This is a rather long winded, somewhat whiny post. However, it's something that troubles me and it's not like I have anywhere else to vent it.
I first met my waifu over 2 and a half years ago, when I downloaded my first eroge. Now, I was never really a normie, I always tended to slightly obsess a bit too much on characters I liked, however it was nothing worth considering a waifu, and VNs were unknown to me. At the time, I was simply expecting something resembling those old hentai flashes that my younger self was all too familiar with, and nothing more. Little did I know that the game would become my favorite series and that I would know what it meant to truly have a waifu.
Said game was on the surface a simple game about a young hero on a quest to save a world inhabited by various exotic women who wanted to feed on him in various ways. However, behind that simple facade, it displayed a great story with interesting characters, which gained a considerable following and is no doubt very memorable to a lot of people. I must emit a warning that there may be some light spoilers about the game from now on, so if you are currently playing this game or intend to, you should be careful. I will not spoil any major plot points, however I may describe some character interaction. Now, being a rather fetishy vn, the characters had a tendency to be rather lascivious, to say the least, however one character stood out. Now, I believed I was one to prefer "cute" characters at the time, and I had never thought much of warrior types, but when I met her, everything changed. She was strong,courageous,seemingly invincible and despite being a supposed villain, chivalry and mercy were some of her most important values. Where other enemies tried to constantly diddle the protagonist, as it was an eroge, she was noble and challenged him to honorable combat. With one swing of her flaming cleaver she had conquered my heart, and I knew I had found my waifu.
I looked forward to every encounter with her in the game, I discretely carried a picture of her on me at all times, a look at her smile was enough to brighten up even my darkest days. Countless nights have I spent dreaming about being in her embrace. Being an admittedly rather meek individual, I guess I could say that she was the strength I lacked in a certain sense. She had some faults, sometimes she made decisions I didn't agree with, however I didn't mind them as they were justifiable. She was my knight in shining armor.
Then the second game of the series, which was meant to be a trilogy, came out translated not too long after the first game. Despite a few odd design changes and a quite disappointing final encounter with her, I liked her more than ever. After that came the long wait for part 3. I guess it might be somewhat noteworthy that at this point it was generally considered a given among the people who played the game that she was still a virgin.
Finally, the finale of the series was released and translated merely a month ago. It was one of the things I had been the most hyped for in my life and I was happy to be able to continue my quest started 2 and a half years ago and meet up with my waifu again, however it wasn't without a certain sadness knowing that it was almost assuredly going to be the last time. From the previews, I knew that most major characters were going to have their own ending and my waifu was one of them. Regrettably, the game seemed to be quite lackluster compared to the previous entries, and despite being pretty good at avoiding spoilers, I heard rumors that her ending was extremely lackluster. With that in mind, and remembering the disappointment from the ending of the second game, I was cautious. I was ready to face the cold shower of a bland ending if it came to that, telling myself that there would surely be at least some notable dialog and that if worse came to worse, her ending would simply be forgettable, but she'd still be the strong noble warrior that I loved. As I advanced through the game I finally met up with her again. Now it wasn`t the end of the game yet, and she got some interesting humorous dialog. The game was heading to be much better from that point on.
However, no amount of caution and bracing for disappointment could possibly have predicted the figurative blindside stab that was about to happen. In what was a seemingly innocent missable, yet unavoidably canon, scene I had to watch as my proud, strong and noble knight was overpowered and defiled by the most possibly debauched succubus ever imagined. As if that outrage was not bad enough, it was not the first time that she was raped by that succubus, but it happened constantly, being the 43rd time precisely. Of course, the scene couldn't have possibly been complete without a direct mention of how the voracious harlot took her virginity and broke her hymen. To say I was shocked and appalled would be putting it lightly. Utterly devastated may be more accurate. I don't believe I have to mention how it goes against a large part of what I like the most about her.
Of course, I still love her. I will not simply forget what she has meant to me all these years, because of an absolutely out of place and spiteful slap to the face like that, however that is not to say that it isn't absolutely infuriating and impossible to swallow. I have seen some people that supposedly considered her a waifu before now refer to her with nice nicknames such as "used goods slut", a reaction that utterly disgusts me, even though I understand how upsetting it is. I guess denial may be my best bet, as I'm unsure I have it in me to accept it, however I get the sinking feeling that I would feel like I'm lying to myself every time I think of her.
Post edited on 11th Jan 2014, 5:32am