thought was due today, but was really due Thursday. At least I don't have to worry about that anymore. Then I was invited to celebrate my big brother's birthday. I ate alot which I regret because I am slowly becoming fatter than I want to be.

Now I just watched Hidamari Sketch Honeycomb 6 and I'm crying my guts out. I'm sad. I really wish I was in a peaceful 2D environment where I was resided in the Hidamari Apartment with my inseparable friends. I'm contemplating on whether or not to ponder about the future of Hourou Musuko. I've pretty much attached myself to that manga and reading through it feels like I'm actually progressing in life along with those kids. Seeing them grow makes me kind of sad.

I found a grey hair in my beard earlier, shining like a diamond in the rough. I'm nowhere near old enough for this

>>18436
I had white hairs in my head since I was 13 years old

>>18435
I just finished the first season of Hidamari yesterday, as soon as the final ED rolled I started smiling in a way I didn't since I was a kid. But then it ended, and I felt kinda empty. At least I still have a lot of Hidamari to through.

I shaved my head and my crotch. The chrome dome truly is the most NEET hairstyle known to man.

>>18450
I'm getting my hair cut tomorrow, not totally bald but just above it like usual. I don't even know what it's like to have anything beyond very short hair, always the way it's been for me.

>>18449
I haven't watched any anime in a long time because of an endless waterfall of depression and fuck ups in my life that lasted all the up to now. I started watching Yuru Yuri last night, I also haven't smiled like that in a long time, it was like I was in another world. And then I remembered why I loved anime so much.

I have a job interview for...Wendy's. Friday, at 1:00. Really nervous about it. I don't even think I'm going to be able to wake up for it, haha. My mom was really lenient about it. She said I could go if I ]want.

And I do want to. Really badly. I need money for a new computer and money for illicit substances and money for...most things that I want. So I'm going to at least try. That doesn't mean it's not going to be really awkward and weird for me, but still. Fuck it, man. A job is a job. It'll get me money, and that's all I need.

I finally installed a doorknob with a lock on my door.

>>18458
My brother worked at Wendy's and said it was awful. He quit after a week. Apparently hygiene or teaching newcomers aren't quite their thing.
Good luck.

>>18473
Really? I'm a non-american and one of my dirtiest dreams was to eat at Wendy's because they have those square burgers and all. Bummer, they don't make fast foods like they used to anymore.

>>18458
I hope you get a better job, I really do. I hope you are rejected from there and you get a better job somewhere else. Don't be afraid of getting yourself out there.

Fast food is the worst for recovering NEETs. I worked at Dunkin Donuts for three weeks. My managers were a pregnant latina and a registered sex offender flip. I was told what hours I was going to be working the day before I was slated to work, nobody taught me how to use the fucking bumblefuck UI on the tap pad cash register, but they spent a fucking hour teaching me how to clean a bathroom (what?).

Half of the hours I logged were times I explicitly said I was not available. I asked for time off, they said they got the note and they would give it to me, but they didn't.

Oh! And they never told me where to get my paycheck the first time. They just fucking made me sign a paper (which apparently meant I already got the check), and told me they would give it to me later. Fucking... fuck. They literally tried to swindle me out of my paycheck and never gave me breaks until I told them my mother works HR and I could file a lawsuit with them, citing several laws they were breaking.

They didn't even know I quit until a week later, when I got an angry call and I told them I quit a week ago.

The place had dead flies wherever the customers didn't see. It was fucking awful.

>>18466
and just now I used my old doorknob to replace another doorknob that's been broken for as long as I can remember. I'm doing things!

My mom got my hobbysearch package while I wasn't home and opened it. I want to blow my fucking brains out

>>18483
isn't that illegal?
lol, no one actually cares

>>18483
What was in it?

>>18485
a certain lesbian teleporter in a swimsuit.

My mother went ballistic when she saw it and started screaming

>>18486
How do you know if she did that if you weren't home?

>>18487
my sister told me what happened when I got home. Both of them were very angry at me.

>>18488
What fucking right do they have? Tell them it's your money and you property. As if they don't have secrets.

Also remind your mother you can get her on felony charges for opening a package not addressed to her. Very illegal. Basically the only line my family will never cross with me.

>>18491
pretty sure not a single court on earth would care about someones mom opening their mail, even if it is technically illegal

>>18492
Not technically illegal. It is entirely illegal and a federal offense. At the minimum it would be a few days in jail.

Anon, you can't let people walk all over you like that, especially when they are the ones fully in the wrong. I can't think of a single way your mother would be justified in what she did. at least tell her what she did was extremely illegal, and that nothing you did was anywhere being close to illegal.

Do you at least have the item in question in your possession now? What did they say to you? I'm sorry but this really, really posses me off that you would be treated like this.

>>18493
>It is entirely illegal and a federal offense

they still aren't gonna care

>>18494
Beg to differ.

When you tell the authorities about a felony, they are required to take action and take them into custody. Whether anon presses charges or not is a different story, perhaps you have a point there, but getting her accosted by the police will be a step in the "I have rights, and don't fuck with me of you do something illegal to me" direction.

Nobody should EVER let someone do something illegal to them and let them get away with it just because they think it might be "futile".

>>18495
Dude, it's not gonna happen. Not a single link in the chain to jail is going to care enough that a mother opened her live-in son's mail to punish her for it.

>>18496
Did you even read what I wro-

You know? Fuck it. You win. Anon should just kill himself. Whatever. Fuck him, fuck me for even attempting to defend him, fuck all of us for being some sort of onanist sinning commandment-infracting pedophiles. Let his mother be the Haruhi of her household, just fuck it all. Nobody needs rights. Anon should kill himself right the fuck now. We should all just fucking die, we're just cumbersome to the good of society. Just kill the NEETs and otaku and bomb Japan to oblivion, everything would be so much fuckIng better.

>>18497
are you just now finding out the world is bullshit or something, you seem to be taking this pretty hard

>>18495
>Nobody should EVER let someone do something illegal to them and let them get away with it just because they think it might be "futile".
I agree with you. Always if someone does something illegal to you and it causes harm for you, you should do something about it.

e: Okay maybe in some cases it isn't worth of it. Like your old rusty bike gets stolen and person who did it, is unknown, it is very unlikely that they will find the thief and loss isn't very major. But in most cases, yes.

