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11158 No. 11158 [Edit]
I have panic disorder, social anxiety disorder, and Dysthymia (a.k.a. neurotic depression). All are actual diagnoses from a psychiatric test issued by a legitimate professional, not self-diagnoses or online tests.

This summer, I signed up for online classes, because I thought they would be easier for me. I thought they would require less human interaction than the classes I take on-campus, where I have to be physically close to a lot of other people, which I just can't stand. It drives me crazy. Gives me panic attacks. Makes me want to die. Makes me want to get so high and sedated I can't even do anything. I've only survived going through college this far with the aid of copious amounts of various drugs. I've wanted to change that though, so I thought online classes would be a good solution.

One online class I'm currently taking, a writing class, requires a lot of interaction with other people. We post our assignments on message boards and are required to respond to the writing of our peers. It's not an option... it's all completely mandatory. I didn't know this would be the case when signing up for the class. The course description didn't mention any of this, it merely described the curriculum, not how it would be taught. I had no idea what I was getting myself into.

To put it lightly, I don't do well with this kind of stuff. I've quit doing the assignments in the writing class because I'm too anxious, panicky, and self-conscious to do things which require me to write essays with my identity attached to them (all our posts have our real names next to them, no pseudonyms or anonymity here). I suppose I'm far too used to the luxury of anonymity elsewhere on the internet, but I can't have that in this writing course.

I want to e-mail my teacher and let her know that I want to drop the class, but it's too late to officially withdraw, so I'll have to do some explaining and convincing in order to withdraw and not get a failing grade. It's not that the academic material is hard, I just can't bring myself to submit assignments where a bunch of other people are being forced to judge my writing (it's a part of everyone's grade).

In an e-mail to this class's professor, what should I say? What should I not say? I don't want to say too much, but I also can't afford to say too little.
>> No. 11160 [Edit]
My mom is always saying I should take online classes because she's aware of my anxiety, and this is exactly why I always change the subject. There's no way it is as simple as it sounds
>> No. 11161 [Edit]
>>11160
I don't know if all online classes are like this, but at least with my personal experiences, they are more anxiety-producing than on-campus classes, as backwards as that might seem.

At least with an on-campus class, you just sit and listen to the lecture, and aren't required to talk with people.

I just wish I could take online classes where all you'd do is read the material and then submit assignments to the teacher, but it doesn't seem like they're like that... at least not at my college.
>> No. 11162 [Edit]
>>11161
That's exactly how it is at udacity. Their certificates have no legal validity, unlike those of universities, but their teachers are quite reputable and it's all free.
>> No. 11163 [Edit]
>>11161

What is stressing about online classes though? You say you don't have to talk in class, but you don't have to talk online do you?

Seems like it would be easier.
>> No. 11164 [Edit]
>>11163
>you don't have to talk online do you?
In the first post:
>We post our assignments on message boards and are required to respond to the writing of our peers. It's not an option... it's all completely mandatory.
>write essays with my identity attached to them (all our posts have our real names next to them, no pseudonyms or anonymity here)
>a bunch of other people are being forced to judge my writing (it's a part of everyone's grade)
>> No. 11165 [Edit]
But >>1-san, you don't have to meet those people, in fact they only know your name and won't care because you're just another classmate they aren't going to ever meet in real life. As long as you don't write something that stands out as weird or anything you're fine, think about it.
>> No. 11166 [Edit]
>>11164

Oh, my bad I must have immediately forgot that part upon reading (my memory is terrible).

That does sound indeed quite stressful. Though, look at it this way: while they know your name, they don't know you. Once the class is over, no one will remember any of it.
>> No. 11167 [Edit]
>>11158
One of my last classes before graduation was a composition class. We submitted assignments OL and IRL and critiqued each other both OL & IRL. I tended to type my papers often sliding into how I type on forums - i.e. acronyms and my instructor noted that. I mentioned to him often that happens given I am posting and responding on a blog page so that happens. I managed to pass.

I asked him if we could use onlien psueodnyms but he was all 'no you gotta use your RL name and whatnot and you need acocuntability' - and I Was all 'so we can't be like on a forum'?

He knew of hikikiomori and taught a year in Japan and I think he goes on reddit and at least knew of the chans; given he was in his 20s and a young professor
>> No. 11178 [Edit]
>>11167
>accountability

For what, a fucking college English course? It's not like you're writing encrypted CIA memos here.
>> No. 11183 [Edit]
>>11178
I'm guessing he meant that people shouldn't be allowed to anonymously harass others or write offensive/demeaning things, they should assign their name to it, making them accountable for it.
>> No. 11188 [Edit]
>>11183

I would think that if the instructor or the school needed to take action against you for something like that, they would only need an online pseudonym and possibly your student ID or something, with no need to give out your real name to the rest of the class.

Not a huge deal or anything, I guess I just thought it sounded overly serious for what it was.
>> No. 11195 [Edit]
Success! Finally e-mailed my teacher and she let me withdraw without getting a failing grade or anything. Took a lot of xanax in order for me to be calm enough to contact her though.
>> No. 11196 [Edit]
>>11195

That's cool. Kudos
>> No. 11203 [Edit]
>>11195
I've heard that Xanax only works in short bursts. I'm sure it could help if you have to do one particular social thing that you're dreading, but does it help with longer term social interaction/proximity with people?
>> No. 11225 [Edit]
>>11203
Indeed, it only provides temporary relief. It makes things much worse in the long run though. I wouldn't recommend it. I only continue to take it because I'm already addicted.
>> No. 11271 [Edit]
>all our posts have our real names next to them, no pseudonyms or anonymity here
your real name, it's just a darn alias in itself. In a sense real life is just an alias for your online persona too, ever thought about that?
>> No. 11276 [Edit]
Does this class have a pass/no credit option? That's better than a withdrawal.

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