I've been without power for the last 38 hours after one hell of a storm knocked it out. Moved through the area quickly, but it was a violent storm. Was sleeping when it it, thought the world was ending from how bad it looked with the constant lightning flashes.

The 100+ degree heatwave feels downright murderous without my fans or the AC. Been reading The Moon Is A Harsh Mistress and napping in order to pass the time, but with how widespread the damage is and how unreliable the local power company is I have a feeling that it might be a few more days. Hell, they even said it would be a week for them to get everyone's lights back on. Damn it, I much would have rather dealt with actually not having internet like I thought would happen weeks ago over this. I was prepared for that, and this came out of nowhere. Damn it all.

It's summer. I want to die.

>>15689
That really sucked. I always nap to pass the time too.

Watched some anime, slept a lot, listened to an album by some people on another imageboard I visit, and slept some more. I wonder how the rest of the day will go.

Got a spiffy new keyboard and mouse today, and worked out the kinks of getting connected to a private server for a game. All in all I'm feeling pretty accomplished.

>>15689
Damn, I heard about that storm, my heart goes out to you. We're pretty blackout prone up here, but we've never had one that bad, and never in the middle of a fucking heatwave. Hope it gets fixed soon.

Today I watched all the new anime that aired, and helped typeset some subtitles for one of them. I started smoking again too...talk about hypocritical, but I forgot how damn well it makes you concentrate. Ran out of my schizophrenia medication and I've been seeing shit all day, so I've been going for random walks to stop it. Found some real nice flowers while out walking earlier, and put them in my kitchen.

Summer really murders NEETs, huh?

I wish I had AC so bad...

I ate a (wrapped) sucker I found in my drawer and now I have a tummyache

Slept a lot, posted on imageboards, played a few games of DOTA and watched some anime. I found out that a video rental store in my town recently got a job offering when the manager called me on the phone and I'm going in for an interview tomorrow. Pretty nervous, but if I have to do it, I suppose I will...

Today I read many ideas about social networks to try and get argumentation and base as to why I would hate them, and I stumbled upon the number of nine hundred billion people on Facebook. I had no idea the situation was that bad.

>nine hundred billion people on Facebook
are they pulling in registrations from parallel universes or something

Had a very lazy day. Went for a short walk in the morning. Worked on some writings, watched a lot of anime, and played a VN on PSP. Have work tomorrow, so I suppose I should try sleeping for once too.

I had an argument with my mom. I told her I want to move out to a little 2.5x2.5m storage room downtown which belonged to our grandfather. It's located in a office building, and it has access to a shared toilet as well as electricity and wi-fi. She said lol no, it doesn't even have a bed. I showed her my sleeping bag. She got angry and told me to get real and grow up. Haruhidamn I can't win any arguments against her. I need to get out, but she won't let me.

>>15719
>I need to get out, but she won't let me.
Here's a crazy idea, just go. you say you've already got a place to stay.

>>15719
She probably just doesn't wanna see her child live in a closet

The Pizza Hut product placement in anime is working man. I so want a pizza right now.

>>15722
But that says Pizza-la...

>>15723
It may say that, but he now associates pizza with Pizza hut, which is what the product placement is supposed to do, and now that he wants pizza he wants to take his business to Pizza Hut instead of any other pizzeria.

I want pizza,too...

>>15724
A lot of the Pizza hut product placement in the past has made me want to get Pizza hut pizza, but then I remember Pizza hut in this country has nothing at all to do with what the product placement is in (japs at least get custom boxes related to the anime) so I just go to papa johns, which I think is better.

>>15722

The anime character placement in pizza ads is working man. I so want to hug Yayoi right now.

Ahh, I broke my mouse.

I was trying to fix my mouse because the wheel wasn't clicking correctly, so I took off the top part, which then cracked the thingy that pushes the buttons for the left and right buttons, and as I tried to set them in correctly, the left one snapped off making the left button completely unusable. Then I took off the plastic thingy and it somehow ended up moving the inside button thingy completely off the board thingy. I didn't mean for this to happen. I just wanted to fix my wheel.

Now it only works if I use my nail to press the tiny left button and give it a smack on the right side for the now retarded left button to work. The wheel works perfectly now, though.

Never mind, the right button doesn't work any more.

WHY AM I SUCH A FAILURE?!

Went in to apply for a job, they told me they'd love to talk with me about it tomorrow. I'll spend the rest of the day reading Evola and Derrida.

"Worked - hate it. Came home, studied Hans-Georg Gadamer, napped. Burned my hand with a cigarette. Saw an awful person (you're just seeing things, remember). Terrifying. Sketched Rakka from Haibane Renmei. Napped again. Had a weird dream - awful. Thought. Forgot to buy more meds. The mind is swarmed with delusions. Why you're a failure: contradicting thoughts and feelings - this is why everyone hates you. Stop bothering. New curtains, practiced sign language (you're so slow). Random back log selection: Majokko Megu-chan. Watch this until bed."

>>15727
Yeah you gotta always be careful when disassembling something to fix it. If you don't, you're almost certain to break something. Often its designed in such a way tht you can't even open it apart without breaking something or setting loose some tiny part in some socket.

>>15733
Who are you quoting?

>>15552
I'm trying out seamonkey right now, and I don't notice any difference from firefox besides the uglier default UI. Granted, I don't do much on the web besides tohno-chan, porn, and look for a job, so maybe it's faster or something, I haven't noticed.

Another difference is that there seems to be an odd bug when I try to delete all the cookies in a domain: it only deletes every other cookie in that domain...

Also, getting on exhentai was a pain because cookiemanager+ isn't compatible, so I had to use a sqlite database managager plugin.

Helped Lux build his gigantic computer, then went home and slept. Woke up today.

I melted in the heat all day, then spent some time at the library studying and cooling off.

Power came back on Monday, was glad it did because I was starting to get into arguments with my family over silly things.

Internet was out until today because of some damage on my ISP's end. Stocking up on anime for the outage I was expecting nearly a month ago paid off.

>>15740
True survivalism.

Went to a Japanese restaurant (Gyu-Kaku for those wondering) then splashed in. The beach/half-assed swimmed then watched the independence day fireworks by the beach. I am going home to deal with the fucked up debit card I got (mother got a 'reward' card from her ISP and I didn't activate it earlier...oops) and to grilll chicken as I am still hungry from that.

>>15736
I use Seamonkey (like both you and the person you're replying to) and found it annoying to get exhentai to work. Maybe it's because I use an older machine and GNU, but I just found over time that it runs more smoothly and does everything I need as well as Firefox does.

I'm really bored. But I don't want to do anything.
I finally worked up the interest to drink. But then I ran out.

Watched Mushishi and drank tea. Good enough for me.

Read manga all day, went to see some foreign films with my sister, and had a fun night.

Today I woke up later than I did in the past week, and found out I have a cavity.

Went to Vermont, staying here for a while. On a huge place with nature trails and a lake all around. Just us and the owners out here.

I found a gigantic quartz stone, then I found a pile of really good wood, I think I will enshrine the quartz stone.

Learned a computer virus is supposed to knock a lot of people off the internet monday, namely people who don't know how to keep their stuff secure and virus free. Looking forward to it

Worked on a painting all morning and then read some essays on minimalism and aesthetics. Watched a bunch of new shows that aired yesterday/today (Natsuyuki is really neat). Read a bit of manga. Watered some plants. Feeling really lazy today so I'll have fun with my sister the rest of the night.

>>15773
I heard it had something to do with the FBI setting up temporary DNS servers to counter some DNS malware, and those servers will expire Monday, leaving those who are still infected in the dust.

The basil plants that were seemingly killed off by the extreme heat managed to recover.

>>15773
couldn't they just change the clock on their pc?

Today, I have to go to a fireworks thing. How lame.

>>15791

Just remember to shout 'Tamaya' and 'Kagiya' and you should be fine.

Had to work, and have been tired all day. Learned of a internet "friends" suicide last night, and have felt down from that. To take my mind off stuff I went for a walk in some woods to read and play PSP alone, and fell asleep under a willow tree.

Vermont trip when exceptionally well.

The bugs out here are real pussies, and are apparently afraid of the dark. Last night I laid on the grass for an hour or so, watching all the stars. Saw a satellite go by, really amazing.

My mom went to stay with her boyfriend for about a week. I've got the house to myself until Friday. Feels nice being the only one in the house.

>>15811
don't masturbate too much!

I felt dizzy all day, and fainted at work. Sat in a hospital all day and they forcibly fed me through my nose since I don't eat. Tried to watch some anime when I came home, but I slept all night instead.

I wiped a ton of dust off of my TV screen and now it almost seems too bright

Scribbled this on a napkin:

• What is this solder made of, chromium?
• He hates you, stop.
• Eat!
• It's fun to spy on people.

Touched my guitar for the first time in ages and cut my finger trying to do a slide.
Now I'm a bit afraid, as the strings were old and rusty.

Today I worked a bit, then went to a psychiatric appointment. I spent the rest of the afternoon gardening and reading books. Going to finish a painting and play some games for the rest of the night. Overall it was a pleasant day.

Played Life with my niece, nephew, and sister. Refused to marry, deliberately chose a low paying easy job. According to the rules I didn't win but I think I did.

Finished House of Leaves. Began reading Labyrinths.
Made an unpleasant phone call. Wrote a few short
stories and worked on polishing them. Day dreamed.
Drank gin. Tried on a few new jackets my sister
bought for me. Took a nap in someone's garden. Woke
up, came home. Ate some pepperoni. Now chatting on
IRC.

I hacked my first computer game today

and by hacked I mean I put a clear piece of tape with a dot on it on my screen

I made some rice with the tomatoes I harvested with my tomato plant. first thing I ate grown by me.

My internet has been acting very strangely ever since i woke up this morning.