Post edited on 15th Nov 2012, 11:38am

>>18497
The repercussions of retaliation against people under the same roof probably aren't worth the nonexistent to minimal payoff.

My dad's friend's sister died and I might have to go to the funeral. I also gotta go to a talent show, whatever we do for thanksgiving, and whatever we do for my mom's birthday, so I'm gonna have a busy rest of the month!

please ban the retarded trolls picking on shinden, they contribute nothing to the site

>>18503
no

>>18504
I knew it

Damn it, I don't want to get into this...

>>18500
This. Before trying to start something look at the people who you are trying to do the things to and think of the negatives that will come from it. If there is no gain, then it is nothing more than a waste of time, and if there is a loss, then it's better to avoid the situation that can cause the loss as much as possible.

This morning I went to my doctors. I arrived way too early so I had an interesting conversation about Christianity with someone in the waiting room. After that I went home and worked on packing things up for a move until a real bad headache stopped me from doing anything more. It still hasn't gone away.

Okay back on topic now.

I washed the floor and played some Age of Empires II. Haruhi damn I never knew it was so hard to control units. Can't even beat the AI on moderate. If anyone wants to play then hit me up in this thread.

>>18508
I used to play this game a lot. I don't have it anymore though.

I liked to mess with the map editor and put hundreds of units from different factions near each other and watch the massacre that ensued.

I registered for my classes for next semester. This time of the year I'm always very nervous and anxious. Does anyone know of any non-harmful and little to no effort ways to relieve stress fast? I'm very close to starting up smoking again and I don't want to do that. I just want to relax..

I found out that I can listen to the police dispatch radio online. I can't understand their codes and stuff but it's still kinda interesting

>>18512
Maybe you should take up ham radio as a hobby

>>18514
Is there a site or something that lets you tune in to ham radio stations? That would be cool

http://www.globaltuners.com/

You have to reg for an account there, but there are software-defined radios that allow you to listen to shortwave and ham stations from across the world, at different receiving locations, if you can figure out the interface.

Most ham stations are just people talking to each other and "working" (getting additional stations for various achievement lists) each other. If you had a shortwave radio yourself you could hear them yourself; shortwave radios go for as low as $20 and as high as several thousand dollars.

>>18493
She gave it back after lecturing me. She says buying figures is a waste of money, and she doesn't trust me, so I'm sure she thinks I'm addicted and can't control myself.

She is partially right. Figs ARE a waste a money. They're just decoration. I can't really explain why I buy them, I'm just a big fan of the franchise. But, I'm an adult and I'm not going to spend all my money on it, there isn't that much merchandise from the series out there anyway. I just wish she could respect my decision and put some more trust in me but I guess that's a bit too much too ask considering I'm buying what are basically children's toys online

>>18531
100% of what women buy at Pier 1 Imports are a waste of money. Glass vases, plastic fruit, baskets, hunks of coloured glass? These are all just frivolous.

Also shoes. How many shoes do people really need? Three pair, two if you live in a city.

Figs make you happy. Continue to collect them. Not enough people here do it.

I had a lot of shitty realizations today.

a. my "real" friends fucking suck.
b. I expect the world to revolve around me.
c. I used to eat to get the cigarette taste out of my mouth, now I smoke to get the taste of food out of my mouth.
d. life is silly, sad and stupid.
e. I have a desperate urge to stay connected to the internet because it's where I get the majority of my socializing done. My identity is all...here. Not where it belongs, because I'm a selfish, pathetic...child.

I'm depressed today.

I had a lucid dream this morning. I've never had one before and I wasn't trying, so it was a great surprise. My awakening into lucidity went as so:

Sitting in the back of a limo with a man and a woman. The man begins to threaten me and at that precise moment I somehow realise that not only am I dreaming but I have complete control over everything. The woman pulls out a shotgun and makes ready to fire, but I reach out and bend the barrel back to face her, announcing "I am immortal", and making the gun fire, blasting her back against the seat. As I say that, a certain song begins playing in the background, so the entire thing plays out to Queen's "Princes of the Universe." I then float away through the roof of the car and spend the rest of the dream having the single greatest experience of my life.

Now, I want to do nothing but sleep. Well, actually I suppose nothing's changed there. It was also my birthday yesterday, so I consider the dream a late birthday present from my subconscious.

It's getting pretty cold in my house as temperatures really drop now. Soon I'm going to ask my father to remove the air conditioner from the window in my room since it is now like having a partially open window with cold air blowing in all day and night. I never use it much, even when it comes to Summer time. I've kinda gotten use to how cold my room is but it's really making it hard for me to feel even slightly comfortable and I'm a hyperactive insomniac as it is so I'm very sensitive to cold. But you know what? I think it is my hyperactivity that is keeping me slightly comfortable, always feel the need to be moving my body. Sometimes when I'm feeling any kind of extreme stimulus it's like I want to leave my body. Music in a sober state will also sometimes cause me to lose my mind, it's like my body is moving on it's own in a musical seizure that would only be acceptable at a speedcore party where the audience is mostly just as insane as it is. I've also started hallucinating more lately too, I'm getting worse mentally starting to lose more control but somehow letting go of even more of my humanity feels better. I think this is would be the definition of comfortably numb if it weren't for the constant pain cold causes me. Not yet a senseless animal but not completely human either.

>>18542
I had a lucid dream too. All I remember is a cousin of mine playing some really weird version of Minecraft I never seen before. Then I was sitting in a place with grandfather as he got mad at me for getting mad at him and he said he would rip my cat's teeth out. This made me very angry, upset, and afraid. (I definitely have some deep seated hate for my grandfather in the back of mind because there has been a lot of conflict between us in dreams lately) Then it shifted to the outside where someone was throwing a computer into the ocean for some reason. Then I was on a ferris wheel with the all main characters of Higurashi No Naku Koro Ni and I don't know why, I haven't even thought about that anime in forever. There was an air of worry as it started then it started going faster and faster. We all died in some very horrible way and then I woke up.

