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Of course I drink. Alcohol quickly became one of my closest friends after my "fall from grace" (I use the term loosely, of course).
I don't use it for socializing, though. It's ridiculous to think of that. I just use it because I either need cheap booze (and my arsenal of miscellaneous drugs), or, you know, seppuku. It's worth it, too. I understand if some aren't as into feeling like shit the next morning, but I don't really mind it so much, as it sort of...signifies that I'm alive. It's difficult to socialize when everything around you is bothersome, though.
In a sick sort of way, I view my 'habits' as a rebellion against reality. I know that sounds straight out of some teenager's diary or some shit, but it's like, if I can't have my waifu (she's not the singular reason for it, but one of many), I'm going to ruin myself. I am an awful, irresponsible person, but why should I care? Not as though I'll ever be a contributing member to society. Plus, despite all of my shortcomings, I'll never do disgusting shit like actually go outside, or drink and drive, while I'm 'under the influence'.
Oh, Haruhi, I'm worse than usual today.
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