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No. 1689
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You know? I don't personally share that opinion of your feelings towards your waifu being enough. I mean: quite probably anyone can fall in love with and/or utterly admire someone and it's kind of authomatic (and pulling) actually, so just to experience that and take it as an action has no value for me. If I think I've found something really valuable, the least I try to do is to commemorate it somehow: to do some justice, to the luck of such a gift of an encounter given to a dipshit like me.
So I pretty much wear myself out, in order to be somehow worthy of calling mai waifu as such. I draw her my best, write to and about her, spend an enormous deal of time trying to understand her better, putting her into different discourses and contexts, trying to learn from her, to apply that knowledge to myself and to show people around (here) the result so they can realize how wonderful she is...
The thing is, of course, despite all my efforts, I'm simply not and not likely going to ever be worthy of even celebrate her. I draw like shit; I write even worst and I suck pathetically at reasoning; I'm a fucking old, ugly, unemployed and irresponsable babbling lazy motherfucker, who should be (tourtured and then) shot. But I don't give up on this; I keep on trying my best, surrounded by guilt and failure, simply because this what I want to do; because devoting myself to her makes me as happy as I can be, living the life I live.
So try your best...
and good luck.
We're all probably somehow stuck in here, but... who cares?
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