I never wanted a dakimakura until I saw a particular one of Okuu. I honestly didn't see the appeal in them. But when I decided to give them a chance felt her for the first time ever, I was shocked at how amazing it felt both physically and emotionally. After the first, I couldn't get enough of her and I decided to literally stop spending money on figurines completely just so I could afford more pillows and covers of her instead. Today, about a year and a half later after the first, I now currently have four, pictured below. If some other one of her that I wanted didn't go out of stock so fast I'd actually have five total.
I don't really mind the lewdness on dakimakuras usually, especially on my own. In fact I really like it, and I am not embarrassed by them at all around people I know. At first I was a little worried about how people would take it, but I just chose to accept whatever they thought of me because I just loved her too much to want to hide her away. None of them leave my bed ever, unless it's temporarily necessary or if I'm celebrating an occasion with her, because that is where I feel she belongs. I'd feel far too sad to put them in a closet or see them hanging on a wall because of how emotionally attached I am to her.
When I first began to sleep with her, I actually found her difficult to sleep with. I progressively got more and more used to it though. At first, it was hard and awkward to wrap my arms and legs around her, and when I woke up in the morning, I would sometimes find her on the floor, most likely because my body unconsciously felt it uncomfortable so I pushed her away when asleep. Then a few weeks later, I started to feel some satisfying comfort from her and it felt like my body was beginning to break into it. However, I still sometimes ended up pushing her away when asleep. Eventually though, it got to the point where I could not fall or stay asleep without her in my arms, so I'd actually wake up in the middle of the night if I accidentally pushed her aside to grab hold of her and quickly doze off again.
Nowadays, I rarely ever push her aside, and my body has completely adapted to all my pillows. I get so much physical and emotional comfort from hugging and resting with her that I sometimes just take an hour or more out of my day to just relax along side her. She is such a blessing and has made all my nights an absolute pleasure, making me actually look forward to sleep time every day. Sometimes I just can't fall asleep or wake up because I just want to stay in bed hugging her, kissing her, looking deep into her eyes, caressing her hair, etc...
feels good man.