>>15844
I never understood what is advantage of using clear tape while playing video games. I think I just don't play enough.

>>15844

I'm really curious now.
Why did you do that?

I've been reading a lot lately and thinking about abstract things. I read an interesting essay on Japanese "Parahistory" written by a guy I've talked with for a while. Myth and culture, tradition in general are so neat! I really hope my books I ordered on that subject come soon.

>>15853
> my complete fidelity
sorry to hear about your boyfriend dumping you bro!

>>15852
>>15854
It's probably the old trick for FPSes with no crosshair.

I made coconut flan
it was delicious

>>15857

Yep. In the game I'm playing sniper rifles don't show the crosshair and shoot wildly unless you scope in. With the tape, I will know exactly where I'm aiming and all I need to do is scope really quick and shoot. It's cheap as hell and makes people really mad so I love it

I spent the last couple days in a psychiatric hospital again. I was ready to die, but I'm okay now. I've determined I was brought to life to be physically and mentally abused. To be laughed at, ridiculed, stepped on. After all this time trying to change things and accept my terrible past, I've given up. I am weak, do whatever the fuck you want. I don't care anymore.

Slightly more uplifting is news I received: a short story I submitted to a literary magazine earlier this year was accepted. Though, I am unsure as to whether I really want it published; it's personal regardless how fictionalized it is, nor do I have much confidence in myself as a writer, though I guess if it was accepted it's worth something. Guess I'll think on it.

I spent the majority of today setting up a Windows 98+XP dual-boot on this computer from 1998 that I still had hooked up.

After that, I considered using it as a server for something, then I realized it's probably way too slow for anything like that. Oh well, guess I can always boot into 98 and play DOS games...

Tried to play with some physics problems. Ended up stuck most of the day on mathematical trivialities of one single problem.
Also messed a bit with Dezaemon, funny thing.

Discharged, slept, quit my job, bought books, had some coke-a-cola, read some plays, went for a walk and made a sketch of a bird, then scoured Steam for goodies. My days are so repetitive.

Just discovered John Fahey. Amazing guitarist.

Woke up really late, played some game, found an artist on pixiv i really like and spent almost 2 hours going through their works, and in a few hours I'm gonna watch the breaking bad premiere

>>15887
I tried talking to my mom about that episode of and it was frustrating because she totally misunderstood key scenes, which is no surprise considering she didn't understand the finale last year either and who knows what else. I have no idea how she can watch television if her brain can't make even the simplest deductions, must be why 90% of what she watches is reality show garbage.

>>15876
John Fahey is great. Check out Jack Rose and James Blackshaw as well, they have some similar stuff. And Robbie Basho too.

I woke up, had to deal with my annoying grandmother, then went to the park for a walk. It's too hot though, and there's that kind of sunlight that seems like it's not there but you still can't to open your eyes fully, so it wasn't a good walk. Also listened to The Downward Spiral while walking.

Called a bunch of bike messenger services. I got nothing. Well a few are hiring (like 2). Granted it's summer so shit is full then anyway, but I couldnt register earlier or try applying as i was dealing with class. Ugh. well I should specify I FINISHED calling all 20 or so listed on this site, after looking through all the messenger businesses posted on Yelp.

2 Days ago I went to this food festival with my mother and some cousins. They are in my city from Mississippi. Showing them how it is in a big city and all that. They fuck you in the ass re. prices, and they try to hide that by having a ticket system - i.e. 8 dollars for 12 tickets and most shit is at least 5 tickets. Fucking 3 chicken wings from a local/black-owned chicken chain is like 8-10 tickets. Fuck you, you can get a ~8 wing meal with fries for like ~8 dollars. One guy noted "they're playing with us". I also pissed away nearly an entire strip on italian ice + a pop as i ate some spicy-ass african food (jerk chicken + red beans/rice). I did like those Thai chicken satays with peanut sauce on it (the sauce is better than it sounds ^ _^)

I ate too many snacks and now my tummy hurts.

Went for a walk and almost got murdered

I slept until afternoon, then went out for a walk. Finished this essay on ethics I started writing earlier, and fell asleep in a forest. Slacked off on the internet the rest of the night while catching up on some manga series.

>>15899
Sounds exciting, tell me more.

>>15902
I'd really rather not.

>>15892
Thanks for those recommendations. Totally digging Robbie Basho's stuff right now.

Something weird happened to me today when I picked up the phone (there was no one else home)

I felt a electric shock go from my coxis straight into my skull. It made me tingly all over, and I got this salty taste in my mouth. I dropped down to the floor, and started grinding my teeth while drooling. I didn't cum, but I was pretty close. I have no idea what this phenomenon is called.

>>15909
I'm not sure but I think you're a superhero now

Today I was dragged out in brutal summer heat to go to a museum with my sister, and saw some interesting stuff. There was a piano & some sheet music in this one area, and for some reason I started playing bits from Brahms' Piano Concerto No 1. Somehow a person realized I was deaf and next thing I know a group of people were listening. It was really uncomfortable so I had to leave. At least I know I can still play well, but it made me really anxious for the rest of the day. Fuck summer.

I exercised for the first time in 2 years.

I ran for 30 minutes on a medium intensity program on the treadmill and it pretty much killed me. During exercising and a little while after, it felt like my heart was going to burst.
I'm going to try and do it 5 times a week, though.
The only thing I'm worried about is that I'll lose even more weight.

But seriously, it's as much fun as sticking your hand into a bee hive. Even with music, it seems to take forever.

Nothing. Learned like 20 kanji, tried to play go but I only played one match and got pissed so I stopped. The guy kept blitzing even though we had 30 minutes each, and resigned after a bit even though he was ahead. It was really annoying.

I recently read this: http://www.zeldauniverse.net/articles/the-message-of-majoras-mask/

, then I killed some bees with some cockroach spray that were trying to build their nest near the entrance to my house after I killed some weird flying black insect thingy that I'm starting to see more of in the house. The flying black insect thingy looks like a bigger mosquito that was an inch long (or at least seemed so because of it's hind legs). I then slept the rest of the day.

I now feel hungry. Or at least felt hungry when I was typing this up.

Guy with the 'hikikiomori' shirt from the last thread. I wore it again today, and a gay guy hit on me while I was reading a book on the baltic countries' history at a bookstore. Apparently he was a history professor who used to teach at harvar - and his last BF was a student at Harvard. Wonder why he doesn't teach there anymore....

My schedule is work, eat, sleep, read/fuck around with a masturbate thrown in on days I don't work (it's too Haruhidamn tiring.) My new life is better than my old, but I'm struck by how pointless it is. AT least now I have some money to use so I can make myself feel good by using it in various ways.

Have had an annoying abdominal pain all evening - shit is really distracting. Finished up some anime series at least.

Post edited on 18th Jul 2012, 8:08pm

Fuck the post office. I hope it goes bankrupt. Fuck it to the depths of hell.

Made some popcorn and enjoyed the K-on! movie. Now I must wait for the Steins;Gate, Madoka, and Strike Witches movies.

I decided to apply at university again for another degree. 4 year Ph.D programme this time - I'm so excited.

Also watched the K-on! movie despite garbage subtitles and recovered from a sleepless night all afternoon.

I've been feeling really down today (more than usual anyway) and I'm not sure why. I can barely muster my fake happy persona in front of my parents

I made a lot of tweets on Twitter today. Most weren't very good but I could talk with a Brohno some, at least. If anyone else here uses it, I have my U/N in the email field. It'd be fun to add each other on there. It's kind of like IRC.

Ordered a new laptop keyboard (fucked mine up when I was drunk last night, heh). Looked at some esoteric belief websites online and got some good laughs. It's such a bizarre subculture, the new age and paganism and UFO's and NWO and all that. I mean, I think that I'm crazy, but at least I mostly live in reality... those guys are fucking NUTS. They really believe that Haruhi talks to them and that Satan's trying to take over earth or whatever. Could you call it modern mythology?

I think I'll watch the Zeta Gundam movies tonight after watching the K-On one. I feel like I've been disconnecting from reality again lately, so these distractions are helpful... it feels like my mind is full of mud and our material world is miles and miles away. But it gives me inspiration for ontological and metaphysical writings, so I can't complain too much. It's just making any form of thriving in life past staring at the computer screen or lying in bed very difficult.

Have been on MDMA the last two nights. Starting to feel weird.

>>15926
Did you like K-On! movie? I plan to watch it today.

>>15932
I liked it. It wasn't anything fantastic, but it was K-On. An entertaining, easy watch with really likable music.

Spent the last four or five hours getting the rust off of my scripting skills.
All for the noble purpose of making a script to put in order the pages of two doujins I downloaded.

Apparently today is friend's day, so my sister is gathering a whole lot of people in my house.
Getting ready to hole up in my room without making a noise.

Woke up real early with a bad headache that I walked off, and ran into someone again that I met from /jp/ earlier this week, who lives near by. Sat around the rest of the day cleaning, IRCing, and then wrote some more ramblings about phenomenology and its relation to modernist and post-modernist contexts, mostly for my university admission. Going to spend the rest of the evening playing VNs until I fall asleep.

Got very stressed out and emotional for some reason this morning after watching the K-On! movie so I went to wander around outside. Woke up someplace weird again. After I got home, I read some papers on Western new religious movements and attacks against materialism. I've been thinking about postmodernity a bit lately and how its ideas could be combined with some form of traditionalism. Other people are desperately in need of premodern though, I think; or perhaps they only think they do because fragments of it persist within our society... we don't need to move past modernity, we need to recreate it.

I've also been reading about a game called Nomic (http://www.earlham.edu/~peters/writing/nomic.htm#intro). I think that it'd be fun to play that here; if anyone else is interested, I'll make a thread! Ideal number would be 4 people, and we'd probably need to use a tripcode (though a name's not necessary). I don't really know how to play it but I think it'd be fun to try out.

