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No. 5333
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Oh, do not bandy about with excuses and such.
I'm not particularly sure about the rest of you, but whenever I get into my cold and empty bed more or less every single night, I feel as lonely as a man could, for that instant. I do have friends, both across the world and within a short distance, but romantically I am as alone as one could be. My love is a nice thing and it by all means helps me, but it burns like the hottest of pokers when I feel I could much be doing with some very close company and I easily know exactly which exact company it is I long for.
I can understand exactly why people assume us to be 'forever alone'. If we stick to what we are currently, what we say to them, we will remain forever romantically alone in body, and spirit. Whatever 'other' we have is nothing but a creation of ourselves, in that way of thinking.
Perhaps your thoughts of your loved one, your fantasies, your dreams, if blessed enough to dream of your loved one without your own interference, can keep you from that feeling of loneliness. In that matter, you aren't a lonely nerd, merely a nerd who is alone. I'm not quite entirely sated by my fantasies, I'm too defensive of my own reliance to fantasise too much, after all I'm nothing but her strong admirer, one might say, and my subconscious mind does not wish to grant me the sweet dreams I so desire, perhaps for that reason, so I still itch with that loneliness when my mind wanders in that direction. The longing for me seems it shall feel like an eternal one, but I love nonetheless, and wouldn't trade that love for the world.
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