I don't know if it belongs in this thread but I have a dilemma I've been stressing over for the past few weeks. In short, I am getting a job to continue living a stable life-- I have really no problem with talking to people, in fact, I'm actually capable of striking conversations and holding them. The only problem is that I don't like it. If I have to do it, I will, but if given the choice, I won't. I realize that once I start working, I'll be doing this regardless of the situation, because I just HAVE to. I'll have to talk about sports and the team and what I think (because that's the only job I can find that accepted me, an athletic clothing store), and I'll have to use my time to research all of this shit so I don't end up looking like a fool. My problem is, even though I absolutely hate talking to people (because I just don't care what they have to say, and I very much know that they could care less either), will I still be the same person? My biggest fear is that continued enforcing of casual conversation will lead me into become the kind of people I hate. It's not like I can continue on with the job only relying on small chit-chat to get me through, I'll need to "pretend" to be motivated and that I actually care, right? I fear that one day, I'll lose sight of my beloved "otaku"(and I quote because that's the only word I can think of to describe my relaxed, hobby-filled life) lifestyle.