I had to eat at McDonald's due to lack of options. My breakfast had consisted of nothing but tea, so I was starving. I ordered a large big Mac meal. Apparently "large" nowadays means 3 times as big as medium. The whole thing was enough for 2 or 3 people. Does anyone really eat all that on their own? I ended up throwing half of it out.

>>18547
yes they do. That, and more. It's sickening.

especially when their body size is five times that of a normal person.

On my way down the stairs, I suddenly saw something floating in front of me. It turned out to be a little spider hanging from a web. I would have walked into it had I continued or not turned on the light at the bottom earlier. I got rid of it by throwing a scrunched up piece of paper, which is still sitting on the floor, as I'm too scared to pick up anything spider-ridden. I'm all itchy now after thinking of how many spiders I've unknowingly walked into.

>>18552

We've recently moved into a new house, and while I'm happy because my new room has a lock on the door and it's a lot bigger, it's also a lot colder. And there is a vent in the wall, that I don't think we're supposed to cover. Spiders keep coming out of it. Every day or so there'll be a new, large spider somewhere in my room, sometimes I'll catch them in the act of sneaking through the vent.

Ugh. I imagine in a few months I'll have completely got over my aversion to spiders because of this, but it's still unpleasant.

>>18553

You can't put a grille on it?

>>18553
>there is a vent in the wall, that I don't think we're supposed to cover
why not and who's stopping you?

>>18555

I was told this but I've forgotten.

>>18556
A grille should be totally fine

>>18532
>Also shoes. How many shoes do people really need?
Obviously one for every outfit.
I've got like a hundred pairs and it'll never be enough.

>>18559
women do not belong here

>>18562
I'm pretty sure that person is making a joke.

>>18562
I agree

>>18565
You'd think so...

socks > bare feet > shoes

Today I was supposed to take a plane somewhere to take care of a few things. Had a huge anxiety attack and more, so I backed out. Kind of disappointed and ended up wasting a good 200~ dollars, but it can't be helped - and my presence wasn't entirely required, anyway.

>>18569
That's a bummer. I've never been on a plane, but they look so cramped and close on TV that I dunno if I could ever do it without family as a buffer between me and the strangers

I called someone at my college to inquire about course repetition. Turns out I have to do some really weird and complicated procedure like changing my course grade to... retake.. the class.. Which I don't understand at all. Anyway, I played Dark Souls: PTD for around 5 hours and then played Jet Set Radio for the remainder of the day.

>>18568
I personally prefer slippers over all of those choices.

>>18570
I have been on a couple of 737's. They are cramped. If you have to, pay extra to not sit bitch. The middle seat is the worst. The window seat is cool as you get a view, and the aisle seat is convenient if you gotta hit the tiny little bathroom.

I lucked out so much the last flight I was on. I was assigned a middle seat, but no one showed up for the window seat. Took that seat and got lots of room because of it.

As far as motion and whatnot, it is actually smoother than riding a bus.

I don't even know where my life is going anymore.

>>18581
Neither do i

>>18581
>>18582

I do, but I'm not tellin'

Guitar's little E snapped so I decided to change the whole set of strings(hadn't done so in some 8~10 months). Haruhi, I had forgotten how fucking annoying changing strings is.
And now it feels like a completely different instrument.

I've been feeling really strange today - zoning out a lot, staring at nothing and noticing strange things in my vision. I just stayed in bed trying to read an essay, but I kept getting distracted and having to reread certain parts so I gave up after 4 pages. I think I'll watch a movie tonight. Lazy day.

Today was as bad as every other day...I'm in a funk and I can't seem to get myself out of it. I'm sick of seeing my days stretch endlessly into nothingness. I hate the lack of fulfillment in my life. I can't stand it anymore. It's just so boring and depressing and monotonous...

＼ワア─────イ！！！／

I'm gonna try to pick up some Twinkies at Wal-Mart. I'll keep them until they're worth something and build Tohnohouse with that money.

>>18588
Why do you not IRC any more?

>>18585
Lazy day. Lazy week. Hell, lazy decade.

>>18593
Well, my PC broke, and I don't have anymore that work in the house.
So until I get a new computer, I'm basically confined to Tohno-chan on my PSP and reading to occupy my time.

I didn't think anyone really cared or noticed. That kind of brightened my night.

>>18530

I started using this site and I have no idea what I'm doing

>>18594
Lazy life

>>18595
You should build one.

>>18508
I would like to play AoE2 with you if you are still interested. Though I am a bit busy for the beginning of the week.

Went downtown, played some go and lost but had a fun game, then wandered around a bit but it was cold so I caught the subway back. Very frustrating but somewhat enjoyable ride. I started feeling very sleepy as I returned so now I'm just wrapped in a blanket in bed relaxing. Going to make some nice green tea and watch anime later.

Ran a little bit, did some martial arts training, and made a huge omelet breakfast at 3 PM.
I've been doing absolutely nothing since then. I hate how at certain times of the day I get more apathetic than usual, and completely deny the notion of doing something interesting.
I just browsed 4chan and various other websites for several hours straight. It's not even fun. ;_;

I woke up early feeling great, even though I didn't sleep too long. Took it easy all day, mostly reading. I went through some sections of Being and Time (Heidegger) to explicate some ideas I had on Dasein that I wanted to share with someone who was just beginning with the work. Got distracted playing some MMO for an hour or two and managed to go up 2 levels and get a bunch of awesome armor. Unfortunately got dragged out to a restaurant when I was questing, so I lost interest and have been reading the rest of the evening.

>>18609
It's nice that people notice I'm gone. That never happened in "the real" or online.

Today I woke up to blurred vision. And now I'm listening to Unwound, and not doing much else.

>I don't feel strange
>I don't feel anything

Power keeps flickering, so it seems I am a NEET for the day.

My computer BSOD'd with Memory Management. It kept BSOD'ing so I got really nervous because I'm broke and I know I can't afford replacements. Anyway, I ran it in safe mode and got it to disk check somehow. It seems fine now but I'm really scared if that happens again, so I've been running multiple virus scans, although It just be hardware... I may need to reseat everything and blow away some dust or something.

>>18628
luckily memory problems are the easiest and cheapest hardware problem to fix

>>18628
Can't you check the memory through BIOS?

