I'd probably kill myself if they died. They are my only friends in the world, and also my lifeline

My dad essentially "died" when I was 16. His liver and kidneys nearly gave out from years of alcohol abuse and being a fat bastard. It really fucked me up at the time (as if I didn't have enough problems). He's still alive but he lives with my aunt and grandmother so I don't see him everyday, and he mostly stays in bed all day.

So it's just been me and my mother for a long time now. She has her own problems with alcohol that makes it seem like I might as well be alone since I really have nobody to rely on at times.

I never got along with my parents that well. Honestly, I'm not even sure whether the news of their death(s) would be enough to make me shed a tear.

And yes, I'm a terrible person. It can't be helped.

My mother kicked me out of the house once too, a few yeas ago (I used to hate her); at first, it was an opportunnity to become free for the first time (wich I quite took), but quickly revealed itself to be a horrible situation. Later, when I came back and after she got very sick, we slowly started to understand and support each other; as I started living as a shut in, I became very dependant on her (once again), to the point of seriously considering to commit suicide when she finally die and I find myself alone...

So, if possible, I'd really recommend you to try making up with her while you still can. Best of luck.

>>2226
My situation is not so much as "making up with her" as it is convincing her that I need her to live.

I dare not imagine it. Though she's healthy, and gave birth at a sensible age, meaning I'll most likely have her around for ~35 more years - thinking of a scenario where that's not the case is simply heart crushing; my very own personal taboo of thought.

That's a tough one. Luckily your mother is still healthy so there's time for mending your relationship. I think after you've been on your own for a while she'll start to see you more as an adult. There's a transition period that seems to occur in life where the parent-child relationship dynamic changes and the adjustment period can be difficult. Just keep the doors open in the meantime and I'm sure you'll work things out

I can't imagine losing my mother. She was a single parent for 15 years before she finally got married, and we've always been close.

I was incredibly guilt-ridden about staying with her after I graduated high school, feeling that I should've moved out or something. She assured me that she hadn't even thought of it, and that she wanted me to stay.

She was in Hawaii this last week, and I freaked right the hell out when the Tsunami hit.

As for the OP... well, that's a difficult situation. There's not much information, but I assume that she's trying to help you. Talk to her, I guess, try to make up.

As for emotional support. Well, /so/ is always here, right?

My mom died due to cancer in 2006. After trying various ways to cope, I finally realized that the only thing that can really help is time. It'll suck at first, but once you've had time to grieve, you won't feel as bad about it.

It just occured to me today that in a little more than five years from now, my mom is gonna be a sixty-year-old woman. This has got to be the most depressing shit I've ever thought about.

60-years-old. What the fuck.

>>2553
Mine too. God, I hope I at least have a job by then