I have never tried to think of it like that,but I am definitely going to see it out for myself. I don't really want to cut wrists to act like a kid and for everyone to notice how sad I really am. Though people think that I am living my life as a sad loner that will never achieve anything and be meaningful to them.By what measures? Is what the majority does the right thing? Is being different from rest of the people a bad thing? Yes, I think it is not good to go to extremes that I go to, but on the other hand the amount of things I gain this way is massive. I understand how the system works and I refuse to be a drone of this system.Everyone has accepted the system, but where does it say I have to accept it?I don't even want to leech from it, but nowadays it is almost impossible. If I could only go live in the mountains like a hermit and live by land. No electricity, internet, canned food.I would probably die first winter, but I would be happy I did it released from the chains of materialism. Simplest life possible.