>>18629

Really? Tell me how so. I know almost nothing about computers. I built the one I'm using now, but only through advice did I actually get it to work.

>>18630
Well, that did cross my mind as I was trying to fix it, but I wouldn't know how to use that information to help fix the problem. Again, I'm really shitty with hardware. Like, I can probably troubleshoot anything software-related like viruses and shit, but actual hardware damage or machine failure, I'm clueless and scared.

>>18636
Well with memory these days you just gotta plug it in and it works usually, and it's cheap. The only issue that could happen is if you are an idiot and open up your computer and work on it on carpet while wearing a sweater or something

I had to go to a grade school talent show and it was awful. Most of the acts were girls singing/dancing horribly to songs that didn't have the vocals removed, so all you heard was an unholy mash of bad singing and professional bad singing, and the same songs kept coming up again and and a again. The other acts were typically stupid skits based on reality shows or other nonsense. Even though it was all awful, those kids had more courage than I ever had (or ever will) to go up on stage like that

A battery in my flashlight leaked. It still works since the leak didn't make it anywhere aside from covering the leaking battery and slightly touching the other.

Nothing else noteworthy or even slightly interesting happened to me today.

>>18639

I hope I'm not that stupid.

Anyway... today I had the usual school routine. The only thing different was that I wanted something really scary to happen. I don't know, after watching people play Siren and Amnesia, I would really like to know how I would react to a survival horror environment. Hopefully if I am ever pit into one, due to paranormal reasons, it doesn't involve complex puzzle solving and backtracking and shit like that. I also didn't eat for the whole day. Amazing.

I was sleeping peacefully, but it was not meant to be. A wake-up call manifested itself in the form of an extreme excrement from beyond the Rim, smearing a stain on the wall and soiling the sheets I just changed. Truly a monstrous shit not of this world, its rancidness mutilated the evening air with uncontrollably rancid might, making itself known across the land and heralding the arrival of dark things.

;_;

>>18642
>Hopefully [...] it doesn't involve complex puzzle solving and backtracking and shit like that
Real life has such poor design. I can't even count how many times I've backtracked.

(Thank you)

Today I messed up posting and listened to music. Woke up late, too.

Today I finished up some work I had to complete. Glad to say it is - more or less - all done. The rest of the day I spent reading the a few essays by Julius Evola I have been putting off, as well as drinking and baking a cake.

Today marks the start of my one week thanksgiving break from classes. To be honest, I have no idea what to do, other than eating my brains out and regretting it later.

I can't wait for the eventual black Friday steam sales. I've really been wanting Recettear for quite a while now and I hope it's on sale!

I woke up feeling like shit. Emotionally and physically. The state of my life is starting to really get to me. And I have...no clue how to change it or anything. I thought that the notion of suicide would forever be confined to the Haruhiless hours of the late night. But here I am, thinking of it just before noon...

Life feels like such a chore. But dying does, too. It makes me feel like Kanzaki from GTO, without the intelligence. So irritating. I really feel trapped...

>>18685
I know the feeling. Sometimes caffeine can help me feel better, but usually not.

>>18685
Shit is just getting worse for me too. Something happened that is now putting me on the edge of just ending it all but deep down I know I can't do anything with myself here after I die so what would be the point? The only that would do is send me straight to hell. I hate everything, I'm living on day to day pleasures, nothing more. I know what I want but there's literally nothing I can do. I'm so sick of my life. Everyone I care about even online is either dropping like flies or making me even more suicidal. I'm a caged animal.

>>18690
What happened?

Today I went to a psychiatrist appointment, then another doctors appointment. After that, I packed more things since I'm moving. I hope, by the end of the month at the latest, it will all be done and over with. Moving is awful, but at least I'll get rid of a lot of junk I don't need this way. Plus, I won't be living in a big city anymore which is a welcome change - though I'm a 2-3 hour drive from Vancouver/Seattle/Portland if I ever got bored.

Rest of the day I spent buying philosophy books I don't really require - at least 250 dollars worth after my spree was over. But, with online retailers having Christmas sales I could not refuse. The mailman is going to hate me. Later on I drank a bunch of gin and chatted on IRC to some Tohno-channers and watched a whole bunch of anime.

>>18690
You seem to have an Internet connection and a functional PC. What can't you do?

It's thanksgiving. Time to wait for my stupid family to come over and talk about stupid things while I try to eat enough food that I hate so I don't seem weird

>>18700
Happy Thanksgiving

My family is literally sitting next to me. I just told my er, grandfather that I was playing a game...Why do I lie?

Anyway, I could give you guys a play-by-play of my Thanksgiving, but that's unnecessary. I feel weird. My house is too small. And my aunt keeps looking at me weird...This is honestly painful.

...Happy holidays, folks.

I'd rather stay home and eat a pizza, then fap and eventually fall asleep, but I need to go to my aunt's for turkey day.

Happy hikikomori thanksgiving, folks.

Share a meal with your waifu and give thanks you're not a Ford Driver. I certainly am.

I tried cooking my own turkey and it turned out undercooked.

I really do suck at cooking.

I ate turducken. The meat tasted okay but whatever it was stuffed with tasted like sweat

I feel so out of place when there are those big american celebrations going on

>>18711

Thanksgiving is the most bullshit holiday ever, you're not missing much

>>18711
I really hate how people don't think about that.

To counter it I think we should all post about holidays that don't apply to most of TC's geographic locations, so everyone can feel equally left out. We should also be super douchey about it and talk like everyone else knows exactly what is going on.

>>18711
All you do is stuff your face with food and try to be friendly with your family, even though none of you really get along. Basically it is Christmas without the gift giving nonsense. Scratch that, any holiday really.

If you are retarded, you then go get in line outside of whatever store to try and get a deal on stupid things you don't need.

>>18713
Oh it was terrible, I hated it all. I feel and look like shit right now. My family is a bunch of assholes with a superiority complex that like to do nothing but subtly make fun of me and think it's hilarious when I get pissed at them. Like they know a lot about me just from often being around me so much so they'll just constantly drop offensive comments that no one else but me would get and they think they're so fucking clever. I also ate too much and it was like a friday on thursday night. Just moderately drunk right now and I think that's the only thing that kept me from exploding on them. We also have so much left over that will just rot in the fridge until it gets thrown away that it's stupid, people over buy on everything.