>>15943
>[K-ON movie boosted his melancholy]
>[he's so losing it]
>[keeps trying to mend/divert it with post-academic lunacy (hypermodernity VS neoluddism)]

Hi. You're not alone.

Went to the dentist today. It was a different practice from the one my family has been using for the last few years, so I was nervous about dealing with unfamiliar people. Thankfully, they were nice.

Ate some chinese food and slept.

>>15943
>>15948

Damn, now I'm worried watching the K-on movie is going to make me angry and depressed.

>>15926
>Madoka movie
Damn, Japan: stop giving me these petty reasons to live. I want to follow the truth of Silenus.

>>15948
Hypermodernity is pretty legit

Did cocaine, watched some hypocritical person I once knew slip further away from reality, played 2hu with my sister which I lost repeatedly, then woke up outside. Not sure how I got there...must have gone for a walk somewhere and forgot. Really weird.

Got really drunk and watched K-On!! (second season). Looked at lame websites online and went out for a long walk, had a good time. Haven't been able to sleep again (been up for 24+ hours)... but it's interesting, how it affects the mind. I'm sure I'll feel really awesome after a long night's rest.

Also found out that there's another diabetic hikki roughly in my area, and she's about my age. It's weird how many otakus you meet with type one, I don't know any with type two even though a popular image of an otaku is the fat neckbeard or whatever. Maybe I just look out for them more, but this makes five other diabetics I know... it's comforting, at least.

>>15961
How did you find this other hikki?

Stayed up all night thinking and wandering around the streets, trying to once and for all forget someone from my past, and to annul some vivid hallucinations I kept getting.

In the morning I had to meet with a sibling I never knew I had until a couple months ago, to take care of my parents funeral. It was the first time we met so it was really weird. At least those fucking pieces of disgusting trash are finally dead and rotting away. I've waited my entire life for this moment.

Finally opened I package I got from someone; it had tea and home made cookies. Also bought some games on Steam too, and had one gifted to me. I can't wait to play them. Life is good! （・∀・　）

Finally got around to emailing some people I fell out of contact with about being references for a security clearance. This situation is doubly unpleasant: I have to figure out who I can put down out of the very few people I know/knew in any capacity for each stupid thing they ask, then I have to contact them out of the blue. I wish I was a rock or the sky.

>>15961
>>15965
Im not >>19561 but I met this really shy girl once a college doodling and drawing stuff and I talked to her often every day when we met. That s how we hung out with each other for a while. She introduced me to homestuck. This was like 2010 I think before the fanbase hit /tg/, imageboards in general or aniem cons.

the dry skin on my foot has cracked and now moving my toe at all is torture. why

>>15929
I'm a former active 9/11 truther (fell out with most of the 'scene' but still talk to some); and yeah there's some weird conspiracy theory shit out there. For a period of time when I was younger I read the UFO and other textfiles on former TOTSE, rense.com and infowars and related shit. Apparently there's more new conspiracy forums like the Haruhilikeproductions forum which I sometimes post on. I remember back in the day when only abovetopsecret was the main conspiracy forum and before infowars had comments allowed.

It pisses me off how people lump together all conspiracies together, no matter how plausible or nutty some might be.
This is how the government is able to get away with anything they want, anyone who questions anything gets called a conspiracy theories and written off as a wacko.
There is overwhelming pfoff to support the idea that 9/11 was a inside job, it's idiotic and insulting to mix in anyone who says so with people who think lizard people are trying to take over the world.

>>15975
kinda entering political discussion territory here, please stop

This is kind of derailing from the thread premise. Conspiracy threads may be suited to /mt/ or something.

>>15976
Go away, discussing politics is what keeps democracy strong.

>>15978
But we're aristocrats...

>>15980
I'd say we're lumpenproletarians.

>>15961
>another diabetic hikki

Actually, I'm taking some tests this morning, to check for levels of uric acid in my body. I was relatively well for a couple years; but last month I started again with polyuria (over 8 times/night), madding itch/burning in my heels/tarsals and a few days of acute renal and joint pain. I finally decided to Google about it and the possibility of it being Gout got me quite nervous. We'll see what happens.

>>15981
Marx didn't like those either.

I took a bunch of sleeping pills and slept for a while.

I think I'll go back to bed.

I finished all the available chapters of Kimi ni Todoke on a manga website. Fed the cats and cleaned the litter box because my mother is on vacation, and rode my bike to my dad's house to eat dinner.

I got a little bit of the online homework done for my calculus class, finished off the Azumanga Daioh anime, and played some Diablo. Now I really need to go to bed so I can get more calculus homework done before class starts.

Nice lazy Sunday

>>15983
Pier Paolo Pasolini loved us.

I'm very nervous. If only I didn't have such a warped self-image of myself. I'm going to be spending time at a stranger's house, and I just know I'll somehow fuck things up.

>>15986
Sounds pleasant, Anon!

went out to do some sprinting, park was full of disgusting people playing sports and whatever else while making a shitload of noise. I need to find a better place to run. Spent the rest of the day playing Genius of Sappheiros, i really like this game.

>>15991
It's because of summer. Summer is the worst. Around this time I like to start listening to music that reminds me of winter (like The Nutcracker, which I went to see as a kid every Christmas) and read about places like the far polar regions of the world. Sadly, I live in shit city as far as that goes. Loads of idiot fucks around here who enjoy the hot weather and go out and be loud.

Spent the morning sitting beside a river writing. The application requirements for the Ph.D programme at this school are quite long, but whatever - I have a couple months to do it. It's already longer than they accept, so I'll have to shorten it down another time. Later, got talked into accepting the idea of a roommate to live at my place for 3-4 months due to money problems. At least they're an otaku and, funny enough, does stuff on 4shit, so there are some similar interests. They have one really big manga collection too, which I can't wait to check out.

Feeling tired, so I'll just play Battlefront 2 the rest of the night.

Post edited on 23rd Jul 2012, 9:24pm

>>15992
Actually it's winter here right now, though it has been warm lately. The pieces of shit here are noisy regardless if it's freezing or scorchingly hot outisde, so it don't matter much the season.

I tried tagging all my images so they are easier to find, but in the end I decided it was too much work and only got about 1% done.

>>15997
I've thought about doing that too but that's an OCD pandoras box that I'm not even gonna try to open

Today I replaced the laptop keyboard which I broke. I added more RAM while I was at it, too. I found my Nook and added a bunch of literary criticism ebooks to it, with a focus on post-structuralism. I thought about dogmatic thought and its role in philosophy. Some dogmatic thought (such as Wittgenstein's Tractatus) appeals very strongly to me, while others (such as Evola's Men Among the Ruins" turn me off quite a bit. I believe that to an extant, all philosophy is dogmatic; but it's a term that you don't frequently see associated with philosophy so I really find it rather bewildering as I think about it more.

>>15982
Good luck, man. Diabetes is a really shitty condition, I wouldn't wish it on anyone. Us type ones can eat junk food and drink soda with it, but for things with many carbs, it's a pain getting all the insulin in (if you use small needles) and it's also a pain if you stop being hungry half way through your meal. It's also annoying trying to guess how many carbs are in a food... Guess too many and you'll get hypoglycemic, with the risk of coma or brain damage. My friend told me about how once almost died from that.

Guess too few and you'll get hyperglycemia which is also a pain but not immediately deadly. One common misconception about diabetes is that you take insulin based on the amount of sugar you take -- in actuality, it's based on your carbohydrate intake. Insulin is taken in a fixed ratio to carbohydrates; that means that even if you want to eat bread or pasta (foods which tend to have NO sugar), you'll need to take shots.

Things like meat or diet soda or alcohol are pretty much "free" though, you don't need to take shots for the first two because they have no carbohydrates or for the latter because it just does weird things with your sugar levels. I recommend against getting too drunk, though, since it feels a lot like low blood sugars. You could black out drunk with a low blood sugar and get in serious problems with it.

On the topic of diabetes I talked more with my diabetic friend about the topic of meeting. I've never met a diabetic with an insulin pump (I use needles and I'm happy with them!), so I'll learn more about the condition, if nothing else. My friend's been a diabetic since the age of four years; I can't imagine how awful that'd be. I feel like my encounters with death and the amount of care for my body that the condition requires have made me appreciate life a lot more. What's kind of funny about the person is that they're also a 2D con, with a bunch of H manga and doujins and eroge. I kind of hope I'd get to see it...

>>15965
There's a place where some posters from certain imageboards and forums communicate. There aren't very many hikkis there though... It wasn't Gaia or 4shit or anything like that.

I find it really intriguing how Marxist thought blends premodernity with postmodernity while straying completely from modernistic beliefs. I've been reading a lot of it on my recovered nook and really enjoying myself.

Took some Lorazepam at about 3am for anxiety. Slept for a bit. Woke up...slept some more. Woke up...slept some more. Woke up, but by now it was nearly midnight, so I took another pill and I am waiting for sleep

I enjoy lazy days, but not the ones were you just sleep. The most productive thing I did was dust my library room.

That latter bit has me thinking: for those of you with lots of books (manga and LNs acceptable) do you bother to organize them in any way? By genre, author, or whatever? Mine just sit wherever there is room on the shelves or floors because I have so many.

>>16002
I have a lot of books, and I tend to sort non-fiction by type of book (branch of study, date work was published, and finally by author). Most of my non-fiction falls under philosophy or religion so such sorting is very easy to do. As for fiction, I just sort them by author's alphabetical last name. With my manga, I sort that by series name, and for personal journals, I arrange them more or less by date finished.

Why not use the Dewey Decimal System or the American Library of Congress's sorting method if you have too many books to easily sort them with your own method? Dewey's system is very easy to use and it makes a lot of sense, and you should be used to it if your school system used it (most people I know have).

