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MMO's pretty much killed my social life long before I knew about hikki culture. That was also when I got into anime and hentai . I had a good friend who shared my interests though mainstream stuff like DBZ, FFVII, etc. in middle school, then high school came around we ended up in different schools, though we would still keep in touch and on weekends we'd play vidya and talk about anime and stuff. Then through sophomore year we started growing more and more distant, then he started smoking weed and made new friends, we've pretty much cut all ties since then and I just haven't ever been able to make friends since.
I do have a degree of social anxiety, as I spent my high school years sleeping during lunch and free periods because that was just about the only thing I could do to pass the time (back then I couldn't bring myself to read manga or play video games in public because I was too paranoid about being ridiculed for still liking "those weird Japanese cartoons") and as I've always been a quiet person I never really talked to anyone unless I had to, and that was usually with teachers.
I'm not completely socially inept however, as I can still converse with people on a mostly normal level. I'm also not completely revulsed by 3D women, I've just never had an interest in persuing women like most "normal" people seem to. I'm usually never attracted to the kind of women most people deem attractive, not to mention I've met some insufferable people in my time. I'd never have a "real" relationship due to my own insecuities and general lack of interest.
I am currently studying to become a programmer, which is an ideal career for me as most of the time I'll just be minding myself and only occasionally have to talk to other people, which isn't a huge deal since I can come across as a pretty normal person when I need to; one would just think I'm a quiet eccentric programmer, let alone a /tc/ regular.
I didn't really get the whole waifu thing until I started reading Lucky Star and instantly connected with Konata (though that's another story for another board). I find loli endearing for the cuteness factor and as I said I don't really care for the average "sexy" type of women (and I'm probably a closet pedo in some deep, horrible corner of my mind). I despise anything that depicts lolis being abused or hurt and I couldn't imagine doing anything like that to a real girl.
My interests in music are probably the most varied of any person you'll find. I enjoy anything from heavy metal to classical to electronica and just about everything except country or crappy mainstream sellout music, as well as the usual vocaloids, jpop/rock and video game music.
I don't really have suicidal thoughts or depression since even though things were rough for a few years, I don't think I could be any happier with my life than I am right now. I don't get lonely as long as I have my waifu and this great online community. I'm doing what I have a passion for without regarding other people's opinions and I'll be able to live on my own once I finish college and start making a decent living.
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