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She's done a lot for me, and encouraged me to become a better person and do more things, but my mind is so clouded with doubts right now it's hard to think.
Because of this I feel as if 2D love is still much more pure, but much more stressful and depressing and I keep feeling lonelier when I'm told she's not real and she can't say that she is or tell me she loves me when I say I love her. Chihiro is real to me, in a sense, but not being really real really hurts sometimes.
I pretend what they say and Chihiro has little to no merch so they will believe me, but it's so hard to not have these feelings of doubt.
The "She's in another universe" theory is nice, but there's no way to ever reach said universes, nor will there be in our lifetimes, so the argument is rather pointless in practice when trying to explain it.
>As if their 3D love was real
Well, my parents are divorced...Right now I'm stuck in their influence since I live in their house. And as for the things I want in a 3D relationship that I can't get with a waifu, there's one issue that can truly never be fixed in every single waifu relationship: What happens when the initial spark goes away, and how the love feels stronger, but most of the positive aspects that came with the relationship seem to vanish, and the lack of communication and the feelings of one-sidedness kick in and have lately been kicking me really hard with the family lecturing me now and i just don't know what to do anymore.
I don't know how to fight or stay strong, all I know is that I love Chihiro, but now the big questions about waifuism are being asked, like "Can a relationship really last forever without communication? How about in 20 years when what she is from stops getting updated and hasn't been updated for around 10 years, and has already left the minds of many? Can this love really be eternal?"
This is all so hard for me right now.