Here's the LoC's classification system, if you're interested: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Library_of_Congress_Classification#The_system

And for the DDC: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dewey_Decimal_Classification#Classes_listed

It's wonderful that you have many books! I thought I was the only one on here that was a bibliophile. Have you been reading anything good lately, Anonymous? I've been looking through Guénon's "The Crisis of the Modern World" and enjoying it quite a bit. A friend of mine's been luring me into the world of traditional thought, it's very intriguing... If you haven't, you should read Mysticism and Logic by a man named Russell. Anything by him is a fun read, but that's in the public domain so it's free!

>>16003

I think I'll try this "Dewey Decimal Classification" system.

That can be my project for the day.

Until a moment ago, I heartly believed today was tuesday...
Where did my life go?

I also go through days/weeks thinking that it is some day and not fully knowing/caring what day I am in.

The only reason I didn't go through that this week is because yesterday was Jump day and I was anticipating Jump day because I was bored and had nothing better to do.

Post edited on 26th Jul 2012, 5:26am

The A on my A key has entirely rubbed off, with my S and D keys not far behind. Now my parents will never be able to use my computer

Its my birthday today. I got some money from relatives that don't know how much of a loser I am, so I might use it to upgrade my computer or buy some figures.

I got a fig in the mail, and played some video games with my sister. Lazy rainy days are great.

I saw a forklift with a giant inflated pikachu on top of it today.

I am applying for a job to supervise a summer camp for kids. I used my friends as 'contacts' - one guy in Latvia, one in Tennessee and one close to where I live. They don't know these are people I largely know off forums and whatnot. They. Will allow cooking, bringing outside food and media. So I can show them anime and whatnot. Hopefully I get it.Lolisand Shota can't be THAT annoying? Right?

Wouldn't surprise me if a woman gets the damn job though. I'm hoping not but I only saw one dude there working. Oh well....

>>16024
Children are Haruhidamn awful. You might as well have applied to work in hell itself

>>16025
I want to apply at Hell, the last guy who worked there got fired

>>16020
Happy Birthday!

>>16023
That sounds pretty cool.

>>16024
Real 3D children are the most cruel creatures on this shit hole of a planet. If you don't want to feel regret for being there or want to feel like killing yourself, you're better off being the Janitor of some mall or something. I understand that there isn't a 100% chance of being accurate, but mostly garbage procreate and when they do they don't take care of or teach their children anything since they don't give a shit. They'll all be saying "curse" words and spouting the meme's that you'd find on websites normals go to, and other stupid, painful shit.

>>16026

Today I feel particularly sad. Just generic existential angst bullshit and inability to find enjoyment in anything.

>>16029
I'm doing the same thing, except I started reading Boys on the Run after putting it off for a long while and I've had terrible things stuck in my head for a long while now.

>>16024
>>16027
Pretty much this. Today I went out to eat and there was a family in front of me, and they had two kids. The oldest one kept talking loudly and seemed pretty rude, even to her parents, but the youngest one looked very shy and was very embarassed when the waitress started chitchatting with her, and said thank you (actually, merci) whem she was served (the others did not). I don't know, maybe not all kids are as awful and irritating as I think.

>>16031
Not all kids are awful and irritating. I've been working as a tutor, and I've had to teach some younger kids (well, middle school age) and they're not so bad. Energetic, to be sure, and they get bored with the material, but they do what I tell them. A couple are like that quiet girl you mentioned.

These particular kids are really smart, though, at least for their age. The average kid is probably not quite so tolerable.

>>16024
I worked with children before and it was a terrible experience, every second I spent with them I wanted to kill these little shits.

I wish you luck, because you will need it.

I'm an uncle now. Hoo, boy.

>[handling children]

There's this little stuff I do at home and get some payment for. However, the boss's birthday came along and he announced that he expected us all coworkers at his house the next saturday, to celebrate with him (so I'd better go). I thought it would be hard, with all those people there drinking and laughing and talking shit I had no intention to contribute on; but, like heaven sent, my boss's pretty little daughter, around 5 years old, somehow grew fond of me from the first moment and clung to me the entire while, showing me her drawings, stuffed animals and ballet books, withdrawing me from almost anyone else in the place and, very happily and specifically, from any other woman...

So, thanks to the loli, I could both endure the party and leave a good impression at everyone, as they admittedly acknowledged me as "good with kids". This was all, of course, thanks to her being actually cute (though kind'a nuts, at the end) and my being very civil about it.

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>>16027
>>16031
>>16032
Yeah I am expecting the children to be a bit annoying; as I remember that time when I was younger. I.e. classmates saying I was eating a dick because I was eating a banana. I admittedly LOLed at that. Thi will be fun.

They are like 10 to 13 years old (ppl at the job) and I used to judge policy debate tournaments - But they were teenagers and middle schoolers. And I was 21 when judging them I.e. not much older.

Honestly cursing and spouting memes doesn't bother me much. Depending on what happens I might let them wrestle each other without interference and shit if I can get away with it (I.e. don't get fired).

Anyway I'm doubting these kids will all spout net memes these kids are kind've ghetto - but fuck I've seen ghetto people and people from the hood at anime cons and wearing weeaboo shit so meh.

>>16049
How was your boss's loli crazy? Is she like Yangire following you around stalking threatening to kill you? Just wondering. Also why was it good that you were kept away from other 3DPD? Are they after you or something?

>>16041

I've been an uncle for the better part of a decade. It's OK, but I feel like crap when I can't buy them birthday or christmas presents due to being a neet and having no money.

I got a haircut today, the hairdresser said I have beautiful hair. This kind of thing makes me really, really uncomfortable.

>>16060
I cut my hair today too. Showering after a haircut, especially after letting it get really long, feels so good.

>>16060
>>16061
What a coincidence, today I had my hair cut too!

I think I caught a bug/cold from using a bank machine today.

Public places are so disgusting.

Wrote. Got drunk at 9 am. Passed out. Sobering up. Writing again.

Spent most of the day watching random videos on Youtube. Highlights included Street Fighter - The Annotated Series which made me laugh my ass off.

>>16064
You're living the dream.

I sat in bed sick most of the day writing about Hinduism. It's such an interesting religion. Felt better after a few hours, and finally opened a fig I got earlier in the week. Later on I bought just under 90 dollars in books that I didn't really need right now and played Breath of Fire 2 on GBA.

I watched a movie called Left Handed today. I guess I would recommend it as a movie in general. It does better to depict the surroundings of the situation than most other movies about the subject do.

>>16090
What subject? Left-handedness?

>>16090
are there a lot of movies about left handedness

Ordered a bunch of books on Deconstructionism. Damn, they were fucking expensive.

>>16093
You mean Derrida?

>>16094
I bought some of his writings, but no, I can't say I bought any books ON Derrida - unless you consider his thoughts on the pages to be of he, himself.

Woke up early, read a bit of manga and organized some books. Watched Yuru Yuri and got bored. In the afternoon, I took a handful of Ativan and went to my old university and bugged a music professor I know & asked if I could play around on a piano. I've been considering some of the best musicians were deaf, why stop what I like to do? So I spent a couple hours playing Totentanz for piano solo by Franz Liszt over and over solely by memory and watching the hammers/dampers. Apparently I can still play all right, but there are some issues with the pressure velocity and thus loudness of some notes.

Finishing up Juuni Kokuki now and repairing MySQL databases.

I went to the local library, and borrowed the 1910 edition of Principia Mathematica. The library is otherwise quite ill-equipped, so this was a surprising finding.

>>16105
Russell's? I wanted it for a while; then I stopped caring...
Best of luck with it.

>>16105

That's a great book. It got me into Russell.

1910 edition...that's cool.

>>16107
It's a great book for men. Math and logic is what makes us, us, after all.

Wanted to test Google Music so I used a proxy and signed up for the service. Uploading my first HDD with approximately 10.000 songs (256 songs upload rate in 4 hours) it will take a while.

>>16110

Post some impressions later, I'm kinda curious.

It's my 18th birthday!

I'm gonna go legally buy some cigarettes and DXM later today. Haha! I'm so fucking cool! Ha... ha...

>>16117
Eh... happy birthday.

>>16117
Happy birthday. Relax and enjoy yourself.

>>16117
Happy birthday
Don't fuck yourself too much
Or maybe do, if that's what you want.

>>16117
Happy Birthday.

I got a pizza from a place that opened up around here recently, it was pretty good. I'm a really picky eater but I like trying out new kinds of food I like.

>>16117
Happy birthday, bro.

Went out to eat sushi with my family.
Turns out I hate sushi.

Played some strategy game and downloaded a bunch of custom maps for it. Worked on a short paper I was writing about fascism. Kept hearing awful voices in my head all day that didn't stop until I did what they wanted. Read "Dialogue on the Soul" by Aelred of Rievaulx.

Post edited on 1st Aug 2012, 7:28pm

Finally mustered the willpower to play some games on the pc, too bad I failed at them all. Went out because needed to buy food and water. Got angry because my neighboor is a noisy piece of shit.

The whole week I've been feeling like my heart about to burst and half of my lungs are torn apart.

>>16121>>16122>>16123>>16124>>16130
Thanks!

I went out to eat with family for dinner as celebration. Sometime, I think maybe thirty minutes before we left, I began to enter a state of psychosis. About two hours later I found myself in bed with a bad headache. I think that I saw my family and I think I left sometime in the middle, but other than the fact that I left, I can't recall anything else. I'm not a psychologist, but the best I can describe my mental state would have been as being "psychotic." I remember losing myself in daydreams. It's very hard to describe, but it's like dropping out of reality into your imagination. Rather than having the things you see around you forced into your visual field, and the things in your mind's eye barely visible, existing underneath your perception fo reality, if that makes sense, the things in my imagination became much more powerful than what I could see. I knew that it wasn't real, but my actions must have been unconscious. In my bed I had some spare change and there was an empty water bottle on my floor, so I think I bought that. A while later, after I think he arrived home, I asked my father how dinner was. He said it went great but he wondered why I left. "I dunno," I told him. "Do you really not remember? Were you just nervous, maybe?" No, I can't remember anything at all. "Were you on drugs?" The scary part, I think, was that I wasn't on any at all. My blood sugar levels were also normal before I left and when I returned, so I don't think it had anything to do with that. I've had several episodes like this before, but as I haven't been leaving my room, there's been no harm to me and no one else has been affected by it.

