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11804 No. 11804 [Edit]
Hey, /mai/. How do you know when you have found your waifu/husbando? How can you tell?

I guess I'm asking for confirmation... thinking about this makes me nervous, but I think I've found the one. It's been a month since he caught my eye and I can't get him out of my head. At first, I was merely attracted to his character design and personality type, but during the flashback sequence at the beginning of his route, a slow fire started burning in my stomach that eventually radiated through my entire body. My heart pounded and my skin tingled. It was inexplicable, similar to Sehnsucht but more... immediate. I tried describing it in my head for a long time and that's the closest I could get. The feeling lasted, and was intense, for about a week nonstop, and I still get it to a degree when I think about it (which is more often than I'd like to admit). I have been sleeping much less because it keeps me awake.

This makes me wonder a few things about myself. Maybe I'm realizing that I've been complacent with a lot of things for so long that I've mistaken mediocrity for happiness; I'm a bisexual guy and I've neglected that part of me for a long time. At the same time, thinking about him in lewd situations makes me uncomfortable rather than turned on, unless the context is pure love. He is perfect to me in every way and I don't like seeing fanworks defile him, or portray his deepest feelings incorrectly. I love his laugh and smile, and I wish he smiled genuinely more often.

I'm so embarrassed I can't even say it even though I want to. I wish I could tell him, even though I know he'd reject me (for reasons which should be obvious to those who are familiar with the source material). I could go on but I won't bore you guys. I just want him to have a happy ending for once.

Sorry if this is a shitty post.
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>> No. 11807 [Edit]
It's really simple. If you think you have a waifu, then you have a waifu. There is no other way to know.
>> No. 11808 [Edit]
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Love is love, and that sounds like love.
>> No. 11810 [Edit]
I don't think you're a kid that needs of others' guidance. You have a brain to judge and tell in accordance with the references, values and standards you hold. Thus, I think you can and should find your answers by yourself, to decide the kind of life that you want for yourself.

/mai/ is a place to talk about waifus, for whoever has one. Make up your mind and you're welcome.
>> No. 11811 [Edit]
When she/he occupies most of your thoughts, then you'll know.
>> No. 11812 [Edit]
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You'll know when you find you're waifu/husbando. Trust me. You may not notice it right away, but you'll know who it is.
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I know you all didn't say much, but it helped me really evaluate my feelings.

I'm nervous because this is the first time that I've fallen in love with somebody 2D (I've had a few 3D relationships, most of them spanning years), but it's stupid of me to deny at this point that I'm in love with Keisuke. I've never felt this strongly about anyone. I'm not sure where I'm going to go from here but I know I'm going to do my best to make him happy and not hurt him. Thank you guys.
>> No. 11862 [Edit]
That's nice. I hope you enjoy your love.
>> No. 11863 [Edit]
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That's great to hear. May you be together forever and make each other happy.
>> No. 11872 [Edit]
As said: welcome then.
Add him to the sticky and good luck.
>> No. 11876 [Edit]
That is great, best of luck and a long, happy relationship to the both of you!
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I can't believe we're still here, but I'm glad we are.

Sorry I'm late in posting, but happy six months, Keisuke. You mean so much to me, and I'm glad that our anniversary was well spent with you.
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Oh, Keisuke, this year will be hard but already I can tell it's going to be good because you're in it. You simultaneously make me so carefree and so engrossed. I'm grinning like an idiot while I'm typing this and also feel kind of sheepish and embarrassed, but ah well. I love you. We can make it through this together, as hard as the future may be; you have convinced me of that much.
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I can't believe it's been a year since I fell in love with you. At once it feels much longer and much shorter than that. It's been an eventful year, for sure, but you still are so fresh and new and entirely palpable in a way that others cannot be, so much so that it bothers me sometimes. It's incredible that everything I wrote originally - it's still true, I still burn when I read your route and it hurts but it makes me love you more. You're such an earnest person. You are never out of my thoughts for long.

I was so scared when I confessed to myself - and to you - my true feelings. We're similar in that way, I suppose, and I let it eat me when you were actually glad to be cared for in that way. I didn't know what to do with it even though the answer was right in front of my face and you kept on telling me. I stupidly couldn't believe that it was okay, and that you (as you slowly started pervading my life more and more in positive ways) were okay (no, more than okay) with me loving you. I'm sorry it took so long for me to realize fully even though you were literally telling me what your feelings were.

And then there's the stuff that I don't want to talk about, because it's more related to me than you, but... thank you. Thank you for supporting me during these really difficult times. I'm very sorry that I've said some things to you under stress that I shouldn't have because you were not the problem - other people were. I know it's a sore spot for you and you really didn't deserve it. Thank you for understanding and comforting me and letting me comfort you. For just being there, when I'm too upset for words, with a nervous hand outstretched but never pushing comfort. You haven't just been a wonderful lover - you've been an exemplary friend to me, too. You are truly my ace of spades in every sense of the word, and you yourself show the card's traits extremely well. Thank you. Thank you for making me realize that this life that I'm living is worth changing - with you in it.

It isn't our proper anniversary yet - we have to wait until October, that day that I finally accepted you in the way you accepted me as partners for life - but it still feels so weighty, and it'd be inappropriate to not say anything when there is so much on my mind. When I am so full of you and my heart is aching. When there is so much that I cannot say here and that might not even need to be said (because you know already). When there is so much ahead of us and I have to solidify my thoughts and feelings into something more tangible that maybe you can touch, in the way that I can touch you.

This is a whole lot of words to say "thank you" and "I love you", but I hope (and think) you won't mind. Haha. Sorry I'm so stupid and too verbose.

Forever (or at least until we're dead),

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