Apparently, the agency thingy I applied to for retardbux wants to do a psych eval in order to decide my fate. I guess that's the "final boss" of this endeavour, so to speak. I'm pretty confident in my act, but I haven't done it to a shrink in years, so I sure hope it'll work.

>>18743
Eh, and it seems that I rolled a female shrink for this one! That's fortunate.

>>18743
I don't understand why people put so much effort to pretend that they are crazy. It would be easier just to get a job.

>>18746
No it wouldn't especially if your not exactly mentally unstable enough to outwardly appear it but still too broken to get one since it really shows through in interviews and such. I'm not really sure myself if I have a mentally stable look in any way to me in the eyes of a normal but what I described is most likely the case for me. I can't even get a job stocking shelves in a store.

>>18720
It's not that I want to participate in it, it's just that everyone talks about it and I have no idea what's going on.

>>18748
Doctors decide are you "mentally unstable" for work or not, not you. Pretending to be crazy is just stupid.

>>18746
>>18752
Getting a job definitely wouldn't be easier. You'd need to do n hours of work per week whereas if my application is accepted, I'll be doing around 1 hour of work per week during an application process and 0 hours of work per week while the bucks are flowing in.

Also, some diseases and conditions are more likely to qualify you for various social support bucks than others, and these highly vary across different countries and systems. Even if you are a legit case, it's quite possible that a forged case would get you better results in the system than a legit one.

I also don't have an immediate need for money, so failed expenditures can be afforded. Even if this application is rejected, there are other kinds of free money out there that are still viable targets. I still have some 6k€ in my bank account from previous expenditures when I was underage, and my mother currently pays for everything.

And for the doctors part, some of them may feel empathy for your plight, which is great. Their decisions which have a large factor on your success are influenced by your actions. Due to psychology being a steaming pile of shit of a science, shrinks are by far one of the weakest links in the chain and fooling them is very low-effort compared to other expenditures.

Post edited on 23rd Nov 2012, 10:56am

>>18746
>get a job
get out

>>18753
When using words "endeavour" and "final boss" on applying retardbux it implies it takes a lot of effort. Putting more effort to avoid working than actually working is silly.

>>18753
>Due to psychology being a steaming pile of shit of a science, shrinks are by far one of the weakest links in the chain and fooling them is very low-effort compared to other expenditures.

Not really, it's just that when you lie about a broken leg, an x-ray will show you to be a big fat liar.

There is no way for the shrink to really know, at most he can just eye you up and then morally weigh how much of a cut he'll get from the pills his prescription for you net him vs. whether you actually need it (even in the case where he can see right through you).

>>18758
In my country, doctors don't get a cut for prescribing medication (as far as I know). For psychology's failings as a science, see http://www.arachnoid.com/psychology/

I have done nothing for the past few days. Stuck in a very apathetic and lethargic mood, no motivation to do anything. I feel like life is going by and I am just watching from far away. It would be depressing, but I do not even have the willpower to feel that way.

>>18760
Depersonalization sure is a bitch huh

>>18755
try working 8 hours of manual labor or in a hot and dangerous fast food kitchen for five days a week for a year, then quit and try pretending your crazy for a hour once every few weeks.
Then try talking about which one takes more 'effort'.
becuase clearly you have no idea what the fuck you're talking about as is.

I seriously can't stand this shit anymore it's just too pitiful and funny goodbye RIP in pieces.

>>18766
Report if you manage to hold and come back anyhow. Thanks.

Went out today, with the friend.

I got a double breasted Royal Navy coat for a good deal. Played Arcana Hearts on his new 50" HDTV, then went home and decided not to use dxm tonight.

(accidentally) fucked up my PSP's screen more than it was already. It makes me feel so bad, because it has so much value to me now, and I ruined it...

Other than that, today was okay. Ate some leftovers, looked up conspiracy theories, watched bad TV.

If you have CFW you can use a program called RemoteJoy to display it on your monitor.

Barring that you can use a homebrew plugin called FuSa to display it on a TV using composite cables. (Component cables exist and you don't need homebrew to display it on your HDTV.)

Left work 3 hours early, been drinking gin since then.
Listening to trance, I guess I'll be off to bed in a few minutes
ps. it was 2:06 AM here when I posted this

Post edited on 24th Nov 2012, 4:06pm

Had no internet for half of the day because it was raining and the net serivce I use is a piece of shit, so I spent the day staring at the pc screen trying to figure out what to do.

I spent the whole day planning what I should do for tomorrow, but I bet I won't feel like doing anything at all.

I feel beyond shit right now, most of the Thanksgiving leftovers are gone now. I feel like I ate a bowling ball this weekend. I hope this coming week and for weeks after I'll actually be able to live normally without some stupid festivity fucking me up for a while.

It was my birthday today. I'm now the most pathetic adult in existence.

Brightside being, I can buy DXM and cigarettes now. Yay drugs...

I feel sad today. I thought, a month ago, that I'd be out of this lifestyle before this day. Now it feels more hopeless than ever. I'm really irritated with myself for letting my life get this bad.

But I want to change. Desperately. So there's hope in my life. Small. But that shit is there.

Yay, hope~

>>18798
Happy birthday! What so you were 17 going on 18? I always thought you were a little older. Well either way for me I have no ID so no matter how old I am I can't buy anything, I'm 20. At least your a little younger still so be happy about that. But I thought the same things you did and nothing changed for me. If you're still in school, then depending on what you want you have a small amount of hope left. I'd take going back in time and just reliving my mid to later teens than anything I'm going through now unless anything changes for me for the better.

My mother was talking on her phone with somebody and when I walked into the living room she told me to get out. Now I'm paranoid

>>18804
You're going to be institutionalized.

>>18805
Finally

>>18798
I hope you enjoyed the rest of your birthday, bro. I have no comfort or inspiration to offer, but I'm rooting for you.

>>18804
I'm more paranoid of my mother having a stupid mood swing and going mental on me which eventually leads to me just being thrown out.