Jeepers. I can't remember who even went, and it was my own damn party.

>>16147

If it's psychosis, it warrants some concern. It can be really dangerous if you begin to experience delirious periods with little to no recollection of it. Maybe talk to a doctor?

Went to my endocrinologist and got my A1C checked. It was a 6, which the doctor said was the best score diabetics should have. I'm keeping great care of my diabetes! The doctor also made an appointment for me to get an insulin pump. It'll be fun to be a cyborg.

My dad said he'd buy me some books so I got him to buy me a 4 volume set of Joseph Campbell's "Masks of Haruhi," Sherwood Anderson's "Winesburg, Ohio," Rene Guenon's "The Crisis of the Modern World," and George Berkeley's works. I also got a text on literary criticism from Ihab Hassan. Really been enjoying Winesburg, Ohio. I'll probably read Campbell next because I've been really interested in religion lately. We went out to sushi after we got books and that was nice.

>>16169
That filter never fails to amuse me.

Today I had an early doctors appointment which left me pissed off. After, I read a little Averroes, worked on a painting then played Macross Ace Frontier with my sister.

Got more medication, but my illness seems to be intensifying again. I'm seeing people that don't exist, and hearing voices that demand I do awful things to myself if I am to be offered any respite. The sick thing is they don't give it to me - but I can't say no to them. I don't know what to do.

Going to screw around with Red Alert multiplayer for the rest of the night.

Went to a person's house to prepare my program since I'll soon have a recital in their piano. They had two floors, a gorgeous daughter and a 2/4 tail Fritz Dobbert. It was very awkward since I felt plebian in such an ambient.

Today I went out and did some very stupid things, which I regret immensely and will probably obsess over for the next few months. But I also feel more lighthearted than I have in a long time. It feels good to have something to be genuinely ashamed about, as opposed to the "toxic", recurrent, basic shame I feel every day.

Today I read and daydreamed. It'd be nice if I could do that forever. I've been trying to see if there are ways I can induce "total hallucination" in myself (thinking about unpleasant memories, spending time outside, sitting in the complete darkness [my fear]), but I can't seem to figure it out. If I knew what caused them, I might also know how to prevent them. I've been thinking it was stress, but that's not it... and I've been eating and sleeping and drinking water like normal, so that's probably not be it, either.


>>16179
3DPD! You can't let yourself find it beautiful! It's just an illusion! True beauty can only be 2dimensional!

>>16182
I know how you feel. It's nice to simply feel like you are just a dumbass instead of having to deal with more caustic self-loathing.

My city is being surrounded by grassfires (　´Д`)

So hot here today. I'm melting!!!

I made my laundry (mostly underware, a couple t-shirts and pijamas). Next two months: here we go.

Cooked dinner for the first time in a long while for my family. Turned out pretty well.

It was hot out, so my imouto and I left the city for the day and did stuff. Found some neet books from Xunzi at a used book shop in some small town. They're interesting, but basically just Confucian philosophy.

>>16192
>>16193
>>16198
I take it you all live in the northern hemisphere, hence in summer...?
However, it is hot right here as well.

Its cold here in Australia. Stop stealing my warmth!

Apparently my pokemon does not have any Individual Value and was born a failure. Just like me.

Got stuck in the rain last night with my sister for at least 2 hours, so we got drunk in a park. There were some real cool lightning strikes. She suggested she buy me a real piano and would not let me refuse, so today we went shopping. I settled on a used Yamaha C3 Grand Piano. I have no clue how they plan on getting it in the building we live in but apparently it is no problem (coming this week). I can't wait to play it, regardless.

I've been reading this real cool VN I heard about yesterday, called Subarashiki Hibi: Furenzoku Sonzai. It's so far one of the best I've come across. The characters are all very interesting. Check it out - seriously!

Post edited on 5th Aug 2012, 10:24am

Got really drunk and played a bunch of Counter-Strike last night. Passed out, woke up a bit hungover. Pretty fun night.

Later on, in the evening, my sister wanted to take me out for a drive. She was kind of creeping me out because she kept squeezing my shoulder and rubbing my back and smiling at me. We stopped by a little store and she bought me a bunch of sweets (my father doesn't let me buy them for whatever reason) and told me she wanted to see me more. I hope she's not a brocon because people who fall in love with their family members are really mentally fucked up. One of my friends online was just telling me about how he knew a Japanese fujoshi who was fucking her brother, so I know it's a thing which happens... Really, really disturbing.

On the way back from our drive, she asked me if I wanted to smoke weed with her. I told her "maybe" to be polite. She thinks I've never used drugs or drank before, it's kind of adorable... Maybe I was reading too much into the stuff earlier, but I've lost a lot of respect for her after finding out that she's a stoner. But she has a nose ring and frequently has 3DPDs spend the night... they sometimes make lewd noises... ick.

I ordered some clothes on saturday for some odd reason and they came today. I was home alone but luckily it's one of those delivery companies that let you put in where you want the package leaving if nobodies home. Just had to go outside and fetch it without talking to the guy.

Then I went for a bike ride, 21 miles in 10 minutes less than I did my previous 20 miles. Feels pretty good.

Now I am going to go crash for 12 hours, have fun.

>>16229
>because people who fall in love with their family members are really mentally fucked up

Sora and Haruka would like a word with you.

>>16231
2D != 3D

It's kind of like how being a lolicon doesn't make you a pedophile

Had a power outage earlier, which always scares me because I'm afraid it will mess my computer up or something even though I have a protector. Luckily it came back on within an hour, and not the three and a half they were estimating.

Today is my birthday!

19 years down the drain

>>16258
Happy birthday dude.

>>16258
Happy Birthday!

>>16258

Happy birthday!

My mother got really mad at me today for no real reason. Nothing says "I should really put a bullet in my head already" like having one of the only people in your life talk to you like garbage

>>16258
Happy birthday, bro. Hope you enjoy your day to the fullest.

>>16258
Congrats!!

>>16258
Congrats. Enjoy this days of celebration, even if you have nothing to celebrate

>>16230
Today I did 32 miles. I ran out of water after about 14 miles, not good at all. Now my body hurts like hell and I'm going to sleep for as long as my body would like.

Have a nice day tohnos.

Went for an early morning walk, spent the rest of the morning on IRC. Helped someone I know move, then read a book (some Honoré de Balzac). Drank a bit of Scotch and had an early night.

I got some manga in the mail today and mostly read that all day. Fainted again and was out for who knows how long. Need food. Got a little bit of money from something and so I'm shopping for a fig but there is so much stuff I want, it's hard to choose.

Woke up with a sore throat. I hate this.

>>16259
>>16260
>>16261
>>16263
>>16264
>>16265
Thanks guys. Hearing it from so many of you made me feel good. Today I'll play starcraft and watch anime, but I'm not sure which series.

I hope my new headphones come in the mail today!

Well, it's Nagasaki day, I'll give you three guesses as to what this is.

>>16288
a fire

>>16290
It has a little to do with this.

>>16290
No, no, no. It is a .jpg file that stores the image of a fire.

>>16288
My first notion was that you were burning an American flag in that pot or something, but all I see poking out of the pot is a stick.

[edit]Oh wait, did you have to flee your house due to anti-Japanese sentiment, and are camping out? I recall you mentioning before that you had to put up with a lot of shit from relatives around the anniversary of Pearl Harbor.

Post edited on 9th Aug 2012, 9:16pm

Its so windy today. My garden shed fell apart and my eyes are itchy because dust kept flying into it.

I read a book called ``Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas" and found solidarity with the author's anti-normal sentiment. Began reading ``Gravity's Rainbow" and I've been enjoying it quite a bit. I also left the house today to buy some new shirts and pants... I don't usually enjoy clothes shopping, but I found it kind of fun. Marathonned an old show called Abenobashi Mahou Shoutengai and liked it.

I willed myself to go outside and check out a local festival in my town. Besides, I couldn't sleep.

On the way there, I had encountered two girls on one a side-street walking towards me, one of them about a head taller.

They see me and the big girl smiles at me and says hello.

3D being PD and all that, I just kept listening to my scifi audiobook and ignored while maintaining eye contact in spaced out sort of way.

Few seconds later, she says "Fuck you" and pushes me to the side as they walk on and laugh.

Real girls are weird.

>>16302
>I just kept listening to my scifi audiobook and ignored while maintaining eye contact in spaced out sort of way

well to be fair nobody likes having someone stare at them. also not acknowledging someone if they say hi is pretty rude, though not enough to warrant their reaction

Post edited on 10th Aug 2012, 5:38pm

>>16302
a lot of 3dpd are whores, especially with alcohol in them

this goes for females as well as males

>>16302
This is why I always wear sunglasses when I go out, so people can't tell I'm not looking at them.
makes me look like a dick, especially at night, but who cares.

>>16313
I wear them to be able to look at them, when necessary, without feeling exposed.

>>16316
I wear them so people won't be able to recognize me in court.

I had to take a drug test to be considered for employment. I have a shy bladder.
I couldn't produce until I had drank enough water that I wanted to throw up. I started having chest pains and also fell asleep in the middle of the day from all the water fucking up my chemical balances and now I have a headache. Hopefully, I don't have any brain damage from brain-swelling.

