I can somewhat relate to OP, but being easy about a couple of things has been nice for me.
For one, I started stalking minor youtube personalities and got involved with some related people on a hunch. (IRC is really good for this; also usually requires a minimum level of intelligence to use)
Didn't change my outlook society wise but certainly made me enjoy my life more in one way or another. Some people I met sure have shitty pasts or prospects though. I'd rather live a NEET life for 80 years than have shitty health and die at 30-40 ;_;
>I feel like I haven't had a real friend
kind of same, well not sure now anymore; And I've had a habit of being blantantly open about my shallow thoughts and feelings online/on irc for a long time anyway.
I'd suggest you forget about any pride you could have and just try to be 'spontaneous'.
Going to look at some media? Might as well figure out who was involved with it and whether or not you can agree with their ethics. etc. There's one thing I'm sure of and that is, you and everyone else have an opinion on anything. Even if you don't strictly 'care' about it (trying to express it is a different story, just don't think about that for now)
Oh and it really requires no effort to read irc all day. (after you've set up a client with autoconnect/join) It's the most passive recreational activity I could think of.
And don't feel bad about not caring about that RL shit ok?~ You'll have to look for ways of obtaining food and shelter eventually but caring about things/people you like is the basis for caring about that, really.
Also as you might have guessed I come from the 'didn't give much of a fuck to begin with' spectrum, but I get along with most people who gave up on something along the way just fine. But yeah keep that in mind, I'm me you are you.
Another little meta thing, 'caring' can mean writing self absorbed posts on forums also. Of course this doesn't do much justice to the word, but what does do justice to anything, really.
Sorry for the incoherentness, let's just hope there's something you can utilize in this post.