Got out of bed, turned on my PC and it was fucking noisy as hell. That happens sometimes on particularly cold mornings, and is usually fixed by letting it run for a bit, turning it off then turning it back on a few times.
No luck this time though, it's still fucking doing it. Tried cleaning all the dust out and it still won't shut the fuck up, temperatures are all fine, too.
This shit is going to drive me insane. All I can do is turn up the volume of my music to full and pretend it's not happening.

>>18814
Haven't you identified the offending fan and replaced it already?

>>18815
No, because I don't know shit about hardware.
I can't even tell which fan it is because all 3 are so close together.

Post edited on 27th Nov 2012, 2:19pm

>>18814
That's what happened before my computer died. I hope you have better luck~

Yesterday I went over to a friend's. He's basically my only friend. We discussed waifus and how bad 3D girls are, actually. He's on his way to becoming a truNEET, too. Kind of makes me sad, because he deserves better than that...

Then again, don't we all...?

>>18815
Okay, tried stopping a few fans and listening closely and it's coming from a big box in the top back corner of my PC. Is that the power supply? How easy is it to replace? Do I have to replace the whole supply or just the fan?

>>18818
It probably is, and it would be easier to replace the whole supply. Also, if your power supply is fucking up it could fuck up the rest of your computer, so you probably shouldn't use it any more until you get a replacement

>>18819
Alright, thanks.

>>18818
There is a bomb in your computer! If it goes below 50 MPH it will explode!

I just found out, much to my surprise, that there is a showing of the first two Madoka movies at a small theater in the flyover city where I reside. I want to go just because the opportunity to do or see things that actually interest me in the city almost never comes, but at the same time it seems like it might be a bad idea. I'm so out of touch with the fandom I don't know what to expect; will it be full of obnoxious young people that were narutards but a couple of years ago, or will it be awkward but well-behaved twenty- and thirty-something neckbeards? If we get the third movie here I'll go without question, but I don't know if I want to pay twenty-two dollars for a potentially uncomfortable four-hour recap episode.

I've been hearing loud bangs outside and every time my power would flicker. I think I'm gonna die

>>18824
seeing as all the fans of that series are annoying faggots, yeah I think it's a safe bet most people there would be obnoxious young people that were narutards. but go anyway, you'll fit right in!

Post edited on 27th Nov 2012, 6:19pm

>>18828
maybe a little rude, but you're probably right. most of the people who would attend an anime movie screening are probably not the kind of people you wanna sit around for 4 hours

I ordered a 765 hoodie today... more like a cotton parka(?). I just realized how troubling picking a size for me is. I'm somewhere between an American medium or a large, so I would assume a Japanese size would run small... so I just pussied out and bought a medium instead of a guaranteed fit me large. Who knows, maybe the medium will be incredibly snug?..

I hope I'm right.

>>18830
dude Japanese clothes run like a whole size smaller

>>18831

I should've ordered a large then...
The sizes I thought didn't have much of a difference.
Size: M (Length 68m, Width 50cm)
Size: L (Length 71m, Width 53cm)

I'm a pretty short guy, so I thought a medium would be fine for me, since I don't want the hoodie to go below or near the pockets of normal jeans.

I've been watching this livestream of kittens all day

http://new.livestream.com/accounts/398160/events/1594566/player_pop_up

It makes me want a cat, but I'd probably be awful at taking care of it

>>18838
I been watching that stream a bit also. its really blowing up, I see it posted everywhere.

Today I listened to music, read Watamote, and learned the true power of critical thinking.

>>18835
Are you me? I'm about to order a couple korean fashion jackets at eBay, too. I'm pretty short and thin as well, so I'm also ordering medium size. Wish both of us luck with this.

>>18842
>learned the true power of critical thinking

So what is it?

>>18843
I think those would look terrible in real life

I move on Sunday. Fuck.

>>18838
Cats are really easy to take care of.
just feed them and scoop their litter box. Sometimes they will want to be petted

Kittens are bit more of a challenge as they like to play all the time.

>>18763
I quess it is easy for people without moral. For me all sort of lying, acting and pretending is really exhausting. It is much more effort than normal work.

And I have my personal reasons to hate people people who pretend to be crazy to get pension. It makes it harder to get for people who really need it. Like my mother who has been trying to get pension because she had breast cancer removed four years ago and now she can barely use her left arm anymore. Still she works while people who have little depression get pension.

>>18843

preparing for halloween a little early aren't we

I bought my christmas present for myself (using parent money, which has been what I've done every christmas since 2006), a 370 dollar laptop. My dad is gonna get mad, not because of the price but because he doesn't want me to have one. He got mad when I got a new doorknob a few weeks ago and that was only 15 bucks, and I offered to pay for it

I tried going to a class but I quickly left 30 minutes after it started. I spent the rest of my day under my blanket.

>>18856
I bought myself something for Christmas, too. However it was with my own money. The games I bought with my retard monies because I thought that I had more than enough to cover for it all.

Shit. It's almost the end of the semester but I really feel like I don't want to do anything anymore. I should be doing an essay proposal right now but I have that extremely "fuck I'm tired and I don't want to do it" feeling in my gut. I'll probably rush it later...

Read a bunch of personality disorders in the new DSM-5. I think I have most of them but I still wont seek help, which is a pretty bad symptom in itself.

I need to get a heater in my room, it's gotten so cold in here that trying to sleep is a uncomfortable game that lasts all night and results in horrible half awake nightmares. It's uncomfortable just sitting here.

I'm about to fail my second class due to being unable to do a presentation due to social anxiety. Fuck teachers who think these kinds of things are acceptable.

>>18890
Its totally reasonble to have an oral presentation as part of the course. Verbal communication is an important skill. Don't blame your teachers for your own problems.

Today, I spent...an unhealthy amount of time listening tn Kyary Pamyu Pamyu, smoking, and watching the CW.

I think my favorite song by her is Tsukematsukeru. It's about her brand of false eyelashes...Or Candy Candy. I really love the chorus for that one ("sweetie, sweetie, garus love~, chewing chewing chewing chewing chewing cutie cutie")

Tomorrow, I plan on buying some DXM and giving the 2nd plateau a shot. I've been looking forward to it all week...I need more fulfilling things in my life.

