At least you had the courage to go to college. I've been out of high school for almost 3 years and still haven't done anything

Yeah, I'm in the same boat, OP. It's to the point where I have to save up all my energy to be able to go to classes everyday and then I'm too exhausted to really enjoy the time away from it.

I've got to do a summer semester again, too, to get back on track, so I'll be going like this until late July, only to have about 3 weeks off to build up again.

This cycle feels pretty bad, but it's this or I'm without a home.

Uh? Maybe the problem of losing all energy after classes due to anxiety is more common that I thought.

I was in your position OP. Here is what I did. Take my advice with a grain of salt because I have only some months applying it and it may not work for everyone.

*When walking with large crowds try meditation. Just focus on your breathing and rhythm. Stop thinking. It's hard to get used to it at first, but now I don't have anxiety problem going outside.

*Bite off more than you can chew. Let me explain, right now I have the biggest workload I've ever had my life and I'm not stressed.
I'm trying to: Learn to draw, programming a videogame, learning japanese, keeping up with college, finish watching those anime, reading books, creating an online business, getting fit, etc. The trick that I've so much to do that I don't have time to worry about anxiety or what people may think about me.

I know that this makes me sound like a workaholic or some angry stressed office worker. But I'm actually more happy because the things that I'm doing are things that I'm interested in, not some unrelated job. If you don't keep yourself upwind doing something that you REALLY care about you'll always go back to depression.

*Don't worry too much about what to decide. Both going to college or dropping out could lead to disaster or new opportunities. Some college dropouts become millionaires, some people with "nice jobs" are in the verge of suicide. a lot of people LOVE their average jobs, nice people get horrible situations, a nuclear war could start next week, you could get cancer, depressed people become motivational figures. What I'm trying to say is that the world is too chaotic to predict what is going to happen.

Someone once said "Rich people see opportunities and use them, poor people are still preparing".
I think that your perspective towards life and how do you deal with problems are much more important than money or decisions. So work on that.

>>1585
Well shit. I'm sorry for the wall of text I got carried away.

>>1586
I lol'd

Also, not OP, but thanks for that wall. It is a really good advice-

Sounds like a case of severe performance anxiety and/or asocial disorder.

I don't know what quality/scope of psychiatric health care you have available in your district, but there should be programs for people with any kind of asocial disorder. Usually you have group exersices and mild anti-depressive medications, like cipralex or what have you.

Otherwise, good advice that hit home is always gold. You might just manage with this >>1585

You can only try your best and fight on. You'll look back on it when it's over and you'll be glad you didn't give up.