I wanted to inspect an apartment but I stupidly missed my bus, even after I submitted an application. now I have to work another week before I can make any progress toward moving out of this shitty place

It was my sisters birthday yesterday. I had planned something neat, but a couple days of rain ruined it. Instead, I took her to a symphony, then we hung out at home all night and had a lot of fun.

I was walking down the street at around noon when some guy I was walking passed was like, "hey. you fuck pussy?"
"Uh, what?" I responded.
"I can hook you up with some, for some cash, you know, man."
"I don't have money to spend on that kind of thing."
"Whatever, you got a credit card?"
"No." (Also, what the fuck, why would I tell him if I had a credit card? I would assume you don't fucking buy hookers with a credit card.)
"Whatever, you got a cig, man?"
"No, sorry," as I started to walk away.
His farewell phase was, "man, you fucked up, Jimmy."

I really need to stop going outside.

>>16330
The fucking worst people talk to you, especially in urban settings.

Toothless homeless people are the worst, I mean, they don't even make sense when they start talking, they just talk to talk.

Maybe they feel like they -need- to talk to people to stay sane, but sometimes I feel like I am the opposite, I need to stay away from strangers as much as possible.

>>16330
I wonder how many parents see their child and think that is what they're gonna grow up to be like.

Oh who am I kidding, people like that probably had just as horrible parents.

My mom got me a USB dvd drive as a present, and I've been going through all my old disks looking for something interesting.
I found some videogames I used to love and had completely forgotten about, and a couple of shows that I burned about 6 years ago, but for some reason never bothered to watch.

>>16332
I actually find it interesting to try to make sense out of the non-sense that the drunk bums on the streets say when they can over to talk. The only thing that annoys me is if they try to get close to me.

Not every homeless person out there is a dumb drunkard - you shouldn't generalize. Some of them choose to live such "nomadic" lifestyles.

This guy, for example, is a talented artist who takes it easy all day drinking coffee and drawing: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KNfuUPuaih4

>>16340
I'd bet most of them have not chosen such ways of life and are actually just the victims of a flawed, self-destructive economic system. I did not call them stupid and most of them do drink. I base these arguments completely on my own opinion but I am almost sure they reflect reality.

Some stupid moose demon thing is kicking my ass! It's name is Bjorn and my normal team of monsters isn't enough to take it on. I also accidentally healed it when I used this weird spell that some old man taught me.

I give up.

>>16111
it does what is supposed to do play music.
20000 songs was not much when I realized I had 45000 songs more on another harddrive. My advice would be to only upload specific certain albums you like and not a bunch of random albums like I did.
Google music feels also like the first time I used Itunes all music became unsorted from being sorted(songs with same name are put into one album and many other strange stuff like covers)
I have been spoiled by spotify(2008) and foobar.
But if you want to play music in your webbrowser it is perfectly fine and stable.

>>16338
I actually prefer to talk with drunk hobos(the ones that don't try to rob me) than talk with normal people and hear them drag on about "muh gurls, muh jerbs and muh carz" and lame television shows.

Two days ago, there was a big parade in my town. For some reason I can't explain, I went and wandered around during it. I ended up settling down in a bookstore where I bought a copy of Schopenhauer's "World as Will and Idea," and I enjoyed reading that there. Idealism's been really appealing to me lately for some reason.

After I finished reading that and drinking a few teas, I left the woman in the store a tip of $20 which she seemed to really appreciate. They had nice chairs in the store and it was very quiet, and the service was nice... Then I made my way down to a local grocery store and picked up some cough syrup.

On the way home, I consumed 533mg of dextromethorphan (9 days worth of the stuff, according to the label!). It lasted for about 11 hours. Had a grand old time on that. I played some video games (Left4Dead on Easy mode, Killing Floor) and just had a blast. Wandered around in my house on it a bit too. When the drug started "peaking" as much as it really does, I just stared at my hand... then I went outside and just stared up at the stars. There's been shooting stars where I live which made it even more wonderful.

When the trip was nearly completely over, I went to Seattle with my family. The car ride was great, I just tuned them out completely and felt good riding around. They left me and I wandered around for a few hours. Had some Japanese food, played arcade games, rode around on the bus system, stopped by a bookstore. Got some more tea. I did surprisingly well; I didn't feel any anxiety or stress like I usually do when I'm outside of my room, and I wasn't tired at all, which was odd, considering I was up all night. I believe both of those strange effects resulted from my drug use.

I passed out in the car on the way home and slept for about 12 hours. I'm still pretty exhausted since by body's catching up to me... spending a lot of time outside, interacting with others, and going on mystery drug trips really wears you out. Today I'll probably just sit in bed and read Descartes and ponder more on Idealistic thought. Wow! I had such a great, amazing weekend! I can't believe how happy I've been, this is the best I've felt in... literally years!

My piano finally showed up, and I spent the morning cleaning up my flat to make room, and dug out my old compositions to read over them. Went out at lunch to find a tuner to hire, and to buy books which the clerk let me have for free (weird). Felt dizzy and went home, and worked on this Russian language play I've been doing that is vaguely based on Texhnolyze...or at least borrows its setting. To thank the person who bought me the piano, I took them out to dinner and had an ATM eat my bank card (fucking stupid thing).

My last wisdom tooth started coming in today. I figured most people have theirs by 16 or so, but I'm 20 and just now getting the last one.

Dammit, does it hurt or what. I can't breathe through my mouth, swallow, talk, or even listen to music without feeling pain in my mouth. Fortunately, my mouth seems big enough for the last three to have come in properly (i.e. not crooked and needing to be pulled), so I'm sure this one will too. Good thing, because I hate dentists and haven't seen one for eight years.

>>16351
Mine came in fine too, and I haven't been to a dentist in about as long as you. He was always telling me he would need to pull them out too, guess he didn't know what he was talking about (or just wanted money)

So I've been considering going back to college and finishing my degree. I kind of want to learn more things, be an educated NEET and get away from my family.

Then I found out that most of the residential colleges have a 1GB per month data allowance. I think I'll stay cosy on Tohno-chan for the foreseeable future.

>>16351
maybe see a dentist then? I went to the dentist for the first time in several years last week. the financial pain was the worst part.

>>16355
1gb per month??? That would last any normal person a night or two..

had some windows updates today and one of them wouldn't install. Well, it would, but then it would keep bugging me that it's available as if I didn't download it at all. After doing this a few times I did a system restore to last week, installed all the updates again and....the same thing happened. I was really worried something would be wrong, but I looked it up and I guess a bunch of people are having this same problem.

>>16348
Glad to see you are so happy. I miss feeling like that. Maybe one day I'll experience things like that again.

>>16358
Have you tried this thing? http://windows.microsoft.com/en-US/windows7/What-is-the-System-Update-Readiness-Tool

If you don't have Vista or newer, you might try this: One time, I was having a problem with Windows XP getting stuck when trying to download the updates, and renaming \WINDOWS\SoftwareDistribution\DataStore\DataStore.edb to something else fixed it.

>>16362
Thanks, but it seems they fixed the problem already. Downloaded the update one last time last night and it never bothered me again

Packing my things in order to be ready to move out of my parent's house this weekend.

I'm nervous about it, but I feel that this just needs to be done.

1700 miles is a long way though.

>>16375
I hope everything goes well for you.

Today I have been listening to the zun music collection cds, about to start ghostly field club now.

>>16375
Good luck! I don't think I could ever move that far away from my family

>>16375
Good luck! I hope that you don't end up somewhere you'll hate or meet people who'll try to make everything horrible for you.

>>16375
Where are you going and how are you managing it all? You'll have to tell us about it when you come back.

>>16376
>>16377
>>16378
Thanks.

>>16379
Colorado, I hear it's nice. Even if it actually isn't at least it'll be something different, something new. I know somebody there, somebody that I can trust, that'll help me settle in. Should make things easier than just blindly moving out there. I wouldn't be traveling across the country otherwise.

My cat has been really sick lately, she is just skin and bones at this point. It hurts like hell to see her this way.

She has been with me for 6 years, I don't know what I'll do if I lose her.

>>16387
I hope your cat gets better. The grieve of the loss of a close is sad.

Went to a baseball game with my dad. It was kind of interesting. Fireworks show at the end was nice. People at baseball games are strangely gregarious. The alcohol? Or is it just convention, like not talking to random strangers is convention in most other public places?

Also I found out I am two inches taller than I thought I was. Kinda weird, I always thought other people exaggerated my height but apparently not.

Seeding is suffering. How do people keep their ratio to a good amount without worrying that their next DL will drop it below 1.000?

>>16402
I usually seed to 1.6~1.7 and that's enough to assure that my ratio never drops below 1.5, that on a shitty 33kB/s upload rate connection. Just by keeping the computer seeding when I'm sleeping.
Then again, over are the days when I dled a game a day and a few anime on the weekends.

I was drinking a bottle of chocolate milk earlier and I think I swallowed something that was in it. I'm hoping it was just ice and not some piece of plastic

My mum told me there was a job open at mcdonalds so I was filling in the application form on the website.
I was doing fine until the "What's your proudest accomplishment to date?"
At which point I completely broke down and started to cry because I realise I haven't really been proud of anything in my life.

After I calmed down I decided to put down learning to read and write when I was a kid..because without that I'd be completely screwed.

Then I had to write down a professional reference and have nobody to write.

I got back from a 3 day trip to Montreal, Quebec. It's as lame as it sounds though I guess I found it fun enough.

For no reason I feel terribly suicidal today, but it's okay, as I have Yuru Yuri to watch.

I noticed that I had a bit of swelling on my thigh that could've been from a bug bite or maybe some allergy. I've had it for a couple of days and decided to let it bleed out a bit by cutting it a little. I managed to put a small incision on it with my best knife, but as soon as I saw the blood coming out of me, I have no idea what happened, but I felt extremely nauseous and felt like vomiting. I felt a good deal of vertigo to the point where I lost my sense of direction for a few moments. My stomach was in pain and I couldn't do much except inhale and exhale as much as I could to calm myself.

