I can, but only temporarily. You see, I have this little ritual. Every Friday and Saturday night, I go to the store, buy a lot of alcohol (I like to experiment with different types) energy drinks and snacks, and at 11PM I start drinking. By midnight I'm completely drunk and then up until 6 AM everything is bliss. During those 6 hours, I'm completely free of everything that haunts me: the burnt bridges, the wasted opportunities, the people I offended and scared away, all the times I screwed up. I wish there was some way to do it during the week as well, but I have to work.