>>9969
>never felt more pathetic in my life
If you do not care about what others think, then this should not be an issue.

Obviously in a deep recess of your mind you DO care about what others think of you. Also, nice pic.

I can empathize with you perfectly, OP. I would say it's the first sign that you're descending into the insanity that most shut-ins end up being in. I don't know how to help you, because I'm there myself, but the sooner you stop resisting this change, the easier for you it will be.

We numb ourselves emotionally when we can't take it anymore. This may be what you're experiencing. I'm going through the same thing. I used to have extreme social anxiety and clinical depression but now I just don't care about anything and I live the NEET life in spite of the fact I'm screwing myself over.

And it just doesn't bother me. I don't care about my family, and I left my friends behind years ago when I moved to a different state.


All I can suggest for you is to chase your passions regardless of what other people think.

Also sometimes you have to force yourself through the adversity to do what you really want to do and not take the easy path of least resistance.

I'm trying to break out of this self-created prison too.

I'd suggest you read The Stranger. It sounds like you'd relate with the protagonist a lot, and I'm sure you'd be able to take something away from it.
Its a pretty short read, and I'm pretty sure you can find a copy online for free.

Even if I cared, I would still be a loser, so if I am going to fail at life anyway I'd rather just take it easy.

>>9978
I read that book last night and thought it was wonderful. I'm sure there's a lot of interesting criticisms on it, too. It's very beautiful, isn't it?

>>9987
I read the wikipedia page on it instead.

I can somewhat relate to OP, but being easy about a couple of things has been nice for me.

For one, I started stalking minor youtube personalities and got involved with some related people on a hunch. (IRC is really good for this; also usually requires a minimum level of intelligence to use)

Didn't change my outlook society wise but certainly made me enjoy my life more in one way or another. Some people I met sure have shitty pasts or prospects though. I'd rather live a NEET life for 80 years than have shitty health and die at 30-40 ;_;

>I feel like I haven't had a real friend
kind of same, well not sure now anymore; And I've had a habit of being blantantly open about my shallow thoughts and feelings online/on irc for a long time anyway.

I'd suggest you forget about any pride you could have and just try to be 'spontaneous'.
Going to look at some media? Might as well figure out who was involved with it and whether or not you can agree with their ethics. etc. There's one thing I'm sure of and that is, you and everyone else have an opinion on anything. Even if you don't strictly 'care' about it (trying to express it is a different story, just don't think about that for now)

Oh and it really requires no effort to read irc all day. (after you've set up a client with autoconnect/join) It's the most passive recreational activity I could think of.

And don't feel bad about not caring about that RL shit ok?~ You'll have to look for ways of obtaining food and shelter eventually but caring about things/people you like is the basis for caring about that, really.

Also as you might have guessed I come from the 'didn't give much of a fuck to begin with' spectrum, but I get along with most people who gave up on something along the way just fine. But yeah keep that in mind, I'm me you are you.


Another little meta thing, 'caring' can mean writing self absorbed posts on forums also. Of course this doesn't do much justice to the word, but what does do justice to anything, really.

Sorry for the incoherentness, let's just hope there's something you can utilize in this post.

You know OP that may just be a case of can't be helped and is actually a plus in some contexts!

The research and brain scans point to psychopaths being incapable of real, complex emotions like the one known as empathy.

Intelligence agencies and drug cartels alike look for emotionally absent people with chips on their shoulder to be trained into murderific roles.

In all seriousness, it's most likely what >>9974 said.

Maybe you don't care about live because strive for something bigger.

You should meditate to become an enlightened Bodhisattva and help all living beings gain enlightenment. You sound like you would make a nice zen master.

When you find enlightenment, you will find that really caring about people is not caring about them. It's leading by example. It's finding your Buddha-nature and then acting out of freedom, so other people can find this freedom in themselves. Sometimes really caring about people means not to care about them too much.

Apathy is a symptom of depression. You should see a therapist if you can.

Go watch this.
Everyone.

>>13917
Why would I want to stare at some fugly 3D guy for so long.

>>9988
This made me laugh.

>>13918
Because it's a fucking good movie. And is related to this thread.

>>13917
It was interesting. I only watched it because I used to loved watching T&E. Still, not everybody will take something useful from it. Especially comparing /so/ to the nature of the movie.

>>13917
No.

>>13921

I only suggested it because it's main theme is apathy and detachedness from other people.

read the full storyline for the movie galaxies are colliding, the humor in the movie is really corny 90s so I don't recommend watching it, but there are worse movies out there...

>>9978

I read this book (the English translation) because of this suggestion. It was good, thank you.