Hey, I'm already kind of pathetic, so why not? Even if it's a load of crap, the meditation alone might give me some inner peace, and that would be nice.
I wish I could have your attitude. Sometimes I do feel this way, but my mood swings pretty violently over the course of a few days and I'll go straight from that devil-may-care fuck everyone mindset to feeling like a piece of shit. I wouldn't want to be normal, though, even if I could. The biggest problem I have is dealing with the family pressure; they don't really know what I'm like and it's getting harder to cover for myself. Again, you might say "fuck what they think", and that might work for you, but it's not that simple for me.
Anyway, I didn't make this thread to bitch so much, more to share ideas.