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Anonymous
02/08/11(Tue)01:00
No. 3010
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When I was 7 to 8 years old I had extreme phobia. I was terrified of the dark and scary films scared the shit out of me. I literally couldn't pee, take a shower or brush my teeth without constantly looking behind me to see if there were devils creeping up on me. Why do I always have these kinds of problems persist for years? My parents never help me at all. Anyway..
Now I'm scared of nothing, except for two irrational phobias:
1. 'Black title screens with a voice over it', sort of like the type warning a tv viewer about mature content, there will be a black screen with text on it and a serious voice reading whats on the screen. My heart suddenly jumps, my eyes widen and I have to mentally tell myself not to run out of the room. I think this may be connected to a frightening event Ive long forgotten, which has permanently planted a tumour into my subconscious. This fear is geting better over time.
2. Gristle: as I child I was once eagerly looking forward to eating fried rice with pork pieces in them. When my mum finished making, I put a scoop in my mouth and bit down.. On a piece of gristle. CRUNCH. Ever since that event I dry-heave whenever I bite down on some gristle, and having to eat fat and sinew is an uphill battle of trying not to puke. The reason why Im so skinny is because I avoid meat, because I hate sinew. Well, besides my depression hampering my appetite that is. Anyway, like the other irrational phobia, its getting better over time, and now I can quietly spit the piece of sinew onto a tissue and block my mind from concentrating on the sinew enough to keep eating. As for the not eating enough problem, Ive thought of a solution. Eggs are protein, but don't have sinew don't they?