I'm still not sure if it's the sight of blood itself or just the sight of my own blood that makes me weak, but I have no idea how I've come to be like this.

I am without a doubt a bigger failure than I could've ever imagined.

I just had a haircut for the first time in over a year. I was nervous as hell. The woman who used to cut my hair has left to have a baby which sucked - She's the only person I feel comfortable sitting in silence while she cuts my hair as I trust she knows what she's doing.

The 3dpd who cut my hair this time though, oh gees. Wearing a crop top, skin tight jeans or jeggings, fake tan and dyed black hair. Most of the time she had her tits in my face or digging into my back. I told her I wanted it short but then she cut it like a mid length womans haircut, then when I told her I wanted it shorter like shaved short she suddenly seemed really pissed off and didn't cut my hair very calmy.

Worse than playing a horrible game of dota for an hour and a half.

The voices in my head yelled at me to do some heroin and cut myself up quite a bit last night, so I listened to them. Kind of disappointed I did that, but at least I made it two months without doing it...that's something.

earlier some site asked me to open a pdf file out of the blue, so I closed my browser and checked my MSE and it had found 4 items. I removed them so hopefully I'm not infected

>>16319
And surprise, it was for nothing. No calls or emails.

>>16414
That's pretty fucked, man.

>>16413
I recommend getting a buzzer and just doing it yourself.

>>16422
But even giving yourself a buzzcut is difficult. Pretty much the only thing you could do is completely bald.

>>16423
its not that hard, I've been doing it for years

>>16423
it's not hard ! the secret is to do it slowly.

>>16414
don't do that. you have to be strong !

I got my exam results from back in may/june back earlier. I did so bad, I can say goodbye to my dream of going to vet school after next year is up.
Came home and slept for a few hours, going to drown my sorrows later.

I got another Raspberry Pi in the mail today. In fact, I forgot I even ordered it. No idea what to do with it though...

>>16424
>>16413

I cut my hair a week ago.
I hadn't do so for over the last 3 years.

I cut my own hair since I was 15. It's not that hard, indeed: you just need 2 mirrors. And however it has turned out, it always felt alright or liberating, in any case; because ruining/mutilating oneself in many ways it's usual, but giving someone else the chance to do it (and pay for it)? no way in hell.

Post edited on 23rd Aug 2012, 9:56pm

I started taking antidepressive meds yesterday.
I feel like a fucking maniac right now but let's how it goes

>>16458
What do you mean by this? Do you feel really excited right now or something?

Found a mysterious hole in the ground in my parents' front lawn. AFAIK there weren't any buildings there before that house was built, and it doesn't seem like a drain, being on a elevation.

>>16461
It means that right now the meds are making me feel agitated and angry all the time.

I am so fucking depressed.

>>16469
Hey, me too!

I got into an argument with my dad while I was helping him outside with some yard work. After I was finished, I was standing on the porch in the shade and suddenly he walks up to me and says "Why do you stand like that? You look like a robot, stand up normally."
Obviously, being the autist I am, I was and still am completely confused. I tried to fix my posture, but he just told me that if I continue to act the way I am, people are just going to make fun of me. For some reason, I was pretty hurt by that.

Now it really scares me to think of all the things I've been doing wrong and haven't even noticed. I don't think I ever want to go outside now...

Found out Neil Armstrong died. Hasn't been a very good week for Armstrongs!

Went to the bank to deposit a cheque, talked to a staff member about overdraft facilities available for post-grad students since I'm thinking about doing an MFA.

Browsed the internet for the rest of the day, reading up on all the DJs and producers who pioneered House music from the 80s and the like as well as listening to some of the music on Youtube.

Neighbors are having a party or something, car radios as loud as possible and they are smoking drugs out in the street like it's nothing. Why did things become this way

>>16513
It's ok, your not alone there. I always don't know what to do with myself when people are watching me and look beyond awkward. It's the worst when I'm self conscious about it. I just discovered how bad it was to be self conscious today. I'm usually stimmed out of my mind on coffee for 2 days straight every weekend. I feel like shit but just more mentally numb, not so self aware shit. Today I didn't have anything and I went out later to a buffet. I felt like the whole world was watching me and every movement felt slower. Was also much more angered easily by everything around me. I can not be sober on a weekend, very embarrassing and uncomfortable things happen.

>>16528
>>16513

I know how you feel. I don't have autism or anything, but I feel like I'm a zoo attraction, with people staring at me like I'm exotic animal.
It's not like I'm ugly or some abomination either I guess they just enjoy pointing and laughing at my awkwardness and how uncomfortable I feel.

>>16537
er, the bags were from electrical components I purchased for a project online, I really don't do drugs.

Post edited on 26th Aug 2012, 4:34am

>>16529
Yeah when I'm out I am the definition of zoo animal when I'm out. I just look different or to people something is very off about me or I just give a strange vibe or something on top of never knowing what I should direct my eyes to, to appear normal enough so that people question me either. I try hard to not draw attention to myself. I also hate when there is a long walk to the exit door and a lot of people are looking at me. Then my movements become extremely fast and twitchy making me look even more disturbing to them. Some laugh, others give strange looks, kids point, staff is confused. It's a nightmare.

>>16528
>>16529
>>16546
It makes me sad that this is the kind of society we live in. You do so much as look in another direction or walk differently from others and they jump on you for it.

I wrote all morning, spent the entire day out with my sister doing stuff, and bought a book on Go so I can once and for all finally start learning about it.

Managed to get lost on my way out west and ended up going north for a bit. Must've been looking at the road map upside down like I was in some old cartoon.

Actually, I went with my grandma to her lakeside house in Massachusetts to help her pack it up so she could move out and sell it. Figured I'd use it as an opportunity to get some things I might need for living on my own and maybe get some money from her to help with the trip.

Moving really is hard work, long work too.

Had an awful day. Did drugs and got beat up and yelled at for it. Read a little, and finally got my IRC bot running solely off a Raspberry Pi.

Disclaimer: I'm a NEET and I don't do any excercise whatsoever (in fact I never did). I'm pretty much a shut-in, too, I leave my house less than once a month. An occasional 20 minute walk to the library and I'm already out of breath and my legs hurt.

Spent 3 hours carrying some heavy building materials yesterday; we spent the first hour carrying 25kg bags with concrete to the top of a building which is 3 stories high. We still have some ~ 1,5t (60 or so bags) left to carry. Did it with my father who is in his late 50s, he looked fine to me. Embarassing as hell.

I'm 21 and at night the muscle cramps were so bad I could cry. Couldn't sleep at all even after stuffing myself with painkillers (well, not literally 'at all', eventually I did fall asleep). I expected to be unable to move today but it's not as bad as I thought it'd be. Still, I don't think I can carry more than 5 of those Haruhidamn bags. 25kg sounds okay and it's not so bad if you just have to walk with it but once you enter the staircase...

I didn't have work, so I helped my mother clean out some things. Did 3-4 hrs of work. She said she might keep some crystal cups etc. to give to me later, "after I get married", because "my wife might like them." I didn't say anything to that.

Actually, my day is about to finish. It's pitch dark where I live; all family sleeping. I ended the pencil study of a butterfly I had to do; I listened to a version of Leonard Cohen's "Hallelujah" by Susanna and the Magical Orchestra (which was surprisingly good: she included probably the best stanza of the entire poem); had a cigarrette outside and then remembered there's some Jack Daniel's they just found in the cupboard, from many years ago, and I had good shot...

I hadn't have a drink in ages. I hate drunkness, for ideological reasons; I just did it with the hope that it might help me dreaming with my waifu, as it has happened before. The thing is, I drank a 360 mL Red Bull first and, so, I got almost instantly drunk. I rush in heat, now; I can barely type...

Let's see what happens (likely nothing but oh well).

Today I listened to some C82 releases in the car with my dad.

He liked it.

He raised the volume for `tea for two`.

I explained who ZUN is.

He was impressed.

My father told me that when he was going to work the other night he saw a big black tarantula on the wall outside. I will never sleep again

>>16617

Wrong thread, you're looking for >>521.

>>16617
No no. You don't get that scared in a dream when vocals start.

>>16617
I can't see why just about anyone wouldn't like at least some touhou centered music/doujin music in general. So many releases that there is something for fans of everything. You don't even need to actually be into touhou anything else to enjoy. I was listening to some psytrance tracks by this artist called Raveheavens last night with some other psytrance and I finished off my night with some heavy darkpsy by an artist called Tryambaka. It blends in quite well. We need more high quality doujin psytrance. Only other I can think of off the top of my head is some of EastNewSound's stuff. Fun music, I just like to blast it loud and play pc fps games all night to it. Maybe I'll even throw some drum and bass into the mix too. But most other times late at night playing pc games normally I'll just be listening to some average metal/metalcore or some quiet glitch music in the background.

My day started decent enough. Missed breakfast, so I went somewhere near my workplace to grab a croissant and coffee and did a little bit of people watching before I went to work. Felt bummed out after being told I probably won't be getting commission on art work being sold (I'm working as an intern for this gallery) despite my boss telling me otherwise but he's out of the country at the moment. Came home still feeling gloomy and my own mother even asked me if I was depressed but I didn't really want to give her an honest answer in case I'd get her into hysterics.

My mind has been lost the past few days, and everything is really confusing. Haven't done any of the things I normally do...I wonder how long it will last.

>>16648
I feel like my mind has been lost, or least it is far away, in the past few days too but I don't feel confused. Everything feels hazy and things kinda mesh with each other. But I don't feel anything

I went through all day today thinking it was Thursday.

Took 150mg of Diphenhydramine, a drug used to treat colds. That's six days worth of the stuff -- I'm going to be healthy for a long time!!