>>18890
If you're in university have you gone to counseling services? They may force some kind of accommodation.

I'm looking into Lojban. Not sure how I feel about it. I'm interested in how it might open up the thought process and what I will notice about language in general, but it feels odd to read it and listen to it. I'm kind of dragging myself through the learning process now (day two).

Still trying to find something to fill the void left by a few things. Been pretty down lately, more than normal anyway, and not having much to do doesn't help.

Also, that bleeding I mentioned in the other thread seems to finally be healing up to 100%. Hadn't really had any problems with it in a bit, but it still hurt from time to time. Hasn't in a while. One good thing, it seems.

I got a laptop. Now I can post from the toilet

( ´∀`)

>>18899

Lojban is a lot of fun, but IMO it's not very... musical. I suppose that has to do with it being developed by linguists and programmers rather than writers and translators, like most conlangs. It's also nice if you want something that's not yet another generic Esperanto knock-off.

The attitudinals are a blast, too. Just try finding an elegant way to express ".a'ocu'i ro'a ro'u" in English.

everyone in the secret channel but me is getting high on cough syrup tonight :-(

>>18905
If it makes you feel better my dose went straight to afterglow.

Today I said some awkward goodbyes to people since I'm moving. Then spent the rest of the night in some unintentional pseudo-pillow fort on my bed, writing about the transmogrification of post-modernism, reading about architecture and painfully downloading anime over stolen wi-fi.

my phone rang for a really long time but I couldnt think of a single person I want to talk to (except my boss but she only calls my mobile) so I just picked up the receiver and put it back down.

Drank too much, head about to explode. Update: I found my whiskey bottle, but the beer cans are gone. There is also a plate missing from my desk. Someone was in here while I was passed out.

Post edited on 1st Dec 2012, 1:32pm

Last night was one of the funnest of my life, and I didn't even really do anything. I got to the second plat, like I planned. But I think I might have slid into the 3rd on inertia or whatever, because I had double vision and dream-like moments.

[drugs]A few of my favorites were watching a blonde woman with a fake moustache talk to me. A forest that was grey instead of green (I honestly think I was seeing my brain when that came up). A massive tree radiating orange and red light with a heart in it, and kanji (or some kind of foreign letters) floating above it. That last one made me feel really...secure for some reason.

I had Lilliputian hallucinations to the extreme. These carried on until the visions were gone, too. For those of you who don't know, Lilliputian hallucinations are basically your brain not recognizing size. I was looking at a screen for a long portion of the trip, and the screen changed size sporadically. It was a very pleasurable feeling for some reason. I felt euphoric looking in at the very small or very big letters on the screen. It was so fascinating. It reminded me of a set of recurring dreams I had as a child.

I saw myself get up and robowalk through the living room from the 3rd person. My mother had come down and was talking to me. I just mumbled "PSP...PS3...Nothing..." and robowalked up the stairs and collapsed into my bed. She didn't mention anything about it today, so I'm assuming she thinks I was sleepwalking (which I kind of was - I was not in control of my body, and I think it only left the scene due to some primal self-preservation instinct). It was such a ridiculous moment. I didn't think it made you really walk like a robot. But I was acting like a kid who doesn't know how to do the dance but still tries anyway.

I went outside at one point. It was like, 25 degrees, but I didn't feel the cold. I thought a patch of snow was the cute stray that comes around every once in a while and petted it for much longer than I should have.

My hallway was really small whenever I went through it. Or rather, it felt really really small. I also remember telling everyone "Whenever I close my eyes I see the evil Kyary looking at me" or something. I honestly have no clue what I mean by that, but it's some funny shit. I also er, said some things on the IRC that might have seemed unlike me, and I'm sorry for that, if there's a need to be sorry. If not, cool.

My breathing improved in a really weird way. I wasn't expecting to be able to breathe so clearly on it. There was a marked difference.

I wanted to dance, but in between point a and point b, music just...lost all interest to me. Which was a shame. But I got it back after I got past the weird-vibes moment that I had. The weird moments were just realizations that time is an eternal now, and the numbers on a clock are man-made constructs. It made me feel very...restricted for some reason.

Anyway. Awesome trip. Definitely doing that again in 2 weeks~[/drugs]

A-anyway. Today I woke up really hungry and I'm now looking for some food to eat. Probably going to watch bad tv and/or read while eating it. Also going to smoke a lot of cigarettes, even though I'm trying to quit (again).

Got a new phone as a free upgrade since I was way overdue for one. Got myself a HTC One X. It's a nice model but I'm fucking terrified of getting mugged or losing it since I don't any warranty for it yet.

drank too much again

then i woke up and drank more

this isn't fun

>>18918
then why keep drinking?

Model UN is in like 5-6 days. Thursday this week. This will be interesting. Funnily enough it's right by this hotel I got kicked out from a few months ago.

The staff never responded to my registrations for staff. I'm just going up there dressed in 'formal wear' to see what happens. heh.

>>18926
Speaking of this, has anyone here staffed Model UN?

I think I'm sick. My throat is all funny and liquids don't taste the same. I'm always sick near vacations.... December huh...

I accidentally wore off one of my callouses doing garden works and it fucking hurts.

I bought something. Accidentally clicked the add to cart button twice, I was too much of a coward to cancel (I don't want to get blacklisted) so I paid anyway. I wish I was dead

http://www.gizoogle.net/index.php?search=http%3A%2F%2Ftohno-chan.com%2Fmai%2F&se=Gizoogle+Dis+Shiznit

I can't breathe

>>19002
good shit mayne

>>19002
That is very weird. I find it weird that "Interesting" gets filtered into "horny-ass".

>>19002
the fuck.....

I remember that page. Isn't there a version for 1337speak and imspeak?

Spent the last two nights at a friend's - basically my only one. We watched shitty movies and listened to music. Also watched Ouran. And I have 2 mediocre Magic decks now (Black/White and Artifact) which is cool, I guess. It was a nice time. I didn't want to go back home to my utterly boring, lonely, painfully cyclic life.

It was like a vacation from a life that some would contemptuously and ignorantly call a vacation...

Got back from my Kanji class.

