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No. 3137
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No I am too shy, manipulatable and afraid to ever approach a 3D no matter what her personality would be.
Regardless, she would take advantage of me, I would say something wrong, or she would have some sort of problem with me, overreact, and hate me for it. Hearts broken. Enemies made. She'd then try to find every person I associated with (a small number mind you) and spread awful, awful untrue information about me until I was thought of as a pervert and a dead-ender, making irreparable damage to my social life, social skills, and driving me into my room, only associating with three people outside my family, never looking for a job for fear of rejection, muckrakers, and asshole bosses and managers and being forced to work with others who look or act like her putting me into a hyperventalating PTSD attack like what happens whenever I smell her perfume at the store or pass a girl looking like her and making me burn with pure white hot rage to the point where I just want to stab some tires and making me wonder why I even gave that opportunity a chance, as I fall apart and cry in the corner of the mall parking garage hugging my iPod lockscreen, the most understanding figure in my life at the moment, and blacking out for twenty minutes of pure ecstasy, existing devoid of the outside influences and distractions, a live lived not where my body lies, at the bottom of a parking garage stair bank, but in a place better than on this earth. Without pain, without that past in my memory faltering, but in that place where I can exist with acceptance.
Don't ever give in to your urges, this is the best advice I can give with what I have endured. Nothing of that is worth it. Don't lose your love for her. Don't accept the fascist norms of femininity and womens' iron control by means of sexual deprivation. She is strongly in your heart, and this love you feel is as pure as love has ever been. [spoiler]Remember: Curiosity only made the cat an emotional wreck who had the most gruesome murderous thoughts upon smelling a mall chain store's perfume and feeling worthless to himself.[/spoiler]
My preference in love is not in this world. I like living, and eating, and pursuing hobbies here, even making a couple good friends, but not love. It's not the 3D's fault here (well, except one), it's not a fault of anyone or anything. It's just preference, so it should be respected.
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