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Failure isn't that painful, at least afterwards it's befreeing. It's more like performance anxiety but with everyday life things. Making friends, cooking for others, hosting parties, playing competitive games, talking to people, handing in essays, participate in family matters without being asked to, writing on image boards before having lurked for years, writing in IRC, doing something without asking for instructions, initiating contact, playing the piano, participating in school related activities and speaking up for myself. I have feared and still do fear failure when it comes to all these things. Instead of trying with the risk of failing, it was much easier to never be liked nor to give it a shot.
Since it began very early on, somewhere along the line these cases were just being seen as me being me. A kid can't possibly have any problems after all. Sorry if this goes a little beyond "Daily Report", I just want to mention two instances in which I was somehow freed from the fear: Once around the age of ten when a pedagog said that "for every ten times Ronaldhino makes a mistake, he may make one successful shot", after which I was able to participate in football (European), and another time when I was trying never to smile always hiding my teeth in fear that I would be laughed at for it looking stupid, and then my worst enemy said to me: "You should just smile, hiding it looks weird". Since then I've always smiled with my teeth out in the open.
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