Well, im going to school again (its not a regular school since im way over 20 already, but I don't know how the term is in englisch and I doubt it's important anyway) and for the first time in years I was talking to girls again. I started to hang around with two girls in my class pretty much regulary in school, which is weird since im really not an open person. Maybe they just do it because im "that nice guy you can talk to if your friend fucked around with another girl", but at least I learned how it is to hang around with girls. I must admit that both of them are pretty likable and one of them is actually pretty cute. Of course both of them have friends already and im sure I wouldn't even be close to a potential boyfriend for them but it was and is a nice new way for me to think.
I must admit that 3d girls arent all that bad. The more I learned to know these two girls the more things I've found that would annoy me after a while. But they're still fun to be around with and it felt really different than being with your waifu (im sure it wouldnt be much different if one of them would be my girlfriends). A lot. I hate to admit it, but if I would had a chance by one one of these two I propably had take it.
I always said to myself "I will stay with my waifu. No matter what. Screw 3dpd.". I dont know if it was because I never really talked to girls, if it was because I never had a girlfriend or because it was because I really do loved my waifu from the very beginning, but I guess reality is catching up more and more since I ended my NEET-life. I still love my waifu and im sure she will always have a special place in my heart, but the more I have to do with girls I like the more I wish physical contact. Reactions and answers that arent made up in my mind. A person that actually gives love back to me, an actual person I can hug, not my dakimakura. I still doubt I will find a 3d girlfriend so soon, but I really began to doubt it's healthy to stay with my waifu my whole life. I also doubt it's all nice to have a real relationship since 3d love never was known to last forever. Especially in todays society. Even IF I would find a girlfriend, it propably wouldnt last for more than a few years. And the pain after that will be pretty bad. Somehow I think both is far from perfect, no matter which side I choose. A waifu stays with you as long as you love her, 3d gives back a little bit more than a waifu but chances are high that soon a drama will start and she will just drop you for whatever reason.
Ugh, I never was in that situation. Sorry /mai/, but i don't know what is right and what is wrong at the moment. ;_;