Wow, it's been a long journey for the both of us. Looking back, I realize I've been in love with her for about two years now, although it took me until quite recently to actually understand and to come to terms with that fact.
At the beginning, I dismissed her as "another annoying loli as usual". Getting to know the series and the background however, she slowly grew on me. However, I didn't think too much of it, even when I got furious that my friend would like her and confronted him about it. It felt odd that I would feel that strongly about a girl from a video game, but the idea that I actually loved her never crossed my mind. But then, during Christmas break, my best friend asked me why exactly I liked her so much. I really didn't know at first, but as I talked to him, the reason became more and more clear. it hit me that I felt a certain way about her that I never did for anyone else. I finally accepted that I was in love with her.
The past 3 months were a pretty rough ride. I was full of doubts and worries, especially the fact she would never be with me no matter what I did. It was something I constantly worried about, that this relationship was something that would never work out.
Exactly a week ago, my best friend asked me to translate a hentai doujin for him. It's a weird request, but considering how he had done so much for me, it was something I felt I could do for him. Well... I couldn't help but get aroused reading the doujinshi, and I seriously contemplated fapping to it. Then it hit me that that thought... was a betrayal of my waifu. I took it really hard that I actually considered fapping to an another girl. To me, it felt like I was thinking of cheating on her. That is when I realized just how much she means to me, that she is the girl I want to be with forever. It feels like I'm at the conclusion of my relationship with her, I'm free of any doubts and worries I had before. Now I can say without hesitation that we will love each other until the very end.