Finals are in a week but I'm not stressing as I should be. I don't know if this is a good thing or a bad thing.

>>19016
good thing

My system disk died, so I'm using a mint Linux livecd for a while.
It's a bit annoying when something/someone accidentally shuts down the computer and I have to reconfigure/reinstall everything to my liking, but somewhat relaxing too.

I called my phone today because I lost it.

I heard my voice on the answering machine. My shy voice sounds like a girl's.

No wonder everyone I talk to on the phone thinks I am my mother. And even though I have a beard, all the male cashiers call me "buddy" and "little guy."

Nobody will ever take me seriously. (´;ω;`)

>>19021
Depending on how I speak my voice sounds pretty manly or nerdy.

At at least you don't have a speech impediment that makes you repeat the first word you say 2-3 times, forget simple words or sometimes mix up noun placement in your sentence.

>>19029
I'm a complete scatterbrain. I don't really have a stuttering problem, but what sounds great in my head always comes out as word salad, or doesn't come out at all (either the words get stuck in my throat, or I think I've said it, but I've actually only thought it).

Speaking of which, I really have that groany kind of voice that many teenage white girls have. You know the kind, that sarcastic tone of voice where they slur certain bits at a low amplitude.

>>19028
Same here. When I speak to people I know I am very masculine, but when speaking quietly I am feminine as fuck. I think it comes from spending my entire developmental stage with a butch lesbian who still keeps a fake feminine persona for formal situations.

>>19029
I have a barely discernible lisp that I have covered for fourteen years. My S sounds more like the German double S at this point.

>>19032
Some linguists call that "Vocal fry". I call it "boner killer" or "rage inducer".

>>19029
Sometimes I stutter as well. It's odd, but I think that it occurs after long periods of not talking to other people. It still occurs every once in a while.

>>19030
I also have this problem. Like, halfway through saying something I thought up or something that I felt on sharing an opinion on, I forget (literally forget) what I was about to say or have a very difficult time trying to reach for words that can end my sentence close to what it was that I was trying to say. It's really annoying and why I try to speak as little as possible unless what I need to say is something that has to be said.

This morning, when I was in the shower, I had the longest, most detail-specific deja vu I've ever had in my life. I started to panic because I could see everything happening before it happened, and had to hold back the vomit twice. Shit was weird.

>>19037
>I think that it occurs after long periods of not talking to other people. It still occurs every once in a while.
sounds about right, I didn't use to have this problem.

Today, I Google stopped working unless I turned on cookies. This happens in Seamonkey, but not IE.

>>19040
I *noticed* Google stopped [...]

>>19038
I get that very often, sometimes it's accompanied shortly after with my vision going static like and gray while I feel a weird disconnection from my body. Like I can still move my body and walk around but I can't feel it there. The strongest time it happened my body felt stretched out and distorted and I was just surrounded with all this black haze covering everything and no sound which lasted for around 5-6 seconds. There are many times when I feel like I have lived this life before. I didn't want to leave it so I just lived it in this time period over and over and over again shaping it to the way I want it to be a little more each time. And there are times where time periods intersect.

>>19053
I get what you mean with the whole disconnection thing. Ever since this morning, it's been continuing to hit me. Fragments of memories of doing the exact same thing popping up over and over. Is it a brain glitch? Did I dream this? The "memories" have this surreal dreamlike quality to them, but I've been checking if I'm awake all day long.

I had to stop SR3 co-op with a buddy just a few minutes ago, because we did something that I remember doing down to every detail, including the Steam conversation of "Oh fuck, I need to go, I think I'm going to puke."

Where the hell are these memories coming from? Is it my brain syncing up with a parallel universe "me" or what? I don't believe I like this world enough to put myself through it over and over.

Oh christ, now I have a splitting headache.

>>19040
You can hit reload after typing something in or just search from the address bar.

I tried to help my dad buy my mom a christmas present online, but I couldn't find the exact thing he was talking about because it didn't exist. found the thing he was PROBABLY talking about, but that wasn't good enough so he started yelling at me and I told him to fuck off. Trying to do anything with him results in him shouting at me and I'm sick of it

>>19062
Ah, thanks, the location bar works. I didn't notice, as I had the location bar set to Wikipedia.

>>19057
The fact that they are not just like regular memories of like what you did yesterday and they are accompanied with a feeling of you being in a dream of what is happening proves there is something much more to it to me than just being a brain glitch. There is no way for periods of time that long I would fluently remember going through exact motions and conditions whilst feeling like I'm dreaming (it's an exact feeling of being in a lucid dream) that it was just a simple screw up in my head. I'll just have to wait till I die and see. I would go back and do this life again being the same general person. It's this or nothing.

>>19066
Well, on the bright side, if I train myself to not react with panic and nausea, this'll help a ton with lucid dreaming, considering it causes me to question reality every 20 seconds or so.

>>19062
Although, I can only view the first page of results, and refreshing doesn't help.

Fixed my computer today. It was just a simple matter of putting a new OS on. Still runs like shit though, haha. But now I can catch up with the anime I was following. I added a desk to my room, so now I'm not sitting on the floor anymore, like a person in a 3rd world country. The chair is uncomfortable, though. I think I prefer the floor...

Also started playing Dragon Warrior III. It's good so far, although I have no idea what's going on.

I've been assigned the position of Computer fixing pro by my sister and now I have to fix this girl's laptop while she waits in my living room. The problem is that it's slow, so maybe I can somehow fix this without too much trouble or having to go through a ton of technical things like installing a new OS when this has Windows 8 and I don't have a way of reinstalling that.

I am largely ignorant on these things, damn it! ;_;

Hopefully CCleaner can help me out in some way with this.

Skipped the night trying to save some data from my soon-to-be-dead disk, putting the other disks' partitions in order and correctly install linux so it takes over the MBR.
Considering just leaving a Windows installation in place for games and migrate to linux for everything else when I get everything back in order.

Model UN staffing idea fell through....apparently staff got REALLY filled up quickly. Also, someone tried mugging me on the bus today (I grabbed the phone back before they bolted out).

I just bought this mouse a few months ago and I already need a new one again because the back button on it is fucking up. (╯°□°）╯︵ ┻━┻