(Editor's note: Shadow people! Let your presence be made clear.)

>>16653
I believe you must take more than that to see spiders.

>>16653
I don't 150-250 mg would do much at all to most people beyond a more relaxed state. You may get some visual effects but nothing major and unless you really want to go on a nightmare trip I don't recommend going much higher without someone to watch you. You just reminded me I want to give it a try also. I'm talking 200-250 low dose for just relaxing late at night on the internet and playing pc games.

I've been working on quitting drugs, and so far it is a terrible feeling. Aside from expected symptoms, it seems like my personality is changing, and I'm acting more and more distant. It's annoying people a lot. At least I have can marathon some shows this way.

>>16653
Reading about that, the trip seems really unpleasant once you get to the delirium. Also, it sounds really hard to stay awake. Although, looking around, I didn't see any discussion of long-term damage as long as you don't do something stupid while hallucinating.

I went out for a walk in a local park and holy shit it was swarming with people. There was also a bunch of twats cosplaying there(who the hell cosplays in a public park?) which made the whole place even more uncomfortable.

>>16684
You went too early.

>>16684
A shitload of people cosplay in parks. Malls and other places too, for that matter. Local cosplay groups tend to meet up there.

>>16685
I can't go too late because that's when the crackheads show up.

>>16688
That was the first time I saw it. I thought people only did that at cons.

>>16684
Why would you let cosplayers affect you on your park walk? You could've just pretended they were not there. I can't say I've ever seen cosplayers on a park, a mall or in front of convention buildings are the only place I've ever glanced at them. I wonder what is the joy of cosplaying in an open park.

>>16695
Cosplayers and other people that think it's okay to do whatever they want in public are usually pretty shitty people, so they probably would've messed with him just to flex their nuts in front of the 3D bitch pigs to make themselves seem superior.

>>16664
[drugs]
I was taking it specifically for the delirium. I was a bit tired when I took it already, but I was able to stay awake... and while they weren't very severe, I had some hallucinations. The next morning, when I awoke, I slipped into brief periods of delirium. Took a low dose just to see if there were a possibility I were allergic to it. After I had sobered up "enough" that day, I took 250mg, double the dose. I had to watch my house while we were having a garage sale and having to interact with people had me feeling very very nervous. Left me feeling really nasty to seemingly no more effect (possibly less, I felt!), but hey, it helped me deal with my anxiety some. I had a bit of a "body high" (felt a little bit like being drunk, but I wasn't much happier or sadder, my thoughts felt very clear). It most of all leaves you feeling thirsty with a gross taste in your mouth, can't say that enough. I plan on going 500mg this upcoming weekend... with 500mg of dextromethorphan as well.
[/drugs]

Today I enjoyed sobriety as well as watching the finals of the big DOTA 2 tournament, "The International". If anyone here enjoys DOTA and didn't watch it, I recommend watching the old recordings on DOTA2's YouTube channel. Right now the third fight (of five) just ended -- really looking forward to these next two games! Go, Na'Vi!

>>16697
oh you... I almost thought it was a new BB code.

>>16698
It wouldn't be a bad tag regarding recent site controversy, would it? Ah... even if some people on here dislike drugs and alcohol, I consider my usage of the substances to be very much to be a part of my solitary shut-in otaku life.

>>16699
what would it even do?

>>16701
Make the text spin and change colour. Perhaps transform some words into pink 象 too.

>>16690
Haha no. There's a gothic lolita group which has (weekly?) meetups at malls in my city and there is a half-ass anime convention which either does shoots around various landmarks in the city core & the park by the downtown, OR they do their meetups in a forest preserve.

>>16696
>>so they probably would've messed with him just to flex their nuts in front of the 3D bitch pigs to make themselves seem superior.

No.

I'm tempted to say more of 'shitty drama in the cosplay community' as well as 'queen bee bitch bullshit'. And do't forget "x stole my boyfriend, she's a slut" or "y is a creeper virgin" bullshit. Go browse /cgl/ to see wat I mean. But I haven't seen that IRL. Yet

>>16706
>>If you haven't seen it, then how does that make me wrong?

You said cosplayers would be dicks to whip their dicks out and didnt say you personally experienced it (ie. "probably" was one of the words you used)

>> Pointing at some directory that probably only exists in 4chan isn't going to help your case. I have no intention of ever going to 4chan, especially just to understand your piss poor argument.

There are gothic lolita groups on livejournal, deviantart and shitbookas well. They tend to cross-pollinate anyway.

here. some links i pulled out of my ass (read: google):
http://www.tumblr.com/tagged/cosplay-drama
http://www.cosplay.com/showthread.php?t=201367

>>Aside from trying to get me to go along with some sample group of shit, you have nothing to negate the possibility of what I said being true.

Seeing some drama/hearing from people/reading said things on forums > "They probably are the sort of people to do it"

>>Your failure to refute my claim is no more than a waste.

If you're being all serious and shit you have to prove the claim.

Today I read some really shitty posts in the daily report thread

>>16708
I'm sorry. ;_;

>>16695
I think it's awkward, seeing some blue-haired fucker making out with a ugly girl dressed a Kagamine Rin in the middle of a park .
And besides, it's not like they were the only ones bothering, I just found it weird to see cosplayers there.

I just wanted to relax and walk around the lake for a while, why must people ruin everything

I had to deal with a bunch of people at my place, which was terrible, so I hid out reading and trying to watch anime. Later on, after drinking a bit, I tried to hang myself, but I seemingly picked too weak a spot for it to work. Got beat up and yelled at really bad for doing that. Don't really know what to do anymore, but I guess there is not much I can do, such is life.

I got a book called Solitude by Anthony Storr from the library. When I opened it, I found that passages like "not all solitary people are unhappy" and "the capacity to be alone is also an aspect of emotional maturity" had stuff like "Of course!" and "Right, right!" written next to it, and in feminine handwriting. A quote by Edward Gibbon on how happy he was not to be married had little hearts drawn around it. It's nice to know that there are some people like you out there.

>>16697
Just because you use spoilers it doesn't make your normal shit forcing acceptable.

>>16717
>in feminine handwriting
That was the only weird part about your post...

Anyway: if I myself don't underline, make notes and/or compile quotes of whatever book I step into, for me it's like I hadn't read it at all.

>>16717
>>16723

I live in a small town so tons of books I borrow from the library have been used for decades; I think less and less people use libraries nowadays so every now and then I borrow a copy which hasn't been borrowed since the 90s. Feels pretty surreal when I find some notes in them, they have been written over a decade ago afterall...

But I don't like people who write/underline stuff in books, you should only do that if you absolutely need to and even then you should use a pencil and erase it before returning the book.

Been playing a lot of DOTA 2 today and having nice conversations with people. Spent a lot of the early day feeling a bit down, but things are alright now.

>>16726
I don't get why people write in books either. If I really like a quote, I'll copy it, or if I like a few pages, or general ideas, I'll write them down in a notebook.

>>16721
People who use drugs are a lot like otaku in many regards. Most relevant to our community being that they are split apart from "normal" society, whether by choice or apathetic disinterest.

>>16726
>>16728
I should have made it clear: I only underline and write on MY books; if they're borrowed, I indeed just take notes of them somewhere else (folded sheets of paper, more commonly)...

However: scribbling on books, for me, is fundamental for one to restructure and apropriatte of them, as it turns the initially plain text into a sort of relief map ad hoc for one's interpretation, needs and purposes. It's the only way for me to start incorporating them into a ready-at-hand acquis of knowledge; and it didn't just started as a whim of mine: I was taught to do so, in philosophy and text analysis courses. It isn't mandatory either, of course; the important thing, in any case, is to build an efficient system of notes to rely on.

Post edited on 4th Sep 2012, 5:57pm

Went to school today.
There's a girl who looks exactly like my waifu, I'm not sure what to think.

>>16726
I like to find out notes on books that were used long ago. Almost nobody buys music sheet books nowadays, most people copy it out of the internet, so large editions are normally really cheap in used bookstores. I recently bought the sinfonias of Bach for harpsichord from one of them. The woman who owned this book must've been really good because all of the pieces have dates on the end of them from back to the 70s. I presume they were when she concluded studying each of them.

I went to my psychologist's today, but I was feeling so "out of it" that I left 20 minutes into the appointment. I saw really bad static on his walls, and I couldn't think at all. I kept glancing around and mumbling. He had a hard time understanding me, I think. He kept having me repeat myself and conversation was very difficult. "Don't worry about it, just go for a walk, and then go home and rest," he told me. After that I walked around outside and the colors were all so vivid. The sky was so blue, the grass was so green... It was awful, I just wanted to be in my room more than anything else. I saw a girl I'd spent some time with in high school on my way back home; she was pregnant now, and smoking a cigarette. "Hey," she goes, "we should hang out again sometime." We talked some about art and I guess that was kind of nice. But she isn't the type I could see at all past a brief hello on the street... I grabbed a copy of Hegel's Phenomenology of Spirit, Smullyan's First-Order Logic, and a compilation of texts in a volume titled "Man and Spirit: he Speculative Philosophers". I really hate abridged books, but it'll introduce me to some new texts, I suppose...

I bought a close friend of mine Dota 2 and we're going to play that some tonight. I'm looking forward to being able to teach someone how to play and having a new person to play with.

I'm still feeling really awful and distant and everything's very fuzzy and distant. I'm watching myself type this and my hands feel like theyre a thousand feet away, it's so bizarre. I'm completely sober today and I have been for a few days, so it's not like I'm high or drunk or anything.. it's so bizarre! And I'm disappointed that my psychologist couldn't do a single thing to help me with it, even though it's the reason I'm seeing him! May as well get some rest

>>16764
buy her a shovel.

I did nothing, read some manga, slept, played video games for a little while and my parents made me apply for job seekers benefits

>>16780
Or a steamroller.